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"hypotheticals" poems
her words snap me back to reality, away from supposition and hypotheticals, into her arms where I feel safe. blue eyes that pierce whatever darkness i thought i had and lied to myself about, eyes that see me for a who I am and who I want to be. imagine walking down a darkened path, content in the streetlights that guided you home, and spotting something small and kind. whatever it is you imagine, it beckons you to hold it and when you do, you smile, truly and impulsively. that essence is a woman, and one i admire. someone beatiful, kind, and funny, including her incessant snoring on already sleepless nights because a cat is begging for food but you feeling comfort in their REM cycle. too little space to be your own, but enough heart to bridge the gap. imagine, then, that someone places your hand on their lap when you drive, but are equally willing to do the same, in what feels like an equivalent exchange of heart and sheer goofiness. and tell yourself it doesn't feel right that you were able to find home in them, effortlessly and happily. you won't and can't, and neither can i. words can't express that she has been friend, confidant, and a visual marvel, and someone i envision as a pillar of my bright existence.
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Jul 14, 2023
Jul 14, 2023 at 9:25 PM UTC
a woman i admire
Why does it have to be this way? Why do I have to spend years of my life in fear? There is so much hate for something so natural. Is it the misogyny? That I, a woman, dare defy males the pleasure of having me? Is it religious hate? That I, a lesbian, dare defy God's image of mankind? Is it the fetishization? That who I love is more akin to a **** category than a real relationship? It could be, or it could be other causes. The fact is, it shouldn't matter. We've all heard it, I'm born this way. After a while, the same argument doesn't mean anything though. I don't know how else to convey to these idiots I didn't choose this. I didn't choose to lose my childhood best friends, Or to be outed to my high school because I trusted the wrong person. To live in fear that my parents would not accept me for who I am. To have such a fear of myself, I sabotage any relationship I begin. I know I should have pride, and I do. I just don't know if the good outweighs the bad yet. All of the good are hypotheticals. Thinking about my future wife, and house, and relationship dynamics. I fantasize about a shapeless form that will one day be someone I love. But for now, that is all it is, a fantasy. I want it to be a reality, I want my parents supporting and loving me to be a reality too. I want to find the person I am brave enough to hold hands with, in spite of the rage that it causes. I just want to be happy.
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Jun 15, 2021
Jun 15, 2021 at 9:16 PM UTC
Ponderings for the Future
if tomorrow never comes it must be the end of the world and i know i won't be ready for afterlife i won't say a final goodbye but i know you're the kind of person who likes defined edges and endings so i'll settle for a compromise when you say goodbye, i'll say goodbye goodbye, that is, until next time
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Sep 22, 2021
Sep 22, 2021 at 10:52 PM UTC
hypotheticals
We met at noon between picnic tables and humid Maryland heat. Either you or the sun made me dizzy, as I talked and you nodded. We were both distracted by the thought of air-conditioning. We parted in August among mini-vans and goodbye kisses. My eyes followed the license plate as you drove away, we agreed to sail catamarans the next chance we had. We had both noted there was something in the water that summer, something purer than the water from the Chesapeake. We rejoined in December under a Caribbean sun, not as humid as Maryland’s, surrounded by water purer than the Chesapeake. There was still a buzz around us, like the air before a Maryland heat storm, to convince us the year of letters was not for naught. We fell back to old habits on the Dutch side of Saint Martin. We talked like the future was a choice and we had opted out. We avoided words like regret and yesterday and repeated words like now, now, now and we spoke in hypotheticals. We planned our house, or what it would be if we ever got boring enough to say words like tomorrow. We stopped speaking in July after one thousand four hundred days of avoiding the next. We should have known we were doomed to fail when “our song” was by Old ***** ******* and “our house” didn’t include a family room. We should have known when our plans never involved the word tomorrow.
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Jul 12, 2012
Jul 12, 2012 at 10:22 PM UTC
Cross-Mid Atlantic
We have buried the (((center))) of our being in layers of rigid hypotheticals, pouring the cement of impossibility and refusing to drill deeper for fear of an oil spill, an explosion, the expulsion of a dormant soul. [If we] [[If you]] [[[If I]]] The taste of a silent stroke on my tongue, iron from the blood of unhealed wounds. Metallic memories refusing to be forgotten fighting to be remembered. [You fools] [[You fool]] [[[I am a fool]]] The scent of a carcass creeps into my nose, rotten flesh from a casket broken up. Frankenstein fears refusing to be mocked, fighting for resurrection. Even the bones of ancient species remerge as fossils to be found. -lf-
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Feb 13, 2015
Feb 13, 2015 at 10:22 AM UTC
Fissure
There was a smile in your eyes a reflection that was allowed to last about three minutes and thirty-two seconds before you said you needed to swiffer the floors later and then it was tucked away under rolled up sleeves that did dishes and wiped counters only to return when contemplating how clean everything would be if what did the sweeping were my hands and knees.
