I am a walking corpse
Looking for you
To take back my heart
Which I offered you before

Your cold hands
Your harsh words
Your dry feelings
Your empty heart
Is what killed me

I am a walking corpse
Looking for you
To take back my heart
Which I willingly gave you before

My want of attention
Your lack of affection
My want of action
Your lack of emotion
Is what killed me

I am a walking corpse
With a body and soul
Looking for you
To take back my heart

I can't carry the world
I only have two hands
To hold me and to hold him

I can't cry it all
I only have two eyes
My tears,  I save for him

I can't say it all
I only have a mouth
My words, all for his ears

I can't love you all,
I only have one heart
And it is made for him

I will stop smelling the clothes you left
I will stop doodling your name in every paper
I will stop looking for your face in the crowd
I will stop wishing for you in every shooting star

I will stop here, I will

I will stop writing poems about you
I will stop writing songs for you
I will stop sending messages
I will stop calling your name

I will stop here, I will

I will stop thinking about you every morning
I will stop calling you my sun
I will stop dreaming about you every night
I will stop calling you my moon

How I wish I can stop right here, right now
How I wish..

As they always say
Nothing is for eternity
So does loneliness
Even if it feels like it will
I am telling you
It will not last forever

Study while others are playing
Plan while others sleeping

Start while others are procrastinating
Decide while others are delaying

Listen while others are talking
Talk while others are babbling

Smile while others are frowning
Appreciate while others are complaining

Act while others are daydreaming
Believe while others are doubting

Rest while others are stopping
Persist while others are quitting

who knows how many universe there is
who knows how many creature exists
in this  place where science and faith rules
i am just an insignificant matter who doesn’t truly matters

Okay lang, isa pa
Papatawarin din naman kita

Time is an insult
Primogenitor of death
The ultimate thief

Trying to fit in?
I always dreaded that feeling
But then, as they say, change is inevitable
I have to accept it like I don't have a choice at all

So yeah, I will definitely try
Not to fit in the mold
But to keep my shape and smile
Just be myself and be bold

Again, you are trying to fit in
And I always dreaded that feeling
But then, as they say, change is inevitable
I have to accept it like I don't have a choice at all

So yeah, I will definitely try
Not to fit in the mold
But to keep my shape and smile
Just be myself and be bold

twinkle

twinkle twinkle pretty eyes
stop whining crying every night
you don’t deserve his useless lies
you should see he’s not right

twinkle twinkle pretty eyes
i wish to see you finally smile
twinkle twinkle beautiful eyes
oh how i wish you are mine

She cried and begged,
"Please, don't get over me yet"

But he didn't hear
And it breaks her

She cried and begged
"Please, don't get over me yet"

But he already moved on
And her life didn't go on

"Please, don't get over me yet"
It became her mantra
But it will never bring him back

For he found a new love
And she was left with a broken heart

The stars were just plain stars
Until one night you sat beside me
And together we watch them dance

A flower was simply a flower
Until the day you gave me one
And put some on my messy hair

A coffee is just a mere coffee
Until one fine morning
You made one for me

The night, the morning
The summer, the spring
It’s all different

The cold, the rainy days
The oceans, the places
It’s all different

Everything, yes everything
Everything is different
Everything is so so so so much different
When it’s you I’m with :)

I followed the marks of your tears
Until I reached a door of the unknown
I have to overcome my fears
To see someone like my own
Who has demons as peers
Buried in ones deepest dungeon

You wanted an escape
And I was about to run away
You are not a man who wears a cape
And I just want somebody who would stay
Even when I’m not in my perfect shape
And someone who will not sway

Amidst the battle, you hold my hand
The demons we could not fight
So together we make a stand
So much better when someone is on your side
Let us make an unbreakable bond
And in each other’s arm let us hide

And this is how I found you
In my way to break free
Myself, I see in you
So we helped each other flee
In darkness, I will hold you
And one day, through it a flare we will see

Winning makes you slack
     while it is in losing
          that you become strong and stronger

~
Hands of time, please stop
I want this moment to last
Coz it's worthy of a lifetime

akala ko ba pera pera lang
yung oras ko lang yung binayaran mo
pero bakit parang pati puso ko?
gago ka ba?
wag naman tayo mag- gaguhan
akala ko ba sugal lang?
oo nga sugal, sugal ng puso
kasi kung hindi daw pag-ibig
mas malaking sugal daw
o ano susugal ka ba? tataya ka ba?
sa gagong pag-ibig na ito?

