I'm loney, tired, I have no friends
I'm content, fullfilled, I hate everyone
My eyes bulge out of my head
Refuse to unsee
The molestation outside

I'd rather be wiser than nicer
I'd rather you hated me
Love wrenched is the most painful thing
I have ever felt
I won't do it again

Do I bore you?
Fight me
I'm atlas on this playground
Nobody sees me
I'm only a gamer
On the giving end

The cartoon is a rerun
And I got nothing to laugh at
It's not funny
Not Funny
Funny
No one could make love
To my mind like you

I'm loney, tired, I have no friends
I'm content, fullfilled, I hate everyone
My eyes bulge out of my head
Refuse to unsee
The molestation outside

I'd rather be wiser than nicer
I'd rather you disowned me
Love wrenched is the most painful thing
I have ever felt
I won't do it again

I mean to go through life like I mean to live
The stories say that we aren't meant
To be happy and free
Engineering a means of surviving
Bending our wits in hopes of thriving

We will never be
We will never be
Shut it down
The evidence claims otherwise
Sealed the fate of the dying
Freedom is reminded
That no entity has the power

I mean to go through life like I mean to live
The stories say that we aren't meant
To be happy and free
Engineering a means of surviving
Bending our wits in hopes of thriving

Dominate your lives
Work work work
Against the man
I will fight for you
Who is worth living for?
You told me we were good
I believe in you
Do you believe in me?

I can't feel my shame
But I can tell your skin
Far away

Close to my face
The glow is warming
I am revived

Sick to my bones
I'm all alone
Close the distance
Kindly
Plain and simple
That's my name

I'm laid on the edge
It's not the same
You're not to blame
Is the door locked?

See my frame
See my face
Quickly
what's my rush?

Bring it to your room
Are you alone?

Sick to my bones
I am all alone
Close the distance
If you could
Kindly
Plain and simple
That is my name

He wants to stop us
By punishing us
We toil for our bread
And look how we've survived
We won't be stopped

My untold story needs some legs
To start walking
Because what is it doing wearing dem boots
If it don't start stomping its feet
For all the world to hear?

I won't pull the trigger back
My finger is on it
Your beauty
Is so intoxicating
I forgot why I had the gun
Loaded dice
Is what I am
Always landing
On the thought of your mouth
Sensually breathing
Your words into my ear
I usually say 'No'
But you're saying the worst things

You Devil-may-care
Sleepy voiced rockstar
Are the answer to my problem

I had no answers previously
Nothing
Then you ordered me to make mistakes
And now I'm up for a Nobel Prize
I'm unwise

Your drunken gait
You're my prescription
To this affliction that caves my brain
Into a cavity of emptiness

Finally I'm feeling rotten and cool
It's better than being my Mama's fool
I'm ready to lose every virginity
I had left
Because you've made your music
My mind's address

I used to have a voice
In my head
Telling me the reason
Why I do things

Now I despise that voice
Even though it is the
Voice of Reason

When you only listen
To the sadness
Anger and malice
In the voice
Of others
You end up
Below the empty well

How can I be helped?
Is there a way back up
From the dark well?
How does someone
Help herself
Trapped only with
The wrong voices
Inside her head?

Day by day
I will lose a fingernail
Climbing out
Of the silent well
I had sorrowfully
dropped my mind into
But I will gain what I have lost
And if hope will allow
Grow back my jaw
And you will hear
The solution
To fill the well inside of you

Invent
discover possibilities
Create
The rules are yours to bend and break
Blindly love
The unseen beauty
Never fake
An opinion
I was a 4 year old
balding ferns
It was serene
I could learn
For forever

My body feels like a cavity
One-Trick Pony
Taking every comment
Personally
Does it take sadness
Anger To create
Madness
Address every blurt

What I like about Rock
Is what musicians do
When they have so little

He's got too much money
And he wants to play
"Let's see, what money can do, really."
He'll buy that Lithograph
For you at the auction
"That's some introduction", you'll purr
But what's money, really, when you don't have morals?
"A whole lot of fun, ***, and cars.
Oh, my manners. Did you want some?"
He'll tempt you
But it's just a game
He talks, he pays
He walks away
He looks back at you
With his arm around a pretty predator
She asks "Did you want to play?"

