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denise Nov 2016
Stare out
Into the skyline.
Look at
The wavering distance.

Where the illusion of
The sky on fire,
Hinders the word
From hearts of ire.

Golden silver,
Midnight blue.
Let the storm,
Bring morning dew.

Crashing waves,
Flickering lights.
And off into the distance,
You let out the sigh.
let the world be your distraction.
denise Mar 2017
Directly related to gravity is the principle of escape velocity. Escape velocity is what we call the speed that an object must travel away from the planet or satellite to free itself from the gravitational pull. The stronger the pull of gravity, the more speed that is required for the object to free itself. Conversely, the weaker the pull of gravity, the less speed that is required to be released from a gravitational pull. The escape velocity for an object on Earth is about 25,200 miles per hour. It would be easier on the moon, which has an escape velocity of 5,355 miles per hour.*

I don't remember when I started to fall for for you.
I don't remember when your arms started to pull me, holding me close like it was the gravity keeping you to this earth. You held on to me like I was the only reason you were still here. I used to think I was the reason for your existence.

I don't know what truth is anymore but I remember it was you who made me feel this way.

You told me once that you couldn't imagine being without me.
You told me that that I was more than just the sun who kept your days bright. I was the moon who stayed with you on the coldest of nights.

You pushed me back and gripped my hands and you didn't let me go.

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I don't know if you remember any of this.
I don't know if you remember the moments we've shared or the secrets we've kept.

Oh, the tears we've shed.

I don't know if you care.
I don't know if you've ever cared at all.

I told myself it's nothing.
I told myself that I'm better off without you.  

Oh, the tears I've shed.

It's been two years.
My heart no longer mourns for you yet I still can't help but wonder when I will ever be free from your orbit. I don't know if I'll ever be strong enough to face it, to face you.

What I do know is that I want to escape.
I want to be free.
I will be strong.
I *will
be free

I know who I am.
I know what I want.
Knowing is enough for me.
this for now.
denise Jul 2016
You know what they say,
That home is where the heart is?
Mine is where you are.
this is why i'm never home.
i'm just lost, waiting to be found.
denise Mar 2017
My life knowing you
would have hurt a lot less, if
we never happened.
just a thought.
denise Jul 2016
I would like to know,
What's it like to remember,
A world without you.
i just wonder.
denise Jul 2016
Do you know how much it hurts?
To see you everyday. To know you everyday.  
Trying to believe that what we had was real. What we have is real.
I tried to believe in you. Did you know that? I believed in you. I believe in you.
But you of all people. I don't know what I expected. I'm tired of getting hurt.
You've hurt me more than I should've let you. You hurt me.

I loved you. I love you.

And I had to let go. I can't let you go.

I'm sorry. *I'm so sorry.
i can't.
denise Jun 2016
I am not blind
It's just that there is no difference
Between darkness
And light

I am not deaf
It's only that the noise of
Life begone and
Silence is all that's left

Maybe it's better
Rather than
To close your eyes
And shut your ears

To live
Only to
d i e
denise Aug 2016
If only I could wish to forget you.

I remember it being not so long ago, when your awkward smile imprinted itself to my memory. I remember when you brushed your hair out of your face, when your eyes told me "well, aren't you something else."

I remember the stories you told me. You told me the story of a little boy who was afraid to grow up. We relived the stories you kept in that scared head of yours and gave them hope for a better ending.

I remember the times you fell on your knees, searching for acceptance. You were always yearning for empathy. You were tired of sympathy. I cleared away the broken glass. I gave you a magic mirror, to show you the goodness you couldn't see in yourself.

I remember the tears that you let me keep. I held you in my arms, in my heart; for yours was a heavy burden I couldn't let you bear alone. I saved you from that anchor you called a soul, even if it meant that I drowned too.

I still keep them to this day.

It wasn't so long ago.

You gave me your heart. I trusted you with mine.



How easily you just threw it away.
i wish i could throw you away too
denise Aug 2016
It is strange. Life is strange.

