It's Terribly depressing liking someone who has no Such thing as the same feelings as you.

People have made me so uncomfortable in society. They say be yourself but if they don't like it they'll say "Not Like That."

If I don't get that Rush when you kiss me
If the butterflies don't come when your around...
Then does that mean your not the one?

What is it with relationships and attraction?
Why do some of us expect someone else to complete us? Why are females most likely the ones who get there feelings hurt more then males?

***?
Whats up with that? Why is there such complication to it? Why does cockiness even exist? Why can't we all just be friendly sweet human beings who are kind to one another?

Why is the world so cruel?

Why is money the root to all evil?

Why?

Eyes Wide Open and you still dont see me.

Why must you haunt my dreams
           & invade my mind

I watch you while you watch me watch you
Funny thing is
we are both blind
In both eyes

I feel as if I may be stuck between reality, and the images I create in my head.

Things I learned about being in love:

If Its Real,

It wont Ever go away Darling.

I wish to be the reason you are terrified of death.

Use your heart to see everything, and not your eyes.

They say live life for the fun
I say live life for the Love

I still don't understand why the people you love the most, hurt you the most.

I want to need you
And I want to love you
But I also want you to feel the same.

I'm so use to this depression
That I don't mind that it leaves, then finds it's way back to me
I almost welcome it
It's all I know.

I tap my fingers in an unorganized rhythm on my computer desk
Listening to amazing melodies of music
Concentrating on the lyrics of the Music trying to 'feel' something
Trying to find that same feeling in music that I felt when I first met you
That warm vibration of a rush, that feeling of remembrance, the feeling of life

Sleep has not taken me hostage yet
And it is now 5:00am
It probably has not come to me yet because of that monster I drank at the festival
Or maybe the fact that you were there
And I was there but
My heart was not

And my plan was to get ****** up this night
But I wanted to stay sober and remember that you were there

I saw you again today
And god what a relief that was
Because I really thought I'd never see your face again.

Your lips are my pain reliever.

Hoping you notice me
Hoping I got your attention

Wish I could make you feel my pain.

I thought horror
movies were scary
But then I thought of
Loosing You.

I want you to kiss your love into me.

I wanna get drunk with you
And tell you all the things I'm afraid to say sober.

Saying your name tastes like the bitter liquid Of *****
burning my throat but pleasing my insides.

A female in her prime is the most dangerous

A heartbreaker is something you swore
you'd never be
But what would you do
if I told you That a heartbreaker
is exactly
what you've become?

I fell into a deep angry abyss of rage.

Dry throat

                Thudding heart beat
Body shaking

                       Mind racing
Chaos in my body

I'D Rather Feel Pain Then Nothing At All .

Means that it's been broken, aching and stepped on,
But still managed to love others without the fear of getting hurt again.

It seems as though the moon has consumed me...

"There's a mark on the calendar of dooms day for everyone. It may happen at different times but it still comes."

He smiled a troubled one. A smile that didnt quit reach his eyes. I didn't know what he meant but He kept inching closer and closer to the edge of the cliff and my nerves were far from calm.

"Get away from the edge,  You'll fall and probably die!"

My heart literally felt like it was going to fall out of my chest. I couldn't move or grab him because both of us were going to fall. But maybe that was a risk I was willing to take. He looked back at me Carelessly,

"I don't want you to die!" I cried out.

"At one point everybody dies silly, I'm just choosing to die now"

Laughter fills my ears and I feel the burst of energy from the crowd of friends walking past me

They horse play and joke around without a care in the world
They bring me back to my old high school memories
Girls and boys together
Best friends having the times of there lives
Of course I've had my friends too but I always felt like I've been with the wrong people

So they live carelessly not even knowing that they place me in a dark place wondering why I've tried and tried but always terribly failed to fit in.

All my problems are hitting me
All at once and I can feel the depression seeping in
Taking it's rightful position in my insides
My hope for great things are twirling not in my mind but in the universe contemplating if they will be great
And I'm still laying here
In this dark abyss
Wishing things were better
That I had no tears to waste
That my heart wouldn't hurt so much

The oceans waves reminded me of how violent love can be

You **** repeatedly
Every ounce of common sense
In my brain
When your lips connect with mine.

You **** slowly
Making sure you've got me
So vulnerable
That I'll be anything you want me
To be.

You **** thoughtfully
Making sure I'll always want more of you
And that's something I can't have.

Before the world ends
And where all devided between
Good & evil
I want to know that i lived a great life on earth
And that i've made all my wildest dreams
Come true~

Somedays I'm perfectly fine
I can smile for a full 24 hours without letting the thought of you ruin me

But somedays....
I breakdown and scream to the deepest darkest part of the universe asking the world why can't I have you?

Boys just dont get us.

And till this day
I still regret the chances I didn't take.

You whisper my name "mercy"
In my ear and you look intently into my eyes

But I swear all I heard was "kiss me"

So I did what I was told.

What is love?

Come close but not to close
Confuse me with your words but make your intentions crystal clear
That you WANT me
But you don't REALLY want me

I need a vacation from you
  

      To think about what I'm going to do with you.

I've taken my time and thought
about relationships
My past mistakes and my future goals
I put my old relationships and old feelings in a box
I burned it to ashes and wished it away
I didn't know what to do
I was lost until I finally came to the conclusion that I just Need someone who needs me.