And whenever you feel alone
I want you to take comfort in looking at the moon
Cause even though I'm not there with you
I'll be watching the moon too ~

You caused me pain

Now I know I cant trust a soul.

I'm very much comfortable being alone
I enjoy nothing more than my own
Company
Happily free to do what I want and tend to myself
My confidence is built only by the way I view myself
Yes my loved ones opinions count but which one matters most than your own?
Yes it's nice to have a lover or date
But you have to learn to be happy with yourself
Before your even happier with someone else

And till this day
I still regret the chances I didn't take.

It would be so out of character
To treat people how they treat me


But oh how sweet
Revenge could be

They say thinking of sin is pretty much sinning
So let's sin away
And later pray for forgiveness.

They are our ESCAPE

our Fantasy

Our Ecstasy.

Our way out.

I want you to kiss your love into me.

They are our ESCAPE

Our FANTASY

Our ECSTASY

Our way out.

I found the secret notebook you hid from me
It was full of love letters that you never gave to me
Because I was too cold hearted to let you in.

Im misguided and misunderstood
Frankly like sticks and wood
Feeling useless and unwanted
How could anyone ever want this
A distant sense of a ghostly presence
Taking my place in my absence
Substitute my every move
But being me takes constant practice ~

I'm selfish because i want your lips all the time
There's no time of day that I don't want you, you treat me like a princess
dont think I didnt hear how you defend me when I'm not around, I love to wake up knowing you are all mine
Telling me you love me everyday is nothing but music to ears,
Your amazing,

Your friends
They don't deserve your time
I don't want them to see your smile or get use to your laugh like I am
I would hate for them to love you like I love you because they won't want to let you go either,
I don't want you to go out in public
There's other girls
They might hear your laugh, or catch a glimpse of your beautiful eyes and they might fall in love you
And if you think there beautiful enough then there's a chance you could fall in love too

I don't want anyone else to have you
I envy anyone else who has because I love you.

Dont let me go just yet

Theres a reason why we've met

Dont you remember our first night

Together?

You told me that the moon should be

Jealous because my eyes were the

Only thing lightening up your night.

A bittersweet soothing event that terrifies yet amazes me.

Why is it that when the sunny happy day retires
And the mysterious moon shows it's face
Our feelings sprang up like zombies in a grave
Bursting free of life
But only at night, and not in the day?

she should be celebrated everyday

Not just mothers day.

Praising Jesus in your darkest hour
When your stressed and tired
You feel no hope in you heart
Things around you are not perfect
But there's got to be something worth smiling about


So praise Jesus.


"Thank You Jesus"

Because things can be bad right now
But they could always, always be much worse.

Means that it's been broken, aching and stepped on,
But still managed to love others without the fear of getting hurt again.

I wanna get drunk with you
And tell you all the things I'm afraid to say sober.

Heavy eyelids and burned cigarettes,
No sleep
And poison in my veins
Pink lips and sunken eyes these days,
Self consious and bitterly depressed is my state of mind,
Fidgeting fingers and sweat glands,
My nervous outcome,
Love and happiness are things I crave,
But to you, this is all I am.

I've never met anyone like you

You actually like me for me

when do people actually find that these days?

I hate love

But it's so seductive.

Pressing my lips in a thin line
I tilt my head back
Squeezing my eyes shut
Trying my best to hold back those angry tears
Caused by those around me
Who conjure up my fury
They make me wear it on my sleeves
It's obvious but to them it's the most oblivion
And they constantly send me back to that dark pace

I've never had *** ... But I  hear it's amazing when it's with someone you truly love.

Please do not get angry at me for feelings that I cannot control

Had to get a cigarette to inhale the bad ****
And exhale the ******* .

It's funny because as poetic as I am
And how much time I spent thinking of him in the wee hours of the night
I could still only think of one word to describe him
And that word
Is
Heartless.

Dont worry if your having hard times

Just remember

That we all fall before we rise.

How is it possible
to have a massive amount of feelings
for someone who obviously doesn't even care for you?

And someone please ...
Tell me how to get over
This ****...

Don't confuse me or hurt me
Just because you don't understand
Your own feelings.

Like the love you have for me
That smile that stays attached to your face in my presence
I know I give you a rush
I make your heart feel a little bit better each day
And I'm not use to this love
I've never met anyone like you so please forgive me when I push you away
I'm being selfish I'm sorry
You told me that when I ignore you it makes your heart hurt
I'm sorry for that too
I keep thinking this is to good to be true, maybe it is or maybe I need to just let myself fall helplessly in love with you without any fear
Like you did with me

Your face which was my coffee in the morning
That voice that was my lullaby at night
Those hands that soothed my soul
Your lips that made my skin burn
Your heart that belonged to mine
Will always love you

But god, the bad things are much more seductive

Getting your heart broken feels like a nightmare that you actually have to live in.

"Forever" he mumbled carelessly. He expressed the word like it was another ordinary word.

"Forever" I reposnded like the word was a melody. I expressed it like my life depended on it. Because it did, and still I mean it today, even watching you with a girl that is not me.

"Forever" we both said. But only one of us meant it.

I can't
I can't
I can't
I can't
I cant
I can't
I can't



(Try Again)


I can.

Big or small lies are lies
And the pain from it never dies
It crawls deep into you and hides
Waiting for its time to rise
A dark force it forms to be
It may take a while for you to see
It has a face and two feet
It's just like you and just like me
oh what a beautiful creature pain
Could be

Saying your name tastes like the bitter liquid Of *****
burning my throat but pleasing my insides.

Physically, emotionally, spiritually confused.

"Live" spelled backwards is "evil" and "lived" backwards is "Devil"

Sleep has not taken me hostage yet
And it is now 5:00am
It probably has not come to me yet because of that monster I drank at the festival
Or maybe the fact that you were there
And I was there but
My heart was not

And my plan was to get ****** up this night
But I wanted to stay sober and remember that you were there

Ever get so angry you start shaking?
Wanna cry but you won't
Wanna die but your finger never reaches for the trigger
you just like knowing that you could simply end all the pain by one bullet traveling through your brain


But you don't pull the trigger.

How about we slow dance
To the rhythm of my heartbeat
Our eyes connected
Our souls in sync
A stranger to my face
A lover to my heart
Everything is black and white
But we remain in the dark
Behind the talk and the whispers
And the topic of the town
Your fingers touch my lips and I forget
Who's around
Your intoxicating scent Often puts me in trance
What a unforgettable moment
The first time we slow dance

The way you left the relationship just shows the type of person you really are.