What keeps us believing in eternity
in different places, surrounded and separated
by millions of hearts in between

What keeps us believing in forever
with this glass right in front of us
all that's left for us are numbers as words
to express our love, our love

Well that fire we've created upon meeting is
still burning, we feel it flickering
warming us in it's heat
bringing warmth to our hearts, when we're
alone....

What keeps us believing in finally being happy
while suffering so much at home
this few words we share across the screen
mean more to me...then you will ever know

I ask myself so many times,
"Why are you here and what do you stand for?"
To have someone so good and amazing in my life
just seems so wrong but how strong, how strong
You must be to stay here and stay as you are

There's no reason for me to admit the obvious
who am I to deserve such a miracle in the form of you
In the real world, it's never supposed to work out like this, am I dreaming it this?
I mean you told me you love me!
How real could this be? Im suffocating in my disbelief... I'm suffocating in what you've called nothing special, when I've seen nothing short of perfect...

I've been sick with this fever of confliction
Wanting to say the three words, the same three words you've whispered in your sleep, and in my dreams, but what holds me back is my fear

The fear that you won't react the same way I do
When I hear them, not that you'd reject them
but soon that you'll realize I could never amount to the man you believe I could be, no
never do I believe that could be me...

I remember every moment we shared
every time you showed me you cared
I tried my best to be the best I could for you
I'd drop all of my life to prove what I mean

I'll somehow overcome my gears
I never want you to go, I never want you to leave
I want you to stay with me
I want to hold your face in my hands and admit even though I'm nothing
I'll fight to be everything

Just so you can hear me say I love you
You'll tell me you love me
and we'll both believe

Stripped down to the most basic of actions
Can my lips carry my every feeling
needs and wishes
Would you get all of that with just a kiss

If love was an ocean
then my tides just come in
and I'm just killing time
thinking of ways to make you mine....

And maybe I, maybe I could never love you the same
maybe it'd be a mistake to try again
but there's more to this
but there's more to this

If love was the moon
then it's just been eclipsed
and I'm just wasting time
thinking of ways to get you off my mind...

Without anchors, I'm swimming till I'm dying
well that doesn't make much sense
unless you could feel the way I'm feeling

And if love was a wrist
I've just reached the bone
and I'm just killing time
thinking of ways to go on....

I'll be crawling into so many holes
looking for a place to call home
still nothing is the same
as when I was in your space

And if love was a heart
yours is so far gone
and I'm just wasting time
thinking of ways, thinking of ways
to be rid of mine

The hardest part is the start
when you're unsure
as you stare into their eyes
are their feelings pure
are their intentions honest and clear

what kind of bed do your words rest on?
am I just another life to be led on
another soul to be fed on
another heart to be stepped on
which side of the scale will we ride on

it's hard to question the good
it's hard to expect the bad
it's hard to give up on the past
it's hard to wonder if this sweet feeling will last

I think I'm ready to heal
I think I'm ready to feel your words
I think I'm ready to heal
I think I'm ready to open you up to my world

So here's your ticket
Fly in, fly in, fly in
don't you dare make me regret it

Tracing these fingers
along your pretty face
why you've graced me with your presence
I could not say

I am undeserving
to say the least
and no matter what you say
it's hard for me to ever believe in
any of the good you see in me

you wake and your lips form a smile
I freeze for a moment
but eventually figure out how to with my face
I'm still not good with showing genuine feelings
I feel broken but your smile does something to me
untangles my insides and makes me feel
like I can breathe

I am undeserving
to say the least
and no matter what you say
it's all I can believe in
is that I love you
and for some reason unknown
you also love me

Falling away
like leaves from autumn trees
Like summer departing
it feels quite alarming
how fast it became hard to sleep
No longer easy to walk ever since
the spring in my step
became a web that entangles
my world
of winter
it's become so cold
since all of my friends have gone
and the question
echoes and echoes inside my mind
What have I done?

