... And so, the cycle begins a new,
How shallow I feel not here with you.
Lies I tell myself to sleep at night
Toss and turn, you were my only light.
Here I sow with another.
She tries but yet I still feel smothered.
Empty inside it seems to feel
Every day is a battle that I'm trying to heal.

Dear depression,
The grip you have on me is tiresome,
I'm ready to break free from these shackles.
You have prayed heavy on my weaknesses and lonely heart.
I'm ready to be happy again.
Too long I have walked aimlessly alone,
too long have I waited for nothing.
My sins are payed, my time is up.
I'm due for a new start.

*Dear depression. Dear Dana. I'm done.

Sunset kiss
White wedding dress
Love at first sight

Frigid mess
Lustful doubt
Fighting can't get it right

Empty bottle
Money *** busted
Sick and trashed
Life has gotten rusted

Poem for her
Love about me
Sick and lonely old
Unhappiness finds me

My temple for where I warship her.
Her beauty.
My goddess.
Years I have slaved away to build her up to what she is.
Only to stand there as a memory in stone.
Her hips to her lips perfection in the finest term.
Oh how I'm lost without your grace.
Goddess come back to me so I can worship once more.

And that's how it starts,
a man in love with himself,
meets this girl who saves him from his ego and in return he saves her
Fade to ******* black...

That **** only happens on screen the real truth is..

Man meets girl,
girl thinks she can change him.
Man sees lust at every corner,
man becomes weak and gives in.
Man looses girl,
man looses every girl he touches.
Falls in love with the idea of loving someone else and how it made him feel.
Man slips into a comma,
drifts off to find her not at his bedside,
not thinking about him like he thinks about her.
So he waits in purgatory,
can't live without her,
but when he wakes he can't have her...
Waits to fade to black.

I woke up today
much like everyday.
I looked in the mirror and i saw it.
The pitty, this abyss of self loathing
Cold dead eyes looking at a broken man.
Heavily glazed over by sin and betrayal.

I'm not used to seeing me without you
With out anyone.
Burned every bridge I ever walked across

Empty.
That's what I feel these days.
Not even sad, just empty.
I'm missing you.
Everyday seems like a life time.
I now see what the appeal of cigarettes and alcohol give.
Something to fill this swirling black hole of what used to be love for a girl.
Now it's empty.
I don't even find the company of ladies amusing anymore.
I only want you.

Some times it's like I'm a fish out of water
I suffer without you.
You were the air in my lungs, the water I drink the birds chipping in the morning...

Now your the last drop in the bottle, the head ache I can't break in the morning, your the heart attack I lived through making me pale and weak.

Your the rain that never stops, may I ever see the sun again?

I had a woman who I thought ignored my beast like shell and saw the Prince I was on the inside, as I called her my beauty; *now my meloncoly heart must break all over again longing for the day when she comes back to me.

I don't want to wait for all these hoes ******* around with these certain type of men getting their own heart broken, getting knocked up and expecting us good men to pick up these broken pieces, shattered self-esteem, trust issues and dealing with your baby daddy because you allowed him to beat you without saying anything because you loved him and it was your "fault". Listen ladies if you'd pick the good man, the one that may have not been the most muscular, or had the perfect tan. The guy that no one looked at instead of the guy all the women flock to and do anything for just so he could look at you, you wouldn't be so ****** in your life right now, but it's ok because us good men are still single, jumping over bridges for girls who wouldn't step over a puddle for us. Now we make the most money and grew into our looks that's when you want us? No. I won't be a step dad at 24. I won't be settling down with a girl whose ****** had the whole football teams **** in it plus the ones 2 towns over in every direction.
We don't mind that you want to be wild and free, but your choices are for life and the one you finally settle down with.

That one thing you want,
You can't have.
years go by
nothing's changed,
you Breeze through life
on Talent and luck.
your Luck's run out
and karma is cashing in

The internal battle I have with myself about you is enough to make anyone go mad, there are days I type in your name to look for you and I scream inside not to press search.

Iv come too far to have it torn down by your happiness with another man, as if I hadn't existed at all. My fingers tremble, my heart aches as tears still stream down my face as I type your name...

Just a bunch of letters on a screen and I'm still an addict. My rehab is the happy memories I hold clutch and dear to what little mind I have left before I go completely mad.
Ive forgiven you almost in an instant, but i beg for forgetfulness to put this torment at ease.

The things that we love the most  in this world are the things that are taken from us too soon

Every night it blows my mind
Because your the most hideous thing in sight.
Not on the outside because your beauty is so bright,
but on the inside I fight the beast with all my might.

That girl, my once golden shimmering Mirage, made me sick. To think my solace resided in her is now tarnished with betrayal and the ever-burning flame of hate. A goddess she stood before me, the very essence of her well-being warmes my soul. In a blink of an eye she is wrapped around another. As I sit here cold and lonely passing away every breath shorter and colder

When I kissed her, for the very first time, I knew my destiny had changed. For I didn't know it at the time, but I would love those lips, like i love the every tingle in my body when i see her, the warm hugs when she grips me so tight, and the way he hair smells when she does...

It aches with every fiber in my body that she is gone.

As I give this fake smile and happiness on the outside, im screaming with rage on the inside.
Every one I meet isn't you, anyone I'm with, isn't you, and everyday from here on out won't be with you.
I'm sad. I'm depressed. Isn't enough. Heart break isn't enough, it hurts more. More than not breathing, I'm on the cusp of no air but still here. How you die inside is loving them 1st before you, before anything always, and they don't love you back.

To the person who broke my heart, you don't know this yet but you've tarnished every relationship from here on out. Because every fragment of my body I'll still be in love with you and no one could even compete. It won't be fair to them but it's not fair to me if you go

Probably one of the most depressing nights of my life and she would never know.
I miss my best friend.
I miss my soul mate.