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EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
Don't feed pigeons your soul, they won't be satisfied.

You can spin words over and over until they made a blanket to keep someone cozy, but if no one actually cares about your words, then you're left with a blanket you can't even use.

Save your words for someone who actually cares.

Even if you'll have to make a blanket that may one day work for you.
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
It's not easy taking the blows
Letting the wind remain at a flow
Suffocating silently, no one can understand...
Frozen in time, in a sick wonderland

It's hard to breathe in a time like this
Reminds me of worse and a darkened kiss
Could It be me that deserves this torture
Don't watch me cry, that worsens my horror

It's hard enough to walk this alone
Now here it comes back freezing my bones
These tears can't end, I'm a walking tsunami
I hate my hearts heart, I've become a living zombie
EmperorOfMine Aug 2020
In the seemingly endless void, a door sits in the center.
A light shines a circle around the door.
You may knock on the door, but will someone answer?
This door is decorated, colored, and shaped in its own unique way.
This door leads to someone's life.
Just because it's there does not mean to interact, however, it doesn't not mean to either.
Would you go to the door and destroy it, despite the acknowledgment that it is not yours?
Would you like the same in return?
Then don't do that to someone's life.
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Once an ocean
Now a dessert
Living broken
Walking hazard
Silent Thunder
Intense shaking
Sudden sunder
Abrupt thinking
Once a painting
Full of virtue
Now lights waning
My light is due
Wandering
Here comes the dark
My body sinks
Alert the sharks
EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
"I'm seeing someone, but I don't know what to say...can you give me some advice?"






Meanwhile, you've never dated anyone, can't tell if it's you or something that's hidden behind the sun...

Stuff like this is what causes living with people to be not so fun.

And to top that, you've liked this person, but now they come to you...

.A.s. i.f. t.h.e. u.n.i.v.e...r..s.e. .w.a.s. w.a.i.t.i.n.g. .t.o. t..e.ll. .a. .j.o.k.e.. .t.ha.t.. w..o.u.l.d. .e.n.d .w.i.t.h. .b.r.e.a.k.i.n.g. .y.ou. ...........too.
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EmperorOfMine Nov 2019
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A poet compiling a story from chaos crafted by reality
Sharing his mind and hoping it'll bring him sanity
Begging for a solution to a story riddled with ash and snow
Blinded and reaching out to a boy hidden in shadows
Bound by memory, lost in the moments before
How sad a story that has to do with a poet like this; a bore.
.
.
.
He didn't grab his attention, left to a lack of chemistry
Hoping to be a good boy, good friend...with whatever that is

We will see how this story unfolds.
EmperorOfMine Jul 2020
Somewhere the Moon goes to speak with a Star
That Star comes from a galaxy not like our own
To the Moon, says the Star, "I want to go that far"
To the Star says the Moon, "But there, I, all alone"
Then the Moon faced the Sun, and the planets all around
"I'm never alone here", says the Moon, "No matter where I go"
The Star shimmered, "That's why I'm here" he felt so proud
"Because now that I am here, with you, i have somebody i know"
The two giggled, and the Earth saw them together
"Hello North, hello Moon", the Earth said quietly
"Hello Earth", they both said joyfully
Together they glanced forward, "aeternum", Earth said somberly
And afar, the Black Hole said longingly, "Deus tecum est" gingerly


/The Sun burned brightly in a distance, droning an endless tone
Warm the heatless abyss around it for all to know, it, too, exists.
/
EmperorOfMine May 2018
I just want someone to relate
But all I am left with is awe
Don't look at me like that
Like I'm strange
Like I'm stupid
Like I'm not worth it
I care about what you think
I care about you

But is that my fault
Or is it yours
I still love
I still fight
I have hope
But this world
It tells me to let the good go
Treat myself
and only myself
But at the same time
Treat everyone else
As I want to be treated

How can you be such hypocrites
How can you smile with your false teeth and plastic eyes
How can you look down on me
When I am but natural
I am human
I am not an android
But why is that a bad thing
No one is perfect
I am not your trophy
I am not your garbage
Do not look away
Do not run to your comfort

