I took a step
Over the edge
To love you
Was my pledge
To care for you
For countless days
To never let go
Holding onto you always

You came crashing like a wave
Now I am caught in the middle
I don't know if I should be glad
Because these feelings could be fatal
It gives me wonder at the start
Sooner or later it will be hard
Whenever I feel that we are apart
I would have this ache in my heart
Then my mind would be so negative
I would always think that you'll leave
Like a wave you'd pull me to the sea
Because it could happen in seconds
And if I'm not careful I'd be dragged in
Into the depths of my own depression

We could have known
Right from the start
We were never alone
Except for our hearts
It feels like it's empty
Making us feel lonely
Though in great company
We still feel upset
I often wonder why
Why do we feel lonely?

You could have seen it differently
Yes it is comfort that you seek
Once you're done you chose to leave
But as your broken heart mended
You choose to break another
And those pieces you stole
Are the ones they wanted

Was falling for you a curse?
Because it does really hurt
But the ache could never compare
To the joy in my my heart
When you start talking to me
All over again
I would rather break into pieces
And having it to be put back together
By the hands of its destroyer
All over again

I wished all the clocks have stopped
So I could enjoy my youth
With no burden or responsibilities
For me to think my actions through
Time never seems to wait
I felt the years have just gone by
I felt my body slowly getting weaker
In a blink of an eye
Soon my skin would be wrinkled
And my hair would turn white
Soon life will leave this body
And all it would be is just a memory

I have seen that look once
In the back of my memory
It did caused a little harm
A pain which burns in me
A feeling which is regret
Though I seek no help
These feeling consumes me
I bear all of them silently
I tried to put on a smile
But it gets harder each time
How could you continue a lie
When all you want to do is cry?
How could you stay strong?
When you are actually weak?
I thought you were different
I believed in what you've said
I thought you actually loved me
I thought you actually cared
I guess you never really did
Though it kills me to admit
You were my greatest regret

Twas an adventure at young
You had different types of love
Though they never did you wrong
Instead each of it taught you a lesson
One taught you to sacrifice time
To comfort a heart that is aching
One taught you to be humble
When you achieved something
One taught you to always be kind
Learn to love and be more caring
You started to explore yourself
Finding true meaning of love
Though love at first is reckless
No feeling ever came close
It is still in your heart as the greatest
For there is nothing that I wouldn't do
For a taste of love again in my youth

I'm scared for the future
It is always uncertain
Those goals you plan to achieve
Those dreams you try to capture
It might feel so close
Only to realize that it is so far
Only to know there are miles to go
It might feel so right
But in the end you were wrong
But in the end all hope is gone

I have written all I could
I have express all my emotions
About love that was forsaken

Have you ever felt lonely?
Even in the company of others?
It eats you up deep inside
No matter how hard you try
It keeps coming back to haunt you
Especially in the middle of the night
You try to find comfort
But never found such solitude
And it still causes you discomfort
To think that you are lonely
Although you were never alone
Though it feels like you are missing something?
I'm still confused with this feeling

My soul was tainted
By a touch of your hands
For you I buried hatred
As deep as I can
Even if it hurts me
I still kept it inside
It made me go crazy
That I cannot lie
I thought you were my forever after
The one I could waste my years with
But alas I was just your part time lover
And I had to watch you leave

This is what I have been waiting for
To caress those sweet lips
As your clothes slowly falls on the floor
And my arms are around your hips
As both our bodies falls onto your bed
As our body temperature rises
I have never felt more alive
You have made me a true believer
As I worship every part of your body
The morning comes through the window
The rays hits our face on the bed we lay
The moment I looked into your eyes
I knew this is what I want everyday

These are the things I like about you
Your touch that fix all the broken pieces
Your lips which blows all of your kisses
Your eyes when they are parallel to mine
Your deep conversations that kills time
Your laughter that cures my pain
Your smile which gives me hope again
I finally found somewhere I belong
In your arms I have found my home

Make it short and simple
I could hear it in my mind
Of written essays and poetry
My soul started to bind
A man who spoke Irish
Who taught me during his time
Of how beautiful a language
That took me by surprise
Although he is of age
He has never failed to teach
He now lives forever
In the mind of his pupils
He gave something for us to keep
Write to express who you truly are*
And never give in to defeat

Age is just a number
That's what they say
It'll catch up day by day
So you have to be clever
Cherish those little moments
Appreciate all of the love
Never take it for granted
Because in a blink of an eye
Everything will pass you by

I am suppose to be happy
But in the middle of the night
I can't remember the tears
How much I've cried
Sometimes I do feel like leaving
This vessel which I call my body
Let my soul be free from its bonds
To leave this  world where I don't belong

If you look at the stars
How beautiful they are
That is how you are to me
You are the star that is bright
In the dark you gave me light
When I am ever so lonely
I've been talking to the moon
While I'm searching for you
In between all the clouds
It felt forever the night
When you were not in my sight
My head was filled with doubt
But the clouds slowly drift by
Erasing all of my doubts and fears
You were there so bright and clear
Now I have found you
All my wishes have come true
For all I want in life was you