When you stumble and fall
lose the brawl
and needs to crawl
Just look at the mirror
and you will see a savior

When you cry in pain
because they're all feign
and vain
Just look at the mirror
and you will see a savior

When you are alone at night
because they fight
and you wanted to plight
Just look at the mirror
and you will see a savior

Learn to be brave
and go with the wave
because in the end
they'll all gonna leave
so pick up your own ****

365 123119
a kiss on new year’s eve

with a sigh
i closed my eyes
and before the last hours
of the year’s solitude
hope kissed me good night
ahhh, what a beautiful ending
for a bittersweet yesteryear

snowflakes on my hair
dissipates into thin air
fleeting like our love

No boyfriend since birth
is it a good or bad thing,
at age twenty-two?

The metered verses I draft
The soulful songs I sing
The seductive poems I write
The adorable words I spill
All these, are no longer for you

But I am not selfish
I am leaving some for you
Some pretty
pretty bad words..


… Curses …


The curses are for you

Choose me, when you’re drunk
when you’re confused
Choose me, when she’s not around
when she’s not kissing you
Choose me, i’m your always
an always second option
an always second best
Choose me, i’ll be happy
i guess second choice is not that bad

wink and grin and lips
blue sky eyes and sunset dress
you, a dream at sight

The future me, my love
Depends on how you treat me now

But then I realized, the future me
Depends on how I allow you to treat me

Going deeper, I realize
The future me, depends on me

Not you, not they
Only me, my choices and ME

baby don’t be sad
if you are the sun
and i am the moon
for we will meet soon
and it will be beautiful
a beautiful eclipse

roses, roses
.
lay me down
on bed of roses
i like the white ones
so you’ll see me when i bleed
because of the thorns
or because of our love
.

When she answered I am fine
Her voice cracked
But no one noticed
When she said I am okay
She faked a smile
But no one noticed
When she told you I can do this
You didn't noticed
The tears she tried to hide

Is she that good at pretending
Or does anyone really cares?

Let me dance into your lullaby
While you say your beautiful goodbye
I will smile 'til I breakdown and cry
For tomorrow I won't believe in your lies
And I promise I'll be over you soon
For I swear you are up to no good

"I was always ashamed to take. So I gave. It was not a virtue. It was a disguise"
~Anais Nin*


Some give
because they wanted to be recognize
and to be called kind

Some give
because they have a hidden agenda
and will use you in their propaganda

Some give
so that soon
they have something to take

Smiling,
     the silhouette of the crescent moon
     two hearts on a dim room
     heavy breathing and sweat
     rhythmic, music so sweet
     shadows of the night
     ***** dancing under the moonlight

You keep on recycling your
"I'm Sorry"
For new mistakes

And I keep on recycling
"I forgive you"
My always mistake

Here I sat in my office chair
at the laptop I stare
wailing in despair
counting the time to spare

Meanwhile, when my boss passes by
I act alive and high
put on a smile
and tell him I'm fine

Pretending to work
But in my seat I lurk

i didn’t know i was bleeding
until i saw the blood d
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just like how i didn’t know
that you already left me
until i realized
it’s such a long time
and i was still here
staying, waiting

You keep on hiding the pain
When all I wanted to do is break the chain
You keep on covering the tears
When all I wanted to do is embrace your fears
You keep on saying goodbye
When I know it’s just a lie
Why do you keep on pushing me away
When all I wanted to do is stay?

Yeah, I want you
But I can't have you
So I want you more..

let me
just this time
let me walk away first
spare me the heartbreak
of watching you leave
spare me the pain
of setting you free
let me, just this time
let me walk away first
let me feel the pride
of the one leaving
not the pity
of being left behind
let me, just this time
let me leave you first
i’m tired of watching you leave

Working M to F
Studying during Sat and Sun
Starting to feel tired

Everybody is running
it is a race to the top
be careful with the cunning
and be ready for a flop


Because it is a race to the top
You'll be needing a strategy
either a friend or an enemy
that soon you will drop
because of jealousy


Some will pass you by
then stub you in the eye
Some will push you down
then will take your crown
Some will lend a hand
only to drop you and it's planned


The way to the summit
will never be facile
sure there are scummy
do not be fragile


That is the way to the top
Just play the game
clean and *****
it will never be fair