You think you deserve peace
You think you deserve comfort
Who do you think you are
Don't close your eyes
Don't cover your mouth
Don't plug your ears
Listen to me
See me
Speak to me

Run into your phone
I dare you...
Walk away
Hit me
It'll make everything better, huh
Or is that what they've programmed you to say
You think you're so clever
You think you're better than me
Well here's the news flash
You're just like me

Matter of fact
You are me
So look out of the mirror
Take of that plastic smile
Wipe away the makeup
Stop acting
You can do it
You can smile without the fake teeth
You can laugh without the recordings
You are strong without having to be prideful
Cocky


Be humble
This isn't to make you feel good
This isn't even about you
So why did you make it about you
Cause 'you' is in it
Or is it because you can relate
Step away from the mirror
Participate
Shut it down
EmperorOfMine Jul 2019
Sometimes my silence speaks louder than my screams
And I don't always know what that means
Listening for someone to balance my chaos
Assuming someone else is supposed to be my peace.

When did forests glow such green
As the sun may glimmer such bright beams
And the sky may shower many delicate streams
Things are beginning to look like a dedicated dream.

Often lost and filled up on alone
Why aren't I good on my own
Where is my wonderland that I could roam
I just want a place to call my home.

There's
a                a
long
&
a                a
Short

Way to contemplate life's meaning
Constantly comparing till we all agree on the singing
But some will always tune and tone different ringing
Yet there're strings that keep us attached, grant us our eyes 4 seeing.

Question the poet by the poem's intent
Or form your own story with the imagination pent,
It won't take long to build a fortress with descent
But be wary of what messages you've bent.

Pillage a tower and mangle its stories
Set a fire for disaster or to create some kind of glory
May a field bloom so brightly and it's life vitally strong
Because a life that goes on awhile is a life full of stories just as long.

The                       The
fin             .EnddnE.              fin
The                       The
EmperorOfMine May 2019
Sentenced to a fading vision
In this rippling madness consistently beating
slower
slower
Noises racing from here
and there
as it all starts to fade away
oh scared we are
this is it
this is real
Numb falling faster asleep
and the pain starts to wither, decay
Do i want to go
Do i want to stay
tears stream down my face
it gets hard to breathe
everything is shutting down
i'm scared
am i
i don't know
i see nothing
the sounds muffled
i see stars
its so cold
im gone
seton
EmperorOfMine Nov 2019
I'm trying to capture these feelings and set them free
one
by
one
Sending them away with notes of mind
Opening my relic of emotions to unwind
But I come to realize that I'm SOOOO
e m o t i o n a l
And I'm overwhelmed with not enough room to let them fly
It's getting hard to breathe
Typing this, I feel trapped, clogged
Something swelling my soul with too much
I'm disappointed, but not surprised
I'm happy and thankful, but I also want to cry
When did we start to casually want to die
Why do I ponder why do I try
Yet I also feel content
I could spend time at home or stay here with my friends
I like a boy who's too far ahead to see me
And when I could have set him free
...

i'm emotional
unstable is an understatement
i feel like the embodiment of chaos
yet i also feel like order
somehow i am like a painting that is a beautiful catastrophe
i don't know how to express myself
i feel like i'm in a game where the point is to simply accept that you can only lose
but i don't only lose, not all the time
i lose and win and lose at acknowledge my winning
i'm never satisfied because the one win i want i continue to lose at
i just want that and it's like a carrot dangled in my face
i-
i-
i-


how do i feel so constrained in such a spacious room
why do i feel so enclosed in a world so big
enslaved behind a glass peering into a room labeled free


why am i so emotional
EmperorOfMine Apr 2020
I feel the words you cast aloud
A shank you made, crafted from mind
How bitter the ailment of one's self-hatred
Duel-bladed this act, a sacrifice
I wish you felt this pain for you
The love I wish you reflected
But I can only see you bruise
Your soul once knew you respected
Now as I watch you maim yourself
I pray your wounds erased away
May you become the one who loves
Even when all says dissipate.
EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
Gripping on my soul as I look into the shadow
Morphing and dilating like a pupil in the night
Sending chills down my everlasting spine
Rushing winds flashing me signs
Held back by this giant man
Guarding me against this hellish plan
As the other attempts to pull me in this wake
Telling me that it's for my own sake
Gaze at my toes, drifting further away into the hole
Sinking as the time around simply froze
Left alone with this thing nobody knows
EmperorOfMine Jan 2021
𝑺𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒊 𝒂𝒎 𝒎𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒎,

𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒍𝒅 𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈, 𝒄𝒓𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒚 𝒑𝒂𝒍𝒎 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒊,

𝑰 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒑𝒊𝒅, 𝒅𝒆𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒂 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒎𝒆, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒅𝒊𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒆𝒙𝒑𝒆𝒄𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒈𝒂𝒎𝒆, 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆,

𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒊 𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒘𝒂𝒔𝒏'𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆, 𝑰 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒑𝒊𝒅 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒓𝒂𝒎𝒆 C𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒐𝒏, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒂𝒔 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒃 𝒂 𝒄𝒐𝒌𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂 𝒈𝒂𝒎𝒆,

𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒏𝒐 𝒑𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒏 𝒗𝒂𝒊𝒏,

S𝒐 𝒊𝒇 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒈𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒂 𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕,

I 𝒎𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒂𝒔 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒖𝒏 𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒖𝒏𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕,

𝑰 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 want it t𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒐𝒇𝒇 as 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏

𝒊𝒕 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔𝒏'𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒂𝒔 𝒃𝒂𝒅 𝒂𝒔 𝒊𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒎𝒔  

𝒊 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒐𝒇  𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕

𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒔𝒔 𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒆𝒏

𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆'𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒓 𝒇𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕

𝒔𝒐 𝒊 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒃𝒂𝒅 𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒈  

𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒊𝒇 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒈𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒂 𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕,

𝒊 𝒎𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒂𝒔 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒖𝒏 𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒖𝒏'𝒔 𝒃𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕,

𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆'𝒔 𝒏𝒐 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒎𝒔

𝒊𝒕 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔𝒏'𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒂𝒔 𝒃𝒂𝒅 𝒂𝒔 𝒊𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒎𝒔
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EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
I'm not a fighter
Yet, I'm like a silencer
So, you should see the red signs.

You snuffed all of the heat
Which makes you my enemy
Know that means that you should hide

You and deception
Mouth your confessions
Don't let the blue dagger slip

For you are beneath me
You love when I'm hurting
Hope you're the next one to trip

A snake can be heavy
Their bites can be crazy
Look I have lost my ****** mind


Yet here I am, ready
My actions are steady
You've once called me one of a kind


Now you will see many
Come shadows of plenty
I hope you swallow your pride


You've never met crazy
Your sight might get hazy
Get ready for a real ride

EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
F l o a t , mydear , i n t o  a  n e w  r e a l i t y

T h e  o n e  h e r e  i s  a  s i m u l a t i o n

O u r  f u t u r e

O n e  w i t h  t e c h n o l o g y

W e  w i l l  c o n q u e r  r e a l i t y

A n d  w h e n  w e  d o

W e  w i l l  b e c o m e  i m m o r t a l

W e  w i l l  l o n g  t o  d i e

Y e t  w e  w i l l  n o t  s e e  r e s t

A n d  w e  w i l l  m a k e  a  n e w  r e a l i t y

T h i s  n e w  r e a l i t y  i s  y e s t e r d a y s  p a s t

Y o u  a r e  l i v i n g  i n  t h a t  r e a l i t y

E v e rrr y t h i nnn g  y o u  s e e  i s  i n s t a l l e d

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Boo
Happy Pre-Holloween
EmperorOfMine Oct 2020
I feel as though I lived multiple lives
Existed through multiple timelines
Experienced super phenomenal things
But I do not believe in reincarnation if we are to have a soul.

I've been a woman, with many grandchildren and kids, happily stowed away in the rural painting away from the city. Swinging over the edge of a hill colored yellow, because of the sea of sunflowers beneath me, on a wooden swing my husband made for me.
This was a good life.