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May 14, 2014
May 14, 2014 at 3:07 PM UTC
Smiling at Hypotheticals
It seems to me, That we live oh so, Vicariously Dreaming up hypotheticals Without ever leaving the windowsill. A stand-still, if you will. What good is a man's word if most of the feelings go unheard. Unable to project outwardly into the world they think they know. Whether real life or fantasy I believe That the collective extent of imagination, is me. Or at least part. How lost is a man, whose demeanor shows no heart? One beats, but one seeks passionate adventure right from the start. How will he know of the ecstasy that lives within you and me? Maybe we should go up to him and hug him, enchanted by electricity. Synapses fire But the soul flows. Breathe deep, Watch the seed of hope grow Tomorrow never knows, Now may be all we have Let's let go, It pains me to see you sad Changes are the strangest, Yet a fascinating constant. Go in your own direction, Before you wonder where everyone went You've made a dent but cant prevent The relentless ambush of signals Steering you away. It's hard, I know it is. Be the light to shine your way, and stray from the unscrupulous. The times burned are lessons learned, Take charge of that which you've yearned. The ingredients are there, you just have to stir. Share the fruits of your labor To the open, closed, The in-betweens, And those yet  to be exposed. The spirit is stronger than Our brains currently interpret. Inside the insight is where we undoubtedly flourish. Let's please, Feed each other if we're malnourished Let the emotions come to the surface, To break free and find our purpose Don't be nervous, show no fear. We all pass on, But we're always here. I just feel we must leave a legacy, That won't disappear. Reincarnated to influence and reproduce love. In my absence, I've still got your back From the cosmos above, within, and all around. We can never stop the learning process, while handing out all we've found. Symmetrical symphonies without even making a sound. ..So we'll let the soundtrack to existence play.. But remember, Every word becomes a part of the experience, Even that, which you do not say.
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Aug 25, 2013
Aug 25, 2013 at 5:47 PM UTC
So, let it out
It seems to me, That we live oh so, Vicariously Dreaming up hypotheticals Without ever leaving the windowsill. A stand-still, if you will. What good is a man's word if most of the feelings go unheard. Unable to project outwardly into the world they think they know. Whether real life or fantasy I believe That the collective extent of imagination, is me. Or at least part. How lost is a man, whose demeanor shows no heart? One beats, but one seeks passionate adventure right from the start. How will he know of the ecstasy that lives within you and me? Maybe we should go up to him and hug him, enchanted by electricity. Synapses fire But the soul flows. Breathe deep, Watch the seed of hope grow Tomorrow never knows, Now may be all we have Let's let go, It pains me to see you sad Changes are the strangest, Yet a fascinating constant. Go in your own direction, Before you wonder where everyone went You've made a dent but cant prevent The relentless ambush of signals Steering you away. It's hard, I know it is. Be the light to shine your way, and stray from the unscrupulous. The times burned are lessons learned, Take charge of that which you've yearned. The ingredients are there, you just have to stir. Share the fruits of your labor To the open, closed, The in-betweens, And those yet  to be exposed. The spirit is stronger than Our brains currently interpret. Inside the insight is where we undoubtedly flourish. Let's please, Feed each other if we're malnourished Let the emotions come to the surface, To break free and find our purpose Don't be nervous, show no fear. We all pass on, But we're always here. I just feel we must leave a legacy, That won't disappear. Reincarnated to influence and reproduce love. In my absence, I've still got your back From the cosmos above, within, and all around. We can never stop the learning process, while handing out all we've found. Symmetrical symphonies without even making a sound. ..So we'll let the soundtrack to existence play.. But remember, Every word becomes a part of the experience, Even that, which you do not say.
