In Hebrew, her name means devoted to God
She was consecrated,
An oath to God
But she never fulfilled her purpose, for she went astray
Endless and countless sins, undeniably a sinner
Living not according to the Almighty's will, but
Living according to her choice, so
Expect her to be, both good and bad


Imperfect she is, but it is what makes her human
Special, she may not be, but still out of the ordinary


Many times she was lost
Yet, still managed to be found


Not wanting to be astray, again she trusted the invisible hand
Afraid of what might she become, again she started to pray
Miserably she asked for His guidance,
E*nlightened, her faith restored, and now trying to serve her purpose

like a shooting star
that falls to the earth
i fall for you, i fall to love
lethal yet exciting
crashing with passion
burning away with desire
like a shooting star
that leaves the heaven
to be where it wanted to be
i fall for you, blissfully falling
i fall to love, rushing for love

last night,
you asked me
if i was the falling star
who falls to love
darling, i couldn’t tell you
i couldn’t tell you
that i am more than
just a shooting star
because i was once an angel
— a fallen angel
who sinned for love

akala ko ba pera pera lang
yung oras ko lang yung binayaran mo
pero bakit parang pati puso ko?
gago ka ba?
wag naman tayo mag- gaguhan
akala ko ba sugal lang?
oo nga sugal, sugal ng puso
kasi kung hindi daw pag-ibig
mas malaking sugal daw
o ano susugal ka ba? tataya ka ba?
sa gagong pag-ibig na ito?

Drowning in depression
I could not swim
It was deep, very very deep
I could not see the depth
*Darkness, I am sinking

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt we were never here

-Bon Iver, Skinny Love

My mind is wandering
Going to places I've never been
Trying to acquire wisdom
But all I've got is boredom

Procrastination is my enemy
And laziness is envy
I am chasing a dream
Should I wake up now or stay asleep??

snowflakes on my hair
dissipates into thin air
fleeting like our love

amidst the sea of strangers
everything seems blurry, the only vivid is your face
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my heart almost breaking my ribs
wanting to explode, it can’t resist
.
i wanted to be near you, i wanted to be yours
i wanted you to be mine, i wanted an ‘us’
.
so i wrote poems for you
everything in this galaxy
.
everything that can put to life
this blazing love
.
i wrote poems for you
i couldn’t count
.
i wrote poems for you
because it’s all i can do
.
i wrote poems for you
to lessen the pain of not having you
.
because somebody owns you
and i am trying live somehow
.
so i wrote poems for you
it’s my only way to get by

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*“found you”
someone once told me
“did you, did you??”


you’ll find me
between pages of a book
disguised in poetry
good or bad i maybe

you’ll find me
read between the lines
of your favorite songs
happy or sad i maybe

you’ll find me
in gardens, orchards
a nurtured flower
or just an ugly **** maybe

you’ll find me
look at the sky
i’ll be dancing among the objects
a dead star or the sun i maybe

you’ll find me,
traces of me
you’ll know it

i know, i know
you’ll find me,
wherever i’ll be
whatever i am

i know, i know
somewhere in this world
in the perfect time
i know, i know that
someday you will find

sorry to my unknown lover
sorry that I can't believe
that anybody ever really
starts to fall inlove with me.....

there is always a feeling
- of incompleteness
- of loss
that always linger in every part of us
that’s why we keep on searching
for something, someone
to fill in the void, the emptiness
within our hearts, within our souls
we keep on searching and searching
for anything, for the unknown
just to satisfy the gaps, the missing pieces
of our life, that we do not know existed
until we felt the ache, the hunger
- for the unknown

Spare me of your parting words
I don’t need another reminder
Of how we didn’t work out
Of how i am like this and you are like that
Of how i want this and you want that
I don’t need another reminder
Of how much of me i gave away
Of how much of you i intake
Of how much of us was left
Walk away, just walk away
And please don’t look back
Because you know I can’t resist
This feeling of reaching out
and wanting to comeback to you
Just walk away, out of my life
I don’t want my last memory of us
     me begging, just this once
     love me back like you used to
Walk away, just walk away
Don’t even say goodbye
Please spare me of your parting words
I don’t need a final reminder
Of how much it hurts
Of why you chose to walk away

