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"exoskeleton" poems
Stink up the beer house with unadorned putrid self-thoughts. Poppy-eyed and hating others is easy for blue bottled buggers. A sweet thing for you! A growing circle of six-legged empty. Filled to the brim with puffed up space. A white brim with a shiny red exoskeleton. Oh, what a dreadful sight! Hair strewn across a face and hooked into the teeth of the blushy lullabied insect screech. Clear liquid not blood, but blood all the same on an empty stomach with full vein-shot bones. Not milky bones with calcium-love.. A dead, deficient, cracked, neglected, insufficient skeletal frame, limp. Yellowed with hate-smoke and old book notes. Splintered, crazed and buzzed through the gridded bulging eye-window of every single one of those insect like Self-Loathers. Chosen out of pure sympathy "We should talk more" .......To the sun, the moon and the stars? Every star mocks, Every beam scoffs and every moon likes to deride on the pain that hides beneath the lies of human bug eyes. A simply formed pound of vertebrate flesh leaks soft plasma on the scaly moth floor. Oh how we are dusty and unsure! Forestry consisting of a Sitka Spruce and of a Japanese Larch was a claim I made from the start. Over gardens of attention arachnid lurking selfish bugs and even those half winged "friend people". The bell has rung the scariest of chimes and with every soul wrenching 'ding' a furry fang digs at the blotchy eyed, softly fleshed girl. Oh such a sweet thing to be surrounded by selfish bugs who spin webs with tear stained tissues!
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Oct 18, 2014
Oct 18, 2014 at 2:19 PM UTC
Selfish Bugs
Stink up the beer house with unadorned putrid self-thoughts. Poppy-eyed and hating others is easy for blue bottled buggers. A sweet thing for you! A growing circle of six-legged empty. Filled to the brim with puffed up space. A white brim with a shiny red exoskeleton. Oh, what a dreadful sight! Hair strewn across a face and hooked into the teeth of the blushy lullabied insect screech. Clear liquid not blood, but blood all the same on an empty stomach with full vein-shot bones. Not milky bones with calcium-love.. A dead, deficient, cracked, neglected, insufficient skeletal frame, limp. Yellowed with hate-smoke and old book notes. Splintered, crazed and buzzed through the gridded bulging eye-window of every single one of those insect like Self-Loathers. Chosen out of pure sympathy "We should talk more" .......To the sun, the moon and the stars? Every star mocks, Every beam scoffs and every moon likes to deride on the pain that hides beneath the lies of human bug eyes. A simply formed pound of vertebrate flesh leaks soft plasma on the scaly moth floor. Oh how we are dusty and unsure! Forestry consisting of a Sitka Spruce and of a Japanese Larch was a claim I made from the start. Over gardens of attention arachnid lurking selfish bugs and even those half winged "friend people". The bell has rung the scariest of chimes and with every soul wrenching 'ding' a furry fang digs at the blotchy eyed, softly fleshed girl. Oh such a sweet thing to be surrounded by selfish bugs who spin webs with tear stained tissues!
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I wake up Each morning, Head to my closet, And arm myself With clothes Thick as brick walls. I rummage Through various Pairs of greeve-like Pants Looking for The right foundation On which I Will build The day's Exoskeleton. Fix my hair Like the rest Of mankind. Hair that Acts as the cloak That ascribes me To anonimity. Before I leave I put on the Weight of My outer person, The one which I have carefully Built out of Various yous And none of me. The skin That I Have worn To see my soul Forlorn. I go, parade myself Like a sentinel Emblazoned With all the Merits; Look and behold A hero that Beckons to all who pass A hero who Hides all the dross Of the Inside. The inside of whatever is left Of my Dying kingdom. I go as a bastion With jutted spears And sharpened pikes Wounding those Who advance Whether in peace Or in strife. No, I will not Let anyone Through the gates Of my starving King. All my life I was being Built as a Stronghold. Father, as a mason, Taught me That strength Is measured Through how Much pressure My structure Can endure. Mother, as an artisan, Raised me As a dam That will not break. Taught me That my worth Is measured in the Volumes that I can keep. Suffering be now The mortar That binds all my griefs Together. Pain, ***** Barricades Around my thirsting Prince. Comrade, Stay as a facade; Hide the muck That have accumulated Throughout The years. Lover, break me down. Strip me of all My armor, Break down the walls. Turn my spears Into soft dandelion ***** Wade through the tar And see Through the veil. Unseam All my scars; Bleed me dry Until you reach my core. See me for Who I am. Witness the king That I have deprived. Caress the face Of the prince That I have denied. Satiate my famished spirit, Oh, you, lover of my soul.
