There was always much more
I should have, could have
Held against you
Weekends left watching cartoons
When sitting on your lap
Was all I needed
Hours of listening to shot gun conversations
Mostly trash about my mom
You know she struggled 26 hours to push me out
Without a **** I was useless to you
"You don't need flowers do you?"
A statement, no question
As you walked out of the delivery room
I have no pictures of you holding me
Many scars for the times you did
We talk every few years
They pass by like blinking
Sleeping
I hear your methadone laced voice
Far off echo's of bedtime stories
Summer afternoon's next to the river
Your laughter bouncing off fish scales
I miss you.
This bridge between may be burned
Your body sick with disease
Tired with age
Lucky for us I excel at the breast stroke
I don't want to wake with nothing but
Your memory floating
On the surface of my childhood

What happened to "through thick and thin"
Or those "I'm just 8 digits away" promises?

You used to be the first I'd turn to
Despite whatever obstacles I've faced,
No doubt the first I'd share my joy to too.

But it seems like the older we've grown,
The further apart we get too.
Every now and then I look back at what we used to be
I find myself thinking man, I wish things will go back to the same.

I know that change is inevitable,
I only can hope that this change would be for the better.
If there's any pain that comes along with it,
Well it better be worth it.

you are not mine,
i am not yours

but
if there will come a day
that
i will be yours
and
you will be mine

i promise to love you
until
the end of time

[m.p]

you are a
mystery

and

i couldn't help myself
from wanting to know
every single thing about you

how can other people hardly notice
the sadness in your eyes?

i don't know what you're going through
and i can tell by the walls you have built around you,
i certainly never will
but
if you let me
i promise to make you feel
you are
never
alone

We are thinking too much about our lifes
But remember your life could be somebody elses dream...

Have you felt the caress of rain
like a cautious, caring lover soothing pain away.
Touched the night sky with your gaze
felt it reciprocate with no haste.
Have you ever loved what no other had dared
adored?
Out of fear of the beauty of the unknown.
Sighed along with the thunder of a storm,
being captured in the flash of lightening strike.
Have you felt and failed,
despaired and wailed,
thought and smiled;
Let the clamour of the rain wash away the fears,
the tears?
Take a moment, breathe, remember your sanity
is far more important.
Have you had a moment for yourself today?

ALTHOUGH you hide in the ebb and flow
Of the pale tide when the moon has set,
The people of coming days will know
About the casting out of my net,
And how you have leaped times out of mind
Over the little silver cords,
And think that you were hard and unkind,
And blame you with many bitter words.

I was warned about
people like you;
The one with a
beautiful mind
and soft eyes
I was told to keep away
because you're addicting
and capable of destroying me
more than any drug could
I was told to keep you away
from my heart because
one wrong move
could be vital but
I've always been
one to take risks

– billiondays