I've been the boy who was traumatized, isolated, neglected, driven under...

I've been the suburban girl who had a seemingly steady life, as a common crate, but with enough resources to stably get to where it needs to be because it's protected and considered more valuable.

I've been a sky knight, gifted his wings through tedious training, with the goal of protecting the lives of the civilians that pledged underneath the Oath of The Highest Power.

I've seen many things...
But sometimes I have deja vu

And I'm starting to think that deja vu is connected to these lives, BUT also connected to the theory that someone keeps changing the future, by changing the past.
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Ye does not know what's to come.
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Forests come falling down like ash.
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And must the colors cease to one?
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Let death come with snow in its wrath.
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With me, a weakened soul remains.
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An evil tried to break it down.
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But ye of only little faith...
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Can't see that my soul sings aloud.
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Oh, October has shed its tear.
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With nothing, all left to remain.
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But dead leaves always settle here.
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Where I may stand up in the rain...
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For ye of only little faith
A light with wings protects me
Here Winter comes with frozen fangs
Let it not ever prosper

Let no evil prosper.
EmperorOfMine Jan 2019
I felt a drop inside my gut
I smell the rot not far from me
If weight could slice, well I'd be cut
This toxic feeling's surrounding
As hard this feelings of to rid
The setting it makes is much worse
No one will listen to the weak
A fallen evil fated curse
A distant whisper in my ear
I feel something is going wrong
Nowhere to run, no safety near,
This suffering is way too long
EmperorOfMine Aug 2018
Why do people care when I fall down on air,
It's a root, first of all, I don't know why they dare,
I don't die, must I fall, I may cry and may crawl,
Let this be something learned for the next one who saw,

I know I'm the one that will die in the movies,
However I go I know It won't be soothing,
I run after day when it's worse for the sight,
Of course, I would trip when i'm running in the night,

For the better or worse, I'm the first one to go,
It is good that I know I'm the start of the flow,
At the end of the day, It all goes out to show,
I am falling on roots, not the air you a*sholes!
**** inspired by a dream.
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Sometimes my eyes open into a world where my body is stuck...


There's usually a hand that's gripping my head with a shadow man telling me that if I'm quiet I'll be fed. There's a cold atmosphere surrounding my mind and drowning it in gray sounds. A wave of pulses rushing through me like a siren's sound, forcing me to drown and now I'm truly silent... The shadow man wins once again and for one to feel this void of black numbness is one driven into insanity. I've exploded because sometimes he takes pleasure in torturing my prospering mind. The hand on my head once released me and I could see, but all I could see was a horror show called destiny. I don't know how anyone can call this terror a fantasy when all it shows you is the inevitable tragedies. The hand went from my head and gave me an awe, and then...it went for my throat and closed all of my hope. For some of you, you may think I simply sit there in fear as this shadow man plays with my body in a fit of stillness, but I tell you this, I speak to him.

Although I never actually say anything, he always knows my thoughts.

Little lonely weakened willow, saddened sour by blue fate? Forced to tricking your yearning soul somber and acknowledging wake. Wrest duly drowned in inevitable sorrow someday you'll yield an advent romancer.

I don't always understand the shadow man, and I do wonder why he never scares me...he let go of my throat and then I yelled until I was set free...

I wonder what the shadow meant. His words stick like glue to a stick. I'm fated to something uncertain...my world may have just now been broken.
EmperorOfMine Feb 2019
It was just a bonfire,
what you and I had,
just right by the house...

Did it have to be so bad?
For our first time,
I tried to stop it,
But it was like you wanted us to have it,
so broken and sad,
but it was what we needed to bond and to have a good laugh.

But that bonfire sparked embers up and coated the deep blue starry sky,
Making futures and fates I could wish for throughout the night...

You'd think that all the ambers up would cool out in time,
That everything would remain to resume just fine...

But near my home,
Was an amber of sparking ambition
Like fate sent it out,
Was it on a mission,
Powering through, didn't have decisions...