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Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 8:18 AM UTC
Clothes
I wake up Each morning, Head to my closet, And arm myself With clothes Thick as brick walls. I rummage Through various Pairs of greeve-like Pants Looking for The right foundation On which I Will build The day's Exoskeleton. Fix my hair Like the rest Of mankind. Hair that Acts as the cloak That ascribes me To anonimity. Before I leave I put on the Weight of My outer person, The one which I have carefully Built out of Various yous And none of me. The skin That I Have worn To see my soul Forlorn. I go, parade myself Like a sentinel Emblazoned With all the Merits; Look and behold A hero that Beckons to all who pass A hero who Hides all the dross Of the Inside. The inside of whatever is left Of my Dying kingdom. I go as a bastion With jutted spears And sharpened pikes Wounding those Who advance Whether in peace Or in strife. No, I will not Let anyone Through the gates Of my starving King. All my life I was being Built as a Stronghold. Father, as a mason, Taught me That strength Is measured Through how Much pressure My structure Can endure. Mother, as an artisan, Raised me As a dam That will not break. Taught me That my worth Is measured in the Volumes that I can keep. Suffering be now The mortar That binds all my griefs Together. Pain, ***** Barricades Around my thirsting Prince. Comrade, Stay as a facade; Hide the muck That have accumulated Throughout The years. Lover, break me down. Strip me of all My armor, Break down the walls. Turn my spears Into soft dandelion ***** Wade through the tar And see Through the veil. Unseam All my scars; Bleed me dry Until you reach my core. See me for Who I am. Witness the king That I have deprived. Caress the face Of the prince That I have denied. Satiate my famished spirit, Oh, you, lover of my soul.
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horns squawk    rainforest avenues      exoskeleton of cars    arteries clogged with unlovely   taxi cabs fat  green  fruit for sale      five languages merge into a knot hisses    kiss    vowels    kiwis apples pears    black guys   basketball debt rises like      blood pressure stocks tumble     but we walk brogues clop on concrete count  brick after  brick sun cascades    over roof slates mind cracks in slabs    (you say Monroe      stood here)    heat quivers men are dominoes suits    for the office    a funeral designer sneakers    daddy paid for pigtails   cheap thrills   violet octagons   on a stranger’s neck (behind the closed doors) today I drink purple water      aubergine lips remind me of a Tuscany Superb    list the names Houston   Charlton Leroy   Sullivan Perry   Cornelia Dominick and Jane (ladders lead                 away from me                 close to you) and back again
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Jun 21, 2014
Jun 21, 2014 at 12:24 PM UTC
Tuscany Superb
If I let my eyes glaze over just right, I get a nice film quality picture. I hover out of my body- like a mad director, evaluating what we've got, I snip the film strips from my memory, franticaly re-piecing together the story. I didn't get the shots I wanted. I feel hollow and sick. Playing and re-playing the scenes where it all went to the dregs. Maybe if I were paying closer attention- I could have gotten it right. I could've rearranged the shot list- so "major life accident" was at the end of the movie- not the beginning.   Sorting through what we're left with, I hear no mellow music scoring my mothers choked sobs. No soft glow to hide the harsh lines of grief described on her face. The bottles of liquor weren't props. And when the sound of silence rendered her breathless- no one was there to yell "CUT"! I grit my teeth and hold back my seething anger at such a **** writer. This is not a sci-fi film. No alien plummets to earth eager to turn back the sands of time because there was a fluke in the configubobulator. Not a romantic comedy, where his smashed body miraculously recovers and my mother, him, and all the kids pursue their dreams as a family of comics on the road- The jackson 5 of stand up! No inspiring action film where the government tests a bionic exoskeleton, connects it to his brains nervous system, and after wild success he dedicates his life to intergalactic vigilante work, as well as a remaining a reliable family man. There's no sending it back for re-writes. There is no 1 hero to lean on. No villain to hate. Only us. I hope one day, it's enough. I hope one day we have a film we can be proud of.
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May 22, 2018
May 22, 2018 at 7:20 PM UTC
All the magic happens in post.