To think that you are this person.
This amazing, gifted person.
That you are able to see the light through darkness.
That you are able to see stars when the clouds have wrecked their havoc upon this ground.

The belief that you are something more.
The belief that your pieces create more than just a pretty picture.

But in reality you're not.

Because all you ever were was sorry.

And it's still not good enough.
i have no idea what i'm doing.
denise Jun 2016
I used to fear the dark.

I was afraid of the monsters under my bed.

Then I grew up.

I came to fear the light.

It was just all too bright, all too much.

Then I met you.

I started to believe.

In light, in dark.

In you, in me.

Then suddenly,

You’re gone.

You took the light with you.

And you left me in the dark with

The greatest monster of all.


**Love.
denise Jun 2016
Close your eyes
And count to three
Chin up high
And start to breathe

I know you hear
The silent screams
But forget the fear
Inside your dreams

I know you feel
The rain at night
Thus let your heart soar
As thunders roar

I know you taste
Salt falling from your cheeks
Burn away the tears
And then start to peek

I know you smell
Your blood spilled on the floor
Put away the knife
And heal once more

I know it hurts
Inside your head
But you're so much more
Alive than dead

So close your eyes
And count to three
Lift your chin up high
Breathe
i  tried.
denise Jan 2017
Scream.
Scream into the sky.
For one day I will be with the stars,
And I will hear your voice
Once more.
the sky is calling your name.
denise Jul 2016
To hope is to catch falling stars.

You wait with open arms.
You are waiting.
Waiting for something.
Waiting for something that you know will be beautiful.

You are waiting for something beautiful.

You wait with your hands spread like butterfly wings.
You are waiting.
Waiting.
Anticipating.
Knowing.
Not knowing.
The Pain
That will burn you alive.

It will burn you.

Till there's nothing left but ashes.

It will burn you.



And set you free.
i have no idea where logic comes from.
denise Jul 2017
I will paint these scars,
Silver and Gold.
For these are the wars,
With stories untold.
something i wrote a little while back
denise Sep 2017
It is not true
That when someone you love
Passes away
It rains

If it was true
Then
The rain
Would never stop

The sun
Does not
Stop
Shining

So
You should
Not stop
Either
don't stop believing
denise Jul 2016
Don't you worry, dear
The sun will come through.
But don't forget,
That rain is good too.
You have to let yourself be hurt before you can wash away that pain. I hope I remember that too.
denise Nov 2016
Every step
An echo
Every breath
Wasn’t sure if it was the last

Walking through
Misery and pain
I catch the tears
Of a fallen night rain

It has been long since
The sky has smiled upon
This barren land
Which I once called home

Trapped
This broken heart
Has forgotten hope
In a falling star
denise Dec 2016
Flowers bloom and grow,
Which only goes to show,
That even though Winter may sting,
You will never lose Spring.
denise Mar 2017
I know I'm wasting time
Keeping you on my mind
but I don't know what to do
All I can think of is you

There are some things to be said
Everything or about nothing at all
Yet I'd rather go to bed
Than stay up waiting for your call

I look up into the sky
I close my eyes
Trying not to cry
Holding in a sigh

I just want you to be happy
No, I will no longer ask
My hope for you is one day
You'll let your love last
denise Aug 2016
I'm not sorry
             for loving you

                            I'm sorry
                                    because I wasn't good enough
                                             to be worth fighting for
                                                    I wasn't good enough
                                                          ­ to be worth the time
                                                            ­          worth the wait

                                                           ­                         I'm sorry
                                                           ­                               because I loved you
                                                             ­                                             I love you


and it wasn't enough
        to make you stay
bc ****, it hurts like hell.
denise May 2017
trying to think of the words to say,
trying to live,
it's not so different.

it's not so different from riding a bike,
falling and scraping your knees,
until you learn to find your balance.

it's not so different from breathing,
inhale,
exhale,
until you flow freely with the wind.

it's not so different from slaying dragons,
over and over again,
until you find the golden egg.

it's not so different from the stars,
stringing them into constellations,
until you're lost in the Milky Way

Life,
it's not so different.
you just need the write words to say.
pun intended

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