Let it be
Moan over your heart break
But rejoice
That it will be made brand new
It’s life telling you
“Hey, you deserve something better!”

paint my palette
in rainbow hue
draw my life
with laughter
or with tears

you are art
in my museum of
heart breaks

we are
a never-ending
love story.

With countless reasons not to
We still make a choice
To fall in love
Maybe one day
when things fall apart
We will choose to get hurt
Only to give us
Another choice
To grow in love
And fall in love
All over again

i fall in love
with the city lights
under the layer of a crowded train
penetrating through the silence of the night
alone, thinking of you
and all the "almost" that we could be
but never would
the feelings that i am unable to label
the mess that i am resting upon
the love that i am losing sight of
the life that i am living for others
i lean against the subway doors
asking myself where would the next stop be
and when should i get off?

i am staring at the windshield
the night is coming to an end
we are still chasing the moon
and my heart is still chasing love
but love isn't always there for anyone.

i could only do so much
to make you happy
there's always a part of me
desires more than I can give.

when you love someone with a broken heart
not all of its pieces will fall into place
that’s why love will eventually fade
if it’s unable to heal you.

it wasn’t the distance that bothered me
you could be right here but your thoughts never made their ways to me
i used to be happy having you around
but i lost you to the silence that i couldn’t bear
much as i wanted to know why
all i desire now is being able to say goodbye.

like a tornado ripping through my life
you took everything and buried me under the wreckage
but i would love you still, tenderly
so long as you carry my heart wherever you go.

after all this time
i still find loneliness
smiling back at me
and says
“welcome home!”

my suffering is numerable
simply count
the words that i write
just for you.

you’ve planted memories
in my heart
but its soil
couldn’t make a home
for your love to bloom.

i see nothing yet my heart is filled with chaos
my body is tired but sleeping only makes it worse
for the dreams that i dream
are the reality that i desire to live
where i see everything yet my heart feels nothing at all.

i can never explain
the way my heart falls for you
or rather
the feeling of being with you
even though
it was only just a dream.

i fall in love with you
in my dreams

this artificial infatuation
is draining me out

you are so real
yet it's so strange to feel

the fantasy of happiness
in the midst of this hell.

i'm terrified by the look of your eyes
'cause i can never resist the desire
to set this love on fire
whenever i have you in my sights
but all that i am to you
is just another passerby.

and too often
my heart disobeys
to seek home in another's arms
and only when my body can't take any more pain
it returns with cracks and broken pieces
its sharp edges
never stop cutting me from inside since.

across the dinning table
where your voice lingered
and your smile so wide
in my head
i tried
to swallow
the emptiness of this place
i choked
on the memories
left over on your plate
across the dinning table.

i wanted to give up
countless times
until the very existence of me
didn’t make sense anymore

now

i fight to keep this faith alive
day by day
because the very existence of you
is everything that i am.

i knew you were never meant to stay
but i'd go through this pain
over and over again
in exchange for the little moments
before you go.

it's a constant battle
to suffer and live
or
to conceal the pain and leave.

it's okay to cry
to let the tears water the seed of love
that he has planted in your heart
watch it grow into a garden
and decorate your soul.

do you understand that feeling?
being a prisoner of your own thoughts
that you have millions of things to say
but only silence does the talking.

do you understand that feeling?
wanting to be heard yet your mouth is sealed
that you want to loved
but the idea of love
hurts more than it heals.

these words may never get to you
but for what it's worth
i write to set my feelings free
to make room for things that can save me.

darkness is not always scary
as long as the light inside you still burns.

i'd rather fall for the wrong person
and get hurt once
than to fall for the right person
at the worst time possible
and regret it for the rest of my life.

you are a plot twist
an unfinished chapter
neither happy nor sad
you are a torn page
from an ordinary story of me.

time does heal a broken heart
but it doesn't give us the courage to carry on.

i picture your face
in my head
and let it crush my heart
in order for this poem
to be yours.

i'd rather have my heart shattered
than to carry the weight of its emptiness
i'd rather be left alone
than to feel lonely in a room full of people
i'd rather die today
than to face the darkness of tomorrow.

let these cracks be the gates where love penetrates
let these wounds be the testament to your strength
let this pain be the reminder of the life you're living
let your healing be the reassurance that God is with you.

you are like summer
rainbow and sunshine
but also
rainfall and thunder
on a stormy night

you bring the calmness of spring
when you smile
but also
shadow and loneliness
when your curtain falls

you felt like an adventure
when we are together
but also an endless maze
when we part ways

life still goes one, with or without you
and it's winter all year long.

you cannot deny the existence of love
once it is sparked inside your chest
you can only put out its flame
often with your tears.

i've been building my future
on the ruins of yesterday
a future that seems to be
incapable of making a home
for love to stay.

have you ever had a dream so real
you wake up thinking that
perhaps this whole life is just a nightmare?

i enjoy being alone
not to be by myself
but to be with you
who i carry in my thoughts.

sometimes, all you need is a listening ear
to speak the unspeakable

sometimes, all you need is a squeeze of the hand
to heal the unhealable

and i'll always love you
to love the unlovable
to love me.