If I let my eyes glaze over just right, I get a nice film quality picture. I hover out of my body- like a mad director, evaluating what we've got, I snip the film strips from my memory, franticaly re-piecing together the story. I didn't get the shots I wanted. I feel hollow and sick. Playing and re-playing the scenes where it all went to the dregs. Maybe if I were paying closer attention- I could have gotten it right. I could've rearranged the shot list- so "major life accident" was at the end of the movie- not the beginning.   Sorting through what we're left with, I hear no mellow music scoring my mothers choked sobs. No soft glow to hide the harsh lines of grief described on her face. The bottles of liquor weren't props. And when the sound of silence rendered her breathless- no one was there to yell "CUT"! I grit my teeth and hold back my seething anger at such a **** writer. This is not a sci-fi film. No alien plummets to earth eager to turn back the sands of time because there was a fluke in the configubobulator. Not a romantic comedy, where his smashed body miraculously recovers and my mother, him, and all the kids pursue their dreams as a family of comics on the road- The jackson 5 of stand up! No inspiring action film where the government tests a bionic exoskeleton, connects it to his brains nervous system, and after wild success he dedicates his life to intergalactic vigilante work, as well as a remaining a reliable family man. There's no sending it back for re-writes. There is no 1 hero to lean on. No villain to hate. Only us. I hope one day, it's enough. I hope one day we have a film we can be proud of.
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She might laugh if she read this at the flat little version of her that lives in my mind. She may laugh at my comparison of her to a hideous sea spider but hear me out it could be touching. David Foster Wallace wrote: *“Since pain is a totally subjective mental experience we do not have direct access to anyone or anything’s pain but our own; and even just the principles by which we can infer that others experience pain and have a legitimate interest in not feeling pain involve ******** philosophy— metaphysics, epistemology, value theory, ethics.” *"[Lobsters] do have an exquisite tactile sense, one facilitated by hundreds of thousands of tiny hairs that protrude through their carapace. Although encased in what seems a solid, impenetrable armour, the lobster can receive stimuli and impressions from without as readily as if it possessed a soft and delicate skin.”* and so “We lift lobsters out of the bag or whatever retail container they came home in …whereupon some uncomfortable things start to happen. However stuporous the lobster is from the trip home, for instance, it tends to come alarmingly to life when placed in boiling water."* As much as I cannot comprehend the pain of the exquisitely tactile lobster in a *** of boiling water, I wonder if I could walk a mile in a lobster’s 8 minuscule shoes and I wonder what it might mean or not mean to her with her armoured yet acute exoskeleton to be back at home with her father. They might try to butter you up or snap elastic bands around your oversized claws and use a wooden spoon to try and nudge your thrashing, clinging arms back into the *** but remember: lobsters can live to be over 100 years old and grow to over 20 pounds in size which is very large for an aquatic insect and remember that they are marine crustaceans of the family Homaridae, characterized by five pairs of jointed legs, the first pair terminating in large pincerish claws. And DFW famously said, “Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it.” and he's not a lobster either
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Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 6:18 PM UTC
Considering the Lobster
She might laugh if she read this at the flat little version of her that lives in my mind. She may laugh at my comparison of her to a hideous sea spider but hear me out it could be touching. David Foster Wallace wrote: *“Since pain is a totally subjective mental experience we do not have direct access to anyone or anything’s pain but our own; and even just the principles by which we can infer that others experience pain and have a legitimate interest in not feeling pain involve ******** philosophy— metaphysics, epistemology, value theory, ethics.” *"[Lobsters] do have an exquisite tactile sense, one facilitated by hundreds of thousands of tiny hairs that protrude through their carapace. Although encased in what seems a solid, impenetrable armour, the lobster can receive stimuli and impressions from without as readily as if it possessed a soft and delicate skin.”* and so “We lift lobsters out of the bag or whatever retail container they came home in …whereupon some uncomfortable things start to happen. However stuporous the lobster is from the trip home, for instance, it tends to come alarmingly to life when placed in boiling water."* As much as I cannot comprehend the pain of the exquisitely tactile lobster in a *** of boiling water, I wonder if I could walk a mile in a lobster’s 8 minuscule shoes and I wonder what it might mean or not mean to her with her armoured yet acute exoskeleton to be back at home with her father. They might try to butter you up or snap elastic bands around your oversized claws and use a wooden spoon to try and nudge your thrashing, clinging arms back into the *** but remember: lobsters can live to be over 100 years old and grow to over 20 pounds in size which is very large for an aquatic insect and remember that they are marine crustaceans of the family Homaridae, characterized by five pairs of jointed legs, the first pair terminating in large pincerish claws. And DFW famously said, “Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it.” and he's not a lobster either
