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Jun 2018 · 117
Something from 2016
I'm the kind of ****** you would be if you didn't have distractions, see?

A dedicated glutton
as the feast is always full of things that make it hard to breathe
and sleep.
I really, don't know.
I see the sun
I see the sun......again

When the wind blows
When the wind blows, I smell you

Overcast, my emotional weather
I thought it would always last
I thought it would never pass
Couldn't break free,I was stuck in the past
And all the advice I was given
I crumbled it up like wasted flyer paper
Fell out​ somewhere between my hand, pocket
And garbage cans
Couldn't move these clouds if I tried
Shadows and rain falling only on and around me
Kept my head down to keep the water out my ears...

Just kidding, they were tears

Cuz who am I kidding
If I wasn't overthinking my next step
I was contemplating sui...sin...

Till a light.....
And then

I could see the sun
I could see the sun again...

I looked up and saw you.
A lyrical interpretation of swinging from a dark mood to a lighter one.
Absence is a way to remember me
I wonder if that's just what you think

Your actions tend to get a reaction
Shocked when it isn't what you expect it to be

Think about it all
Before you blame it all
On me
Can't see you're in the wrong
Thinking it's okay for this to be

Contrary to popular belief when I speak on these things
I know the world doesn't revolve around me
Just kinda tired of the come and go folks.
May 2018 · 822
The thing is
It takes a certain type of moodset
To create anything worth catching the eye
And sometimes....
Sometimes I just don't wanna dive too deep
Because the depths are where the treasure lies
And the darkness is terrifying.
May 2018 · 55
An provocative experience
Feel this beat in your bones
Let me know when you never wanna go home
Tell me when you wanna go slow
Show me how you want this more

Now get in line
No, there's no standing by
Your time is now
Wreck my ******* life
Wreck my ******* life
Lemme breathe into those thighs
Don't believe I won't bite
Cuz I might

Uh-oh,we lost track of time
And now it's 5
Continue in the morning
Place your head on mine
Explosion time!
I was listening to fall out boy xD
Apr 2018 · 1.5k
Inspire me beauty.
She looks gorgeous, and I sit here
pen in hand
  forever wanting.
Just a thought
Apr 2018 · 195
Simple words from the past
Poured my heart
into the cup
you hold
Pain in my chest.
Drink it
my love
you'll feel.
The feeling of my intention was clear.
At one time or another.
"Find a place to share what's inside."
"Maybe, maybe it'll fade, at least for awhile."
"Mix it up a bit, shine light where you spread the dark."

Suffice it to say, I'm worried this won't turn out the way I had hoped.
It's not to say I'm on the brink of the end,
But at the moment in this lifelong battle, when my eye flickers to a detail I missed.

There's a ***** in my armor.
A small sliver.
As that unwanted passenger swings it's blade once again, sparks fly, and in that second of light, revealed.

The sliver is now a *****.
I can't seal this and sooner or later it'll spill out.
I just wish, one day, it'll stop.

Until then, I'll burn away and rise from the ashes like a phoenix to continue this infinite cycle.
Sorry if you're reading this. I actually wanted to mix my post with positivity but I'm definitely at a low point more often nowadays. It happens and I'll bounce back. I just didn't want anyone to think this was about self harm. It isn't.
Apr 2018 · 171
Telephone nights
Across the lines
the sound it traveled.
Unto me
your voice unraveled
an audio frequency
Miles apart
but still you feel near
a spoken
"I love you"
is as if you have whispered
into my ear.
Accepting what you can get from time to time.
Apr 2018 · 154
A light in the distance
I fell into discord
got used to this hole
But when you sang, your song
I realized
I could never go back
oh no no
no no no no....
I don't want to be here anymore.
Sometimes I find old things I've written and present them.
I'd like to write words that
shine like
stars
with lines of meaning
vast
like planets
that live in the cold dark part
of my
heart

let's call it
space

be the hero who brought peace
to a nation that deemed me equal
Who's ruler saw
in me
a way to build a galactic empire

Instead, my words are simple
the meanings are hopefully clear
I just want them to be great
So I can capture your mind
and submit ya appeal
Because I think I once cast a light
that definitely puzzled your eyes

I just want to show you
I've become a better
guy.
Utter nonsense.
Mar 2018 · 101
Sing
My soul is set on
'visible'
when
I'm in
the shower.
I sing in the shower. XD
Mar 2018 · 216
Twisted Break up
Through your tears
And my actions
Our fire went out
Our fire went out
your voice echoing
we're better than this
you've broken down
you've broken down
Though I have found
A life without love
is no way, to be found...
In a home without doors
I constructed your decor...
Out of memories
Out of memories
Guilt, blame, and shame
A spell left behind to keep
you locked away.....
Maybe someone can release you
someday.
Just had the urge to write.
Something along the lines of a break up, where a person knows they've put you in a place emotionally where you're cut off from others.
The doctors gave me a pill not to feel
You place hands on me to heal
I try not to make this a big deal
I try not to make this a big deal

I'm trying not to deal
But I live in a casino
and the currency
is my sanity

I deal in sin
I deal in skin
Please don't take your hand away
I want to cash out

I want to let go of all of this
and tear up the deed
I want to sell everything
I want to go out of business
I want to wake up and whisper
Here once stood Casino Depression
The many words that come your way when explaining isn't so simple. But don't ever believe it's up to anyone else to save you from yourself. Support is great but.....in the end, you make the final decision to help, you.
Mar 2018 · 91
Something
You ain't see nothing
You ain't see nothing
How could you even say that
How could you even say that

