Standing
alone
Darkness
and flame
Devoured
his soul
Crippled
and maim
Losing
his mind
as shadows
take over
Losing
all luck
like a small
four-leaf clover
Consumed
by fire,
turning
to ash
A fool
with bounty
turned in
for cash
Betrayed,
back-stabbed
and left
to die
"You were
ignorant
Now you wonder
why...?"
"You trusted
too quickly
Trampled on
Used
Demotivated
Attacked
Demoralised
Abused"
"You wanted
out
but got dragged
back in
Trying
to shout
but end up
in sin"
"One day
there was
a pure
little child
who, when
he passed you
always smiled
Until
the day
he stood
in the meadow
A flame
appeared
Engulfed him
in shadow
Smoke,
impure
as black
as death
destroyed
his body
like crystal
****.
It looked
to him
like help
arrived
And so
into
the flames
he dived
For a
short while
he took
comfort
until
he saw
he had been
hurt"
His body
turned
into a
crisp
His soul
into a
will-o-wisp
Existed
in
this world
no more
Burnt
it all -
to his
core
until
he had
to eventually
succumb
to the freedom
of drugs
which made him
numb
He lost
his sense
of feeling -
pain
No longer
could he,
greatness
attain
His life
was turned
round 'n
round
until he
wound up
in the
ground
Mentally
- emotionally -
lost,
distorted
Physically
beat
body
contorted
Stuffed
in a hole
Forgotten
about
His very
existence,
a topic
of doubt
Lost in a
world
of shadow
and pain
Where the one
source of light
is the one thing
that drains
Despite
the blazing
flames'
heat
his body -
stiffed
in icy
defeat
A light
so dark
it dis-
emboweled
a kid
who now
from centre
howled
Whose body
was now
completely
disfigured
Whose soul
became
utterly
dismembered
Devoured
by
cannibal -
butcher
He lost
the way
towards
a future
Smog
and smoke
that cloud
his sight
He ended
up
upon a
great height
He knew
that he
had lost
the fight
Below him
was
an ocean
of white
His only option
was to
fall
For there was
no way
to, down
crawl
He stood
staring
at his
defeat
The oceans
were to
about, him
eat
A soft,
sweet land
up in
the sky
Until
you fall
right through
and die
By water
or by
solid
ground
His fate
and soul
were now
unbound
The white
turned to
a sinister
grey
This was
to be
his final
day
And then
to black
did they
then changed
He knew
that this
would be
a dange'
A scorching,
deep flame
from it
arose
And just
like magma
on earth
flows
And like
Abraham
before
the king
But in
contrast
this fire
will cling
And no
small ant
will come
him save
No place
for him
to find
safe have'
A leap
of faith
over
the cliff
His body
turning
lame
from stiff
"Avoid
the flame
into
the river"
His strong
life-force
now slowly
wither
Trying
to hold
the land
in the sky
He thought
to himself
"I'm too young
to die"
As slowly
through clouds
his body
fell
Into
the flames -
the pit
of hell
And like
Moses
before
the sea
Except
that he
would drown
and be
lost
to thought
and mem-
ory
He wanted
to
die eas-
ily
And like
Lot's wife
who turned
on back
Instead
of coals
It was
haze - black
That turned
him back
into
the dust
"This 's what
I get
for over-
trust"
His life
will end
in a
swift fall
The fire
which
promises
all -
The world,
money,
drugs
and fame.
But
truthfully
it is
just flame
He trusted
it
and let
them steal
all his
life
seemed-innocent
deal
Filled
with regret
as slowly
he sinks
It will
be over
soon 's he
blinks
Fading
Dying
It's time
to go
They took
it all
but just
for show
He was then
placed
6-feet
under
and from
the world
did they
him sunder

Where love does blind us, pain unveils
To all the missed minor details
The things we forced ourselves to see
How we wanted them to be

They say “love is blind”
But truth be told, it isn’t.
Love can see quite clearly
And we cannot see through its eyes