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no-one stays the same we all just simply wait for the change to move over our way whether it's others leaving us or we are moving on we all have to change and someone keep on living like it's not killing us inside it's a challenge especially when the world demands that we hide it because now pain is weakness the hurt inside cannot pierce through the tough exoskeleton a pre-requisite to life is the knowledge that everybody leaves a mother leaves her child, whether by choice or by chance a husband leaves his wife for a younger girl instead a soldier leaves his country, because he is treated like a misfit why does no-one fight it? can no-one see a way? or is it the "I am one and that's not enough" belief striking again? 99 is NOT 100 it will never be so fight the change to keep the world the way that it should have been but keep in mind, not to limit others don't force them to stay still for others than yourself, are important too when someone tries to leave you, let them go with kindness and if they try to keep you once they're gone well, it means they never left you this is far too long a poem but to short to fit in what to say in the coda of this verse, I will try to explain that though everyone leaves for a time, some will always remain in your heart and your mind you'll never be alone when you find a friend who will do the same
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Jul 3, 2012
Jul 3, 2012 at 7:20 AM UTC
everyone leaves
I am an exoskeleton Falling to pieces Half alive yet entirely dead Crumbling and translucent Delicate, and drifts, fluttering With a single breath from someone Nearby I could be crushed or mangled By a strike of the hand or a flick of a finger But because I am considered beautiful and strange I am kept preserved The world revolves around beauty and Oddities and I become one of these Studied anomalies, a curiosity, merely Because I am not like them I am Oriental And Occidental I am a Southerner And a Northerner I am malnourished Yet well fed I am thin and short But my stature belies my power I am a geek, nerd, braniac, dork, and overachiever But remain a stupid, ignorant, procrastinator I am certainly an curio; a Living Breathing Walking Oxymoron
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Sep 22, 2012
Sep 22, 2012 at 12:37 PM UTC
skellington
Do you remember when the light in our eyes was brighter than the light of the stars, when we used to tell each other reasons that we didn’t believe in god? Tonight the clouds closed their eyes, clenched their fists, and swallowed the stars. The older I get the less the moon stays to kiss me goodnight. Tonight I’m praying to a rhetorical question. I used to tell you that the silence was one of the reasons I didn’t believe. Being friends with you has taught me that the silence is the response. I’ve learned that my prayers are selfish. The past few months i’ve peeled you off of me like a layer of dead skin. I left my fragile exoskeleton on the shelf next to the questions you never asked me and the ***** you never gave. I know all the reasons you hate me. They’re the same reasons I hate myself; I don’t know if that makes it hurt more or less, but I would rather rot alone than be pluto caught in your orbit. My jealousy is oozing out in purple ink and sloppy cursive because my stained lungs have finally given out. I stopped shouting at you when I realized that no one has ever fully heard something that weren’t ready to hear. You only ever needed one reason to believe that the sky was empty, Because god looked back at you in every mirror you passed. Tonight I’m praying to a perverted question just to prove you wrong. Sincerely, –if you need me i’m right where you left me
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Aug 17, 2015
Aug 17, 2015 at 3:22 AM UTC
Dear Ex-Best-Friend,
Freedom of the things that shake me I'm still stuck in the things that chain me The hurt that broke and changed me My heart breaks as they stare at me Selfish and selfless Broken and stolen I drown myself out as I scream from the cage I choke it down and add to my rage Help them to save myself from me It's so hard to be what they want me to be I stay in my head controlled by my exoskeleton Encased in a suit of skin that isn't mine It's scars aren't my own The voices whisper my disappearance Cutting me and screaming Hurting me and crushing my being Six feet under or walking the earth What does it matter if it always hurts
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Mar 3, 2021
Mar 3, 2021 at 3:17 PM UTC
Schizophrenia
at first when you take off the world just looks small a dollhouse, a miniature world an amusing punchline to an old joke a fantasy tinged with g-force and sprite in clear cups but as the sky darkens and the plane lifts higher the world seems to drown in blackness an inky clarity of night not confused by clouds and suddenly it is as if you are at the top on an ocean looking at a far away ocean floor crawling with foreign creatures with all of their bones lit up over coral reefs of light and movement parking lots like stationary jelly fish and highways like currents of neon veins pumping lights and cars all of the world's exoskeleton is illuminated and it is beautiful and movable it is nature's patterns played out in electricity but the farther out you go the more the sharpness and geometry of the roads and cities attack the eye and the coral reefs turn to computer motherboards all of man's ingenuity and beauty no longer draping the world but ordering it into squares and jagged lines into distant pixel pinpricks into maps until you're not traveling through the world but over it
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Mar 14, 2010
Mar 14, 2010 at 11:06 PM UTC
night flight
king of the sea, with a rigorous exoskeleton peeling away moulting causes such distress, exposed to the thrashing undertow of the sea and enemies who protects you? a callow arthropod poised on fractured shells it isn’t your father, balancing a bottle of brandy between his lips or your confidant, skidding his tires across your mind a starfish tried, she threw her arms round your shell as you added new muscles underneath she stuck her tube feet in her claws as you brittled her skin she said I love you and you retreated when you are 70 and clamouring the floor put your arms behind your back to beckon her to you try – she is the sea and no one owns her.
