Asiah Mangham: Poems

Aug 2018 · 198

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Asiah Mangham Aug 2018

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I'm mad you left
I'm sad you're not here
The words you forced me to hear
The worlds I dream to relive
We die to live but we live to die
But what is living if you can't live forever?
And what is dying when it's under the gun of solitude?

#living #dying #gone

Aug 2018 · 231

Lemons

Asiah Mangham Aug 2018

Lemons

You can't gain anything from winning and won’t receive anything from losing. When Life hands you Lemons, what's the point of making Lemonade if it's Bitter?
Your Buzzard luck speaks volumes.
Can't **** nothing and won't nothing die
When the world lies flat...
Bitter Is The New Sweet

-Life

#bitter #buzzardluck #lemons #life

Aug 2018 · 222

Perspective

Asiah Mangham Aug 2018

Perspective

A Hopeless Romantic.
Loving the sight and sound of "love" but not quite loving the emotion of love.
Romance has nothing on the art of swaying a heart.
Hopelessly losing love or Hopelessly surviving.
Hopelessly finding love or Hopelessly rewinding.
When you're Hopelessly Romancing it isn't the dwelling sight of Romance
But,
simply its Perspective.

Do you know what love feels like?

#romance #perspective #hoplessly #surviving

Jul 2018 · 260

Worth

Asiah Mangham Jul 2018

Worth

Know your worth before you know anything else
Because in the end that's all you'll have to stand for

#stand #worth

Jul 2018 · 324

Convinced

Asiah Mangham Jul 2018

Convinced

You're not worthless but...
It's hard to convince a suffocating mind you are
It's hard to convince a drowning heart you are
Convincing yourself that you are worthy of being loved
....
Is a Sweet Taste of The After Life

#death #heart #soul

Jul 2018 · 162

Broken

Asiah Mangham Jul 2018

Broken

The feeling of feeling unworthy is deadly to ones Soul & Heart
It's not that you're heart broken
But the sense of your body and mind being broken.

#body #mind #broken

Jul 2018 · 266

Never Been

Asiah Mangham Jul 2018

Never Been

Speak like it's never been
Spoken
Explain like it's never been
Noticed
Feel as our hearts never connected
As one
Love like it's never been
Lost

#never #speak #explain #feel #love

Jul 2018 · 339

Coast

Asiah Mangham Jul 2018

Coast

Lie with me as I feel the world on my shoulders
As I feel you in my mind and only in spirit
Lost between sea and land
We are coasting in paradise with the waves

#waves #coast #world #spirit

Jul 2018 · 313

Wounded

Asiah Mangham Jul 2018

Wounded

Your expectations were to high.
Your wound had a scab torn off by the unbearable truth.
A wounded animal like my wounded conscious mind.
The injury gone but the threat and fear still aware.

#wound #scab #torn

Jul 2018 · 256

Notice

Asiah Mangham Jul 2018

Notice

A bee notices nothing of the beauty the flower it tends.
It has not mended
What it can offer ... What it can bring
The life it can save or take
A flower notices everything of the bee that lands.

#notice #bee #flower

Jul 2018 · 251

Watch me

Asiah Mangham Jul 2018

Watch me

Watch me as I cry
Watch me as I feel no reason why,
Watch me as I judge
Watch me as I drag myself through the
mud.

#cry #drag #judge

Jul 2018 · 150

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Asiah Mangham Jul 2018

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The beauty I speak
Is not the beauty of me
The beauty that leaks
Is not the beauty I weep.

#weep #me #beauty

Jun 2018 · 195

Vulnerable

Asiah Mangham Jun 2018

Vulnerable

The wound isn't there anymore.
The more you fought and the more you've lost. Succomb to the war it is nothing but matter now.
As it always have been.
It's everywhere now..
On you .... In you .... It is you.
You are a wound only to be discovered as a scab. Picked and naked to vulnerability that lies within.

Cut by the unknown. Naked to known.
Are you really healed?

#wound #vulnerable #war

Jun 2018 · 575

I'm Sorry

Asiah Mangham Jun 2018

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry I lost you trying to find me.
I'm sorry I lost myself trying to find me.
I'm sorry my love hurt you.
But,
I'm even sorrier that my love destroyed me.
I'm sorry because I'm still lost.
Most of all...
I'm sorry you lost you, thinking that you found me.

