neither it’s lit nor it’s
worth to say
that something we’d
have to pay.
the most expensive in the world,
yet upto, no more hope we’d gain.



like a spider searching
their prey on mesh,
we' been searching
beauty on flesh.
why make presumption on
someone's characters,
when phrases complie to faith.
not every men knows
mirror on the witnesses,
makes pretend to fall.
accept it things we're looking for
is "VIRTUAL"

by:- pawanTube

I questions myself do I still really love you
Or it's just my attraction on you,
Or it's just my addiction of you,
Or it's just my aesthetically love on you.
That overflown through out my heart
Maybe it's kinda hard to ask himself
When everything's being ok
but next we'd fallen apart
I think I'm fool all around
But don't you think, I won't abound
I'm ****** up with my own life...

I heard that you're busy with someone.
I saw you in another's root
I saw you're in another arm's
Long rides on bike.
This things you did to hide the truth
crews on you, I heard of you
Twice I'd forgotten cuz I believed on you
But again you did the same.
This things makes me sense of looser,
What I say next?
cuz you don't have a time
To understand my feelings
How far i believed on you
How far I loved you...  
Love makes us on Expectations
You'll do something for me
Of what i need.
aren't you have a time
To rang my phone...
But you aren't?
I do all the things for you,
But did you ever thought for me
Yet, This **** hasn't flies to you...

To whom may I believe ?
Should I wait up for your next call ?
I can't escape my feelings it's true!
there's you right next to me...
Cuz I wanna be with you
I don't wanna remembering of you
But this **** feelings supposed me to do.
It's has been well said
In such a cruel world,
there's no one to believe on them too.
You put a smile on my anger
You're looking up for me I'll  back
I'm ashamed of being sorry everytime
I'm tired of looking myself on it.
I left you to your own way
I don't face it until it's overwhelming response
Go get your life,you're free of cage
-SORRY-
By:-pawantube
!! 20-09-2019 !!

The 5 letter of word "SORRY"
It's very easy to say...
But instead of it
does it ease the pain?
And to this it's feels for Vain
Nothing more that something I'd Gain
In which I never believed to see rain
Your seemed so long,
but you're not a part of mine
I cried myself,
do someone who really cares about
Looking for dirt on himself to outshine...

Do the 5 letter of word "SORRY"
does it Displace the pain?
For any cause Sorry-sorry...
Why sorry?
Do you ever tried to be in my place
Probably, it's ****...
Of my say...
It's worth to scold and explain
Cause you won't understand
You keeps my pathetic feelings as a joke
Or Pheraps you like mine anger...
When you'll get free of your busy life
Think over...

What should i say maa ?
How could i say thanks maa !
My thanks wouldn't seems  enough,
To describe you.....
Things you did for us,
Wouldn't i pay back, rest of my life.
The one who hold me with care
Whatever the pain is,
She knows the cure.
Your presence in my life
Like a treasure full of secure.
The simplicity to you.
No whisper toword our cause.
You look at us,
Before you see yours.
Proudly sacrifising the whole,
To see us hearty soul.
And goodness is that
You ment to my life, and
Forever i'm your..

My Girl loves me despite
What i'm saying?
I'm not too high to realize
What i'm longing.
Too much difference between me and you
I need to take off my wings
I need to pull off my fascinations
I'm insane and my mind losted !
I'm stained around this pain
It's ain't enough.....

Through your sweet smile and round face
Where i'm belonging
I ain't feel alive without my phone ringing
selfish too much 'bout you
Despair but much i needed you
So you can love me much as i can?

To my all questions i ain't go shut up.
So why don't you admit it.
If you did with your choice.
I'm asking !
How far you've given me a space
Do i exist to your life
Do you wishing me right next?
Do you suppose me to kiss?
tight.
Do you suppose me to hug?
Holding me up for a while,
Effortlessly, you'd says  don't know!
Had you seen yourself at my place
Although never i'll meant you to feel hurt.
That's all i got instead,
In the name of LOVE.
19/07/19

Sometimes tick of the clock makes me cry
Whenever I link my past through the time
I feel so alive, when I woke up on my bed
Even if theirs crowd I found you on first screen
Seems you're close to my heart
but you're far apart...