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Oct 16, 2016
Oct 16, 2016 at 3:38 PM UTC
the lobster
Exhausted from feeling    reeling peeling away my exoskeleton of mossy vehemence Disgusted from festering pestering bacteria leeching my energy depleting my senses Desensitized towards romance no chance for me Sinking in a swamp instead of grasping for relief Ashamed for allowing disavowing natural instincts Crying    dying internally invaded by poisonous neglect   Suicide by choking on your spoken words I kept
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May 5, 2014
May 5, 2014 at 1:38 PM UTC
Wading through the glades of emotion
U for Unilateralis Cordyceps. The fungus enters an ant's body through its respiration. It invades it's brain and changes how it perceives smell, because ants do everything they do from their smell of pheromones, right? So this microscopic little fungal spore, then makes the ant climb up the stem of a plant and bite hard on a leaf, with an abnormal force. The fungus then kills the ant, and continues to grow, leaving the ant's exoskeleton intact. So, a small fungus drives an ant around as a vehicle, uses it as food and shelter and then as the ultimate monument to itself. And when the fungus is ready to reproduce, its fruiting bodies grow from the ant's head and rupture releasing the spores, letting the wind carry them to more unsuspecting food. There, our entire idea of free will down the bin. One single small fungus spore does that to an ant. You have trillions of bacteria in your body. How do you know where you end, and where your environment begins. We invent God, soul... heaven, afterlife...even life-imitating technology, all sorts of transcendence to cope with the idea of an absolute end. And then, we die for an idea that promises us some sort of immortality.
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May 2, 2014
May 2, 2014 at 4:00 AM UTC
U for Unilateralis cordyceps
Man... I should not even be speaking to you. You don't got that broken look, & your edges aren't sharp enough. That exoskeleton never saw the light of day, it laid down and died before ever being concieved. Boy, you ain't no mystery. It kind of breaks my ****** heart though, yknow? No, ydon't though. I mean, yknow how it feels to bleed out all your aura, feeding it to, **** I don't even know, the unknown. Dark energy. The infinite divine, the great conundrum. Givin it to god? Wherever you find him or her or whoever. Whatever. I guess it doesn't really matter as long as you're happy. In the dust clouds of the destruction the bedlam be loud & disgusting & lovely & you may find solace if you so choose. That ***** is hiding specifically there, you just gotta look. But it WILL be exhausting & exasperating & emotionally draining. All the ice'll melt before it bubbles & becomes vapor & you won't believe it, all cause you can't see it but that's ******* stupid. They say people don't like to be called stupid. Yet the sad reality is a lot of them are, or at least they just got a lot of really stupid tendencies & would rather not address those kinds of things. But see... man, I don't think anything's sacred anymore. So simply. **** it, go with the flow, just...float. Oh I wish. I could take myself serious, so others might take me serious but I end up sounding crazy either way. I think we're all losing interest here. & I'm gettin real sick of tryna make sense of myself, to myself, to & of everybody else. So if anyone needs me you know where to find me. I'll just be kickin it in the middle of "the **** like. This is my normal.
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May 1, 2015
May 1, 2015 at 4:06 AM UTC
Hello Zanzibar
Man... I should not even be speaking to you. You don't got that broken look, & your edges aren't sharp enough. That exoskeleton never saw the light of day, it laid down and died before ever being concieved. Boy, you ain't no mystery. It kind of breaks my ****** heart though, yknow? No, ydon't though. I mean, yknow how it feels to bleed out all your aura, feeding it to, **** I don't even know, the unknown. Dark energy. The infinite divine, the great conundrum. Givin it to god? Wherever you find him or her or whoever. Whatever. I guess it doesn't really matter as long as you're happy. In the dust clouds of the destruction the bedlam be loud & disgusting & lovely & you may find solace if you so choose. That ***** is hiding specifically there, you just gotta look. But it WILL be exhausting & exasperating & emotionally draining. All the ice'll melt before it bubbles & becomes vapor & you won't believe it, all cause you can't see it but that's ******* stupid. They say people don't like to be called stupid. Yet the sad reality is a lot of them are, or at least they just got a lot of really stupid tendencies & would rather not address those kinds of things. But see... man, I don't think anything's sacred anymore. So simply. **** it, go with the flow, just...float. Oh I wish. I could take myself serious, so others might take me serious but I end up sounding crazy either way. I think we're all losing interest here. & I'm gettin real sick of tryna make sense of myself, to myself, to & of everybody else. So if anyone needs me you know where to find me. I'll just be kickin it in the middle of "the **** like. This is my normal.