Spare yourself from all the "what ifs"
Destiny is a psychopath playing with our hearts

You left me tainted
With pain and tears
So i tried to bleach
To remove every stain
I scrubbed so hard
But i got wounded
So i bleed again
And starts to hurt again
The stains are now scars
And now i will be forever reminded
Of how i tried to remove you
Yet i got marked instead

Back then, I didn't understand what you said,
"You are thinking, instead of feeling"
"Woah that was deep", I answered back

And to be honest, until now
I'm still confused

i didn’t know i was bleeding
until i saw the blood d
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just like how i didn’t know
that you already left me
until i realized
it’s such a long time
and i was still here
staying, waiting

As the tears are drying
And the heart stops hurting
And the love starts fading





*She also stops writing

•••
*City sounds, city lights
Chaos, hustles and bustles
Amidst the busy street
I saw you, only you
In a world of deafening sounds
And blinding lights
There was you, only you
And in a world where people come and go
You choose to stop and stay
You ask me to stop and not let go
And in the name of love, I did

Yeah, I want you
But I can't have you
So I want you more..

Cupid must have shot me twice
For you have fooled me twice
**** that arrow
Brings tears and sorrow
Oh stupid cupid
Please take back that **** arrow
And don't shoot my heart again, ever.

Summer time
summer love
burning
as hot as the summer sun
electrifying
brighter than the summer stars

summer time, summer love
but seasons do change
and summer only lasts every summer
so before you go, kiss me hard
kiss me long, the one that lingers
kiss me, the one that will get me through
the next summer

Happiness is best when shared
Love is best when shared*


Life is meant to be shared
Individual differences is what unites us
Each of us is a complement to another
And that is how life is supposed to be

As the sun is setting
Another day has been endured
Another day has been "lived"
Another day becomes a past

The sunset, it tells us to rest
and tomorrow, let's do our best

As the sun is rising*
A new page will unfold
A new flicker of hope
A new life will begin

The sunrise, it brings a ray of hope
promises a beautiful kaleidoscope

oh that sweet sweet sweet tooth
i love to satisfy that mouth
so i indulge myself in chocolates
now darling, taste the sweetness in my kiss

take this beautiful heart
and all these ugly hurt
take this beautiful skin
and all these deep scars
coz if you’re gonna love me
you have to take all of me
all of me, all of me
i am whole to take
not just pieces to keep

Paglipas ng oras
Paglipas ng araw
Paglipas ng buwan
Paglipas ng taon

Wala na
Tapos na
Ubos na ang mga salita
Ubos na ang mga luha

Masaya
Malungkot
Sanayan lang naman yan
Ang mahalaga
Tapos na..

93
it can be a drop of clear fluid
or a cut, a rip, a wrench
but when you said your last goodbye
oh darling
my heart bleeds through my eyes
and suddenly, tears
it means saline solution
and at the same time a laceration
and my heart, oh my good heart


it tears...

whenever i miss you
i close my eyes
and look at the sky
i see you staring down at me
and my tears will slowly fade into smiles
but rare are the moments like these
for most of the time, i miss you and it rains
tears, not smiles

Tell me
The first time you met
How your stomach spinned
How the butterflies danced

Tell me
The first time you talked
How you fidgeted on your own
How you stuttered with every word

Tell me
The first time you touched
How your senses aroused
How your heart wanting to burst

Tell me
The first time you dated
How the billion of stars aligned
How the lovely moon smiled

Tell me
The first time you kissed
How time momentarily stopped
How magical, ephemeral it felt

Tell me
The first time he forgot
How betrayed you felt
How petty it seemed

Tell me
The first drop of tear
How you tried to wipe it away
How you acted okay

Tell me
The first time he lied
How hard you cried all night
How you forgave the next light

Tell me
The first time you fight
How he screamed so loud
How you hide like a child

Tell me
The first time he tried to break up
How your heart almost stopped
How you shamelessly begged

Tell me
The first time he walked away
How you cried in despair
How heart broken you've been

Tell me
The first sign of fading away
How the fire slowly loses it’s spark
How the story unfolds a twisted plot

