Babe, you know
You can always climb under my skin, you know my heart plays for you a song, my brain is at your disposal.
Strip my lies, my feelings, my identities. You tear them so they melt away.
Dig down find
Your shovel hit a rock, maybe treasure. My center, my skeleton, that's all I have to give. I can't promise you will wander further than that, but it's your choice to get there, your choice to take.

I  dropped the cigarette,
Ground it into the dirt,
Watched the embers die out.
They told me it was bad for me.
I guess they're right.
I dropped the cigarette,
Let it die out.

I was too slow for you, honey,
Like cold honey.
You never grew tired
Spinning your wheels, burning your tires.
Now look, it didn't take long
Because you've already said "So Long".
On the floor when we'd lie,
I guess you were always just a lie.
It isn't something I miss,
I just need to know if I was once your only Miss.
I think probably not.
I think it was all for naught.

I had to close the door.
Because you were-
We were
Becoming strangers
Getting to know
Each other.
I had to close the door
Because I need to
Have faith
He will open another.

Everyone is smiling
And they aren't happy
They're laughing
At nothing
And I'm just so tired
Can you please just stop lying
You aren't happy
It wasn't funny
And now you're so mad
At me
Because I peeled off your mask.
My heart is pounding
And I'm shaking
But I'm not suffocating

Okay, here it is.
You drive me crazy.
Some nights I want you to just kiss me already.
And then other days, I want to strangle you.

And then you smile at me like I'm the reason you're happy.
Then you go and make her feel that way too.

You say something mean
And later tell me you are interested in me.

Say it doesn't matter,
Say the opposite.
And then "What do you want?" You ask me. "Is it me?"

But I don't even know who you are.

4/19/16

I am not the girl who sits by the phone waiting for you to call

I am not the girl who will tell you that she misses you

I am not the girl who will whisper to you how she really feels

I am not the girl that will ask you to come over tonight

I am not the girl you will drape your long arms around

I am not the girl hanging onto your every word

I am the girl you are frustrated with because I am not that girl.

Deleted,
Deleted what I feel,
I know what I should do,
But what fate will that seal?

4/24/16

I thought I wanted you,
Hoped and prayed you'd be mine,
But I can't understand why,
If given the matches,
I would burn the bridge.

2/7/16

I hope you don't shy away from opportunities
And sometimes live in the moment, but don't take unnecessary risks and make avoidable mistakes

I hope you learn that it's okay to make mistakes and learn to enjoy learning new things, even if you aren't good at them

I hope you don't give up and miss a chance to see what you could have accomplished
However if you do, I hope you don't dwell, and instead move on, making the most of the door you've chosen- it may be better than you anticipated.

I hope you make new friends who will teach you and help you grow in the direction you need. Don't let your old friendships fade when time seems to be an obstacle.

Love and forgive yourself. You make mistakes. So does everyone else. I hope you won't take things so seriously and personally because you
are you.

Speaking of which, do you. Don't let yourself be ruled by others' opinions because in the end, shouldn't you be doing what you love, not what they do. That's for them; This is for you.

Give yourself to relationships making sure you invest in the ones you care about. Cut negative, unnecessary sources from you life. Learn to say no. There will always be that person, so you might as well learn how to do
it now.

But I want you to live. I want you to experience so much, realizing you only get to once. Try new things a least once. Listen to advice, decide if it's worthwhile. I hope you always do your best. Live like the movies and mimic the cliches, making sure you are original too. Let your heart beat and let yourself feel.

4/18/16