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1. I feel fractured splintered defeated entirely insular and spread to thin all at the same time covered with insecurities like a cheap suit or hollow exoskeleton nothing more than a lie. I grow tired. I'm bluffing my way through this life a brutal honesty I lack the courage to accept hiding my face from every mirrored surface a halfhearted attempt to prolong this detrimental denial. I can't ******** my way through self-reflection and trying to improve my image feels positively improvised. I lack sincerity and authenticity an individual breathing without zeal I need a break. 2. Here I am again a lonely itinerant migrating to the proverbial and often visited crossroads rather than contemplating a direction worth navigating be it following in the worn footprints of others or a path long overgrown with neglect. I'd rather lie down on the gravel road and nap in the open air just to wake up confused and temperamental. The destination remains unknown my indecision remains intact. I give impetuous a bad name by reputation and repetition alike conjoined twins that speaks to fate and circumstance. Like Houdini I'm secured in a long sleeve shirt dangling upside down from a burning rope placing blame on the flame. I need a break. 3. I'm not as intelligent or insightful as I once thought my wasted youth is a testament. A modern ruin like so many a Blockbuster I've outlasted my usefulness. I imagine what could have been clueless as to what lies ahead. A jovial repentance seems as likely as success, or stability, **** simplicity. Is it all too much to ask? I've been on break too long. 4. reboot jumpstart Alleviate my stagnant, vacant lot in life and cast off these first world problems. Consider not the flat champagne or the distance that separates today from death. Speak positively to the people that would not otherwise attract minimal attention. Set goals both grand and plausible with no worry of dividends and release cynicism and determine a trajectory that I may see through to completion. If for no other reason but to say that I tried. It's not so bad this imagined and dire circumstance. Relax and go on break.
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Feb 11, 2013
Feb 11, 2013 at 7:48 PM UTC
a letter to my once and future self (verascimititional lies I've told)
1. I feel fractured splintered defeated entirely insular and spread to thin all at the same time covered with insecurities like a cheap suit or hollow exoskeleton nothing more than a lie. I grow tired. I'm bluffing my way through this life a brutal honesty I lack the courage to accept hiding my face from every mirrored surface a halfhearted attempt to prolong this detrimental denial. I can't ******** my way through self-reflection and trying to improve my image feels positively improvised. I lack sincerity and authenticity an individual breathing without zeal I need a break. 2. Here I am again a lonely itinerant migrating to the proverbial and often visited crossroads rather than contemplating a direction worth navigating be it following in the worn footprints of others or a path long overgrown with neglect. I'd rather lie down on the gravel road and nap in the open air just to wake up confused and temperamental. The destination remains unknown my indecision remains intact. I give impetuous a bad name by reputation and repetition alike conjoined twins that speaks to fate and circumstance. Like Houdini I'm secured in a long sleeve shirt dangling upside down from a burning rope placing blame on the flame. I need a break. 3. I'm not as intelligent or insightful as I once thought my wasted youth is a testament. A modern ruin like so many a Blockbuster I've outlasted my usefulness. I imagine what could have been clueless as to what lies ahead. A jovial repentance seems as likely as success, or stability, **** simplicity. Is it all too much to ask? I've been on break too long. 4. reboot jumpstart Alleviate my stagnant, vacant lot in life and cast off these first world problems. Consider not the flat champagne or the distance that separates today from death. Speak positively to the people that would not otherwise attract minimal attention. Set goals both grand and plausible with no worry of dividends and release cynicism and determine a trajectory that I may see through to completion. If for no other reason but to say that I tried. It's not so bad this imagined and dire circumstance. Relax and go on break.
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The desk is a refreshing change of pace from the uneasy comfort of the bed. I eye the flimsy container of trail mix lying in wait, my lightly salted prey. rolling from beneath the body-like warmth of my blanket cocoon, I stumble towards nourishment. I attack my snack, and settle into the beeswax halo of drunk hung Christmas lights, mistakenly onto an uncapped felt pen, tip bleeding into a beige throw bought for a newly redecorated room. Unnoticed, the stain spreads, advancing on the threads of the throw. I will, perhaps, see it tomorrow and curse silently, and wonder if it can be hidden by rearrangement and ultimately decide that a little folding will do the trick. Outside, the snow freezes a fresh exoskeleton, primed for crushing the footprints of strangers.
