When I love someone, I give up a lot of my time for him. I give up my time to spend the day out together, even if it’s not a big plan or fancy outing. Even if I'm tired as hell, I still would want to see him, because seeing him and being around him makes me the happiest person. I put in a lot of effort into my relationship. I want to make every moment we spend worthwhile. I talk to him everyday and every single time when he is free, because I want to know how he's doing and I want him to know that I'm always there for him, though not physically. I need him to never forget that he has me by his side all the time. Even when he's busy, I'll (im)patiently wait by my phone for his texts or calls, and when he does, I respond too quickly. I give up a lot of my sleep time so I can spend my time to converse with him over the phone until late, especially on days we could not see each other.
Well, I cannot deny that my actions are pretty clingy. But heck, I don’t know what else to do so I could prove to him that I'm always here for him, and the fact that I love him so much and he has to know that, and remember it every frickin' day. I will never change, unless he wants me to. I will never stop, unless he tells me to. Hence until then, I will continue to be this way. And until then, I really hope he understands.
Though I can never buy him lots of gifts, or spend hugely on him or whatever, like how other girlfriends could do for their men, I know that I can give a lot of love and attention that one desires or craves for. Because I am one who needs love and attention, so I know the best how that feels.
Guess I really need to get this off my chest.
