These late stages of depression ive been lonely.

I'm now starting to realize that I have hope, but not for me, for you.

I hope you found what you were looking for, while struggling to keep it together with me.
I hope you can be yourself around him, and not this monster you have shown me.

I hope he sees the love and life in your radiant eyes as you look up at him, the eyes haunt me still.
That smile when he makes you laugh will be the backbone of all conversations, because he will be lost staring at you while your deep in a story, and your smile will bring him back.

I hope he sees your power to up lift the ones around you, and the ability to bring ones you love close together.

Most of all, I hope he sees the future with you, the one I've been addicted to for so long. The white dress, the dancing under the blue moon... and I hope he loves your kids with a love that's more than love...

I've been in pain for so long, I can't even remember what happiness feels like.