As your fingers run down my back
I exhale as if it were my first breath
in years

I shiver but not from the cold
you send a shock through my system
now I'm feeling whole

We lock eyes and in that moment
we know what I've always known
that this is something special

Life built a maze to protect my heart
but somehow you knew the way
how to bypass the Minotaur
the sharks in the water
the claws in the dark
You found a home inside
Without me knowing I still had space for you

As your fingers caress my face
I nuzzle against your palm
in a way I'd never admit
I've wanted this possibility of vulnerability

If you ever grew wings, to get away
I'd slay the sun
to keep your wax from falling apart
rather than allowing death to tear us apart

I don't speak about it
but it's there
A little darkness that I'd rather not share

I don't like it
but you know
it's been living with me for so long

Little darkness why don't you go
I don't wanna live with you any more
Little darkness why can't you go
it might make me feel like I'll make it home

I wanna smile
I wanna smile
I wanna feel good for a little while
I wanna smile
I wanna smile
I wanna feel alright for a little while

This is about the woman that I love
well more on how she makes me feel
The thoughts that fill my head
when she's near
and when I'm far

detaching is part of my schedule
it helps me stop my mind from overflowing
a temporary peace
that's needed, but I wanna breach that dam

I've gotta admit, I'm coming to realize
how heavy the past can be
like infinite internal suffering
but why is it that you can make me feel like I'm floating
Like I'm above all the negativity that feels imbedded within me

I'm more afraid of how much happiness i feel I've attained
I'm even more afraid of chasing you away
when I say the things I say

I wanna be who you see when you look at me...

I kinda smiled while listening to a song
noticed this guys always writing about loss and love
It caught me a bit off guard
only because it's a pretty nice thing to write about
and for me it's been awhile

That's not to say I haven't been happy
there's a moment atleast once a day
where the thought of you chases the sad clouds away
and even when I'm down you can turn a frown into a smile

in your arms I can turn my brain off
in your eyes I can see a knight in shining armor
if I spend too long pressed against your lips
the world stands still, pausing all my thoughts

I can admit I'm in love
I can admit I'm in love
I can admit I'm in love

I keep forgetting to refrain from taking purchase in your words
You wound me and don't notice
Like I've noticed, your eyes
The way they hold me, still
Your smile
Your embrace
Oh boy, I love. You.
All of you
Everything.
Ah. I didn't expect to hear that
I forgot
Once again, a wound.

She said "You have lips like clouds"
Like something only an angel would know, ya know

I believe you're magical, a fact you've shown
I've read so many books, so would know
I just thought you should know

I wasn't willing
to share, to share
trying to open your heart, oh boy don't you dare

I want you in
in the most intricate way
Im sprung and spinning
like im caught in a web

I see you there
I see you there
I see you there
I see you there

Ive done alot of thinking on my own
been looking for a way to turn it off
this is where I tell you things have been hard
this is where I just brush it off
this is where I smile and throw you off
and like always this is when I see
I pulled it off
and we're back to how you are
how things for you went wrong

I don't want your eyes on me
Sometimes I wish someone could see
I don't want your eyes on me
sometimes wishing I could just leave
keeps me going

When the sun hits
You shine with a stronger light in your eyes
then the stars in the sky
More than a well within you
You're an uncharted body of water
That none have yet to discover
I've never learned to swim
without eventually causing myself to drown
But when I'm this close to you
I'm not afraid to flow with your current
One day I hope to get to the depths
where no one's eyes have been
I want to become king of Atlantis
I want to understand how to live
with the sea and understand it's needs
I want to be quite like Poseidon
let go and breathe
You're like no person above

You are the ocean

I now remember on this bus ride
I used to look to the sky
see the clouds float by
now I keep my head to the ground
and I've been down
I've been down

I remember I used to keep my head in the clouds
and let my mind roam around
but sooner or later
you can no longer pretend
What's around, whats around
and it gets me down
it gets me down

But I'll still say I love you
I haven't lost hope in life just yet
and may we stay true
to the best that they can see in you
the best that they see in you

I dream of witches
And when I would find them
They'd always cast a spell.

But never would I fear
I should not be here
Demons belong in hell....

Her screaming says it all
someone must fall
blood moon please save us all
As vision turned to black
there was discord and bells
heavy lust as we all fell....

but never fear
we should not be here
demons belong in hell...

When you spoke
I listened to your words
And against my better judgement
Let them sink into my heart
And believed every single part

Call me naive if you want
I just opened my heart
Call me a fool if you want
I've felt it often enough


Well...that was just my mistake...
I should have read between the lies

I never look to the sky
I never admire natures wonders
I don't find the sweetness in a baby's laughter
or the reckless abandonment of fun with mans best friend
I sleep to this vision
I wake to it
I live to see it, while my breath is held
I yearn for it

Oh how much can the heart give?

How much can I express, before I no longer live?

Do you know how precious it is?