I don't understand
Why I seek love
On an intellectual level
Rather than
Be stubborn and stupid
About it
Since
I am not smart
But I am average
So I've got that going for me

Not the kind of stupid love that
Continuously makes babies
Even if it can't support them
But the stupid love that
Stupidly burns itself in the fire
And jumps into the flames

Shimmer highlights
Glitter heels
Make me dress
To his appeal
Make me a magnet
Of attraction
Objectify me
A distraction
Let me be an unholy thing
touched
Besmirched
On your whim
Be my prince
On my bed
I’m sleeping now
Between your legs
Saint Malady
Patron of the honest house
Enter through the backdoor
And let it be nothing more

The most beautiful thing
You can do for me
is to love
In slow motion

Your fatigue disguised as longing
My beautiful optimistic friend
Your well-meant foolishness
Kills me
You ridiculous thing
How real are you?
You are like
A mythical creature
With four hearts
Lined up behind each other
Too kind
Too giving
I just might cage you up to change you
For don't you realize
freedom is full of limits?
You're magical, subject to
someone else's cruelties
Unless you dominate us
And make us your children

Progressive lipstick
for the standstill
woman

She slips into
people

I have a hard time
Taking anything seriously
I'm not easily impressed or swayed
And I don't believe in good things
easily
Especially those things that give me hope
And make me have faith

Breaking my heart
Seems to be the first thing
I avoid
And the first thing
On their list

Forgot the man who said
He used to hide in the TV shelf's cabinet
Out of anxiety and sadness
Hidden from everyone
But haunted by demons
He could not escape

Remember the one who bikes at full-speed
Strong legs, taking himself places
On adventurous journeys
To the neighboring destinations

Remember uncovering the eyes of the girl you love
To show her an expression of your ardor
In full bloom.

I want to love someone like you
Someone articulate
In expressing compatibility
Someone free-spirited and sturdy
I want the you I remember

The you that remains is one I forgot
The sadness that desperately clings to
The joy that nervously trembles on the steeple

I know there is more to be remembered
And less to forget

The story I remember is spray-painted
On a construction site spelling out:

L-O-V-E


It is music playing in a nearby house
Two love-struck teenagers
Dancing under lamposts
Imagining moonlight

The you that remains
Is you with your puppies
And just loving the runt
"Maybe", I think now,
"He's the runt and the runt is him"

Need silence
Within this car
I need your embrace
within your arms
Don’t even know what hands are anymore
I’m finding it hard to explain what they are for
Boy I just want to know you
I just want to see you
Boy
I want to steal you
and your time
from this place
I need silence
within this car
i need your embrace
within your arms
i don’t even know what hands are anymore
finding it hard to explain what they are for
Keep still
So we can touch
be real
will we keep in touch
I just want to hold you
In my touch
It’s not so hard
aren’t we enough?
Don’t even know what hands are anymore
Hard to explain what they are for
Boy I just want to know you
I just want to see you
Just want to steal you

Needles. Needles. ****. ****

There is no destiny
There is no fate
There is no truth
Or justice
Or love

There is no radiation
Pollution
Or corruption
There is no right
Left
Or wrong

Nothing to dance to
No song
No dream to cling to
No hope

There is no age to live for
No beauty to fight for
There is no love

There is no wonder
Power
Or Lust
There is no war
No killing
No blood to spill
No God to fear
No list to finish
No melting sun

There is no marriage
There is no soul
There is no you
There is no warmth
There is no fight to win
There is nothing to lose

No French kisses
No French fries
No transfat
There are no lies.

There is nothing in this world that will please you
Nothing in your heart that will ease you.
Of all the deep wants you yearn to have
Nothing will fill your emptiness
So take all you want
And give all you can
And live to die
And die for (something you think is) love
For nothing is real
Nothing is fake
Everyone’s helpless
There is no need to hate.

Practical shoes on your feet
Squeaky clean vision could be 17
I always thought fashion was cynical
But you tell me it’s how your heart beats from withdrawal
when your marrying your hurt with my button down
It’s so easy to tell you secrets
Especially when you’re full of them
Let’s just end this how it begun
With my tongue
She doesn’t have a boyfriend though
But she ***** like she’s got plans to
Oh God.
She hasn’t had a bad day in ages
She messes around like she has that too
Dressing up zoned out
in a trance
I’m in doubt it’s what’s it’s all about
it’s just a way to get to the next room
you shout, out loud you say
you’re living a puzzle that keeps shifting
your trapped  
'It's my way out'
She doesn’t have a boyfriend though
But she ***** like she’s got plans to
Oh God.
She hasn’t had a bad day in ages
She messes around like she has that too
It’s another aroma stuck in my mouth
'It's my way out I'd do it all over again'
Your beating heart says yes yes yes