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Jan 29, 2013
Jan 29, 2013 at 4:25 PM UTC
Bone Snow
When I came to, it was already too late. Tumbling at the speed of sound and pointed at the only thing I ever cared about. Home. Readjusting and stabilizing the shot towards earth, I remembered what was packed tight in the cargo hold with the titanium alloy exoskeleton. It was a matter of total energy. So powerful, that I used it to come see my home world even though it was long since abolished. The destruction was a mystery up until now. As I hurled towards earth with my incredible dangerous load.   My only hope was that I could come back and save my family. I would have never considered that I would be the demise of my entire species, nonetheless all of the underestimated subspecies that would die too. "Captain." The vessels computer was attempting to revive me. “Impact in thirteen seconds.” The ship commanded in the most perfect womanly voice. "Ten." "Initialize magnetic gyroscopic shielding." I say. "Nine." My planets surface was closing in. I could see the coastline waves rolling and ebbing with the moon. "Eight." At this moment I considered my probable demise. "Seven." “Captain, interdimensional equipment charged and awaiting coordinates.” She said, as her other voice commanded, “Five seconds till impact.” Collapsible was the style of our Universe. All I had to do now, was tap the controls and I would leave the atmosphere instantly, taking me in between the folds of particles. The hull was losing integrity as was I. And on that thought, I simply pressed the button and started my return to my lonely place in time. Alone in the distant future and in the silence of space. The passing eons of space-time were rattling my very bones. But I ascended to the very place in time where I would have been. And there she was in all her exaltation. Earth. Untainted as I once recalled. That’s when it struck me. It was only logical that my life had been looping all these years. Destroying and saving humanity all at the same time. So typically me. "Computer, set a course for San Francisco."
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Dec 6, 2013
Dec 6, 2013 at 6:09 PM UTC
The Traveler
When I came to, it was already too late. Tumbling at the speed of sound and pointed at the only thing I ever cared about. Home. Readjusting and stabilizing the shot towards earth, I remembered what was packed tight in the cargo hold with the titanium alloy exoskeleton. It was a matter of total energy. So powerful, that I used it to come see my home world even though it was long since abolished. The destruction was a mystery up until now. As I hurled towards earth with my incredible dangerous load.   My only hope was that I could come back and save my family. I would have never considered that I would be the demise of my entire species, nonetheless all of the underestimated subspecies that would die too. "Captain." The vessels computer was attempting to revive me. “Impact in thirteen seconds.” The ship commanded in the most perfect womanly voice. "Ten." "Initialize magnetic gyroscopic shielding." I say. "Nine." My planets surface was closing in. I could see the coastline waves rolling and ebbing with the moon. "Eight." At this moment I considered my probable demise. "Seven." “Captain, interdimensional equipment charged and awaiting coordinates.” She said, as her other voice commanded, “Five seconds till impact.” Collapsible was the style of our Universe. All I had to do now, was tap the controls and I would leave the atmosphere instantly, taking me in between the folds of particles. The hull was losing integrity as was I. And on that thought, I simply pressed the button and started my return to my lonely place in time. Alone in the distant future and in the silence of space. The passing eons of space-time were rattling my very bones. But I ascended to the very place in time where I would have been. And there she was in all her exaltation. Earth. Untainted as I once recalled. That’s when it struck me. It was only logical that my life had been looping all these years. Destroying and saving humanity all at the same time. So typically me. "Computer, set a course for San Francisco."
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Learning the mystery May be a feat Reminiscent of pulling teeth It can be time consuming But never in vain Because if you can ever be trusted To understand without judgement The reward can be so sweet usually more than the average can handle From passion, compassion and loyalty We are indeed valuable companions Definitely worth the effort and patience Because we don't offer information And even when you ask Initially trying to get to know us Our answer will accomplish Only half the task Because growing up we learned what not to say Definitely the hard way Exposing our interior and Shedding our hard exoskeleton Is a thought beyond terrifying And a task that is quite daunting Revealing a membrane underneath As intrinsic and complex As it is delicate and fragile Attempts to damage or injure Can prove beyond fatal For the venom used against you Is comprised of fermented resentment From the cumulative pain you've inflicted used with lethal precision on Your insecurities, pain, and pride drawn from Information that you provide The easiest way to avoid heinous defeat Is via honesty, loyalty and Through the words and promises you keep Most chose not to heed a warning so distinct And are horrified When the revenge exacted is so succinct
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May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 4:15 PM UTC
SCORPIONES
