Shipwreck.


If because I have been out of the loop for too long,
I can no longer speak of love;
Then what more is there for me to say?
My silence is deafening, so I will speak no more and close the book.
I failed to live the dream,
When I am wrecked on Love Island’s shore.
If I cannot have love, then can you please tell me,
What on Earth am I here on this Earth for?


No elegance, in my lack of a rhythmic dance.
I could risk it all on your honesty;
But I would only end up crying when you decide to take your love back.
It seems so selfish to me,
When I would love you so selflessly.


I can never forget the lies that rattle around inside my head.
If I could walk away, I would never be seen again.
If you wore rose-tinted glasses this day and spoke only of truth,
I could find a way to fall in love with you.


As you move forward in time,
On to the next one in line,
I am left behind, to be lost.
The next mirrored word; my chance is gone.
What is yours is no longer any concern of mine.
Until the end of this line, we were an umbilical chain.
We are so similar in thoughts, but we have never felt the same,
For I am permanently lame;
While you are a Goddess.
It is so belittling to not be welcome anymore, inside your presence.
I have failed every test.
Step one into love equals two steps back…
Oh what a perfect mess.


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Moving on


I’ve got a heart that is made of gold;
It’s buried deep and it’s all that I know.
I’ve followed my heart to the end of the Earth
And all I got was this lousy t-shirt.


I keep moving on to another place;
Another name, another face,
Another love that will fade one day
And when we fall out of love I will begin again.


I haven’t got enough time to throw it all away,
But their love is always searching for a brand new face.
I’m only here so they can remember feeling good;
I’m their stepping stone, from single life to true love.


No part of love will I become,
Because to me love is a stranger and it ain’t no fun.
Nobody wants to have my love,
So I guess I’ll just keep on moving on.


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Is it weird that I go through life
Times like now
Prime
And I don't wanna be bothered
Don't wanna be spoken to
Don't wanna be looked at
Don't wanna be catcalled nor seduced
Singing positive melodies in y head with a straight face on the outside
Won't let you in
Look where that got me last time
I don't wanna be bothered
With bs
With negative stanzas
With bs
With bd
With death
With dishonest
With ill intentions
I don't wanna be bothered
They profess the desire of a strong black woman
They lack the knowledge of all that comes with that
How she carries the baggage the world balanced on her back
While he's starring at her back side
Wonder what made it so fat?
Slide
I don't even want you near me
First dates can be ******* invitations for somebody else
But honestly...
Your forwarding gestures to see my insides is an insult to my intelligence

No rain has left my eyes like this
For many present days

No water puddling beneath
No need for mist

But today...
Today one raindrop fell to my right

And for the life of me
I couldn't wish it away

My heart alone to break.


I cannot see the signs, so tell me; let me know.
I cannot see how you feel in time to stop you needing to go.
I only wish I could serenade you, but that can never be.
I only wish that you could one day love me,
But that is only fantasy.


The reality is I am not good enough to be loved by somebody so fine.
The truth is mine, the secret heart I hide.
These feelings I keep, deep down inside,
Will forever stop me from being with the woman I truly like.
I cannot, I never will, I couldn’t speak the words;
Those that only my heart can create.
I wish I could, I really want to,
But I only have dreams that break.


In the end, love is just pretend.
Nothing based on anything more than illusion.
So I remain without a girlfriend,
Existing inside a delusion.


One way love does not exist.
It takes two to kiss.
My heart alone to forever break.
Do you even notice?
I fall alone to shatter into pieces;
Regrets are all I have left, as you are my lost witness.


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Burning bright


Dreaming of a sunbeam;
Waiting for a light to shine.
Imagining a new being,
Wandering into my life.


Waiting on a lover I have never met before.
I have been adrift too long, but now I am insight of shore.
If all feelings change, then something must begin this day.
I am alone and lost, but I am being put in my place.
Destiny’s hands guide me;
Fate is locked in Schrodinger’s box.
I am a voice of love,
Calling out to the one who is lost.


Faith never crumbles; replicate and start again.
Belief in the unknown; wishing I could find my way.
Love is where the heart is at home;
I want to exist inside her mind.
Praying for a new kiss;
Hoping for an eternal flame to become burning bright.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.