Oh my dove, the love I now have for your smile, my dear

Ive finally looked at the sky

The definition of insanity isn't always doing the same thing and expecting different results

Sometimes, it's believing in a glamour

and at the end
when you're broken
scarred, fractured
and penniless
finally seeing the numerous curtains fall
finding that the creature you've had faith in
shattered everything

I've stared into the abyss
for so many years
it took refuge in my heart

My mind faces a battle that's timeless
its hard to face a foe
that looks out at you

from within

Hey how ya doing
I am boredom
Don't read too much into this
**** it dear
I am boredom

And it just hit harder
say something
and it just hit harder
it's only been a minute

**** it I am bored
but not in a way
where I wouldn't speak to you
under other circumstances
you're actually pretty cool

And it just hit harder
say something
and it just hit harder
**** it
dear I'm sober

We'll judge you when we're high
when we're high
You're a creature, you're divine
You're my comfort love
you are fine

I will judge you in my mind
I will judge you in my mind

You're a story you're a lie
Educate me when you smile
Beauty thank you that I'm high
Darling thank you that I'm high

So I could judge you
in my mind
Sort of like a magazine photo
I'll stare at late at night
So I could love you till I die

Fully in my mind when we're high
when we're high
You're a creature you're divine
You're my comfort love
you are fine

I will judge you in my mind
I will judge you in my mind

You're a story you're a lie
Educate me when you smile
Beauty thank you I'm high
Darling thank you that I'm high

So I could judge you
in my mind
So I'll convulse you
In my mind
So I could love you till I die

Fully in my mind

Just a little chaos
I noticed I'm looking for a bit of fun
and oh so many will run
they don't get you
Although in a way I do

The mind is a storm
of feelings and words
I'm a captain braving the storm
they told me it's not worth it

And maybe it isn't
but I just want a bit of fun

Not a thing written in months
my muse has left me
like a scent in the wind
something simply sweet
has abandoned me

In my lonesome, I hear whispered lines and words
but as I turn to hear these lovely things they flee, escaping me
Woe is me, woe is me

Alone with simply sweet fleeing things

My soul weeps

There was once
A pretty little house
And it had many occupants
But a couple of them here or there
Stripped the pretty
little house bare

So what was once
A pretty little house
was remodeled as a bunker
and on this bunker they built a tower
with its entrance at the top

The further you get to the bottom
the more you see it's appeal
the further you go from your exit
the closer you get to a soul

that once lived in a pretty little house

I've only met destroyers
on the go, on the low

I've only met them going down
on me, on you

I've only met destroyers
in town, all around

But then I met you
and all that you do
Is love, is love
is love

I bet if she looked at you in the same way

You'd offer up your heart to her

right out of your ******* chest

I've lost my friends
I don't think I'll find them again

Does it matter who was wrong and who was right?

I've gone to sleep without words from you for the past couple of nights

On the outside things look fine

But sooner or later it'll get out
you're no longer comrades of mine....


But I wish you the best in life and
it ***** you're no longer apart of mine

Hey why don't you come this way
Don't mind the mess in my room
It's only to match the state of my head

Disarray feels like home to me
My life's a mess
And it feels like home to me

You can come a little closer
I won't bite, unless that's what you want
And it's on your mind
kinda like mine

How long have I been dead
It's a little sad how I desire this dance
How long have I been empty
It's a little sad how you're here with me

Can't you see I'm searching for my purpose
I'm a lost cause

I'm not so sure of the end
But I vividly remember where it began
I knew of nothing
And then,you were there

....I'm...in...my....
Head

They say home is where the heart is
So I'm homeless, so I'm homeless
And they say don't think about it
But I'm broken, but I'm broken

Viewing from another angle
Trying to catch what I've missed
I need a friend
These thorns won't *****

And I'm back in my head.....

They say home is where the heart is
So I'm homeless, so I'm homeless
And they say don't think about it
But I'm broken, but I'm broken

Oh,what did I do...

Went to the doctor
For what I can't heal
Went to the carpenter
For what I can't build
Went to the church
For what prayer couldn't despell

I'm in my head.....again
This nightmare won't end
End of a sweet dream
As reality sets in.....

Ive always wondered if I said it because it was said
"that's what you should say"

Sometimes I wonder if I really believed I would never change
when at the time, I didn't want to stay the same

I never noticed never noticed never
never noticed ever
I wish id known this wish I'd known this wish I'd known

On second thought
ignore all that I just said
I've caught Peter Parker fever
swimming through her air again

You're only as real
as the amount of your soul I see.

The sooner you accept
that they won't see you for who you really are
the sooner you can bottle it all up
and
pretend to be who they want you to be