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18h · 13
A natural disaster
They didn't love you deeply

Not in the same way
the sea yearns for the sand
the fire cradles the wood
the flowers crave the sun

They loved you sparingly

The same way
the thunder screams then fades
the leaves fall from the trees
the raindrop ripples the pond

Never to be seen again
Aug 2023 · 323
Untitled
Jade Welch Aug 2023
To the next one,

Don't let my heart arrive at an empty home.

Love,
Me
Jade Welch Aug 2023
I could sit before you and use beautiful words and rhyme to tell you how I feel. How I fell.

But that would be a futile attempt, because you never took the time to understand my heart, you understood my skin. Everything that looked pretty, but nothing that felt it, sounded it or lived it.

My eyes? Perfect.
My smile? Perfect.
My shape, stature, hair, epidermis art work? Perfect.

My heart, mind and soul were secondary, and when I asked you to learn them, to understand and study them... it was all "too much" for you, you weren't ready for love.

Yet, you were ready to paint a picture of a life with me. I can be your wife and you could have kids with me. All because your eyes liked the way they felt when they gazed upon me. But taking the time to learn my mind was a chore, clutter that needed clearing out that you could not get to just yet.

Maybe one day, you said, as though my mind could hold off and my heart could pause its affection like we were half way through a movie and needed a moment to grab a bite, as though my skin would wait for you to run your fingers upon it again to resume its aging.

You touch was stimulating, only half as much as your words, thoughts, ideas and dreams. I knew them all. I KNOW them all. I could recite them, because I listened, took them on board and you achieving your dreams became one of mine. Maybe I wasn't listening intently enough, I didn't realise none of these dreams involved me.

I wasn't listening when you were painting a picture of life with me, it was with my body, not my heart, not my soul and not my dreams. You heard the parts of me that best suited you and your needs, the parts of me deemed desirable. I heard every part of you, even the parts that should have made me hate you. Even now this part, the shallow, relentless, unloving-me part.

And yet, I love you still.

Maybe one day I will be old and withered, but my soul, heart and mind still beautiful, and you will be there telling me how you achieved all of your dreams. And in knowing that, I will have achieved one of mine.
Aug 2023 · 822
This is a joke
Jade Welch Aug 2023
What's wrong with me?
No, hunny...

What was wrong with my upbringing?
No, seriously... a joke
Aug 2023 · 105
This is me
Jade Welch Aug 2023
And now I will look back and laugh
realising I gave my everything
I missed you when you were here
and loved you for longer than you deserved
I fought for you
defended you
I cared for you
gave myself up for you

I laugh because
I thought I had never seen anything like you
and the funny part is
I really thought you were the most beautiful thing
I would ever lay eyes on

But today I woke up
stood in front of the mirror
and finally...

I saw my soul
Feb 2021 · 920
Irreplaceable
Jade Welch Feb 2021
And the sad part is I would take any piece of me and replace it with a part of you.

So my brothers could have a father, so my sister could have a man to look up to, so her children could know who Grandad David is.

So my mum could love, REALLY love again. None of this fake "we're going for dinner, so that means something" *******. None of the "he hit me but that's OK, because he didn't mean it" *******. None of the "he screamed at you but he never meant it" *******.

And I would take any piece of me and replace it with a part of you.

I would take all of me and replace it with all of you so I didn't know this pain. That might be selfish because you were in pain.
That might be selfish and it's not OK but I would rather know there was of world with you in it without me there to see it.

I would take everything I enjoy and replace it with you, just for one picture beside you.

I would take everyone I have ever loved and replace them with you so I could know what real love is.
Take every moment I've ever had and replace it with you because a girl needs her father.
What's the point in fake love and rainy days and a cup of coffee in small cafe's. What's the point in fancy dinners and a quick lunch, your boyfriend taking you out for brunch. What's the point in long dates and drive-ins
and lazy days and lay-ins.
What was the point for any of that when I can't tell you?

And the sad part is I would take any piece of me and replace it with a part of you.
Feb 2021 · 551
I see red.
Jade Welch Feb 2021
Bent double.
Sick.
And I cannot really blame you.
Maybe it was me.
Because I wrote so much about avoiding the devil, but little did I know I was sharing his bed.
Feb 2021 · 181
Coming home
Jade Welch Feb 2021
Would it be selfish to ask you to stay?
Knowing you would suffer.
Knowing I suffer without you.
Which would be worse?

Why didn't you stay?
Is the emptiness fulfilling?
Does it make you whole?
Fill a void my love never could?

You will never see me in white.
Never see me with-child.
Never see me ache from love.
Never see me overwhelmed by joy.

Would it be selfish if I followed suit?
Knowing they would suffer.
The way I suffer without you.
It cannot be much worse.
Jan 2021 · 249
Lover
Jade Welch Jan 2021
Your heart has been torn.
Shattered into pieces.