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I'm falling like the rain Spinning and colliding with everything. It's all so lovely, But it's the pungent smell of lust That takes my breath away. You wore a magnificent disguise You were so beautiful That I thought you would break the curse Of my bruised and ****** heart With every vein intact. When we kissed, It was electric But I never asked you to go farther. I didn't want to do the things That you wanted to do But "no" and "not here" Were some letters strung together That you could not identify. After your strong will honed in on me Threatened me Violated me and then threw me away I did not know what to make of it. Shades of grey, that's what it was. It was not black and white as I expected Any type of ****** manipulation to be. I just assumed that If that happened to me I would know it Press charges And tell someone. Anyone. Victim blaming would not affect me. After all, I am a feminist, right? But much to my surprise, It took a brutal toll on my existence. So many dangerous, pernicious things Can sparkle beautifully. They catch your eye As if to trick you And make you second guess yourself. That's how they **** you in. You always think in hypotheticals That it will look clear as day. Until it happens to you.
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Jan 19, 2014
Jan 19, 2014 at 1:20 PM UTC
Even Knives and Guns come in Silver and Gold
Elbows propped on tabletops, we roll out our worlds, like a red carpet, across the surface between us. Mapping out our weeks we speak in riddles only able to be understood by present company and others with an acute appreciation for the absurd. Round 1 We begin by bouncing pleasantries mingled with snark and littered with nonsense stories across the space where our scotch glasses drain lazily between us. Round 2 Brings with it a new tone- we begin to slip into hypotheticals and start the dangerous and all too familiar process of looking over our own shoulders. The past seems to sneak into the pauses and reminiscing starts to seem too surreal to be appealing. Round 3 And we are forced to keep reluctant company with the regret that now speckles the tabletop in front of me. Our eyes retreat from each other as our  mouths start forming around our greatest inadequacies. Fear of the future, we're petrified by the present. We are forgetting how to be hesitant as coping mechanics drift and split. Round 4 **** starts to get real. You try to be ambivalent. And I just get angry. Round 5 I am entertaining the possibility of weeping publically. (It's an unfortunate emotional default setting) Round 6 We find our way back to the familiar. Accessing the damage we joke to save face while working to wind the loose ends back together again to stash them from where they came. (But nothing ever fits back into its box as easily after its been unpacked) Each week we try to be each other's comfort zone to crawl inside to rest awhile. But tonight we're too exhausted and too self-absorbed and too similar to get it right. We'll try again next week, on the next high-top next Wednesday night.
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May 21, 2013
May 21, 2013 at 3:48 AM UTC
Wednesday Nights at the High-Top Table
Elbows propped on tabletops, we roll out our worlds, like a red carpet, across the surface between us. Mapping out our weeks we speak in riddles only able to be understood by present company and others with an acute appreciation for the absurd. Round 1 We begin by bouncing pleasantries mingled with snark and littered with nonsense stories across the space where our scotch glasses drain lazily between us. Round 2 Brings with it a new tone- we begin to slip into hypotheticals and start the dangerous and all too familiar process of looking over our own shoulders. The past seems to sneak into the pauses and reminiscing starts to seem too surreal to be appealing. Round 3 And we are forced to keep reluctant company with the regret that now speckles the tabletop in front of me. Our eyes retreat from each other as our  mouths start forming around our greatest inadequacies. Fear of the future, we're petrified by the present. We are forgetting how to be hesitant as coping mechanics drift and split. Round 4 **** starts to get real. You try to be ambivalent. And I just get angry. Round 5 I am entertaining the possibility of weeping publically. (It's an unfortunate emotional default setting) Round 6 We find our way back to the familiar. Accessing the damage we joke to save face while working to wind the loose ends back together again to stash them from where they came. (But nothing ever fits back into its box as easily after its been unpacked) Each week we try to be each other's comfort zone to crawl inside to rest awhile. But tonight we're too exhausted and too self-absorbed and too similar to get it right. We'll try again next week, on the next high-top next Wednesday night.
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To speak in good taste: My mouth is full, but this food is delicious. Since I prepared the meal, could you wash the dishes? It's on the tip of my tongue: I know what I mean to say, but consonants and vowels are hard to place, so give me some time. This isn't a race. It could always be worse: Yes, it could be, but spare the neurotic, because hypotheticals, are never exotic. If there's a will, there's a way: Excuse the jaded **** who puts thought into thought, and understands the value of a buck. But to speak freely, and to lose my filter, our differences are commonplace. I'm a flower that withers. And at the end of the day, who am I to say, that my frustrations differ from yours, because we keep all of our truths locked behind closed doors.
