Sometimes, love
can hurt you
like a sunburn
in Sahara.

You're ev'ry sound I long to hear
Yet the ache I feel in each tear;
You're just a dream, my hands can't reach
For with these three words I can't say.

I lied each time they teased me up,
I hid my steps and held my back;
It's hard for me to meet both ends,
For with these three words I can't lend.

You're the reason I breathe at all,
Even if it's up against the wall,
Yet your love is couldn't be mine
For with these three words I've declined.

But if one day you'll notice me,
Hoping you'll feel the same way too;
For with these three words I can't find,
Three words I'm pretending to you...
     (And these are "I-LOVE-YOU"...)

the leaf
makes
the rose
beautiful
and not
the flower

Even if this silhouette love
     would cry upon my grave,
Even if the stars collide
     and darken the eve,
Even if shallow rivers dry;
     tears deprive my plea,
There would still be you and me.

Cherish the scar
that once puzzled
you to believe.

Cherish the scar
that once vexed
you to forgive.

Cherish the scar
that once broke
your heart.

Cherish the scar
that once ripped
you apart.

Cherish the scar
that once was
your haven.

Cherish the scar
for you to take
the risk again.

breathe in,
                                    breathe out...

breathe in,
                             breathe out...

breathe...
      
                     breathe...

So far
we are
so close...


...so close
yet still
so far.

If you say, "one word
is enough for a wise man",
then I will tell you
I'm a fool one,
until you say,
you love me too.

Those people
who hide their feelings
usually cares the most.

A man starts to change when he starts to fall in love..












..and when he gets broken too.

my eyes betrayed
me again,
unshed tears
engraved
on my face
with pain
and longing,
i've missed you

A thousand feelings
but there is only one
unique feeling for you,
like the flowers
blossom after
a cold rainy night,
like the perfect
scenery of the moon
waning the tides.

my heart was embezzled
by these emotions,
I became dumb,
couldn't tell people
what's wrong

my eyes are parched,
no tears at all;
I'm incarcerated,
stuck in this puzzle
I can't solve

I feel loved and unloved
every single day,
I just want to see the world
without heart breaks

my treasure, someday,
might vanished,
throwned in the depth
of the ocean,
where no map
can find it

I'm helpless, with some
of these useless emotions,
I feel loved and unloved
every single day

were you in love
with the feeling,
or with the person
you were trying
to become

you were disappointed
a hundred times,
unconsciously
hurting her

maybe you were just
overshadowed
by your expectations,
turned you
into holding on
to a ghost

you can't always stay
on
𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘯𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦
𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦.

you must also savvy
how
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘯
𝘵𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦.

You might think
falling in love
is a scary experience–

that will make you
vulnerable
to show your feelings
and will only leave you
hurting.

Love is worth
the risk–
do not be afraid
to love someone
who makes you
happy and vulnerable.

Standing
on this bridge,
it reminds of you,
of the things
we used to talk about,
and only I could hear
is the sound
of your voice.

It seems odd
it is so quite now,
only I could hear
is the lonely waters
of the river,
keep flowing
until the end,
never knew
they will be lost
in the ocean,
like I lost you.

You can never be mine,
you are just a memory
of once yesterday.
Created by love,
destroyed by love.
I accept it.
Even in the hardest times,
but I have to let you go,
and let you see the world
without me,
and let me find
the missing piece of this heart,
that I thought
I already found in you.

Words are trapped
in the unfathomable
depth of this mind.

Solitude then came
along this pale
moonlit night.

Ink of this pen
could no longer
unfold its mysteries.

Hope to find peace
on the funeral
of my poetry.

Who would have thought
we will meet in the horizon
of apocalyptic sunsets
painted in the sky?

Who would have thought
we will find each other's path
in the midst of the woods
of lonely eyes?

Who would have thought
our dream of once happiness
will be of walking together
holding hands?

Who would have thought
of this love so beautiful
could drown the pain
into the deepest ocean?

We experienced struggles in life in order for us to be persistent to what we are planning to build for the future, and to make ourselves stronger than what we have ever thought of.

We cannot deny the fact that we, sometimes, came across of a feeling that we are being left behind, but it should not make us rely on a conclusion that what we can only do is to accept defeat, instead, make up our minds and keep the fire burning in our heads.

As for these struggles unfolded right before my eyes, I knew, it is meant to break my heart but never my aspirations in life. I will do my best, even if best is yet to be found.

build your defenses
as infrangible as

great wall of china
along the himalayan
mountain range

𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘪 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦
𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘴

i remember
sitting on the curb,
sipping a venti café latte,
and pulled
the last cigarette out
of my patched-up
leather jacket,

i waited on you,
but it rained

my hand upon
my head, i placed
and ran fast
to the side street
near the crossroads,

the rain pummeled
the concretes,
crackles of thunder
at the distance,

i was
on my way home,
i supposed,
but i missed
the taxicab,

i remember
sitting on the curb,
soaking wet
in the rain,
tried to light up
the last cigarette,
and the coffee
gone cold,

i waited on you,
but you never came

we once dreamed of a paradise,
those sunsets and sunrise;
but of these tears we couldn't hide,
i'll always be by your side

a place where all lost hope is found,
chances beneath the ground;
but of these failures in dawning light,
i'll seek courage to fight

we've imagined beautiful sceneries,
to escape from all the miseries;
but of these mysteries sudden unfold,
i'll offer my life till we're old

we once dreamed of a paradise,
those sunsets and sunrise;
but of these chaos like a caged dove;
i'll build paradise with our love

You were once mine.
You were a dream
then a reality,
now just a memory.
I accept it,
even it's hard to do,
but I have to let you go,
to let you see the world
without me,
to let me find
the missing piece of this heart,
that I thought I found in you

Take a chance on me
I'll show you respect
and love,
the beauty
of the azure skies,
you're still worth
figthing for,
hold my hands
and we'll turn
sad memories
into butterflies.