What it's like
To be romantic
Is to feel
Like myself
Although
You are out there
And I am
In here
I see the moon
You created
For us
Or maybe that cloud
floated past me
as you blew a kiss
of an eyelash wish
into the direction
of the air
I breath

I just want you to know

That even if I don't want to

I will fight you

And that even if I want to

I won't die

I just want you to know

Even if I want to

I can't forget you

Even if I try

I just want you to know

Even if I have to

Of course I want to

I want to feel alive

I won't give you money
So you can feel the power it gives me
We'll take you to the therapist
And you can discover the crutch of medication
We'll smile when you're fine
You better do what we want
That can be a sign of an happy home life

Much depends
On this life
Misspent
By paper doll artists

You love me
Did you forget?
You said you'd never
Did you forget?
I did nothing
Did you remember?
Because of all you gave me
You remember
You said I changed
Did you forget?
You said I'm different
Did you forget?
It's time we parted
Oh yea, it's dark here
Turn on the light
I think I forgot
Now I remember
You've been dead 6 years

Spread your wings

feel you up

by the swings

keep your shirt

snowfall dirt

By the bench

keep the *****

heal your heart

it's all in French

Most are days

Sunny yays

moistened lips

Myster slips

he's got blood

on his shirt

most of all

a bit of dirt

quite a fall

down the drain

sunny days

no more pain

pitch that tent

keep your heart

quite intent

to imagine

heaven sent him

for a break in

make or break it

It's my time

I think I'll make it

Most of all

try your best

It's all you're worth

Just this pile

It's how I satisfy

Just don't tell me

I can't fly

In 2 years

With a smile

Understand
I poured myself
Into your cup
Not for the pucker of your lips
But for the finding
Of your tongue
So speak

I was loved by a boy whose dreams were boundless
He dreamed and hoped like any boy should
He made me believe in anything
Even in him
I'd love him back if I could.

I am the questions and he was the answers
I am the hopeless and he was the romantic
He would insist
That the differences only complimented the similarities

I'm not sure what of, but he was sure he was to be a King
Of the Sun
Of the World
Of these lands
Of my heart.

We were 17 in age
65 in soul
5 years old in our pleasures
We would poke fun at people
Name the stars silly
Lying on the grass
As we discussed anything and everything
And forget it all the next day
Our minds were ripe
Hands, empty and open
We were rich in foolishness and laughter

They refuse to believe

They would insist
"A young heart knows no love"
"A young mind knows no truth"
"A young soul knows no emptiness"

I once loved a boy whose dreams were boundless
He dreamed and hoped like any boy should
But he became a man not King

A King reigns triumphant
Remembered throughout libraries
A Man toils for naught
Slaves away, dies forgotten.

There was once a boy who had dreams
Though he sought the pain of mortality
To abandon a Kingdom
Rich with beauty

Why?
This heart will never know

You are not lying to her
As much as you are lying to me

I adore you with no guarantees
I hear promises that have not been said
I hear your words said in my head
Yet you say “only you”
Only me
And her

Only You & Her

Never Us

Never were

Never will

Just this far will do down the road of pride-filled infatuation
With its ill-lit way
It goes in no direction
We either run into each other
Or run away.

I hope for what you would have done for me
You would have given the world just to be with me
Now I would give myself
For the graze of your lips
And for the sound of your laughter
You kept with me a reminder
That I am a good person
I want never to forget

I love the smile on your face
as you tell me you’re okay
in words that aren't saying that at all
This is not meant to be tender
But I love that you think so
See, that the parts that I love about you
Keeps me from saying I do
Love you, I mean
So when I’m trying to be brave
Please save me instead.

I like to be funny
For those who are sad
And I like being tasty
To those who are hungry
And I like being *****
For those who are lonely
And I like being sweet
To those who are sour
And I like being dead
To those who want to **** me
And I want to be alive
To those who want to fill me
To those who want to feel me
I like being felt
I like being used in any way
You need me
So I'll let myself feel pain
If you want to hurt me
As long as you know me
I'll know you too

I see your picture
Up on the Wall
It's clearly your best shot
At breaking my heart
It's as though I couldn't
Fit you in a frame
When you told me
Your sister died
Of suicide
So please excuse me
For bowing out
It's just---
I must battle some demons for you babe