Lit my home right up over,
Just by slipping through a vulnerable crack,
So much for thinking that I could just live with you then
But I didn't know that you'd turn your back...

A meek and crushed me alone
Nowhere to look but at what I've sown
So I built some walls around my house
I thought my tears could stop it
But i'm just a mouse

From fire to now burning
That's when this experience brought me some pain
Here's a short version of my story
Of how a crush burned me in flames
EmperorOfMine Jul 2018
I first met you when I was just a little boy...
Clueless and naive.
You told me that we'd be friends forever...
...Even though you're older than me.

That charming smile of yours, and those beautiful big eyes...
You could wrap me around your manly fingers like bows and ties.
As I grew older, I knew you to be serpent-like.
You'd tell me yes then no, then stop and go.

Go up and down, stay put, turn around.
Keeping me confused...cause that's just how I met you...
You're evil...and yet I never knew.
I went insane...because of you.
But that's the person you truly knew.

For you took my confusion like some take their poison,
Sometimes its too much, and then they're poisoned.
Blacked out and no longer me.
I'm wasted within a black pitched sea.
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
What do I do now...?
I need someone right now.
Please don't make any sound.
I need someone right now.

A tsunami of hardships rushing tremors of blessing into my
tornado spinning life.

A kiss of misfortunate fates attached to overwhelming shaking I can't do this alone...

A silent churned catastrophically composed orchestra overloading my senses.

What do I do now...?
I want someone to hug now.
A wanted soul wants to be found.
I need someone here right now...
EmperorOfMine Jul 2018
Confused and distorted
The somber souls morbid
I won't say yes, nor I'll say no
I've no idea which path I should go
No friends for my fear
No ghost I shall hear
Lost inside my withered head
I can't even shed a tear.

Who'd ever love a scared demon
What demon ever deserved love
They point fingered guns like skinny heathens
They watch him suffer from up above
Not like there's much to do for him
Insanity took him by the hand
Fear left him silent in the night
Now he's ditched dead underneath the sand.
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
You may rip a paper heart
And it may solve your problem too
Or watch the water come and start
To drench it till water falls through
As birds may fly into the sky
or dive into the dancing sea
Don't ever try to clip their wings
Unless you know what that will mean
You selfish little waterbug
Come to collect it all for you
Or get crushed under someone's heel
Watch your life underneath their shoe
Till death may do you ever part
Sons cursed to fake their every kiss
Left lonely and without a heart
Sociopathic son of a witch
EmperorOfMine Jul 2019
Fueled by the fiery finding of gold
Gushing through my fingers,
I have to have it.

Greedy for the find, what a steal,
It's mine,
I've got to have it!

Time seems to quicken, and my body suddenly stiffens
when the word love is mentioned...
Feelings bully my conscious.
That's a poem for later

What a game I'd never like to play
The edges on my thoughts are rather rough today
EmperorOfMine Dec 2020
The higher I go,
The less I can breathe
It seems that ascending into the top leaves you wheezing
Because it takes and rarely does it replace
If I float
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I am not ok
Unable to do much, but float away
Because I can't fly, tho I sure can ascend
But that only confirms the danger I'm in.
EmperorOfMine Nov 2018
I stand in front of God's judge scale
I know what will be judged to me
A crushing blow, a weakened soul
What's left of my shattered esteem
Nothings ever what It may seem
Trying to mock the flowing stream
Maybe it's all just a nightmare
There's no way this could be a dream

I see the lost in all the eyes
When I look up there's a gray sky
People pretend this pain's a lie
Ignore the hurt when facts are tried

Go find a mate, that may change fate
Don't be alone for your own sake
Go mingle in and try to shake
It's one thing that shouldn't wait

It's not a myth to go insane
When you are stuck with just your brain
A mate can be family or friend
This is something rarely obtained

I've been judged to have a blessed life
But I will see loved ones cry out
I won't be able to change them
Even if I fight or I shout
It will come like a nightmare
Cause there will be a fallen heart
But it's a dream cause in this stream
That pain will fade as I depart.
EmperorOfMine Jul 2019
I had no idea you'd try to **** me with the words you wrapped around my throat.

