I always said I hate people that do it,
But I become one of those people,
I'm sorry,
I really am,
I didn't mean to keep you like that,
I put you on the back burner,
And what for?
So I could feed my ego when needed,
So I could feel completed,
But I want you to know it wasn't right the way you were treated,
Though it didnt go unnoticed,
It's actually why I wrote this,
The ****** up part is,
It shouldnt have been like this,
I kind of liked you,
Wait,
Or was it just because you were brand new,
****.
I've got to admit,
I'm not good at this apologising ****,
Sorry, my bad,
If it makes you feel better,
Settles your worries,
It's all really to do with my insecurities,
Oldest line in the book I know,
But I'm continuing to grow,
We all are,
On a constant journey to death,
Trying to saviour every last breath,
Taking what we can,
Without any real plan,
Just kind of following the guidelines set out for us,
Only a few get to be really free in this life,
School, job, wife,
Nah, that's not what I've ever wanted,
I want more, I need more,
I feel like this is what I'm here for,
To share my troubles with the world and let them open their hearts to my somewhat misguided thoughts,
Maybe they'll go against what they've been taught,
And connect,
Sublet,
Theres the real reason,
I just want people to maybe understand the bigger issues at hand,
So if I can,
I'm going to give you a brief tour of my mind,
Feel free to pick up anything you may find,
Just dont come in eyes shut,
Blind.
I went a little off track,
Let's quickly rewind back,
Hey Sarah,
I really am sorry,
But if you're here now,
And still questioning,
Maybe carry on listening,
You'll find all the answers you need,
I wish you all the best and hope you succeed.