But it acts like a curtain
Between us and the truth
Just like looking at the sun
And then looking away

We don’t really know
What we see, and what we don’t.
*But love is blinding
And pain unveils

A drop of rain falls down to earth
And joins with others, a puddle forms
And it grows and grows until one day
A stream is formed and starts to flow
Then streams join up and make rivers
And rivers flow and flow and flow
And join up with others on their journey
Towards the end goal - the ocean
The final destination
The Unity
The Oneness
The Completeness
The Onlyness
The Sole Identity
'Cause that is all it is
A drop of water
Trying to find its way back home
To the Ocean
The place from where is came
The Ocean - the Unity of all other droplets
Seekers of the way back home
Not staying long, but rushing
Rushing and flowing
Flowing and rushing

Some rivers may be filled with filth
and dirt
and grease
and all kinds of disease

Others may be pure and sweet
Easy-flowing
Beautiful, clean

But even the ***** water can be purified
And even the cleanest water can be dirtied

Choose your path wisely, little droplet
Home awaits.
Home awaits

As days go by

As poets pass

The friend we make

Who now departs

But as I look back

And reminisce

There's that one friend I made

Who I'll surely miss

Who inspired my writing

Intrigued my mind

To whom the world out there

Was not always kind

Yet wrote on and on

Of love and of pain

Of hope and of sorrow

Which she could not contain

That sparked into words

And roared like a flame

A friend - fellow poet

A star, became

So thank you, my friend

For your inspired works

That set upon this open sky

Explode like fireworks

Destroyed
Alone
Solemn
Confused
Around me I see
That the darkness has won
All that is near
Is trouble and fear
I cannot go on
If this is the way
I needed you here
I need you to stay
But you have now gone
No cares about me
You left me in darkness
I cannot get free
I cannot see
I cannot be
Exists no more "we"

Forgotten, I was
Then was dug up my grave
Someone was here
To try and me save.
There came a bright light
To guide me from darkness
To grant me my sight.
I couldn't look her way,
She shone too bright,
But she told me "It's okay.
I'm here for you now.
Cower no longer."
And I asked her "How?
I cannot move on
When I lost all my love.
I know not a person
Who can grant it back"
She took my head in her hands
And forced me to look
I stared at this beauty
And violently shook
Forgot all my troubles
All gone away
Forgot she who left me
To die alone
I know not what it is
About this girl
She makes me numb
She makes me shy
She held me tightly
"I won't let you die"
I don't really know her
But we've met before
I don't understand her
But I know of her core
She isn't the prettiest girl out there
But she loves me
I love her
She understands pain
She's better at coping
Won't let it drain
All of her beautiful soul and mind
She told me
"Should we both die today
I wish and I hope and I dearly pray
That we will together be
In a beautiful place
Eternal
Forever
By your side I'll stay
I love you
Please love me
Don't leave my side
I'll hide you from shadows
You hide me from mine
Together like this
'til the end of time
No evil to get us
No death of the mind
No plague and no worry
Pray God hears our prayers
And that He forgives us
And keeps us safe
No falling to darkness
It can't consume
When the light of the Love
Of the Earth and Sun
No holdings against each other
No evil exists between them
No horrors
No fears
It brightens the Sky"