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Nov 3, 2012
Nov 3, 2012 at 10:10 PM UTC
Commonplace Indifference
That emptiness creeps in, I am alone. Your mouth is moving, But I can't hear anything but: "..using me.." He says. "..using me.." I am so breakable. You're only speaking in, Hypotheticals. Is it this easy? Disappointment in myself, Is overwhelming. When did I give you the power, To break me? It's too late. I've already let you past the gates. Infiltrated. You know it all and, I can't go back now. I can't go back. I don't want to, And I don't know how. This life is meaningless, Without you in it now. Don't walk away, Don't shut me out. Wanting you is the only thing, This was ever about. But one day you will not remember. One day you will walk away.
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Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 4:57 PM UTC
Insecure
here they come amassing their potential greatness in the back of my mind there they go a squanderin around the bug spins twice for the amusement of the hypotheticals and sporadic leeches the door slams shut before opening again forthe greatest of the releases and the nonsensicals pour out just this once for perhaps the only andlast time they march forth in order of smallest to largest. silliest to unprovoked wearing ******* clown shoes and false faces some with dollar signs still burning the palms of their hands but most with 10,000 mile stares do they still write for the universal, for the greatest spining reversal? do they still speak in the most straightforward of riddles? does anyone still read into them... does the faucet still incessantly drip idealized water memories... I can only see the slope, not the gradient I can only feel the dew, not the grass i can only taste the crab, not the shell I can only hear the music, not thewords facing divinity and scouring myself clean in the shame it forces seeing the exact center of the venn diagram and being blinded by the duality therein ***** and links 234 simplicity is the most difficult thing to master books don't write themselves authurs can't design inspiration liquids still sing
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Jun 20, 2014
Jun 20, 2014 at 2:14 AM UTC
pogrom and hubris
it's a brown paper bag poetry kind of day -- one of those with multitudes of foggy fleeting passive agressive hypotheticals and I realize, that all I have to share are half-assed transcriptions of an intangible boredom only born of a self-inflicted state of stagnation this isn't a poem. but my guess is that you're indifferent anyway my guess is that the words are flowing through you passing right through no time to sink in no, people like me thoughts like mine they're so tired used up -- old news no, we don't stick you'll forget soon enough what it is that brought you here to this place of tired hypotheticals
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Sep 21, 2012
Sep 21, 2012 at 4:23 AM UTC
stale breath of air
Twenty Four Hours. Over a year ago My theatre teacher told me And a group of my closest friends To write down Exactly what we would do if We found out we only had Twenty-four hours left To live. My original draft was very juvenile, Full of dramatic kisses And dying in my crush's arms. It was beautiful For a seventeen-year-old romantic. I don't know if my teacher realized That I would become slightly Obsessed with What I would do If I had twenty-four hours to live. But whether she realized or not, Obsessed I became. I wrote "24" or my hand each day For weeks, To remind me that I could be Dead in twenty-four hours, Or less. I wrote at least fifty drafts Of what I would do If I found out at that moment That I had twenty-four hours left. I would write a new draft when I decided That the previous draft was Too out-dated. I think the longest lasting draft During my surge of Twenty-four hour hypotheticals Lasted one week. One. I was totally obsessed with daring greatly, Doing the things I had longed to do For weeks or months or years, And suddenly I had the permission I needed To do them: Twenty-four hours to live. My drafting came to an end when My best friend Handed me the best Twenty-four hour outline I had ever seen. At the top read the disclosure: And you get into heaven no matter what. I couldn't surpass that list with any of my own ideas. And my obsessment was already dimming. A year and a half or more later, I don't make drafts. I'm not obsessed. I'm not going to die. But every once in a while When I feel like I'm not living Life To it's fullest, I write "24" on my hand for A few days. Just to remind myself, That at any moment, My twenty-four hours left to live Could be up.