It's just massively lying to my head
Never have the happiness of what I have
Somehow it's just precising our time...
I know you can't come around
I just need A liitle time
To change the past of surround...

hope that i could explain
what i found
......ur voice,
...... ur eyes,
and the simplicity
it all just dig mah heart
You would never love yourself a half as much as I

your eyes when i looked into them,
sinking on the depth
your name,when its been called out
the smile.....ooh plz would u again


when you appeared by my side
my heart got insane....like  a ferrari

your Picture in my mind...continue readin'
always be thinkin' of you
Every single day I missed you,
missed you when I can't sleep
missed you when i can't eat
missed you in mah front seat
hoping, you are seating beside by me


you are  the only one
that i'm in.........with
and You ought to know by now how much I love you
My heart made up the way that how I feel
Growing stronger day by day
I can't stop this
I.m insane n i lost mah mind


you're my sun,you're my moon,you're my star
you're the first'you are the last.
andy my everything.
you're my reality not a expectation.


I've spent couple of weeks
to  come closer
On a search to find you
way to communicate you
but no whispers...like a silent planet
Yet my heart is hoping for you

I've crossed the lines of linear,
You too turned a side as angular.
Still I'm  wishing you're mine,
It's bigger than I need to be.
But There's nothing gonna hold us
back on a past time,
A tik of clock shows our messed time.

Probably it's ****...
to be thinking about of futures line
Too much bad to say goodbye...
If you like to leave me before I need
Parting of heart would be difficult
longing of you makes me desperate
I'll cry myself but i won't anxious you,
Cause I'm gonna love
despair of mine...
19-09-2019

Wish I could  say in flow
Through this wind,
Wish I could scold you in rush
Through this mind.
But every time seems it absurd
And beyond to your brain.

Worse to worst,
Each breath having pain
I felt broken instead this hurtness
Mischiev on us, neither you nor me
Only one thing unexpectable
It lies to my hearty-soul
You be cruel to me.
You don't feel to my love
You too would have pain
And curious next to me
Surely you gonna
Deeply regret it
Once if i let go of you
You will regret...

Whatever it takes,
I don't wanna be a fake
whoever dare's to tell me no!
I just mean for what I've to lost.
though,  somehow it couldn't give satisfaction most
you'd left me with a broken heart.
Still wishing you,
but cause unknown...

If I ain't enough of
If I ain't worthy of
I do deserve betray
for things mess up to.
cuz it's all about karma
eventually in end,
I’ll forget all somehow.
But mirror of your praise
torn apart long...

WHEN WILL U COME
where u r.....
where u r....
waiting here only for u
searching u all over.. day n night
tell me
when will u come....
when will u come....

Summer nights, bright lights
And the shootin' stars,
they all break's my heart
every single day i think about u
tell me
when will u come....
when will u come....

my heart is hoping that
u wil come
when that days gonna' come...
tell me
when will u come...
when will u come...

calling you all day,but u'r not picking'up
messaging u all day,not even replyied me yet
It's breaking me,
i'm loosing my hope.....
tell me
when will u come....
when will u come....

show me were u are,
u'r shadow's still close
i'm still in love with u
i wanna be with u
tell me
when will u come.....
when will u come.....

Oh, my love how can i tell
How I miss you every single day
When I see ur image's reflection
only thing that i wish u
when will u come....
when will u come...

i need ur love
i feel so  high about u
i'm dreaming u, got me!
i wish it will be true
tell me
when will u come.....
when will u come.....

I take a deep breath
whenever a strange girl passes by me
i know you are not there
but i'm still in hope
tell me
when will u come....
when will u come....

Watch my eyes they are filled with love
Tell me do you feel the same
will u Hold me in your arms
tell me
when will u come...
when will u come...

Baby, let me be your man
So I can love you
And if you let me be your man
Then I'll take care of you,
For the rest of my life, for the rest of yours
For the rest of ours'
tell me
when will u come....
when will u come....

I wanna touch you baby
And I wanna feel you too
I wanna see the sunrise
On your sins just me and you
tell me
when will u come....
when will u come....

n you'll never be alone
I'll hold you when things go wrong
Baby, I am right here.....
ya !!!
I'll be with you from dusk till dawn
i'll hold u when things go wrong
tell me
when will u come....
when will u come....

inside a mesh of flesh
and bone is an underlying in
desperate tone
to the world of real authentic....
the iPhone likes
preventing
this place of role play'
'I think we like pretending
as if our fun in never ending.
No one speaks,
just message sending.
It's a silent planet
- wait, it's pending....
baby tell me
when will u come....
when will u come....