Yet still you are so fast to give it away.

There is strength in that.
Jan 2021 · 148
Modern "courting"
Jade Welch Jan 2021
Selling my soul to strangers
For a love that never starts
Cannot lend me their words
On my pictures leaving hearts

Falling in love too quickly
With a man who knows me not
Am I coming off too keen
Does he know what he just lost
May 2020 · 138
As am I
Jade Welch May 2020
Have I asked too much

Asking you to love me
I know it is a task
As am I

I'm a little lost
And I don't really get it
Why are we here
Why are you so close
Yet so distant

How could she leave you
All I can do is love you

Hold me tight and tell me
Please
Tell me you love me
May 2020 · 154
Fire
Jade Welch May 2020
I look at you
And I am home
The door wide open
Hinges need oiling
But that is ok
Because I am home
And the stove is on


Who left the stove on?!
Apr 2020 · 111
Love Story
Jade Welch Apr 2020
I cannot turn back clocks
Nor can I travel through time
So I smile when I think back
Not because you made me happy
But because I survived days darker than night
I have lived through horrors worse than those on screens
I have loved more than characters in books
And I have cried rivers longer than those surrounded by lovers

So I can smile really knowing that not all storms last through the night.
And I am alright.
Apr 2020 · 106
It's me
Jade Welch Apr 2020
It isn't you,
It's me.

I have said it time and again.
Each time more relevant than the last.

Because it really was me.
My overthinking.
My trust issues.
My insecurities.

I know there are prettier girls out there.
They all want you.
And I don't even want myself...


So why should you?
Apr 2020 · 126
The 'but' way
Jade Welch Apr 2020
Hello?
Hi.
Who is this?
It is you.
It is me?
Yes, I am you just a few years from now.
What do you want?
To tell you this is not the way.
But, what other way is there?
Not his way.
But, what else, what other way?
Your way, the door way, any way but this.
Will it hurt?
Not as much as his way does.
But, what else, what other way?
The better way, leave a letter way, any way but this .
But what if he follows?
He will, but you can be strong, I know it.
But, what else, what is my way?
The strong way, do things wrong way, any way but his.
But, what if I can't?
What if I don't?
Apr 2020 · 105
Here I am
Jade Welch Apr 2020
Come find me here
I'm over here
With locks of fire red

Come find me here
I'm over here
Eyes lifeless and dead
Apr 2020 · 104
Pillow talk?
Jade Welch Apr 2020
Some nights I fight
Others I fall
If only you were here
To pull me through it all
Apr 2020 · 115
N/A
Jade Welch Apr 2020
I found myself in the baron lands
Of love
Apr 2020 · 99
/confined/
Jade Welch Apr 2020
The darkness screams my name
Behind the whites of my eyes
And I cannot escape
I am trapped
Every night is the same
It sticks to my pupils
As though it had been drawn
Not all art IS art
Dark follows me during day
I cannot escape
And he loved me
He tells me
Every night
Behind my lids
I just laugh
Every
Time
I cannot escape
I cannot escape
I CANNOT ESCAPE
But I did
Long ago
Apr 2020 · 91
Your side of the bed.
Jade Welch Apr 2020
Dead ends and nowhere to turn
Your heart it feels like home
These walls are broken down
Yet still I sleep alone

Everything sounds warm
And this sun feels oh, so green
Nothing ever makes sense
When ripped away from dreams

The temptress beckons you over
And soon you too shall run
And when I awake again
The night leaves me alone and numb
Apr 2020 · 97
Reflection
Jade Welch Apr 2020
"I hate you", I cry.
And the mirror shouts it back.
Apr 2020 · 114
A conversation with time.
Jade Welch Apr 2020
I could feel eyes over me,
behind me,
above me.
Always watching,
waiting for me to trip.
And when I did they watched,
I suppose that is all prying eyes can do.
I called out, but there were no ears to hear,
just eyes, watching... observing.

Oh, prying eyes, don't you see,
this life just wasn't made for me.

A hand came down, filled with pills
and prying eyes just watched;
slowly prying eyes faded, and I conversed with my watch.
"Any moment now" I said and the moment came and spoke;
"I hear you're looking for a ride, young child, so come and follow me"

I followed into darkness, cold, without a clue.
Then the moment turned and said "someone wants a word with you"  
I turned and there you were, hardly 34,
a look of sorry smudged across your face, I knew exactly what for.

I told you of the prying eyes and the awful lack of sound.
I told you stories about loss of laughter and asked why you weren't around.

Times were hard and tears were rough, I found myself to be lost. Looking back down at my wrist, lost hours to my watch.