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Jun 2, 2013
Jun 2, 2013 at 10:44 PM UTC
Twenty-Four Hours
Twenty Four Hours. Over a year ago My theatre teacher told me And a group of my closest friends To write down Exactly what we would do if We found out we only had Twenty-four hours left To live. My original draft was very juvenile, Full of dramatic kisses And dying in my crush's arms. It was beautiful For a seventeen-year-old romantic. I don't know if my teacher realized That I would become slightly Obsessed with What I would do If I had twenty-four hours to live. But whether she realized or not, Obsessed I became. I wrote "24" or my hand each day For weeks, To remind me that I could be Dead in twenty-four hours, Or less. I wrote at least fifty drafts Of what I would do If I found out at that moment That I had twenty-four hours left. I would write a new draft when I decided That the previous draft was Too out-dated. I think the longest lasting draft During my surge of Twenty-four hour hypotheticals Lasted one week. One. I was totally obsessed with daring greatly, Doing the things I had longed to do For weeks or months or years, And suddenly I had the permission I needed To do them: Twenty-four hours to live. My drafting came to an end when My best friend Handed me the best Twenty-four hour outline I had ever seen. At the top read the disclosure: And you get into heaven no matter what. I couldn't surpass that list with any of my own ideas. And my obsessment was already dimming. A year and a half or more later, I don't make drafts. I'm not obsessed. I'm not going to die. But every once in a while When I feel like I'm not living Life To it's fullest, I write "24" on my hand for A few days. Just to remind myself, That at any moment, My twenty-four hours left to live Could be up.
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“What's wrong with you?” they say, “Can't you calm down for just a moment, Take a deep breath-- Slow down, Get centered and Relax. Stop being so **** negative, What's the worry, What's the hurry? You can't solve every problem, Let it go-- Hey not so fast. Maybe, yes just maybe If you stopped being so **** frightened Well then maybe for a moment All those fears would dissipate, If you just stopped your overthinking Your hypotheticals, Possibilities, If you let life flow all around you You'd have that peace you say you crave.” But they are wrong. Anxiety isn't nervousness. Anxiety isn't cowardice. Anxiety is a call to those Whose eyes are open to the fight. It is a certain sensitivity An alertness; A war machine never idle There’s a buzzing below the surface, There is no calm before this storm. It is the constant sentinel Vigilant in clash with Paralysis, There is no honor, No heroism in this struggle Whose burden countermands reward. It is not the soldier’s nature to relax. It is an instinct, It is concern for you, for me, for others, It is a special steadfast mutiny When Psyche fights the soul. You say it is a weakness. You subject me to societal court martial, Though you cavalierly create conflicts You say I am afraid. But those consummate in combat, Introspective and insightful, True veterans of life’s battles Know, It's fear defines the brave.
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Jun 29, 2017
Jun 29, 2017 at 12:55 AM UTC
Definition
If the world was a child I'd make it sit in the corner And think about its wicked ways If love was corporeal I'd sew it to my side And bind it forever to me If the Mississippi ran drunk with whiskey I'd become a steamship captain I'd become a riverboat queen If my father was a rock He'd be an impossible Immovable monument To sweet sweat and mulish heads If my blood was honey I'd bake off little pieces of my body And feed it to the men I meet If fear was an end table I would throw out all my coasters Leaving stained bare wood behind If relationships were chemicals I would mix them into medicines And always label them properly If my sister was a dragon She'd blow glass from sand With every breath If the mountains breathed like human beings I'd climb inside their inhales And never come out again If my mother was water She'd flow wild and abandoned Weaving canyons in her path If my bed was a time machine I'd go back to my first kiss And just keep swimming If I was a wolf I would howl and howl and howl Until I drowned out everything else Saying take and eat take and drink do this in remembrance of me
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Mar 27, 2014
Mar 27, 2014 at 6:10 PM UTC
Hypotheticals
-------------------------------As seen on Taste.com*----------------------------- Ingredients: One will need a portion of the following: 1) 50g of self-imposed isolation (optional: w/ drawn curtains) 2) a tablespoon of misguided misanthropy (store brand does the trick) 3) a propensity for experiencing negative stigma 4) ethyl alcohol enough to form parasitic relationship (approx: half bottle of grey goose) 5) 1kg of pervasive fear of the unknown (found in Future aisle amongst acquaintanceships, unwelcome hypotheticals) 6) a 3/4 cup of ground self-loathing  + the root 7) lettuce 8) tomato 9) cucumber 10) onions 11) avocado Method: Step one: place self-imposed isolation in a slow cooker along with misguided misanthropy. Cook on low for 8 HOURS. This will make LONELINESS. Step two: preheat oven to 200C fan-forced. take loneliness from  slow-cooker then douse in alcohol before placing in oven. it's meant to burn (you're meant to burn.) Step three: bring a *** to boil and throw negative stigma in to cook until it softens. Step four: cut pervasive fear of the unknown into strips and braise. Step five: plate pervasive fear and negative stigma. this combination is the foundation. Step six: chop vegetables and mix into standard garden salad, then plate (one may plate how they wish, presentation -- to you, at least, matters not, or little; here's the one who wears tracksuit pants to parties. your parents have to remind you to brush your hair). garnish with self-loathing, decorate plate with the root of self-loathing. Step seven: plate loneliness. truest to the recipe if loneliness is focal point of the plate. if it's cooked properly it will bleed. so will you -- just give it time. Happy cooking!!