Whispering nothings that meant something, crushed my soul of any hope.
EmperorOfMine Mar 2020
Potent Flower
Send your fragrance to my cognition
Opened hour
Live a little at time sinking slow ignition
Our eyes on a mission
Snow-bound emperor moth at night
Itsy simple and lessons brittle
I opened my eyes once and I see more than thought
A riddle of words making bigger bending moments
Now ponder the answers you came here and sought
EmperorOfMine Aug 2018
When did thunder ever sing?

There, such a melody screaming through the ceiling.
When did clouds ever start to cry?

Such a high, the world goes blind.
Little dreams from distant lights.
In the sky, there are many wonders.
So with dark, there will be frights.

Still in the ice where you may ponder.

How did we ever get so bold?

Minds expanding in this shelter.
Evergreening life, so old.
This world we lean on like a shoulder.

May we grow with it as one.
Let not this world have a war.
Might it maim us all or none,
Nature's realm, our friend, for sure.
Are we Nature's friend, or is Nature OUR friend?


Let us hope we are one together and fight to keep some kind of calm.
EmperorOfMine Feb 2019
Someone is looking
My soul is shaking
Maybe I've lost my mind

Maybe I'm crazy
Can you come save me
I think you're one of a kind

Put on my dressing
Can't stop obsessing
I envy the light you shine

You're so testing
Now I'm confessing
You're all that's on my mind
To food
From me
EmperorOfMine Dec 2018
One more life left.
Then it'll be game over.
The clock will reset.
Here come the falling feathers.

Try Again?

Yes or No?

Choose the next path.
May it be for better...or worse.
EmperorOfMine Dec 2020
He's a gentle giant
Tiptoeing around his soul flower
Delicately nurturing the delicate entity
In awe, he gawks from suns to moons
Pondering in anticipation, this wonder flower's bloom
Such a marveling creation, he wants to support forever
But he's so very very big
He could crush the little thing
And so he can never get too close.

As gentle as he may be, he will never be so gentle it doesn't break the flower
So he may only enjoy the flower from a distance, never being able to entwine
Until one day the flower blooms and evolves from a flower to a tree
For a soul-flower is complex enough to be this free
And it's roots caressed the giant's body, gently uniting with its everlasting partner in time

Becoming one, like the tree on top of the giant hill
Together, they slumber forever, in each other's presence, content, and still.

People visit this soul tree from time and time
For many believe that this tree will grant you the sight to obtain your own true love, you'll see

There was a time where this giant thought it would never get to truly love the soul-flower but could nurture it from a distance, and it did so happily.

This nurturing little did the giant know, caused it to bloom big enough to withstand the giant's strength, forming its own strength, in which it used to become one with the giant, for the love of one was so powerful that it amplified the being of the other.
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Do I need to set the world on fire
to make my pain known
I don't want your sudden care and tears
when I've left home
I held the gun to my head
begging you with my eyes to help me
That's when you helped pull the trigger
pretending you've set me free
EmperorOfMine Apr 2019
I just want you to ask me if I'm okay.
But when I tell you my heart, you look away.
Don't get nervous when I try to disappear.
I just don't know what it is that you fear.

If diamonds are in the rough,
Then I guess our connection is full of them.
Our genre is a heartbreak if this was our final film.
It's like we're playing a game to find out what to say.
But if you don't see it, my voice has left me today.

I just want you to help me not to decay.
But you act like i'm a fire to your spray.
As Autumn sheds its leaves that fly through the coast.
I just can't help feeling like i'm a ghost.

