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Nishant Rawat May 2020
Is it a blessing 
Or a curse
Or something much worse
That I'm not well versed
In this thing called love
Thursday thoughts
Nishant Rawat Nov 2020
All I want is you to be mine.
Even if it takes years or infinity combined.
All I want
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
All I wish is a final goodbye kiss
Then I will slip into the dark abyss
That will drown me far from your life
A life where you will be somebody's wife
Somebody who will love you heartily 
Somebody who will keep you forever happy
Somebody who doesn't remind of me
So you never reminisce our chemistry
If somehow in future we meet any day
I hope you stop, have something to say
Rather than ghosting or changing your way
Like a chapter of life, you already scrapped
Even if you say nothing, it will be okay
Keeping distance like December and May
Don't you worry, I won't **** your bliss
All I wish is a final goodbye kiss
Then I will slip into the dark abyss
Don't know how to feel about this
Nishant Rawat May 2021
The place where life becomes captivity,
Some people call it a big city.
Nishant Rawat Dec 2019
Who? Who?
Who the hell are you dude?
Looking in the mirror and it got me confused
I am your alter ego, you worthless fool
What's wrong, why are you here?
You need to listen to this, what I am about to share.
What are you trying to say, I can't understand it.
Why don't you just leave? I am turning to manic
What the hell is going on, I can't comprehend
He said
Why are you waiting? you have to go far
Why don't you just believe me and aim for stars
Dude, you are nothing just thought that pop
The road will be tough, you will get scars
He said that it's ok, you will be fine
Couple cuts and bruises you will be alright
You don't need anyone, I'm here by your side
Who the hell are you? telling me this why
I am the one, who don't want you to be ******
See yourself dude, don’t you feel pity?
No limit in the sky you can't fly
You got soul, you shouldn't quit
******* dude, you are just a lie
No man I am you, dude don't be shy
Walk off that door, have to pick up your fight
Have to do it now, you know time just flies
It's your choice, you need to make a call
Fight for yourself, it's ok even if you fall
You'll probably think I'm stupid, what I am looking for
Felt like hours before I finally reached the door
As I walked out of that door, mind full for fear
Legs were shivering, as I step down the stairs
My heart is ******* beating, thoughts were not clear
My stomach ******* turning, all I'm feeling was fear
Things started moving and the sun was shinning
Don't get yourself stuck here, see life's silver lining
These aren't mere words you won't know how it feels
But I hope you never do because I swear that it kills
Life leaves pains that are impossible to heal
But you have you, you are irreplaceable
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
Love is nothing
Just a chemical reaction
Start with lust
And some infatuation
A little bit of banters
Lots of affection
Sometimes profound
Sometimes make you insane
It hurts you too
When they are in pain
You seize it hard
Believing it will be an eternity
Then you hurt each other
Giving fatal injuries
It gets worse
As you grow apart
You get mad
Picking each other's fault
You are left sad
Eventually breaking your heart
As reaction fade
You look for a new start
Love is nothing just a chemical reaction
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
There is no war
Still, there are marks
Dead bodies everywhere 
People living in fear 
Fear of loved ones dying
Countless families crying
Fighting a sad and mundane life
In the hope of a new sunshine
Hoping for better times
Nishant Rawat Nov 2020
Every time I wake up.
My dreams go to sleep.
Midnight thoughts
Nishant Rawat May 2020
Death knocking on the door,
No need to pour any more,
I've had enough drink of life.
Let the bar shut to close,
There is no remorse,
We had a fun night.
Some random thoughts
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
Every drop of tear you ****
is like a 6-inch nail piercing my heart.
How to wipe them off my shirt
when I'm the reason for this hurt.
How to wipe off those tears when you are the reason for them?
Nishant Rawat Jan 2021
Sometimes it seems like
I am drowning in my own thoughts.
Nishant Rawat Jun 2020
Your love was the home,
I yearned to have.
But it turned out to be the prison,
Now I want to escape.
When love is your prison
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
I penetrate, when my pen iterate
As I paint it red, killing thoughts of you
Pages out of space, such a weird case
As this paper trace, every pain it read 
Even though I hate, it's an essence of you
Every word of hate I put on paper will have an essence of you.
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
Everybody wants happiness
Everybody has dreams
Not Everybody gets satisfaction
Everybody loves someone
Everybody longs love
Not Everybody finds love
Everybody knows pain
Everybody has struggles
Not Everybody survives
Everybody doesn't get everything
Nishant Rawat Jan 2021
You melted in my arms
And now every ounce of me
Is the essence of yours.
Nishant Rawat May 2021
I am drowning in the sea of your expectations of me.
Maybe I am not the one you really need
You are in love with the idea of what I can be.
But if I ever do that, how will I ever be me?.
Nishant Rawat Mar 2022
I thought I was falling in love
But it was the beginning of me falling apart
Nishant Rawat Sep 2020
Writing makes me feel sane.
When the pen feels me and paper trace my pain.
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
A place far away
A thousand years away from this world
Is where you will find actual me
Nishant Rawat Oct 2020
Your betrayal will hurt me till eternity,
Just like it's forever 2020.
