How far have you went?
To say it's enough
How much pain should be felt?
To say your hurt
How many words do you need?
To feel okay
How many time would it take?
To finally free yourself
From settling for less than you deserve
From the pain that you cause yourself
From the words you sugar-coated to ease the pain
From the man who doesn't see you worthy of his everything
I should stop
I should give up
But every time I thought doing so
It leads me back to
How far have I went?
How much pain have I endured?
How many words it took you to give me reasons to live?
How you were the reason for my everything
So I'm still here
By your side
Wondering why
You can't choose me.

what to do when you committed yourself to someone who won’t commit themselves to you?
they never loved you the way you loved them
maybe they don’t even deserve the way you loved them
saying that makes your heart hurt though,

how to look right at the face of the one who crushed your heart
and not want the entire world for them
how to stop wishing they’d be okay
that they would be happy again

how to stop wishing for the past
when they giggled and smiled and said “it’s because of you”

how to forget the tone in their voice when they said “i love you too”

How

if you figure it out write it down on a paper and send it to me too

words i need to know more than i need her to be true

It circles around me,
it nuzzles its face next to mine,
shouting, "Don't be afraid!
It will work out in time!"
"But what if it doesn't?"
asks the doubting voice in my mind.
"Well than it will be a lesson to learn,
that patience and hard work
don't always earn you what you deserve."

You want someone to fix your life,
Forget it, take some advice,
You have to fix it yourself,
Move your ownself,
Or it will rot on a shelf.
Be your own boss,
Earn your own money with no loss,
Have your own powers,
Don't be obligated or intimidated by others.
Don't turn to be validated by any one,
All these will happen,  
People will learn to respect you,
Your dear ones will be proud of you.

I was an idiot.
I was a fool.
I mixed some things up,
and I'm sorry.

Ridicule me,
slander me,
taint my status.
Just please,
forgive me.

We all make mistakes,
some less than others,
others more than some,
and I more than others.

I didn't deserve this,
I didn't work for this.
I didn't need this,
So why did you do this?

For your own gain?
To point out a mistake,
which I regret so much.
I said sorry,
And I really meant it.

It must feel so, so good
to do what you've done.

You watch as I smile
at things that make only me  happy.
You watch as I dance
to the beat of my heart.
You watch as I fall
deeper and deeper in love with you.
You watch as I give
my youth to you.
You watch as I realise
I deserve better.
I deserve someone who loves back
instead of you, who's only watching from a distance.

l.t.