Take a risk on me
I'll be the remedy
to your pain,
the silence
of a moonlit evening,
you're still worth
the wait,
for all changes
are in chaos
and now he's gone,
you'll realize
you've chosen
the wrong one.

I would take a lip,
you are worth
a thousand kisses.
I would take a hug,
I feel safe
between your arms.

I would take a lip,
longing the warmth
when it touches mine.
I would take a bite,
even every word
cuts like a knife.

I would take a lip,
you are worth
a thousand lifetimes.
I would if you let me to,
the world may change,
but I will never let go.

nostalgia,
a chain in the past,
keeps pulling me
back and forth,
the pain haunts me
but still, i long
for your warmth

If I die, tonight
don't cry,
pick the petals off a rose
and throw the thorns
at my doorstep
with your lies,
how could you tell them
I was important
to you,
when you were not there
when I needed
you the most?

If I die, tomorrow
don't follow,
this is my way
of giving up to the world
that has already
given up to me,
how could you show
those tears,
when you were not there
when I tried to resist
the fears?

If I die, yesterday
don't believe,
I have already died
a thousand times
before you knew
this cold flesh
is in my grave,
how could you find
solace in memories,
when you left me
in the church today?

sunrise
and sunset
are waiting
for you
to forgive

tulips
have bloomed
in spring

but still
the smoke
of cigarette
that lingers
in your breath
and half-empty
glass of whiskey
know

you're hiding
a ton of pain

The remnants of memories
can be so addictive
like the moon waning the tides,
and you, alone in dark places
with painful stories,
longing to walk by the shore,
to feel the warm embrace
of the breeze,
to listen the melancholic sound
of the waves
until the dawning light
appears before your eyes,
to find an escape
for you are caught in the middle
of the ocean and the sky.

pull me closer
into your arms
hold me tight
don't let me go
till friction stops
till morning sun,
i'll be with you
in a century,
i'll be your peace
of mind—a sanctuary

You can postpone
anything but not love,
you can escape
the shadows
of your solitude
but not love,
and I chose
to love you,
I will love you
as long as I can.

i left a love letter at your closet,
to let these feelings
be known,
of being blessed
and ecstatic, a woman
of your existence,
i found

someone
who holds me
so dearly, despite
being ill-tempered

someone
who would grasp
every moment
with me, even
in the darkest of days
unfold

someone
who understands me
in times, i could not
understand
myself either

someone
who hugs me
so tight, when i feel
the deepest despair
i could no longer
fathom

i left a love letter at your closet,
to let these feelings
be known,
in every
morning breath we take,
of you, you alone,
my salvation

i love you
for a lifetime of bless,
forever, as it might,
often could not stand
the changes of life,
but i love you, as always
as the moon dies
to meet
the dawning light

the good thing about being lied
is you'll learn how
to cry
in silhouetted corner
of your room
that once
was your world—

the good thing about being lied
is you'll know how
to smoke
that piece of cigarette
hiding in your closet
to get rid of his kisses
that still linger
in your breath—

the good thing about being lied
is you'll get hurt so bad
that you'll realize
the feeling
of how it excites you
to be alone again

mourning
on the
morning sun

just a month
of a
newly year

already
a lot of
painful memories
has come

my legs are heavy
before i even realize
that i'm awake,
words are floating
in my veins
trying to escape
the endless
stream of thought,
imprisoned
beyond the walls
of my mind—
i failed
to pen mysteries
in a blank canvas

you are
the gravity
in my world,
and i
will always
f
a
l
l
f
o
r
y
o
u

i recognize
this place,
it reminds me
of how
our love story
began
and ends

"Back To Strangers"

You were once skeptical
about love,
trying to find evidence
to a belief
that someone will show you
that it still exists.

You’ve been hurt
and still learning
how to smile again,
you wandered the woods
and lost,
you were once brave enough
to face everything
but now a coward,
for those moments
you supposed to treasure
only caused you pain.

It was too late to save us,
now we’re back to strangers,
thinking when I told you
that I will protect you
from them,
someone should have protected
you from me.

the sun kisses
the ocean—
it bleeds farewell
for the night,

the fragrance
of the breeze—
our fingers
entwined,

part of the journey
is the end—
rest your head
on my shoulder,
till your last breath,
till our destinies
meet again

A beautiful victim
of poisonous greed,
hurt, *****, abused
but was known to be
a monstrous villain.

i
could have
written hundred
of poems

i
could have
seen thousand
of sceneries

i
could have
cried million
of tears

but

it
would never
suffice
my deep feeling
of longing
for your embrace

it
would never
ease the pain
of missing your
presence