Forgotten,
Now alone.
Destruction
All around.
Depression
So forlorn.
Happiness,
That's a word?
Forgive me
I know you not
Anymore
You left me here
Now you're gone
I stand alone
The future
I don't see one
Without you
By my side
But you're gone
And I'm alone
Forgotten
Forget the past?
Won't happen
Look to the stars?
They're burnt out
Long ago
Heaven came
And all around.
A beauty,
That's what you are.
Forgetting
About our past
Our history
But you are gone.
All alone
Stand in the dark.
The shadows
Are all around.
I'm scared.
Look for your light,
It's hidden
I see a spark,
I follow
But when I'm there
I notice
That memories
Are memories
And you are gone
Left me alone
The darkness
Consumes my soul,
My life,
But still I search
And follow
To find your love
In shadows
You knew me best
But still
You could move on
Our love
In my eyes -
Eternal
But not in yours
It's over?
You sent a note
You're sorry?
Don't kid me now.
What the hell
Is wrong with you?
I breakdown
And I fall down
To darkness
Consume me now
Dear shadows
I welcome thee
Take over
You have me now
I follow
The darkened rule
And this is
How I'll move on
My love
This is farewell
Don't bother
To come back to me
It's over
Forgotten
Shattered
No more
It's over now
Don't come back
You've haunted me
For so long
The horror of you -
Your memory
Still causes shivers
Down my spine
I shake wildly
Take cover
I hide and cry
I long
But you stay away
I concede
No more denial
Please free me
This hold you have
Over me
It can't go on
Let me live
Let me move on
Disturbing
Distorted lies
Distraction
You heard my cries
And left me
Alone in the dark
The darkness
Consumes my soul
My life
Is over now
A rope?
A gun to shoot?
A knife?
A bridge to jump from
A car?
A train track, maybe
A plane?
Poisoned quickly
I die
You come to see
But leave
You cry for me
Real tears?
Why cry for me now?
You left me
To die alone
In shadows
Consume me now
It's over.
Consume me now
Dear shadows.
I'm all alone
It's over
It's
*Over

Once there was a kid
Shadows consumed his being
From light, you see, he hid
Embraced the dark, unseeing

He knew not what it was
That made it so alluring
But he would follow it to Mars
These shadows felt reassuring

On and on his life went
And less he began to see
He was completely to it bent
He felt that's where he should be

The beings that resided there
Knew pain and destruction well
For no one did they truly care
They were literal beings from Hell

But they promised him all his dreams
Promised him the world
But it is not what it seems
And their true nature unfurled

The world was not his dream and goal
Nothing really was, actually
So they tried to turn him black as coal
So that he could like them be

He had in that instance seen his folly
He saw through the lies and tricks
That was the start of melancholy -
A wall built up of sticks

But the wall soon crumbled, fell away
The demons stormed his fort
He tried to keep them all at bay
They were stronger, he was caught

Ensnared in sin and blasphemy
Destroyed from inside out
He suffered so much agony
But from Hell, you cannot shout

He thought to himself, "I'd rather die
Than suffer this torment"
He thought that he could soar and fly
But now he is dement'

He lost all sign of light and good
He only wanted fun
He struggled long, with all he could
But he could not from them run

Until one day, the demons perceived
The kid was theirs, won over
But it was there turn to be deceived
He shone like a supernova

God sent help to see him through
His troubles and his woe
Beings of light - in they flew
To help him deal the final blow

He had prayed daily for God's aid
Never losing hope and faith
That was his link to light and shade
From the evils - from the wraith

Never points out his own fault

Quick to expose yours

A body so hot, she melted my cold,
Stone heart of ice and pain
And warmed me to glow - gold.
She was nowhere near mundane

A light so bright, I had to squint
As I laid my eyes upon the leaping fire
That danced and touched, but nothing burnt
And wrapped around me, like a pure gold wire

The fire spread so rapidly
That the whole world was set aflame
And it lit the earth majestically
Yet this fire was quite tame

And all who bathed in this infernal
Came out, born anew
This fire may not be eternal
But it feels like it's lived a few

The fire that caresses me
It holds me in its arms
And helps me to the world clearly see
Its sensations one that calms

I'm a bottle of emotion
About to explode

It *****
to love
and be
unaware
of whether
it is
reciprocal
or not

And the realisation finally set:
I am my *own demon

When love does come
And hate does leave
Then you know...
Then you know it's real

I look to the mirror
But nothing reflects
I'm lost in a whole
Yet this 'wholeness'
Is nothing
And this 'nothingness'
Contains everything
Yet this 'everything'
Is but One
And this 'Oneness'
This 'Oneness' is *God