Goodbye creativity
and good riddance.

I can no longer stand to be myself.

Goodbye creativity
and good riddance.

I'll put my independence on the shelf.

Goodbye creativity
and good riddance.

Its useless now to disagree .

Goodbye creativity
and good riddance.

It better instead to fit in, don't you see?

Goodbye creativity
and good riddance.

Its scary to do your best to stand out.

Goodbye creativity
and good riddance.

when you're a freak to the rest of the crowd.

Anxiety meds.
Meds for depression.
They make me feel numb,
make me lack expression

remember how i wrote about
i was mad they didnt let school out?
..well hey
they kicked us out today
cause the lights went dark
and soar, it did, my heart.

I search restlessly for a way to make you see
see that its not okay
I'm not okay
please see that
please
I can't do this anymore
I just want to die
literally
I can't stand it
life is too much
stress
sadness
anxiety
I need help
your help
you

Do I get excited at the thought of another new beginning?

Sometimes thoughts are just
too much for me to handle
I wish I was numb

I don't think its
wrong to expect
from you,
the same respect
That I put in.
But how does one ask?
where does one begin?
I hate that I feel
this mad
and you don't
even feel bad.
Don't worry, though,
I'll just keep apologizing
no matter how much
I find it agonizing
a reciprocation is what
I'll be waiting to hear
Though I'll probably have
to wait a few million years.

okay so *****,
fake tans and big butts,
getting it on in the craziest places,
disappointing looks on mom and dad's faces,
Boyfriend after boyfriend makes you feel so great,
on you, the rest of the girls start to hate,
you stole their man, but it makes you seem cool,
who cares how they feel? now you rule!
Master of that Gaping cavern,
that stretches to match your physical patterns,
How do you keep down that horrible stench,
wafting from multiple uses of your lady trench?
Is it pills, cream, or a deodorant spray,
that makes them keep asking for your legs to be splayed?
Oh no..you're starting to twitch
is it a rash that's making you itch?
no worries though, you caught them all before,
warts, zits, and diseases, from being a *****,
but was it really worth getting that teacher arrested?
I don't think that's the way an improvement in grades is requested.
and how about losing your so called best friend,
just because her boyfriend pounded your loose end?
I guess you can be proud of the service you made,
giving every single person a chance to get laid,
yes, which you provide is quite generous,
too bad your existence is cancerous.

I feel like a fizzy drink
someone ******* the cap too tight on
and shook right up and down too too fast
the pressure pushing out on all sides of the cheap plastic
built up and stiff, pressure insane
until someone takes off the cap
and I explode
it's too much for them
so they close me back up
cycle repeating
close
shake
explode
close
shake
explode
unt­il there's nothing left
and I am
empty

If I
could go
anywhere
I would
travel outside
my own skin
because
God knows
there's better
then the
trash I am
and the
garbage
I aspire
to be

im just gonna sit here and scratch off a little part of myself each time you hurt me until i just dont exist

I got the wrong parts
I got the wrong heart
I got the wrong toes
I got the wrong clothes
I got the wrong joints
I got the wrong points
I got the wrong face
I got the wrong place
I got the wrong eyes
I got the wrong prize
I got the wrong date
I got the wrong fate.

Internet box glow
it's a different dimension
here we get away

More and more hours
we get lost in our haven
But what else is there?

And same room sitting
the ones who raised us wonder
"How dare they zone out!?"

****, look what you did.
you ****** life up for yourself.
****, you did it again.

I wanna write
but I don't have a good story
I could depict something nice
or something quite gory
such as a mouse squeaking in strife
cause his wife is quite whorey
She was caught with the three blind mice
her only retort, a sob story
unfortunately he didn't believe her lie
and stained her fur a sticky wild-cherry
just beat her until she died
he gave her no time to say sorry
now he sits alone and cries
his breathing getting steep
no one can ask why
after this, he'll never squeak.

YAAAAAASSSSSS

I'm just so tired
Of this **** soaked room
And this poorly glued together family
And I'm tired
Of all these issues being ignored
Of the baby being ignored
Of personally being ignored
Tired of
Watching the entire bloodline use different ways to escape reality
And I'm tired of
Heading dad say how bad it is
And hire he's so much better then mom
And then sending us to her house

Maybe one day
When I'm tired of
Being so lazy
I'll just off myself
To make things easier

I listen to music
And i’m tempted
To rush over to your
House and run away
With you
Because i’m in love

It’s four am.

I’m sorry.