Midnight thoughts
Nishant Rawat Mar 2020
I am going back in time
Even if it takes years or infinity combined
In my imagination, you are sitting by my side
And you smile as your strands are flying
Oh wait, let me check
When you look at me like that
Don't know what to expect
I probably still adore you, when your eyes reflect
The light from the distant sunset, hands around my neck
Wanted to protect, instead of hurting you every time
But I break when you cry rather than smile
I'm the one to spoil a surprise
It seems like you've had to greet me goodbye
Frightened by the wound though it's not too harsh
What's the point in thinking of the start
When you are at the finish line
Letting you go too soon
So, I am going back in time
Even if it takes years or infinity combined
In my imagination, you are sitting by my side
And you smile as your strands are flying
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
Even though you are dead to me
Still, you are the last face I wanna see
Pushing on the death pedal, riding to hell
In the hope of meeting there, when you sleep
Because hell is where you deserve to be
I was no good and you are no better
Hell or heaven, does it even matter?
All I want is to be together
Even if I have to suffer
Sometimes togetherness is all you need
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
Happiness over everything
Happiness in my mind
Happiness is my will
Happiness is my kind
Happiness is the most important thing in life. Do what makes you happy.
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
There will be a part of me, which will keep on hating you
Thinking of all the things we were supposed to do
Nishant Rawat Jul 2020
In the hope of better days.
Sometimes everyone chooses some dark ways.
It doesn’t mean you’re bad per se.
Midnight Thoughts
Nishant Rawat May 2020
How can I keep on fighting for you?
When you gave up on me so easily
How can I come back to you?
When us I no more see
How can I say "I Love You"?
When I'm no more in love with me
How can I be true to you?
When I don't know how to be
Midnight Thoughts
Nishant Rawat Jul 2020
In the noise of the deafening hustle-bustle of this life,
I forgot how to listen to what my heart has to say.
Midnight thoughts
Nishant Rawat Mar 2020
I ain't myself
Since you are gone
You were a habit
So difficult to withdraw
All of these times
We were so wrong
This is it
Together we will grow
Old times were great
This is what the future will hold
For us till reality hits
We didn't wanna get involved
My memory's no sharp
Still, remember the things you told
Life's empty nothing left to hold
So sometimes I sigh
Reminiscing those emotional highs
When I used to fly
Now I'm down on the ground
You are nowhere to be found
So it's better you don't check on me
And call no more
You better with someone with a regular role
On a beach
While I resort to your IG feed
Checking till the end I reach
So I'm happy you living good
You not alone
But I ain't myself
Since you are gone
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
I'm not afraid of commitment.
I'm afraid of is you having resentment.
I'm not afraid of us fighting.
I'm afraid of us never amending.
I'm not afraid of us changing.
I'm afraid of us not prevailing.
I'm not afraid of living rough.
All I'm afraid of is not being enough.
This is what I'm afraid of
Nishant Rawat Dec 2019
I live in the moment
I don’t think of the past.
I am here with a belief
A belief that the world is good.
Everything is ok
It is how it should.
The ones who met me on the way
One who had so much to say.
The ones who accompanied for some foot
Those people were somewhat better.
Sometimes I feel like a menace Groot
Why I worry, I shouldn’t
I know, people are a bit angry
Some are just wealth hungry.
A lost traveler from a village
In a city full of savages.
Where everyone judges you
For the things, you don’t even do.
It’s necessary to remember the old path
A road where I met a sociopath.
He sat and cried with me
He had a house that’s **** is empty.
I too had a house
And a mind full of unknown fears.
But there is no one from my home
So I wandered alone aplenty.
I don’t belong to this site
Neither I belong there.
I belonged to the journey
Of the destination, I never care.
Mishaps are my friends
Roads know how I tour
The world is not the same every day
Sometimes I do pray.
I sell free time in the forest
The rivers are my love affair.
Every day I am a new person to myself
Didn’t want this to happen.
I was always empty-handed
Always taken a lot of things for granted.
Since I have turned from the city to the road
A lot of possibilities I imagine.
This age and time kept on passing
The journey is the only thing everlasting.
Nishant Rawat Sep 2020
The world will be a much better place if we start acknowledging that everybody is different and respecting the differences rather than pretending that we all are the same.
Just A Thought
Nishant Rawat May 2022
Life comes back to you
when you finally realize that
sometimes giving your best is not enough,
and it's ok.
Just keep breathing and moving.
Eventually, you will reach a place
where it will be enough,
maybe not for others but you.
Nishant Rawat Sep 2020
I hope to find the kind of love
which will be more than just a word.
Different kind of love
Nishant Rawat Aug 2020
Understanding the world is out of bound.
So try to know yourself to be found.