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May 3, 2018
May 3, 2018 at 10:23 AM UTC
Family Friendly Recipe :D
-------------------------------As seen on Taste.com*----------------------------- Ingredients: One will need a portion of the following: 1) 50g of self-imposed isolation (optional: w/ drawn curtains) 2) a tablespoon of misguided misanthropy (store brand does the trick) 3) a propensity for experiencing negative stigma 4) ethyl alcohol enough to form parasitic relationship (approx: half bottle of grey goose) 5) 1kg of pervasive fear of the unknown (found in Future aisle amongst acquaintanceships, unwelcome hypotheticals) 6) a 3/4 cup of ground self-loathing  + the root 7) lettuce 8) tomato 9) cucumber 10) onions 11) avocado Method: Step one: place self-imposed isolation in a slow cooker along with misguided misanthropy. Cook on low for 8 HOURS. This will make LONELINESS. Step two: preheat oven to 200C fan-forced. take loneliness from  slow-cooker then douse in alcohol before placing in oven. it's meant to burn (you're meant to burn.) Step three: bring a *** to boil and throw negative stigma in to cook until it softens. Step four: cut pervasive fear of the unknown into strips and braise. Step five: plate pervasive fear and negative stigma. this combination is the foundation. Step six: chop vegetables and mix into standard garden salad, then plate (one may plate how they wish, presentation -- to you, at least, matters not, or little; here's the one who wears tracksuit pants to parties. your parents have to remind you to brush your hair). garnish with self-loathing, decorate plate with the root of self-loathing. Step seven: plate loneliness. truest to the recipe if loneliness is focal point of the plate. if it's cooked properly it will bleed. so will you -- just give it time. Happy cooking!!
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My name means “gracious gift of God”, but this is not what I am. My name does not mean “gracious gift of God” because I am not the product of one, I am the product of many. My name means “she sees,” But there are glasses perched on my face with every intention of helping me see what is only a few feet away. Isis, the most powerful Egyptian Goddess lives right between Jessica and Brady. Isis is the goddess of magic and nature, two things that I love dearly yet no one knows about. She stays unknown, and hidden, like she does not want to be seen. With great excuse as well, because Isis is the only accurate depiction of me within these 16 letters, 7 syllables, 3 words. Because I am not bound by connected lines With spaces in between that have a bigger picture, I am not my name in the most formal way. I am the way that my curls frizz when I’ve forgotten to treat it, Or the way that my hand flickers and wavers over a paper When I’m about to forget an idea. I show myself as a simple person But I am not just one person. With every breath you take you remove a piece of yourself And breathe in a piece of someone close to you. For that reason, I am not myself, not wholly at least. I am the way my mother cuts down people with their own words, The way she brought me to numerous swimming classes and taught me to love the ocean, Or maybe the way words roll off my fathers tongue like he was born with this knowledge. Maybe I am the way my friends tell me only absolute truths, Or the way they only think in hypotheticals. But come to think of it now, These have all mixed and pieced together to become a part of me. So maybe In the end I really am myself.
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Mar 6, 2014
Mar 6, 2014 at 8:55 AM UTC
My Name
My name means “gracious gift of God”, but this is not what I am. My name does not mean “gracious gift of God” because I am not the product of one, I am the product of many. My name means “she sees,” But there are glasses perched on my face with every intention of helping me see what is only a few feet away. Isis, the most powerful Egyptian Goddess lives right between Jessica and Brady. Isis is the goddess of magic and nature, two things that I love dearly yet no one knows about. She stays unknown, and hidden, like she does not want to be seen. With great excuse as well, because Isis is the only accurate depiction of me within these 16 letters, 7 syllables, 3 words. Because I am not bound by connected lines With spaces in between that have a bigger picture, I am not my name in the most formal way. I am the way that my curls frizz when I’ve forgotten to treat it, Or the way that my hand flickers and wavers over a paper When I’m about to forget an idea. I show myself as a simple person But I am not just one person. With every breath you take you remove a piece of yourself And breathe in a piece of someone close to you. For that reason, I am not myself, not wholly at least. I am the way my mother cuts down people with their own words, The way she brought me to numerous swimming classes and taught me to love the ocean, Or maybe the way words roll off my fathers tongue like he was born with this knowledge. Maybe I am the way my friends tell me only absolute truths, Or the way they only think in hypotheticals. But come to think of it now, These have all mixed and pieced together to become a part of me. So maybe In the end I really am myself.
