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2.8k · Jan 2015
Productive
cypress Jan 2015
I'm just going through the motions,
each day is the same.

The work day drags on,
unfinished and cut off.

I stand at the door of my house,
hoping for some change.

I greet my cat with love,
refill her water.

I procrastinate at playing guitar,
pushing away my dreams.

I'm fine.
I'm fine.

I'm lonely.
I'm fine.
i need to get this off my chest
2.4k · Jun 2013
OCD
cypress Jun 2013
OCD
Uncontrollable urges to destroy yourself
Wanting to stop
But stopping
Is like
A drug addict
Quitting
Or forgetting about
Someone who
Made life much more bearable

Simply telling someone to stop
Is like
Telling a rock to move
Or saying
Someone with curly hair
Should make it straight

It is hard to understand
About a mental disorder
Unless
You have it
more mental **** ups
2.0k · Apr 2015
I need you
cypress Apr 2015
You linger.
I desire for your body,
in this vast night.
1.7k · May 2016
Disregarded
cypress May 2016
Like the hands I allowed my cat to scratch
and my unvacuumed floor and unwashed bed sheets,
And the ability to go outside and improve myself
I took you for granted.
im sorry
i made a lot of mistakes
1.7k · Jun 2013
Anxiety
cypress Jun 2013
A twisted rotten feeling that
begins in the pit of
your stomach
Spreading
Taking over
Making you second guess
Doubt yourself
Panic
In
A downward
Spiral
Of
Self-doubt
And
Hatred
Suffocating
Tight breaths
And
Foggy eyes
Walls
Collapsing in
Nowhere
To run
Nowhere
To hide
Nobody
To
Help
idk where i went with this
1.6k · Nov 2016
Unclean
cypress Nov 2016
crooks of elbows
backs of knees
where the thighs touch
back
neck
1.4k · Jan 2014
Be Happy
cypress Jan 2014
I love to see you happy
I love to see you smile
The crinkles around your eyes
Make it worthwhile

I hate it when you're sad
I hate to see you down
No one deserves to be blue
It's dreadful to see that frown

Always stay happy
Keep your head up
Look for the bright things in life
It'll brighten your world's makeup
be joyful yo you are so awesome and deserve to feel happy
1.2k · Dec 2014
Alone
cypress Dec 2014
Blue lines around grey pottery,
empty containers full of air.
Spices perched on the shelf;
mocking,
staring at the lone figure at the counter,
whispering together.

The setting sky darkens
the cat begs for food,
the cat is fed,
and the figure is alone once more.
sigh
1.0k · Oct 2016
Still Cold/ Pathway Private
cypress Oct 2016
The air pierces my skin
My breath fogs up in front of me
as I walk alongside you,
in this hidden pathway
I look at you
you are so beautiful
There is warmth in my cheeks
but it is still cold
1.0k · Jun 2013
Flowerchild
cypress Jun 2013
You are my sunshine
You light up my world like clouds clearing up on a rainy day

With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair, you dance
Prancing around like a deer
Asking me to join
Your voice sweet like honeysuckle

You add flowers to my hair
Making them like yours
Little daisies sticking to my hair like flypaper

You make me forget the world
Pushing the problems out of my head
i was forced to make this for school
it may or may not be about flowerchild harry
814 · Nov 2014
Yeah
cypress Nov 2014
My words half-formed in my mouth,
a subtle taste of what is on the paper.
Gliding across the thin black lines is my pen,
creating words and phrases I have yet to say.
i wrote this at a friends house
767 · Jun 2013
Cats
cypress Jun 2013
Curiosity poured into a being
Tail swishes from side to side, eyeing the mental world hustling around it
Staying out of it.
Keeping its distance.
Smart choice, furry one.
Keeping out of the bitter *******.
Yet we choose to point out their wise choice,
Claiming it to be rude,
Only curious ones see it as it is.
yay cats
i wrote this during spring break when i had no idea what to do
hurray for boredom
732 · Apr 2015
Unnamed #3
cypress Apr 2015
Chocolate eyes pair with your brunette hair
your gentle but firm grip on my hand,
fingers lightly tracing circles in the spaces between my knuckles,
How can you feel so warm?

Your touch lifts dead weight in my center;
I feel light and airless
Your warm and enveloping scent
Comforts me,
Calms me,
makes me feel like nothing is wrong in the world.

Your voice is so deep but high
slightly groggy and dark
What would it sound like if I woke up next to you?
I could listen to you talk for hours my dear,
a soothing voice among this sea of shrills.
you guessed it
i gots me a cute boy
also its slightly unfinished but i like where it ends so
729 · Sep 2015
/like this/
cypress Sep 2015
I look at my skin in the fogged up mirror

and I don’t see any redness

no dots

no blemishes

and I think,

“why can’t it be like this all the time?”
662 · Mar 2017
broken windows
cypress Mar 2017
how scared you must be
to be exposed to the elements
with all your windows broken in
and all alone
575 · Jul 2015
sigh
cypress Jul 2015
I approached the door, as something caught my eye
A glimpse of a person,
a wishful hi
Something inside me was filled with terror and glee,
but I soon realized,
the reflection,
it was only me.
543 · Jun 2013
Valentines Day
cypress Jun 2013
On February 14th of her 13th year
She was given flowers.
She thought they were beautiful,
But had nothing to give back
She placed them on her desk
To admire the beauty of the vibrant life
It soon turned sour
Her heart grew more sad
As the flowers grew more weary
Until they were both no more
idk this happened to me
537 · Jul 2013
Insomnia
cypress Jul 2013
Tossing, turning,
Staring at the ceiling
Dark rooms
Nothing to do
Nothing to think about

But the
Deep, sad, weird late night thoughts
Of
Loneliness
Sorrows
Future
To dos
Sleep
People
Ideas
Life
Scary things
Ceilings
Walls

Late nights
Nothing to think about
Everything to think about
idk i couldn't sleep
515 · Dec 2013
Showers
cypress Dec 2013
"Why do you take such long showers?"

