A sullen stream infuses mud with rain
It flows like the blood of an old man's veins
Under the shelter of shrubs animals are in slumber
Rain drops from leaves like the tears of a downer
The rain taps at the roof of a worn down house
It tells secrets of above as it hits the ground
Wind becomes fierce as nightfall arrives
It takes the rain with it and together they unite

As the storm fades the clouds part to allow a glimpse of the moon
I ask the rain “please come again soon”

I find it hard to talk sometimes
As if the thoughts had escaped my mind
Past the endless cerulean skies
And through the knots of time
Instead, I write
So that you can understand
What is going on inside
Sometimes I just wish that you could read my mind

Silent is the setting sun
Forever fields where my mind runs
A sudden rush and scarlet skies
Where eyes wander and time flies by
The moon soon will beckon
As if doom impends
The stars died long ago
But their light transcends
Time will filter and slowly mend
I wander through this starry night
The lights above me take my sight
Consumed by chaos
My wings will form
And take me to where I will be reborn

Rope
Tell me
Is it time?
I can prolong life
But death is inevitable
Depression goes on
As long as i'm alive
Only time will tell if i'll survive

The moods swing as the seasons change
Cold wind and gloomy nights make awful days
Crickets perish as the seasons change
The buzzing sound dulls away
Sunlight turns to darkness as the seasons change
The once bright sunlight hides far away
My self-esteem dwindles as the seasons change
I question whether I am sane
My mood changes as the seasons change
We intertwine and feel each others pain
My Loneliness deepens as the seasons change
This hollow house comforts my pain
My nature changes as the seasons change
Morbid thoughts shroud my brain
Activity depresses on the bridge as the seasons change
Too bad I chose Winter to accept my fate
Life goes on as the seasons change
With or without me that won’t change

See you on another day
I lost my way in the lonely grey
Decay said the stars
They would not stay
Alone became the moon
She loomed above where we used to play
June approached and went away
I see the chaos where we once lay
Swooning as midnight approached
With not one single thought that we would lose our way

You are a shadow in the moonlight
An anomaly of the night

You could stand out on the brightest days
And in the helpless sleepless nights

I feel it everyday
Looming over
It makes me behave
My shadow is resolute
With the ground I must stay

How I wish I could fly
Leaving this bored broken town
Into the forever fields of lush green
Above the cosey white cotton clouds

My shadow won't leave
It has deceived me this long
I wonder where it will go
On the day I have gone

Life is unfair
Or so they say
The blessing of ignorance
Never came my way
Some find happiness
Others find pain
And a few others lose their mind in the rain
A rope is seductive
When the realization comes
A hopeless sensation makes you want to feel numb

Life is unfair
Or so they say
Shaky hands can't tie nooses
And anxiety stays

Shallow tides
And lonely waves
An empty beach
Shone on by the gleaming white
May these nothing days
Lead to something night's?

In time will heal
The tides will change
For all I have learned
Is that nothing stays

Under the shelter of a desolate sky
The few stars I see
Take the light from my eyes

Some days appear troubled
It may feel as if it always rains

I know you love the sunny days
It makes you feel warm inside
However
On the worst of days
I will always be by your side

Troubled days come and go
Same with weeks and months
It will get better
And peace will come
For that
I surely know

Winter too
Will not be forever
The cold will wane away

Some day
Maybe not too far away
The sun will shine again

I have not found peace for a while
Even when it rains
My hands still shake
I am not scared of the world
I am scared of myself
And the complexities my mind faces
Dreams are no longer my solitude
They are horrors that leave me no escape
I can find chaos anywhere
Even beyond your brightest smile
Below my feet from where I tread
The soil grounds me and consumes my  voice
Sometimes thoughts feel so close
Yet words feel so far away
And so silence becomes my misery
Freedom seems too abstract to be true
Maybe I am just too harsh on myself
Or too selfish to this world
There is beauty here
Beneath the stars
We do not have to look so far away
When my heart beats out of my chest
I must remember that everything will be okay

Silence that lingers
Sometimes it lasts for days
Without a word to be heard
And your mind rots away
The flowers may be listening
Hearing what we cannot
They grow where we decay
Where we chose to put our plot
Nothing truly leaves
Nothing truly stays
The seasons will repeat
But it will not be the same

Silent pitters
With patters yet to come
The rain drips of the leaves
Slowly one by one
I see life really clearly
When I cannot see the sun
The moon feels like its watching me
Its spotlight illuminates my skin
I love this type of night
The comforting rain
And the friendly moon
I hope that in our dreams tonight
We can make love inside my room

Silent she lay
Her nightmares yet to dismay
But for now she found bliss
A moment between nothingness and happiness

What will come tomorrow?
The rain could fall tragically
And the sun might set beautifully
Or maybe the next day will not come at all

Between now and the inevitable
I will be here to hold you
To show even if tomorrow never comes
I will always love you

Picture perfect eyes
Silent little lies
A tender touch
Losing love
A lost lullaby
Desolate dreams
Slumber fell in empty sheets
Naive and twenty-nine
It was not meant to be
The rainfall came and spoke to me
To let me rest and put me to sleep

Sombre
Torn
He lay upon a bed of thorns
Soft words escaped his lips
'I wish to awake from this horrid abyss'

The moon allured his sight
Into the depths of night
Waiting for sleep
While darkness creeps
Slumber had never felt so warm

When no one is there
It feels like there is nothing at all
Not a hand to hold
Nor a face to see
The emptiness is terrifying
Yet it is so close to me

In hard times we crumble
And fall to our knees
We must stand up
Or we will get lost
Like blue eyes in the sea

I fear the color is gone
Now I only see black
In the darkness
I loom
And pretend it ain't all that bad
But when I see the clock ticking
The memories all come back

Somewhere beneath the shadows
Lies nothing but the hollow
A sort of sullen emptiness
I wonder why it follows
Maybe it just wants to be alive
And to dream the same as I
Maybe we could swap places
Honestly
I never really envied life

I lay stranded in my bed
Waiting for my dreams to take me away

The floor sinks around me
Dragging me further into the abyss

The moon bleeds red
It seeps through the blinds in my room

Silence echoes in my head
It exists where nothing ever was

When I am gone
I will be reduced to words

I wonder if anyone will read them

I looked into the mirror and told myself

'Your eyes look sullen and sleep deprived
Just close them shut
There is no need to cry
Death will come in time'

Later that night
I took my advice
And fell into a nightmare
I felt alone and afraid
But once I awoke
My perspective had changed

I looked back into the mirror and told myself

'Your eyes look sullen and sleep deprived
But never close them
There is no need to hide
Death will come later
You have plenty of time
Live for today and all will be fine'

Take me away
From all these bad days
Lend me some sunshine
Drive me insane
Call me your lover
Hold me till dawn
Pretend we are happy
And that I will always be yours

Take me to your dreamland
A place where we can be forever

As our bones crumble to dust
Our souls will astray
Into your dreamland
Away from endless pain
Our hearts will be mended
Our minds will found
Located somewhere between Heaven and Hell
Let us live for the moment eternally