#sorry #you #lost

Jun 2018 · 233

Mine < Mind

Asiah Mangham Jun 2018

Mine < Mind

Constant competition with your mind and body.
Giving a lick only to receive it 10x harder.
The sirens of you wale.
The louder they become the more unaware you become to the feeling.
It's not a fight anymore ... Just a beat down.

#sirens #fight #mind

Jun 2018 · 369

Numb

Asiah Mangham Jun 2018

Numb

Why has my heart grown numb to you?
Why does it feel like it's blocked out?
My mind sees you but it still doesn't.
Having to hear you build that brick wall and never tear it down.
Why has my heart grown numb to you?
This mind of mine is so full of life but this heart of mine won't let it.
I've grown numb the people around me.
I've grown numb to the spirit within me.
My heart is confidently lost and it doesn't feel the need to be found.
It's not hiding.
Captivating my soul only to capture it and keep it as it's prisoner.
When will it stop feeling so numb?
Only the ticking time bomb invisible to the visible holds the answer.
My mind has become invisible to my heart.
Leaving it behind lost wondering why?
Why leave me lost in my thoughts?
Asking this empty cold place
When will you come back?
The questions I would ask this still numb heart.

#heart #numb #lost #invisible

Jun 2018 · 301

Pretty Bird

Asiah Mangham Jun 2018

Pretty Bird

Confined by the walls that protect me.
Confined by the walls of society.
I wish i could just fly.
Spread my wings and go wherever they can carry me.
A pretty bird only needs a push to leave.
But what if it's never pushed?
Always stuck with a burden of being the best and never feeling like it
Truly and Just Simply
Lived.

#stuck #confined #live #fly

Jun 2018 · 267

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Asiah Mangham Jun 2018

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Is it lust over heart?
I want heart but what do you want?
The loss of boundaries between us made me loose mine also.
You take pride over me and what you have.
But, all I want is pride over your heart and mind.
Why can't I tell you anything?
It's like a blockade has built it's wall over my thoughts.
I seal my mouth and my mind with the burden of you never understanding.
With a little joke and snarl at my wildest imagination makes the rest of my unimaginable thought leak to a world of lost hope.
Hoping that this wall would've been broken by our repetition of so called "Love"
But, by every word and every kiss my walls build higher and even more stronger.

#wall #love #lust #imagine

Jun 2018 · 205

Careless

Asiah Mangham Jun 2018

Careless

Care so much, yet so little
Feel so much, yet so little
What do you feel?
The feeling of everyone and yourself at once left you drained.
Physically, Mentally and even Spiritually
If someway you could come out of your body and stare at yourself
What would you see?
Who would you be?
Maybe I should ask myself these questions.
But, honestly I wouldn't have an answer.
For you or me.
What does that make me?
Who does that make me?
I want so much, yet so little.
I love so much, yet so little
Maybe...
I should stop doing so much and do so little
Or do so little and yet so much

#much #little

Jun 2018 · 437

Us

Asiah Mangham Jun 2018

Us

Expressionless...
The words that paint us.
The loss of words and the loss of feeling between each other is unreal.
Maybe we're not meant to be,
Maybe we're pushing for something that isn't real.
The lack of connection between our lives and our bodies.
Why can't we connect?
Both of our bodies decompressing to the sound of us.
Are we not real?
Are we something unimaginable?
The harder I push and the harder my body tries to be everything
We loose Everything...
Our souls are distant partners whose fates weren't meant to touch.
You're my imagination and I'm your lustful dream.
Take me to the place where our mind and bodies
Touch, Caress, and Embrace one another.
Sad to say Us is my wildest imagination.

#imagination #dream #real #expressionless #us #embrace #touch #caress #freeverse

Jun 2018 · 253

Believe

Asiah Mangham Jun 2018

Believe

Believe in me as I believe in you.
Broken in but never healed.
A novel never finished, but a page never unturned.

#believe #broken #heal #novel #poem

Jun 2018 · 248

Beauty

Asiah Mangham Jun 2018

Beauty

As I watch beauty drip from your face.
I wonder why it ceased to stop?
When you've found your inner beauty they don't see.
When you've found reason to your beauty.
But, you're the only one with real natural eyes, with the burden to only see natural.
...
Is beauty really beautiful when you're the only one to discover all it's wonders?

#beauty #beautiful #natural #poem

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