There's no one better
There's no one better
How could you even say that
How could you even say that

If I ,could see through your eyes
Well then I, could live a life

You ain't see nothing wrong
With me
There's no one better
than you

Something makes you
Something makes you
perfect.....
Repetitive, but so is thought.
I never said I was - she said
on hitching breath
while two knuckles deep,
can we go three with three

Guttural moan

Against this, so don't - she purred
A lick of fire against my lips
In a moment like this
I want more
Can I at least
for once
be
Icarus
just a random thought of being in the moment
Mar 2018 · 941
You can't comfort this
"It wasnt the same as they describe it in the books.
Its not like watching a movie and getting teary-eyed because it connected with you in some way, shape or form.

There was a deeper sort of pain, beyond the physical spectrum.
A feeling they don't describe.
It was akin to those weird feelings you get while listening to music.

And Ill tell you this. It wasnt easy to get over.

It didn't go away fast.

It HURT.....

It hurt every **** day."
Trying to somehow capture the feeling of love lost. (Think back to that Twilight New Moon scene where Bella sits in her chair for about a year as the seasons go by. Corny yes, but that was a really good scene.)
Words, they're stuck and stumbling, from the tip of my tongue
numb lips unfrozen
when your image runs across
My tear stained reddened eyes!
Can I call this love a cancer?
Can I call this love a cancer?

Cuz I breathe in your laughter and smiles like smoke!
And I'd happily smile and choke!
If its the last thing I see, before I croak!
Can I call this love a cancer?

My heart its been so cold!
If I had a dollar for everytime someone told me they loved me, Id be broke!
What makes me so special, an abundance of self-doubt
Can you rip out your eyes and trade with me?
Ive ripped out mine so I could take yours
and see what you say you see
What you seem to believe
you see.....
In me!
Sometimes I like to write my own lyrics to songs, that I listen to.
This one was written a few years ago, while I listened to Dance Gavin Dance's "People you Know."
Mar 2018 · 210
Social Meter on E
Hello , how are you
What would you like?
No problem, that'll be $2.67
Yes , the prices go up without us knowing
Here you go, have a great day
(are you ok? You good?)
(I'm fine)
Where do you want me?
Ok, I finished, now where?
I just put out milk, are they just guzzling it?
(are you ok, you good?)
(yeah, I'm good)
Hi. Yes. Iced or hot?
ICED or hot?
$4.25.
Have a great day.
Can I clock out now?
See you tomorrow.
(Im so tired of saying "I'm ok." Because then I think about it and realize, I'm not always okay. I'm just....living. The only way I know how to.)
Work, can be draining.
Just wanted this out instead of keeping it in.
Mar 2018 · 9.7k
Stuck
I'm kind of stuck
At least... I think I am
Somewhere between telling everyone I know to *******
And "just please come hold me friend"

Some place in between an uneasy heart and hectic mind

"I'm depressed"
Can't I just say it without having to explain why?
Sometimes I don't even know which reason to choose

Short replies

"You seem like you don't want to talk"

You're right, but I also want to reach out
I want out
I want to let go of everything
And capture it all in my arms

like a fire fly in the palm of restless hands,
Just let me hold on to your light
Atleast, just for tonight

Because I'm feeling stuck.
Mar 2018 · 256
Bitter Breakup
Look at me again
with those guarded eyes,
freckled with bitterness
like glitter, and the forgotten love you can still taste on your tongue.

Do you breath a sigh of relief, now that you're gone?

My want is an ungranted wish
Since my words shot down all of the stars
That you once cast your gaze upon.
Mar 2018 · 149
Never
Until my face eased back
from the form of a smile
due to a memory
of you.
I never would have believed
it could happen,
even if you told me.
Mar 2018 · 314
1:13 in the Morning
Each step, feels like shes walking in
quicksand
Last chance, it feels like shes got nothing
left

She was once the ocean...
You were a sailor at sea
Alive with excitement of her mysteries
Till you finished your chart and took your leave..

A song, was the thought of your voice in her
head
A demon, you've left scars buried deep in her
chest

She was once infinite space
You were an astronaut exploring
One small step for love, one giant step for the bed
Once your flag was planted, you packed up and left.....

Looking back on the past
Your mind not allowed to rest
You had forgotten all the reasons you fell
And years after the end you remember it all...
Seems like you've fallen again...
What a *******.
Mar 2018 · 171
A story with a bad ending
"It wasnt the same as they describe it in the books.

Its not like watching a movie and getting teary-eyed because it connected with you in some way, shape or form.

There was a deeper sort of pain,beyond the physical spectrum.

A feeling they don't describe.
It was akin to those weird feelings you get while listening to music.

And Ill tell you this.
It wasnt easy to get over.

It didn't go away fast.

It HURT.....

It hurt every **** day."
Mar 2018 · 149
A crowns worth
If I had known
would I still be on a throne?
One created in which I held such,
A beautiful world in the palm of my hands

I've turned everything to sand
this is the home on which my castle stands
My actions have become the waves creeping
up the shore
washing it all away

I'm too stubborn to make things better on a re-do
There'd be so many memories to lose
A good decision for me, is like searching for a needle in a haystack
Regret is an emotion, you cant take back

When you regretted your love for me, that's when I knew I went so far, I couldn't come back.....

— The End —