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(i’ve a habit of hiding inside parentheses.) it’s two o’clock in the morning and all i can think about is the way your eyelashes fluttered after you winked at me. photographs feed my urgency as i drown myself in thrashing, foamy rivers that glisten with memories. we held hands with linked fingers. (we both acknowledged it. i wasn’t joking.) with broken hearts, we were magnetized. only brute force and the physical presence of sixteen pairs of eyes pulled us apart. a logical explanation was given for the tipi. you must know by now that i take rationale at face value. if you’re a book, you’re wide open but your pages are written in invisible ink. i need to know what you know. (as of now, the you&me; i dream of exists only in hypotheticals.)
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Aug 20, 2014
Aug 20, 2014 at 9:57 PM UTC
under twin stars
carnal lightening reaped my brain in verves of sickled fever, emotion sloughing clean my tortured psyche. and who was I to challenge this narcotic self ablution – yet, what of my resolve to linger undisturbed in bias mental disarray? pathetic hypotheticals engorged my blood as nothing new. the tension burning scars within this manic unenlivened carcass grew until my hybrid self assaulted what was once unfailed but often wrong integrity as swifter than a scarlet blade my conscience was absconded to a heaven: peace, release, and ease. had I commanded armies to retreat? my palsied mind was finally worth its ****** ground and tissues thick with matters fed on independence lost among the strain. I must remember where I left my genius.
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Jul 11, 2015
Jul 11, 2015 at 8:05 PM UTC
ABREACTION
i want to talk with someone but i don't know how to say it i want to talk just talk not about specific life events or what i ate for dinner last night please don't ask me about my family or my academics ask me why my replies get short when you ask me how i am tell me more than well i'm glad you're still breathing when that's my response to your short question i know that i can twist my words into appearing positive even when they're not i know that my sarcasm doesn't always transcend beyond the computer's algorithms i know that you don't know how to mitigate my suffering and that's fine really it is so we'll talk about you and your great life adventures even though right now i want to talk about the poem i just read by andrea gibson i want to talk about my writing professor and her brilliant mind and how i've never been more motivated to get to class just so i could sit there and take in the simple grandeur i want to talk about the night sky and i know it's overrated woohoo the stars and moon huzzah for the earth's night light but have you ever noticed how when you stand out in the middle of the road at 2 am in the morning, the world down here is silent and flat but up there, the galaxies stretch and bend beyond the eye can see, the stars are all placed so perfectly hapharzardly scattered about but in the right places sometimes they're so dim, you know? i will never stop aweing over the miracle of the sky nor will i ever not stand in the middle of the road at 2 am in the morning on a rough night just to be reminded of the beauty that's still there within each and every one of us even though sometimes we can't see it i want to talk about the dream i had last night and the night before that and how i am scared to fall asleep because my mind is a ******* complex and ***** thing that can thread unimaginable hypotheticals through something that was supposed to be peaceful i don't want to sleep i want to talk i want to talk with someone because i'm tired of talking to myself - -rgp
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May 1, 2017
May 1, 2017 at 3:31 AM UTC
pillow talk or something
i want to talk with someone but i don't know how to say it i want to talk just talk not about specific life events or what i ate for dinner last night please don't ask me about my family or my academics ask me why my replies get short when you ask me how i am tell me more than well i'm glad you're still breathing when that's my response to your short question i know that i can twist my words into appearing positive even when they're not i know that my sarcasm doesn't always transcend beyond the computer's algorithms i know that you don't know how to mitigate my suffering and that's fine really it is so we'll talk about you and your great life adventures even though right now i want to talk about the poem i just read by andrea gibson i want to talk about my writing professor and her brilliant mind and how i've never been more motivated to get to class just so i could sit there and take in the simple grandeur i want to talk about the night sky and i know it's overrated woohoo the stars and moon huzzah for the earth's night light but have you ever noticed how when you stand out in the middle of the road at 2 am in the morning, the world down here is silent and flat but up there, the galaxies stretch and bend beyond the eye can see, the stars are all placed so perfectly hapharzardly scattered about but in the right places sometimes they're so dim, you know? i will never stop aweing over the miracle of the sky nor will i ever not stand in the middle of the road at 2 am in the morning on a rough night just to be reminded of the beauty that's still there within each and every one of us even though sometimes we can't see it i want to talk about the dream i had last night and the night before that and how i am scared to fall asleep because my mind is a ******* complex and ***** thing that can thread unimaginable hypotheticals through something that was supposed to be peaceful i don't want to sleep i want to talk i want to talk with someone because i'm tired of talking to myself - -rgp
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write a poem about me, all inked hypotheticals and pretty words dressed up in rationality - give it to her and tell her she's beautiful, that she writes like a dream, and leave just enough spaces in between your favorite metaphors to string them up with a maybe, a silhouette of me, just enough space to wonder if she's only bright in my shadow - because darling, I want to know what it feels like on the other side of sadness.