Know Yourself
Nishant Rawat Dec 2019
After the last year of college
Taking all the baggage
Leaving this world of dreams
Have to face a world full of ruthless screams
Don't know whether we will be able to handle that pressure
But one thing is sure, we will miss these days of pleasure
Will never forget the feeling of first bunk
How we used to try to be hunks
How we used to stare girls sitting in the cafet
Sharing everything was our habit
How we used to fight for sitting back
Lectures were used to be our headache
How we used to irritate teachers
Used to sleep during boring lectures
How we used to study last night during exam time
Attending classes were used to be a crime
How we used to look here and there in the examination hall
Used to abuse to give each other  a call
How we used to run whenever the dean was on the round for dress check
Used to blame each other whenever made mistakes
How we used to break the rules
Thrown out of the class was used to be the status of being cool
How we used to chat on Facebook late night
Used to be the parts of online fights
Now when we have only one year with us
Don't want it to pass like a bus
Want to live each and every minute like a ton
Want to make every second of it a memorable one
Because I know that the time never turns back
Memories are the only thing that we will have
Just a reminiscence of the college time
Nishant Rawat Oct 2021
Every day I lose a part of the past me
to gain a part of the future me.
#growth #losing
Nishant Rawat Aug 2020
Love is not blind.
The one who didn't saw your value is.
Love Is Not Blind
Nishant Rawat Jun 2020
Sometimes I wonder
What's the point of this life?
Where people live in disguise
Hiding their pain deep inside
Suffering in loneliness
Are we really so worthless?
That we can't be a little understanding and kind
Midnight Thoughts
Nishant Rawat Jun 2021
I feel like missing someone.
Someone who is nowhere to be found.
Sunday Thought
Nishant Rawat Sep 2020
You are my one and only muse,
The more I think of you,
The more words I use.
To describe what your presence,
Means to me.
Everything makes sense,
When you, I see.
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
It's like I'm shoveling up old hurt
All these medications, they won't work
Sitting in silence, trying to soul search
It seems to be all over, looking for some closure
Don't you wanna give the explanation I deserve?
You moved on like nothing, seems to be doing fine
But I'm stuck in time like I never recovered
How's it even justice? when you hardly suffered
My life is garbage, cursing you to have worse
Ripping up your bandages, in pain you immerse
Yes, I'm being a bad guy, justifying the hell you deserve
Guess, this is my way of moving on, hitting a growth spurt
Sometimes you need vengeance to move on
Nishant Rawat Apr 2022
Yes, I keep
How I feel, Inside me.
So nobody can ever hurt me.
It's not because of you,
It's because of me.
I'm my worst enemy.
Nishant Rawat Jan 2021
The year in the calendar has changed,
But the feeling and pain are still the same.
Nishant Rawat May 2020
Somewhere deep inside me,
There is a nice guy 
Who wanna care about people
Or at least give a try 
But, that guy is impossible to find
Sold him to evil
Believing, there is no divine
Buried him inside
This world, a living hell in disguise
Full of selfish minds
Since this world, no place for that type
No, I ain't a nice guy
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
Don't know why I feel this
Maybe I'm crazy
Is this infatuation?
Or love maybe?
Talking too much
Waiting for you to be lonely
Sitting for a while
Eyes checking on your activity
Usually on my guard
But hoping you notice me
All the sparkling smile
Your's the one I wanna see
Because there is not a lot like you
It's so true
Then someone came through
Introduced us and flew
As I greeted awkwardly
You acknowledged merrily
Conversing light-hearted
Not so guarded as we started
Drinking around freely
And talking nonstop till three
About friends and enemies
Pouring each other Hennesy
We clearly have a great synergy
In love with your energy
So I asked, "Tomorrow, are you free?"
She said, "why?"
I wanna know more of you
Hold your hands too
Because there is not a lot like you
It's so true
There is not a lot like you
Nishant Rawat Aug 2021
I'm not good with words.
But whatever I learned and heard
is not enough to explain how you make me feel.
Nishant Rawat Nov 2020
When I put my pain in this pen,
Ink and feeling start flowing automatically.
Midnight Thoughts
Nishant Rawat Apr 2020
Maybe I dwell on things too much
Keep on overthinking
These thoughts are such predators
Keep on consuming
Me and my words, I never uttered
Fear of ruining
The things that might actually matter
To me assuming
Everything is ok, it can't be better
Life not dooming
That's why I'm such a procrastinator
Keep on procrastinating
Nishant Rawat May 2020
Life is punching me down
Trying to take my crown
Giving me regular Ls
Out of space
Out of bounds
All ways frowned upon
Like Lucifer
I'm a fallen angel
The world is hell
It's true
Failures ain't nothing new
Falling down still aims to rule
I might see what's never seen
Might go where I never been
Keep working till I get the fruit
It's my cake
It ain't a loot
I will rise whenever knocked down
Even if I'm 100 punches down
Will keep on rising
Nishant Rawat May 2020
Panic on my brain
Feeling all insane
How did we end up here?
World is upside down
Town is shutdown
Why nobody no more care?
All I need, Some peace for me
And Everyone out there
How can I see?
Wave of positivity
When I'm alone quarantine
Working from my home
Eating dinner alone
When all of this will end?
Starring at my phone
Sitting bored in home
Today, a weekday or weekend?
All I need, Someone joins me
And get some air
How can I see?
Wave of positivity
When I'm alone quarantine
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