*“Since pain is a totally subjective mental experience" "we do not have direct access" "to anyone or anything’s pain" "but our own;" "and even just the principles" "by which we can infer" "that others experience pain" "and have a legitimate interest in not feeling pain" "involve ******** philosophy—" "metaphysics, epistemology, value theory, ethics.”* - From Consider the Lobster by David Foster Wallace David I've considered it and I think she might laugh if she read that a version of her briny and spined pint sized now resides in the depths of my mind, She might laugh at my comparison of her to a hideous sea spider but it’s because, as you say, one can neither comprehend the pain of an exquisitely tactile lobster in a *** of boiling water, nor walk a mile in it's eight lilliputian shoes So I am left to wonder what it might mean or not mean to her in her armoured yet acute exoskeleton to have quit school and be back to her fathers house on Prince Edward Island. and what I'd want to tell her is: They might try to butter you up, bridle your anger with blue rubber bands, Use their wooden spoons to nudge your thrashing, clinging arms back into the *** but as we know, lobsters can live to be over one hundred years old and grow to be over twenty pounds in size which is very large for an aquatic insect and they are marine crustaceans of the family Homaridae, characterized by five pairs of jointed legs, the first pair terminating in large pincerish claws I know she knows how to use them. Which reminds me of something else you said: "Everything I've ever let go of has claw marks on it." A feeling I can understand Though I'm no more lobster than she
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Sep 24, 2015
Sep 24, 2015 at 10:46 PM UTC
Lobster Shoes
*“Since pain is a totally subjective mental experience" "we do not have direct access" "to anyone or anything’s pain" "but our own;" "and even just the principles" "by which we can infer" "that others experience pain" "and have a legitimate interest in not feeling pain" "involve ******** philosophy—" "metaphysics, epistemology, value theory, ethics.”* - From Consider the Lobster by David Foster Wallace David I've considered it and I think she might laugh if she read that a version of her briny and spined pint sized now resides in the depths of my mind, She might laugh at my comparison of her to a hideous sea spider but it’s because, as you say, one can neither comprehend the pain of an exquisitely tactile lobster in a *** of boiling water, nor walk a mile in it's eight lilliputian shoes So I am left to wonder what it might mean or not mean to her in her armoured yet acute exoskeleton to have quit school and be back to her fathers house on Prince Edward Island. and what I'd want to tell her is: They might try to butter you up, bridle your anger with blue rubber bands, Use their wooden spoons to nudge your thrashing, clinging arms back into the *** but as we know, lobsters can live to be over one hundred years old and grow to be over twenty pounds in size which is very large for an aquatic insect and they are marine crustaceans of the family Homaridae, characterized by five pairs of jointed legs, the first pair terminating in large pincerish claws I know she knows how to use them. Which reminds me of something else you said: "Everything I've ever let go of has claw marks on it." A feeling I can understand Though I'm no more lobster than she
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Have a conversation with me. I'll put up three walls. One for my thoughts, one for my feelings, and one for my incredibly smart mouth.
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Jun 10, 2015
Jun 10, 2015 at 7:19 PM UTC
Exoskeleton
creek in th'dark w/brightest stone baubles, dappled riverbottom pebbles under moon-water, a thousand faces glinting, smiling upwards. school of carp in the reeds, the stalks rasping in the warm air as the tails swish them back and forth. the unheard steady **** of flapping, feeding mouths -- drawing in of algae, snails, waterbeetles; soft crunch of shell and exoskeleton. two legs on the dune by the stream wishing there was two more legs on the dune, angling down toward the stream. a tender accompanying voice singing maybe Piaf avec un accent provincial (de châtillon?) hair wet, tangled; sporting powder-white two-piece, fresh from having swam with strong, slow kicks of slender pale legs, long in that green water. legs that look good in black heels. their clicking imagined in the head.
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Apr 3, 2013
Apr 3, 2013 at 2:10 PM UTC
dream #38 - stream, green water
A long time I was a shell Not a clam Or shrimp Just a plain Exoskeleton In this moment I am full I could burst Happiness is divine This month Has made me Glad to be Alive
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Dec 28, 2014
Dec 28, 2014 at 12:03 PM UTC
Bliss
Lawrence Hall [email protected] Dispatches for the Colonial Office Let’s Carapace Ourselves For William Gipson William alluded to the dry bones of grammar And I wondered why no one ever alludes To the dry exoskeleton of anything - Equal justice for all carapaces!
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Sep 19, 2025
Sep 19, 2025 at 8:21 PM UTC
Let's Carapace Ourselves
Allure to me with your bonescent, sweat stench brought me closer. Bone structure kept you here. In my radius you stayed. So nearly an artist, fickle. Dearly departed, I miss you. Brittle. And I just kept saying no; I couldn't handle you. You must've miss understood the tone; outspoken through the mandible. Now I was out of my mind, Insane at best. Out of the body experience from inside the mind of the cranium. Actually you were caught in cult of her anatomy. First born in the ossification of you. The next time he spoke, awoken a sentiment. The exoskeleton protected what was hiding inside. And we decayed decayed. His skeleton exposed; he grew on me like bones of a child. And I've known his scent still sticks to my shell. Under my skin and underground, in the catacombs. But only bones sent me here. Just to snap back to reality
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Jan 3, 2017
Jan 3, 2017 at 9:50 PM UTC
Bonescent