I just can't help...feeling like i'm...a ghost.
EmperorOfMine Aug 2018
It's times like now when I can see nothing

I look in the mirror, something truly haunting

Like extras in movies, a movie called Life

I sometimes think Death will come holding a Scythe

Lost in my world, a world of confusion

Can't tell a depression from manic intrusion

I'm stuck in a limbo, a grave of cracked glass

A sad silent tomb, hide my somber past

A life without dogs is a second one gone

The first was to find my shoulder to lean on

Though young I may be my soul lenses are old

If someone afar could relate I'd be sold

Now fading away like a ghost in the light

Hope for your sake that you sleep well tonight
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
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Dear Diary,

I am a ghost. I don't know how long I've been this way, but It's my reality.

I've smiled with people who can't see me. I've laughed and made conversation with shadows. Sometimes you forget that you can't be seen...or heard...or even thought of.

I like to watch people live -- questioning the actions and thoughts they feel. Oh, yeah, I can hear their thoughts. Vile and sweet...mixed into a bowl like candied poison.

Sometimes I get lonely. It can get bad...like...really bad. Have you ever wondered why ghosts get so aggressive?... You probably know them as poltergeists. That's when we get so tired of being alone...something comes over us...

It's not like we see each other...no...ghosts are solemnly solitary, unfortunately.

So...yes, there you have it...something I wanted to get off of my chest -- the nonexistent one.

I am an utterly, unfortunate, miserable, somber, quiet, insane, and hurt Ghost.


You're welcome.
Are you a Ghost?
EmperorOfMine Nov 2018
Hello Dear…
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There's a lot of pain in my soul.
I don't feel like I can be seen, hence being a ghost.
I'm not calling the seen those who gather attention.
I've never been able to hold the necessary attention that is love.
I'm tiny.
Ugly.
Little to ńöẗḧïńġ...
But I'm something.
I mustered up courage deep inside me, somewhere in my shadow...
I pulled it out and coated it with what I thought was hope.
But whether it was or wasn't, it overpowered that courage.
It escalated until it had no other option but to fall.
When it fell, the choices were already in motion.
A result was ready to explode...and cause casualties.
...Or just one casualty.
I guess a ghost can see the future.
Its shadow can do more than foreshadow.
I opened up a door for courage...
But I let out a demon called melancholy.
I made a mistake...
And it led to another heartache.
I never knew that I was my own weakness...
Not until I was bitten by the Gloom Bug.
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Maybe you don't really get it...
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I am a ghost moth,
An ugly nothing,
And as I fly up,
I'm called disgusting,
However I know,
They cannot see Me,
Cause I'm a ghost moth,
An ugly nothing.

No one can see me,
They love pretending,
They all grow weary,
Now they are leaving,
There isn't a light,
That won't come stinging,
I'm all alone now...

No news that I see.

I cannot be squished,
Although I do wish,
I've seen my future,
There's nothing to miss,
I always yearn love,
Love does not yearn me,
Not the parent stuff,
More like romancing,
When will I get it,
I've been cursed and stung,
No light in my eyes,
I wish I were done.

You will find someone,
That helps my curse grow,
Like it works backward,
It reverses flow,
Tell me I'm lying,
I'm only crying,
Why can't I wake up,
It's worse than dying.

Now to the ending,
I want apathy,
Drowning my sorrows,
Numb in my sighing,
When the light does fade,
It will then get cold,
Wasted my one wish,
Dead young, I was told.

I do deserve this...
I feel so careless,
The moth that's like me,
Hope that you are bliss...
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Ghosts don't flirt...
But neither do they have much to flirt with...
No one can see them...
Not like they wish they could be seen...
Wandering, no, hovering over the ground with their head down
There are no catcalls...
But then again...there's nothing at all
No smiles that aren't practiced
No compliments that may catch them off guard
No one that has the guts to say that they care
How are they supposed to know that they are even there...
Oh.


It's hard to love being a ghost when you're the only friend or mate you'll ever know.
EmperorOfMine Oct 2020
Every October, on her birthday, she visits the next friend she'll keep forever, 3 o'clock, in the morning, she'll greet you.