I found my mind and lost prying eyes but still I feel something above me. A rock balanced on my shoulders, but I never forget what he told me.
Apr 2020 · 96
Fragile
Jade Welch Apr 2020
My heart is not a weapon, so why does it hurt the most when they use it?
Apr 2020 · 103
Seriously, what?
Jade Welch Apr 2020
Four leaf clover
Little black cat
Good luck bad luck
What's up with that?
Apr 2020 · 152
What is this?
Jade Welch Apr 2020
As dark as the ink on these pages
As numb as frostbitten fingers
My heart just beat 3 times as fast
But still a darkness lingers

My head is busy, it wonders
Stomping all the time
A flash and I am back there
His eyes still covered with dimes

Cannot escape the horror
The circus of my life
Are you afraid of clowns, my dear?
Good - '*** this ones bites
Sep 2019 · 380
Love blvd
Jade Welch Sep 2019
find me on a hidden path

and my heart shall lead us home
Sep 2019 · 136
Kitchen lyrics
Jade Welch Sep 2019
**** that boy/he ****** with your head/he's got another little pretty girl/laying in his bed.
Mar 2019 · 242
0355
Jade Welch Mar 2019
But, every time someone leaves me,
I learn to love myself a little more.
Mar 2019 · 255
Dad
Jade Welch Mar 2019
Dad
I wish you could see me now
in person instead of from the stars.
But you would be disappointed
by my hate stricken heart.
Mar 2019 · 168
Ghosted
Jade Welch Mar 2019
He said he would fight
but he never did.

Said he wouldn't let me go
then he ran and hid.
Mar 2019 · 181
A message to my heart
Jade Welch Mar 2019
Next time,
do not let your walls come down.

Even the Trojan horse looked like a trophy in Troy!
Mar 2019 · 147
:/
Jade Welch Mar 2019
:/
He didn't want me,
so he used my poor broken heart as an excuse.
Mar 2019 · 431
"I want doesn't get"
Jade Welch Mar 2019
I just want to feel wanted,
I want to be happy.
I want to love someone
and to actually feel loved back.
I want to feel appreciated.
And I want someone to look at me,
seeing not my past,
but seeing my heart
and the love I have to give.

I just want someone to tell me
that one day
it will all be ok!
Mar 2019 · 222
I could have loved you
Jade Welch Mar 2019
He turned my past into a weapon.
And then...
He stabbed me in the heart.
Mar 2019 · 151
Howl with me
Jade Welch Mar 2019
I love you but you don't see
That much I can't deny
I care for you more than the wolf
Cares for a moonlit sky
Mar 2019 · 397
Or So I Thought
Jade Welch Mar 2019
I didn't REALLY lose you.

The reality of it is, I never really held a single piece of you,
but you possessed my entire heart.
Mar 2019 · 289
When you broke me.
Jade Welch Mar 2019
Did she save you...
Pick up your pieces and fit them back together oh, so perfectly?

Did she save you?
Or were you just too afraid to be alone?
Mar 2019 · 177
All knowing
Jade Welch Mar 2019
Her beauty was unmatched;
not because she had clear skin or a flat stomach,
she had neither of these things.

But, because she knew one day neither of them would matter.
Her smile, however, would last forever.

What isn't beautiful about that?
Mar 2019 · 180
Perfect?
Jade Welch Mar 2019
He called me perfect,
and for a moment
all of my flaws disappeared.
Mar 2019 · 147
Paper.
Jade Welch Mar 2019
She picked up a pen,
and her soul spoke.
Mar 2019 · 224
Brave eyes
Jade Welch Mar 2019
How could your
brave eyes
have seen such
petrifying images?
Mar 2019 · 390
Right?
Jade Welch Mar 2019
I am closed off,
not because I am afraid of what you might do.

I fear I might scar your heart, in a way no lovers kiss may heal.

After all 'hurt people hurt people', right?
Mar 2019 · 420
Checkmate
Jade Welch Mar 2019
If you played chess as well as you played her,
you would be a champion by now.
Mar 2019 · 142
Not so see-through
Jade Welch Mar 2019
You see the smile
not the scars.

You see the beauty
not the beatings.

You see the present
not the past.

So why throw your words at me,
when you could throw your arms around me?
Mar 2019 · 109
Truth
Jade Welch Mar 2019
If you could walk a mile in my shoes,
you would need to sit for a while.
Mar 2019 · 477
Seriously, woah!
Jade Welch Mar 2019
If only you could see
how your soul has captivated me;
maybe then you would love yourself the way I do.
Mar 2019 · 317
.Worth.
Jade Welch Mar 2019
You do not deserve to be or to feel alone.

You deserve to be and to feel loved.

Please, never forget that.
Mar 2019 · 388
Biggest fear
Jade Welch Mar 2019
I once loved something
that was filled with evil.

And that scares me, more than anything.
Mar 2019 · 261
Cry, baby?
Jade Welch Mar 2019
Sometimes you want to force the tears out,
just so you can say you cried
over something other than him.
Mar 2019 · 257
Nightlight
Jade Welch Mar 2019
I opened my heart, and told him about the darkness;

now he has to sleep with the light on.
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