Like autumn leaves that fall on a tree
Or a turtle making its way to the shore
I dont know what you've done to me
But will you worth opening my door?

Because the longer i look into your eyes
The deeper i get to fall right into you
And I cant explain but it feels so nice
To know youre feeling the same way too

I never expect this time would come
That i will let somebody in
After all the heartaches that i've gone
You're like gravity and so you win.

My pre-dawn conviction is weak
This cold ember death will sink its teeth
My winter coat is a sickly sheath
Sloughing with every retreat

I hope you know
Your eyes lit a thousand snows
We drowned beneath

I hope you know
Your lips caught aflame so cold
Disintegrating against me

For whatever reason
Your glassy stare broke apart in the autumn chill
Fluctuating against summer’s warm laugh
Our first wavering dance

We soaked our skin in teenage radiance
An adolescent haze of lust
Plotting our dreams
In the lull before dawn and dusk

I know I’m dwelling on better times
Wasting my life away
Can’t ******* shake this habit of mine
I guess I miss the days
When love was just a song and dance
And every breath held weight
I’m catching ghosts in the pre-dawn light
Lost in a memory daze

I like you,
and I'm sorry,
but it's true;
so maybe we should jus forget about each other.
you wanna play around, and that's cool!
I ain't got a problem with a man who knows what he wants too.
I want to have fun but with you I feel like I could fall;
and that's the problem!
to have fun I shouldn't even like you at all!
It's way too complicated
it's way too hard
I've been down that road, and I can't do it again.
Not with you,
one more person I could lose.
and all because I can't control my heart,
all because when I looked at you
I knew, I just knew.
being away from you *****!
I feel like I need distractions to keep myself from talking to you.
maybe it's a cute guy who shows me interest
and we talk;
or maybe it's a guy with a girl and I can't help but make him go for a shot.
I mean who am I to convince him to come after me?
Just another ****.
Just another tease.
But lemme jus tell you, that it's all because I am tryna keep myself away from you.
From your smile
From your lips
From the way you touch my hips
God!
Do you have any idea what you do to me?
No.
I really don't think that you do.
I can't control how I feel, even though I'm trying.
It's almost like I'm tryna keep someone from dying.
I really would love if you could feel it too.
It would make things easier, and make me feel less blue.
That first kiss was the moment everything changed.
It's not that serious, I said, but it sure as hell is not the same.
Tried to play it off like it was just a game.
Tried to save myself from inner despair.
I don't want to have feelings, I just don't want to care.
I've become someone else, someone I never thought I'd be.
Yet you're the only one I really care who sees.
I'm hiding behind a wall because I'm so afraid to fall,
and at the same time I feel I've done nothing to prevent it at all.
I'm slowly letting down my guard, and with you,
it isn't that hard.
I should just leave you be, and let you forget about me.

sweater
sweet
"you taste it"
sweet
I feel it with you
as I am enveloped in this sweater that
smells
feels
tastes
breathes
like you
comforting and warm, like you
woven and fragile, like you
itchy and scratchy, like you
like
you
if I could wear this sweater forever I would
to be held by the very fabric that has hugged your person that has hugged me
that I long for
that I think of as I remember that this is the first thing I put on after you felt me
all of me, with you
that this was the first thing you let me have, and take
that this was what you trusted me with
your Christmas sweater
what I put on for reassurance
that you want me and need me
what I put on for safety
when I feel like I'm losing it
I'm falling now though
in this sweater
backwards into that ocean
and I'm scared, sweater
that as days pass he loses me
that his image of me fades and drifts away
that he forgets the sound of my voice
that my touch on his body has evaporated
sweater, I want to hold him as he does me
this image in my mind of his smirk
his lanky but grand stature
his sturdy hands and brittle nails
his smell of Old Spice
his blonde bed head
I want to hold it all
and I want to hear it all, sweater
how he used to light everything in his path on fire as a child
how he owns a mug with his face on it as a little boy
how he lost it all to one person, like me
sweater I can feel myself falling
I'm losing my balance
I can't stand
I'm trying to protect my heart because I'm afraid to let it go
but a part of me fears I already have
and it's lost
in his arms
bare and bleeding
and yet here I am
wearing his sweater
alone and yearning.

I
might be in love
and I
am terribly afraid.