It is funny how you said it
That you were once complicated
I guess your words were true
Not the part 'I like you'
The part where you're a nightmare
And how many hearts you tear
Though you told me you have changed
All I see is you remained the same
When the world was against you
I stood by you to lift you up
Guess I was the fool to believed you
That you cared for me too
You left me when you are happy
You could not care less about me
But when you hit rock bottom
In my grace is where you come
You told me how much you miss me
Pulling me back to your gravity
The moment I thought that I was free

Never had I fallen this hard
I've never experience pain this much
I've never been consumed by rage
Until I question my own faith
I only knew now life's unfair
All I had was pain and despair
Though death seems like an option
I tried my best to control my emotions
Sometimes it just comes tumbling out
Those things I kept bottled inside
Those secrets that I shut tight
Sometimes rage gets the best of me
That I hurt the people around me

I knew falling in love with you
Will only be another mistake
It is something stupid to do
A stupid decision that I made
Falling for you was easy
It was never that hard
You took something from me
You came in and took my heart
I thought my heart was shackled
But it all broke when you came in
Now I follow you like a shadow
Wandering with you in the night
But you won't notice me
Because you are happy
With somebody else

Gazing upon her eyes
I saw a window to a beautiful soul
The one which warms you when days are cold
The one who cares for you until your old
The one which gives you strength when it's gone
The one that will not let you suffer all alone
Gazing upon her eyes
I saw pain which she holds dearly inside
She once had someone special at her side
She fell for his charm and box full of lies
She was broken and her soul slowly died

I am a coward
I'm scared that I don't fit in the crowd
I'm afraid of giving my opinions out loud
I'm scared of the dark when the light goes out
I'm afraid of ghost that come out of the dark
I'm scared to take opportunities in font of me
I'm afraid of taking risk even if it's rewarding
I'm scared of falling in love with someone
I'm afraid of how it could destroy my soul inside
I fear that one day if I said "I love you"
Would be the very day that *I lose you

The sweetest lie I told myself
The lie was sweet as honey
I told myself I wasn't in love
Although I am going crazy
You are always in my mind
You are there all the time
Although I'm afraid to admit
I can't sleep nor could I eat
I only think about you
That is all I could do
My greatest fear that I know
Is that I'm afraid to be alone
But the worst thing than being alone
Is watching you leave outside my door
With somebody by your side
The moment when you left mine

With every step that I took
I did everything I could
It is not easy as it looks
Just to end my solitude
Then I have come to realize
This prison before my eyes
Was built by my own emotions
When you walked out from my life

The words echoed inside my mind
The ghost I never meant to conjure
Has appeared right before my eyes
Left me shaken my bones in fear
Even if I tried praying for it to leave
My heart never seem to feel the same
This ghost used to be every part of me
A ghost I knew who once had a name
Though I keep praying for it to leave
But in my heart the ghost choose to stay

A love that I once tried to keep
Was stolen from me during my sleep
I tried to wake up from my slumber
Through the cold month of December
Somebody took away my treasure
Something beautiful beyond measure
Something that people called love
The love that was truly divine
That I actually thought it was mine

The world is a war zone
I'm trying to survive it
In this world I am alone
Carrying only a shield
Trying to protect myself
I may dodge a bullet or two
Though the bullet that killed me
Was the one that was shot by you
I thought we both had it all
No secrets in between
I thought that you were my ally
You turned out to be my enemy
The war zone that is never ending
Has taught me never to trust
Anyone except yourself
Cause in the war we are fighting
There is always betrayal circling
Circling around waiting to strike
When it has the opportunity

A man got tired walking in the night
He tried to find shelter and rest
He found a house above the hill
He came up to the front door
The night was quiet and still
Nothing much just a gust of wind
He knocked and the door slightly open
He came in and saw no one
The silence echoes in the chambers
The house fill with dust and cobwebs
Bugs and spiders they all scatter
In the halls and empty rooms
The portraits hang on the walls
The pictures gave eerie looks
He then heard a noise downstairs
He went down inside one of the chambers
It was filled with a piano and a few chairs
Suddenly the piano started to play a song
All the chairs started to move along
The man watch in much despair
He was afraid and have nothing to say
He took off out of the house right away

You were in my description
My whole life describes of you
I loved you with no hesitation
A love I thought that was true
A love with mutual emotions
A feeling between me and you
I committed to a full devotion
Something that I was glad to do
Slowly you started to had doubts
You started to question about us
The arguments start to go loud
We started to lose all our trust
Our love started to drift away
You took the train and left me
The only thing I could do is stay
Stay and wait by the old oak tree
Behind the old wooden house
The place where we first met
You with your pretty blouse
Me with my old worn hat
We will talk and laugh all day
Listening to every conversation
Even if there's nothing to say
Fill our hearts with tons of emotions
Slowly we will fall in love again
Hoping this time it will last until the end

Everyday the spaces seem to gap
A space that now is already a hole
All of my emotions are still trap
Trap in the prison within my soul
I thought of it with my mind set
Set to leave and to forget it all
The only thing about it that I hate
Pretend that I am still standing tall