SHE belongs to my dreams.
like SHE’s only my last string
hanging to the endless screen
to the room of “love scenes”
yet! it’s not clean...

for love inside our mess
which was not all a hate
I’m not a worse,
just fool of my hope.
the way the
circumstances betrayed
do we need to
pretend our spare?

HATE which I neither did
LOVE which i always did
though most time happened less.
but the the two are always
tied with knots...

how could you let me down
easily,
where’s all the promises
that we made early.
oh sh*t! i got this
moment right.
yet dare to
spell something.
unless my poetic
mind stops.
perhaps DAY is near
i’ll went out soon.
this tied knots brokes out
with the piontless cause.
01.07.2019

There's nothing left to heal
though most of pathetic anixety feel
no longer love would be rotten
quite after you betray.
all i do is screm to myself
Everything, Doing everything I can,
It's all about part of my pride...
but, i hate to say I'm proud
still i say, do you hear my echo aloud...

Which type of mesh is it?
too much lye between in pain,
nobody beware it's vain.
for these pleasure SCARS,  
i never ment to spites...
i went out of my insane
heart felts torn apart
too much bad at goodbye...

Need to take off "circumstances"
wishing for time machine
to change the past of we
yet it hasn't built...
no magician can do or so
do i shut up? god !
-clean up all the mess
"Lit, the flower
Dare to expell the fake,
SHE'LL back with the asthethic face"

is this what  feels good,
though i don't feel through
i know i'll be fine without you…
without messages and takls
but despite we rushed up
in the millons of thought
searching where place to go.

i can't handle my emotions and tears
but i'll ready to withstand all missery,
and fear...


knew,
it wasn't enough for you
can't even we  speak through
you might looks it  absurd....
you ends up all.....
but, i don't

we nothing left else,
only barely hanging in the memories of......
cause we left there. in the same
we know that it can't  turn backs
i wish that , i can,
and  change things
and RE-START the life once again......

the word realize will be the death of mine
instead to get it over, i'll quit to outshine
but if i'll make you to feel realized,
then sure it'll make me to feel peralized
remenising the word from you
feeling the world against you

praying to drawn myself
finding some happiness over and over
once my thoughts, turned into destiny
i went too far, before you took it....

we are just  an unheard story
in which there's no breath
always it goes one sided
feelings itself grows from the bottom
reaches so far  but can't even touches the single hope
forever believing that she's always good enough
despite up until that point, no room to hold up mine emmotions
but now i'm asking do you feel the feelings of mine
i've never had asked you for anything....
but here i'm  asking time for a little while
maybe this little will be the more, to be happy so,
but  what cause to aniexety, when we both do trust
then you only that  you don't believed me yet upto.....
defy my happiness, with excuses a lot....
so it is useless to do expectation

without reason...
we can't love,
without known..
we can't love,
without medium..
we can't love,

we don't even try,
we don't even trust,
we don't believe,
we tell it absurd....

but when
, closing an eyes,
dreams start talking,
nerves starts reading a heart
the picture of our scene
moving upright to paradise
liting up all the light
dancing on the sky
only we'were in the sky
all four direction so new,
peace by a side

opening an eyes
searching you by my side
movement of sadness
in  a bit second. it mad me upset
we dont know where we relate....
but where we came up  is same
dusk and dawn passed by
just in your memories......
in the shut of an eyes


feeeeeeel my love.................
if you try

CREATURE
every creature in the whole  world
like's  the real fact
that the world is so authentic
the pathetic cries
without the meaning less cause
they sipped up our feelings without a stroke
to see us a  broke
things we loved the most
too it's heart the most

Feeling alive
Switching camera to see her live
Starting'em in a portrait view
Like we got bounty in those loving eyes instead.
Desperate, but eager to start conversations.
Curiosity to obsession
Here curiosity never ends
And obsession never get lost..
--By:-pawantube--
23/04/2019

Be my soul.
cause you're meant to my life
perhaps it's  lord that had written this fate for us in life
ain't no longer love be rotten tonight
we feel fresh in love at first sight,
But sure we gonna feel broked too after last fight
whoever has   seen  love yet upto
that's only one big ,we feel blossom on love.
Invisible love, blurred thoughts
and blunt sight on eyed......
makes furious to feel abound in love.
what does the soulmate means
neither it's spirtual nor it's divine
it just  believing  faith on trust