I sound like him
When he talks about
That baby mama

But i know we’re different

Because we're not whole
If we’re not together

blank space
like my
blank face
shows no trace
of feeling outta place
its crazy
how dazed
I feel
is this real?
guess I don't
wanna know
I'd rather sit back
and watch the show.

My heart is melting
like the sun disolves
Slowly into the sea
at the end
of a long summer day

his name
a match struck and lit against my throat
igniting white-hot anger,blinding

burned a little more each time

I am not okay with this

not bad enough
to be not good enough

Nick fell in love with a loony
This girl was indeed quite screwy
She built herself a hut
out of her ex-boyfriends' nuts
Now nick feels kinda gloomy

****, I need you again

but alas, I also crave

being so alone.

woof woof barks the dog as he plays in the yard
swish goes the large green fruit as it sails through the air
the dog stops barking
the melon, sailing
leaving a family in a state
of
MELLON COLLIE

My self hatred
burns under my skin
my blood is poison
I'm danger.

Personal belongings gone astray
                                                 make me want to run away
while its nice to be completely me
                                                 there's some things I don't want them to see

Deep Crimson cheek
Face burned heat

Flushed

You blush

All because he said hi
And, oh my
How you've fallen hard
He's the best thing you think about, by far

Night by night you wish
One amazing kiss
                From those lips
                             To be his

He is perfection
Your sweet confection
Of a man

Whose hands
You wish to have all over your body



"Why me?"

Harsh beats
brought me
to your
soft heart.

my
  cry
my
  try
my
  fail
my
  tale
my
  face
my
  space
my
  home
my
  alone

Sorry I can't eat
Chicken wings
While smoking
Like him

They came on the radio again

I can't help but smile
They make me think of you

Ahhh being in love

It's hopelessly wonderful

you ever just get
so happy
so happy you wanna cry
*******
if that isn't the best feeling.

I am here.

I am alive.

It is great.

Hands grip
until sheets rip
and words drip
from parted lips

To catch a glimpse
of fumbling limbs
and have hearing dimmed
by pleasure hymns.

happy
sad
crazy
depressed
in love
i feel
everything
at once
this rush
is what
i love
and
hate

I was excited
when i saw the whited
out street
beneath my feet
and i almost screamed in joy
when i heard all girls an boys
had the day off
but then i had to scoff
at the fact that they
thought they could take away our day
in the wintry escape
and replace it with school not-so-great
where we'd feel like muck
cause what the ****
none of will ever think school
is ever that cool

It's not enough to be a dreamer.
It's not enough to try and fail.
To give up before you win,
no matter how hard you tried

still makes you a loser.

I guess it's kinda sick
that I like it when all I feel is ick
Helps me to be creative, gives me thoughts
Its fun to write while watching yourself rot.
makes you more popular, cause "others feel it too"
I don't really care, as long as I get more views.


I'm willing to destroy myself
If you're willing to give me attention
makes me feel loved
I'd take any form of affection.

I think I'm just supposed to be happy.

Being sad ***** up everyone else I know.

And that just makes me miserable.

Octavian Octopus
lives In the sea
with eight long tentacles
to hug you and me

He spends his days
with Seahorse Sabrina
who dreams longingly
of being a ballerina

Octavian wants so much
to be like his crony
but sadly, all of his
dance moves are bologna.

Still he felt that
he needed to impress
his funky fresh pal
in the pretty pink dress

so for hours, Octavian
practiced his spins and his twirls
he even got a costume
with glittery frills


So came the day
of the big talent show
He could show old Sabrina
that he too, was a pro

But alas,
half way through his act
his big squirmy arms
got caught in a crack

He tripped and he stumbled
and fell off the platform
tears started to fall
and away, he started to storm

"Stop!" a voice shouted at him
and he turned around to see
his best friend Sabrina
giggling with glee

"the very best dancer,
you don't need to be
if you really want to
be friends with me"

He smiled and she laughed
"you're very cool, you silly-old-goof,
but just be yourself,
not a stumbling doof"

My Valentines Day was aglow
with a giant cup of froyo
warmth of cuddles and hugs
silly gripping and tugs
that don't mean you're mine
but, honestly, that's fine
cause being best friends
is something that never ends
and I'm already expecting
to hear from you, texting
that you saw this
it's not really something I wanted you too miss
I don't expect you to comment
at any specific moment
but yeah, this is for babycakes
I'd do whatever it takes
to be with her forever
yes, honestly, I'll do whatever

You bruised my knuckle with your ******.

please say sorry.

everything got quiet
but not in that creepy sort of way
more in respectful anticipation

the world was alive.