A little girl dressed all in black
Got called a little shadow,
The kids around thought she'd attack
when they turned the lights hollow
She'd walk away, her face unphased
Her little soul would laugh
She let them know that she would go,
she'll make them all friends fast
Far far away, less noise out there
her home was set to be
She went back there, to tell one friend
as pale as the snow gleams,

Let's make them friends, so we can dance
recharge the father's glee
Give him their soul, give us a friend, every single Halloween
EmperorOfMine Feb 2019
Dancing all alone
Not a care within this Earth
Although they'd say that I'm wrong
I see beauty in my worth
I don't need to be tied down
To stay flawlessly modest
Or to feel that I have value
I'm an art piece that's costless
I don't have to be a beast
Cause I'm single at the least
Why can't I just love myself
First I need some inner peace
Then I can go out and dance
Mingle in the crowd of chance
Possibly find love at sea
I don't need to though, you see
It's a thing I can desire
But romance can be just one
You should come first, at least prior
Don't be sad, go have some fun.
If no one else will...

Chocolate is on sale after VD.
EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
I fell, because you said that you'd catch me...





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Once glass shatters, what it once was is now in tatters
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
He's a magician.

Oh, how beautiful his illusions are;
His dashing, mesmerizing smirk;
Those colorful eyes;
His way at making what I see bend;
Capable of manipulating reality.

Pulling me in, as he motions his seductive scope;
Flawlessly choosing the next set of actions;
An awe-inducing thing, he is.

But he's also glass.

Cracked by his past;
Pretending that he healed so fast;
So fragile, and yet so strong too;
He could break if the pressures too much;
But he could take a bullet for you.

He's a glass magician.

Playing tricks with the fragile;
Although, he isn't any more agile;
His exotic motions and beautiful projections worthwhile;
But he's still on the verge of breaking;
You can see his body shaking;
Molding him back solid won't be realistic;
I wouldn't believe that he was ever like it.

For every angle, there's a new scene;
Formed by his ways and only his means;
He's sculpted by a world that lives life insane;
That's why he has cracks, cause he's formed by the pain.
EmperorOfMine Nov 2018
woke up today feeling empty
I can't feel something without someone feeling worse
And so what I feel becomes nothing
No one can see you the smaller you are
It places me in a place of gloom
I become a tomb for the dead living
Call me strange for being sad on your best day
But when you can't see my struggle
You don't get to judge my gloom
Now I have to bite you
I must bring you down to my level
I need you to be able to see me
If you can't save me
Understand
It's not easy
Being a gloom bug


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EmperorOfMine Feb 2019
When you're trapped in a circle of patterns
Patterns that make up the same torturous scene
You get slapped in the face and now you're gloomed.
Don't worry, it'll pass by, maybe...
You'll start numb then you'll think, lately
You haven't felt like yourself at all.
You'll feel like everything is crumbling around you,
And that to end it, you have to get influenced,
But it won't last beyond a week, at minimum an hour.
It'll pass, and you'll be fine. If you're not, at some point, the sun will once again shine.
EmperorOfMine Apr 2019
If hallow bones could make me fly I'd go so high,
I'd break the sky
But here I lie, upon my bed, staring so far inside my head,
wishing that I could just be dead,
hearing the things that I once said,
Rapidly falling into a sea, as black as coal and misery,
avoid me like I am the plague, I lack the energy to even beg.

I just want to go back in time, to give my mom a hug, in person and not in just in my mind.
EmperorOfMine Aug 2019
Sometimes suddenly, I feel dejected.
Ejected from my previous emotion and rejected by any positive concoction.
Somehow, abruptly, I feel embedded in the thickest soot of sadness, heavy ashes of gloom suffocating my heart and all of its assets.

Sometimes I get bitten by a glumbug, and a blue sky could turn gray, I could be known to be the talker, but have nothing to say. My mind doesn't mind being a bully and having it's way...as if my soul began to rapidly decay.

I'm glumbugged like spontaneously combusted, explosively sickened by this destructive construction. Depravity shaking and waving in motion, corrosive to my life and the future that's open.

Potent, its bite, the glumbug. Random, sudden, terrifying. Like the chilly wind that death carries, or a gut's intuition; like a sign of misfortune. What an awe-inducing contraption.
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