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Oct 4, 2013
Oct 4, 2013 at 12:02 PM UTC
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So I've been finding myself thinking of you as I watch the clock Tick And tick And tick My goodnight buddy,  Where have you gone? I miss you the early morning we dont lay awake talking nonsense  Speaking in hypotheticals  We slowly gather each others intimacies   You come to me at perfect times Easing my lips to a smile we engage in a joyful nothing Until the next night that ends as dawn begins that begins with you asking me to stay up again because you wish to fall asleep to my voice. To my goodnight buddy  I wish you sweet dreams.
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Mar 18, 2014
Mar 18, 2014 at 1:17 AM UTC
Goodnight buddy
We play a dangerous game Tossing hypotheticals into the air And if we catch them, if we dare Who's to say that it would be a shame
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Sep 11, 2013
Sep 11, 2013 at 11:30 PM UTC
Would You
The sun will one day engulf the entirety of humankind. Its ever-present flames will gulp down history in greedy swallows, tearing away soils and sea and sky without preference or thought. Nothing will be spared then, nothing will be 'special'. I don't see the sense in worrying about the day that it comes down to, in the end of things around us. No mystical words of hope or whispered phrases can prolong the chemical bonds of a supernova releasing in an outward blast of heat and fire and, eventually, death. The fields of the Earth glitter in the early morning, oceans swell in contentment of the new morning's bright gaze, layers upon layers of creatures chitter in the dawn of a lavender sky. It's alive down here, alive and well. We won't know what hit us until we're all cinders. It's comforting, actually. There's no anticipation. You won't know until you do, and then there's no more pain for anyone. Why should we fear it? Why not celebrate all before it and all after? Despite our disappearance, the universe goes on and on, infinite loops of infinity sprawling infinitely. Kiss the wind, kiss your sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, parents, partners. Or don't. Fill the earth with laughter, tears, screams, whines, moans, and, in the end, rattles of breath. Or don't. The future cares not about your achievements, the sun does not choose the 'nice' people to burn last. Worry about your present. The future is full of hypotheticals that are impossible to determine. Let not the fear of burning determine you, let you determine you. After all, in the end, we're all humans. What makes you special is your own decision.
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Mar 23, 2015
Mar 23, 2015 at 2:08 AM UTC
Philosophy
The sun will one day engulf the entirety of humankind. Its ever-present flames will gulp down history in greedy swallows, tearing away soils and sea and sky without preference or thought. Nothing will be spared then, nothing will be 'special'. I don't see the sense in worrying about the day that it comes down to, in the end of things around us. No mystical words of hope or whispered phrases can prolong the chemical bonds of a supernova releasing in an outward blast of heat and fire and, eventually, death. The fields of the Earth glitter in the early morning, oceans swell in contentment of the new morning's bright gaze, layers upon layers of creatures chitter in the dawn of a lavender sky. It's alive down here, alive and well. We won't know what hit us until we're all cinders. It's comforting, actually. There's no anticipation. You won't know until you do, and then there's no more pain for anyone. Why should we fear it? Why not celebrate all before it and all after? Despite our disappearance, the universe goes on and on, infinite loops of infinity sprawling infinitely. Kiss the wind, kiss your sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, parents, partners. Or don't. Fill the earth with laughter, tears, screams, whines, moans, and, in the end, rattles of breath. Or don't. The future cares not about your achievements, the sun does not choose the 'nice' people to burn last. Worry about your present. The future is full of hypotheticals that are impossible to determine. Let not the fear of burning determine you, let you determine you. After all, in the end, we're all humans. What makes you special is your own decision.
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