I don't know
Maybe it's the warm water covering me like a blanket
Or my free train of thought
It seems so endless
And so inviting
showers, water, also im baaacckkk
504 · Jan 2014
Lines
cypress Jan 2014
Here I am,
faced with a blank page.
The spaces in between the lines could be filled with anything:
words of wisdom,
words of hate,
pictures conjured out of boredom;
a masterpiece wrecked by lines.
It could be professional,
the words could be zany,
or wildly inappropriate.
It is anyone's choice.
Yet here I am still,
with a page over half full,
breaking some sort of wall,
talking about pages and words.
yay im here
489 · Jan 2014
When I'm Sad
cypress Jan 2014
When I'm sad,
I like to make and artistic representation,
of how i feel.

When I'm sad,
I like to write out my emotions,
An invisible voice,
whispering my upsetting thoughts.

When I'm sad,
I like to seek out songs,
that connect to the atmosphere in my head.

When I'm sad,
I like to cry,
I like to zone out,
I like to set my feelings free,
to let them run out until happiness replaces it.
basically
486 · Jan 2014
Get Over Me
cypress Jan 2014
Get over me,
because I'm not worth it.

I'm not worth it,
because I broke your heart,
because I feel so bad about it,
because it's been 5 months,
because I can't accept myself.

You should get over it,
because I'm not the best person you'll meet,
because you're only 15,
because life must go on,
because lamenting won't get me back,
BECAUSE IT'S BEEN 5 MONTHS.

Life wont stop revolving,
even if your world feels like it has.
that was bitter and my emotions were everywhere oops
480 · Mar 2017
anxiety
cypress Mar 2017
an itch in your shoulders
that you cannot scratch
you try to ignore it
but it demands
to be heard
477 · Dec 2013
Escape
cypress Dec 2013
What I need,
Is an escape.

I need a place
to lose myself.
A place to hide.
Somewhere to let my emotions out.

A place,
Somewhere other than
Under my covers,
Late at night,
Soaked in empty company.

But most importantly,
I need,
A person,
Who I can tell my
Deepest, down-hearted thoughts to,
Who won't tell anyone else,
Who will do
Their best to
Keep me alive.
escape, wow, sad
436 · Mar 2017
too far
cypress Mar 2017
i have been moving forward for years, never stopping
everything has overwhelmed me and eaten away at my being
but i still moved on
i've hid from my deepest thoughts,
buried them deep inside
kept moving without looking back

but standing here today i see everything that i skipped over,
everything that has festered and crept up behind me
so close that it invades my thoughts
taken over, there's no turning back
this is bad
433 · Jan 2015
Rings
cypress Jan 2015
The rings around my eyes,
they pull.
Pull at my quality of life,
dimming the pleasure,
forcing the exposure to reality.
402 · Sep 2015
Untitled
cypress Sep 2015
My head is buzzing.
I can't control it.
I need to settle down,
Let sleep come and
drag me lower,
Allowing me to rest.

But my bed is hard
and unaccepting of my
attempts to sleep,
So I lie awake.
All I want is to escape
into a state of unconsciousness,
so I don't have to feel.
376 · Jul 2013
Books
cypress Jul 2013
Let us take you to another world
Dragging the problems out of your head
Losing yourself in a make-believe world
Full of wonder
Excitement
Danger
Fun
Happiness
Loose yourself in a different place
A place you with you were in
this is me
347 · Feb 2014
Wanderlust
cypress Feb 2014
"A strong desire to wander or travel the world."*

I want
To be
To feel,
Free
Happy
Beautifully lost
Wonderfully exposed
To find old familiarity in new things
To find new comfort
And I
Can't
Find that
Here.
this was based on the wanderlust shirt i have heh
333 · Oct 2014
Wild
cypress Oct 2014
Standing.
I am standing.
A pane of glass separates us.
Her pupils are slits,
staring up at me expectantly.
A bird captures her vision.
They drift up to me.
Her eyes are wild,
they are wild in a domestic environment.
I am still staring at her.
She's still staring back.
I reach for the door handle,
and her eyes become domestic again.
wow it's been a while
303 · Feb 2014
Untitled
cypress Feb 2014
I remember
that once
my 9th grade math teacher;
he was in a poor family,
and he couldn't have a coat.
"I didn't let the cold bother me."

I remember
on a cold day
when I could see vapor puffs from my nose
I was standing there
and refused to let the cold bother me.
doot doot
302 · Jan 2016
Any Emotion
cypress Jan 2016
Drowning in my own head
What do I do?
Losing control
losing control
I fear I've lost myself
No control
no control
242 · Dec 2014
7:02 A.M.
cypress Dec 2014
Light rises.
Darkness retreats.
Go to sleep.
i should be asleep
im also listening to night vale
237 · Jun 2013
Untitled
cypress Jun 2013
A wise man
Once said,
"We're all stories,
In the end."
ninth doctor

— The End —