Now tell me
How nights were so long, sleepless
How tears were almost blood
How dumb and numb and doomed it felt

Now tell me
How you handled the pain
How you remain “in-sane”
How you stitched every broken part

Now tell me
How time has nothing to do with it
How moving on was so hard
A state of mind, a choice

Now tell me
The moment you let go
The moment you forgive
The moment you walked away

-of memories
-the people specially him
-from the past, the pain

Now tell me
How freeing it felt
How the burden was lifted
How the heart was relieved

Now tell me
The moment you smiled again
The wicked grin “i’m over it”
The moment you’re living again

Now tell me, after him
The first smile
The first life
Ahh, much sweeter, better, genuine

Now tell me
That you learned a great deal
That you are stronger than before
That “first love” will always be special

Now that you’ve told me your story
I know, i know, you’re over it..

Thank God it's friday
Finally I'm going home
Place where I belong

another one for you
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*
kiss me quick
hurry, your kiss is the air
that i breath
kiss me quick
i’ll die if you don’t
kiss me quick
my lungs need to be filled
oh darling, kiss me quick
your kiss is my remedy

Her color of blue is not the color of serenity,
neither the color of the calm sky
nor the color of the cool oceans

Her color of blue is black and gray
A sad blue eyes and a faint smile
A heavy heart and a wandering soul

Her color of blue is sadness,
unhappy
melancholy

So tell me,
how come the color of blue depicts peace and calmness?
When the other meaning of it is the opposite?

The stars were just plain stars
Until one night you sat beside me
And together we watch them dance

A flower was simply a flower
Until the day you gave me one
And put some on my messy hair

A coffee is just a mere coffee
Until one fine morning
You made one for me

The night, the morning
The summer, the spring
It’s all different

The cold, the rainy days
The oceans, the places
It’s all different

Everything, yes everything
Everything is different
Everything is so so so so much different
When it’s you I’m with :)

Falling from the sky
like a rain, the ashes
from the forest- in flames
A fallen angel
trying to survive,
and breath through the fire
burning is her wings
burning is her lungs
she is bleeding blue
Didn't knew, angel's blood are blue
She realized, it was not a forest
instead, she's at the center of hell
it was a pandemonium
She definitely is not a Lucifer
But sure she was an angel
Slowly, she remembered,
Lucifer is her lover
Blinded by his promises,
She followed him
literally, in hell
She studied the place
wondering if she could dwell in it
in exchange of his lovers promising promises
She was giddy and excited
She's a different angel
Her lover then came
and called her the Angel of Death
She loved the new name
and decided to stay

The intensity of your gaze
Could turn me into ashes
Wishing it's a stare of amaze
But darling, I know, we lost our chances

That look in your eyes
Are to cover the lies
And the look in my eyes
Are pretentious, a disguise
that I knew nothing of your crime

I'll take the fire in your eyes
Even if it will burn me alive
I don't want to hear the truth
Love me still, even if it's just a lie

i’m jealous
of the kid
who once lived
in this heart

Would you be the one
To end all the “what ifs”
And all uncertainties?

Would you be the one
To stay on the shore
Amidst the waves of storms?

Would you be the one
To dye my hair
When we get old and grey?

Would you be the one
To call me baby
Even when we reach ninety?

Would you be the one
To pull my wheelchair
When I can’t walk straight?

Would you be the one
To defy the gravity
To steal the stars in the galaxy?

Would you be the one
To prove the world and persist
That forever exists?

Would you be the one?
Would you be the answer
If I was the question?

la luna captured me
and i suffocated in melancholy
it reminded me of a lone wolf
down below, howling from afar
for the love it couldn’t grasp

Line of boys
In front of my door
Each bringing flowers, chocolates
Sugarcoated words and promises
All for my sweet yes

But I don't even look at them
Because they were not you
I pushed them away
Because they were not you
They tried to pursue me
I tried to pursue you

Line of boys
In front of my door
I told them to go
Because they were not *you

i thought it was the sun
but it was your smile
oh you’re a culprit in disguise
you stole the sun’s shine

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tired but couldn’t sleep
i’m wondering if you’re worth to keep
this foolish heart is in pain
but still it beats your name