Shouldn't winter be a happy time?

So uh... remember how I was talking about how I wasn't gonna be selfish? Yeah... bout that...

In an ideal world...

This sounds lovely and all but I'm so tired right now...

I know you wanted conversation because you responded in a couple of seconds, but then Erin showed up and now you aren't even talking in the other group chat, so I guess it wasn't that urgent or you found someone else to talk to. I don't know who else you could find though, because I always thought that we were your last resort. I know you said that if our friends didn't all go back to the honeymoon phase, you'd lose your mind, but honestly, I think you're just passing time until you can get out of this town. You made that one offhand comment about us all moving in together, about starting a record collection and actually using yours and R's old record players, but I don't know if you meant it. We all lose our inhibitions when we go to sleep, and that's all it was when you stayed pressed against me. Moving away in the morning is what counts. I'm so tired right now. I wish we could stay friends.

I'm so ******* tired I'm gonna cry and I still have stuff to do someone shoot meeeee.

It’s day two

Title from the song by Afourteen and Regret Boy.

I got such a response to the last poem, so I wrote this. I don't know why people have suddenly decided to notice me but I don't know how to handle it.

Gonna hang with the squad later.
Edit: It didn't even happen and I've had a generally bad day.

I can't love.

You're beautiful to me, and that is the least important part.

This was originally going to be titled 69 Days Later, but I decided that might not be that great.

Read this aloud.

I frankly just could not give less of a **** about what's going on with them anymore. I don't care whose fault it is. I'm ******* sick of this.

Went on a run with my dad and maybe this happened somewhere else.

This is based on some people I met once.

Music makes my dreams come alive.

Maybe this isn't my world after all.
Inspiried by Daughter's "Run".

Do you like my edgy, uncapitalized title? Yeah, me neither. I'm gonna go figure my wall out.

Inspired by the song Forget the Lies by Quietdrive. Here's a link for my fellow Spotify users: https://open.spotify.com/track/06LZcxlNSBZmYQGdgKTfzQ?si=GfLYqFS6REKMemsURIbuSQ

Wow this isn't ****** at all what are you talking about?

My cat has lived with me since I was five years old, and I think she knows me better than anybody else. We having a really special connection, and I love her to the end of the world and back. There's so much to say about her; a novel of poetry couldn't suffice. But this is a start.

I'm trying way too hard, and I'm still learning how to stop. I'll get there though. I'll do what I want, and if they want, maybe they'll join me.
We'll see.

I'm not screaming you are.

There used to be a third stanza but it was so bad that I deleted it.

Title from the songs by Keepitinside and Poppy Tears.

This is from my heart and my head.

I have absolutely no idea what to with all this time.

I wish I could just go back to sleep and forget about everything.

Inspired by Creek Blues.

There was a piece of paper that I had, it probably got recycled back when my room was purged in January. It had a border of highlighter flowers. I showed it to my two friends at school and they knew it was about you.
I wonder what it said. I don't remember anymore.
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I wrote this with meaning and feeling, but now they're just empty words, just like these will be. I wish it wasn't like this.

A friend and I were talking about our future wives and now I can't stop thinking about it.

No rant for tonight. Not here, at least.

So... this is an edgy one for sure.
I just love when you care about someone who loses their mind.

I feel ******* high.

Two more years.

It's been three months since I last saw you.

rllly don't like this but whatever