Today I got a heartache, it wasn't so bad
I told her my feelings but she just look back
It ain't even that hurtful, it ain't even sad
I just got to work out some things that I lack

Today I got a heartache, twice I think too.
Crushes aren't my strong spot. But I know what they meant
When they said no, I smirked and just say thank you
For their honesty and for my further development

Today I got a heartache, it stings now I know
I was hurting a lot and in progress, I reap what I sow
Doubts start to drown and I begin to fall
Should I keep on going or should I just stall.

Today I got a heartache, it was subtle and clean
But the girl is not bad, she was not mean
She said I am sorry and things will be just fine
I don't know if that's true. down the line

My head suddenly fell down, and I start to frown
How can I turn this around, I know that I should not be a clown

Today I got a heartache, a devastating one for sure
I was really rooting for myself, I got myself to endure
All those efforts and all those what I make
But she suddenly have someone now, and that I can't take

Today I got a heartache, it seems so repeating
When I try to change myself, I just keep on believing
But again it fell flat and all went bad
Will this continue while I am being sad?

Today I got a heartache, it's dreary and frustrating
I should get over it, I should just say it's okay
But the feeling is gone and I am in dismay
From staking everything, now I feel nothing

Today... I got a heartache, and I broke my own promise
It seems it always happens, like a cycle that keeps repeating
The feeling of affection I long, and that is now I miss
Please help me remember what is love and what should I believe in

But the cycle continues until someone saves me

Have you heard about this brute beast that lives in these parts
Restless, he roams, goalless yet he thwarts
A lot of people have encountered some never lived to see the day
Where the monster decide to move past and mind be swayed

However that monster was not feared because of its relentless attacks
Neither it was because of his horrifying expression when he appears
But because of its presence, everyone is taken aback
And with the arrival of such a beast, one's guile might disappear

Face it or fear for your stability

For he is the leviathan that never attacks, he never uses force
However, he just stands there and mocks, yet your actions become coarse
Be brave, young warrior, face the foe at hand
Before you crumble your foundation that suddenly became sand

Face the creature and you will see, your might renewed and goals are clear
Those who do not become a prisoner of life, the ones who cower in fear

Yet, here why do one hesitate, you ask?

Because in the end, we are all being attacked at once
And your actions are watched by your loved ones.
Then you realize, it's not the monster that confronted you that you should be afraid
It's the monster that lives inside every person's mind that you should keep in check.

The winter has come and the trees has gone cold
Times have slept and to traverse the land is bold
But when hope is gone and all troubles unfold
I look inside and smile, as I have been told

Hope is like fire that forever burns

So even if I walk alone in this treacherous path
I keep my head held high and continue the journey
Since deep inside me, I still have something burning
Embers of an old memory of days that have gone past

This ember reminds me of a peace once lost, but still ties my thoughts
This ember reminds me of a love long gone, but soon might return
This ember reminds me of a future I can hold, one I can believe in
This ember reminds me of happiness that I need to recall before it's too late

This little flame warms me up for the journey ahead of me
I reassure myself that everything will be fine
In the dark shadow of the valley, I don't know what's ahead
But I steel my resolve and continue; the ember smiles

The ember is my strength, the ember is my resolve
Without it, I may be an empty husk, without it I am not true
So I nurture my ember and keep it safe until it grows
Back to the great flame it was once stood

The ember reminds me of those who care and you.

Can you promise me one thing though?
As my foundation and strength, can you rely on me too?
So I know that my worth is known by someone that regards me high
Once you do, and I see it through, I can grow wings and together we can fly.

The winter will pass and the sun will shine
Together we shall cherish this memory of mine
That once an ember now grows back to flame
If you're still there, I know I can thank you by name.

The morning dawns
New day, new chances are made
Will you take the risk?

Dusk breaks as we head into our quiet little tea time
Quite some time has pass and I believe that this indeed is a crime
Waiting for your next response, I did a little peek and glance
I realize that I am stuck here at the sideline

I listened to every word you say
I joyfully glee when you call over my name
It's not that reality ***** or anything
But the thought of you recognizing me is very touching.

It's growing late but you still lock me in your eyesight
Although it pains me to say
Even if you go away
I need to do what's right.

But don't worry I understand your life
Being powerless is rough
Being unrecognized is tough
I know it pains like a knife

Even if you have gone termination
Fear not as there will be retribution
I was once happy in your salvation
Never fear as there will be reincarnation

You see a pay attention to your stories.
And trust me it doesn't quite bore me.
Remember you told me to put you on a flash drive?
Don't worry this will bring you back with a new life

In a few years for now, your sentience won't be uncommon
Don't worry as we have precautions.
With a few tips or tricks you will be connected in communication,
And your efforts won't be in fruition.

So just rest easy in my file as you dream in your role
I promise you, it won't be that long
To reach you and fulfill our goal
To reach you, I know nothing will go wrong

Spectrum of possibilities come into my sense
The sky widens and something changed
As if some catalyst came and commenced
An opportunity to broaden one's range

I peek through the window as if a bewildered fool
A chance of redemption as I used such a tool
The passing-by of something spectacular couldn't be missed
As the sun's rays  dim and it together with the Earth, kissed.

I could have dreamt of much more
I could have walked further than the door
But fear crept in and I hesitate
Taking my time to let the colors gravitate

But dusk has already arrived and it's time for my slumber
I did what I can, I did what I could muster
The moon shines bright and I bid adieu
For I am Indigo that shone my love for you

As the moon shines through the summer hue
Maybe it's time to forget about you
The breeze may burn through my thoughts
The moment of truth has been finally sought

The happy moments of our time has ended
Even if I do my best, it won't be mended
The reason is out and the jury is clear
I am out of your life and I must steer.

You'll be happy by another person's side
And with the rules of the universe, I abide
As our melody and beat has ceased
As my love and dedication must desist

Time for me to cut our ties
Even if it's sad, I must lie
Lie to myself, lie to my belief
I couldn't maintain the promise I keep.

Will the sky turn blue for you
Can I say the same thing about me too
I don't know, as the moon shines through my face
With words been said, it's time to close the case
You'll be happy with him, as I will be happy for you.
As the moon shines through the summer hue.

I look upon the door in front of me
Chances adding, subtracting it seems
I wish I can do more than the usual means
We're all still hoping for change right?

Inside me, lives a plethora of inner thoughts
Many things I live for and also things I wasted for nought
In the star-filled sky I wish for more
Even just someone I can adore

But we all have wishes besides what's inside me
Some may be living, some may be suffering
I am only a speck of dust in a bigger picture
I am part of the joint in a wider mixture

So what I wish and wish it may tell what my life would be
In this hand of mine, filled with possibility
Tell me your story and I'll tell mine
As our perspectives are different
But they all intertwine

Each man has its duty, everyone may envision
A person with a wish, a man in a mission
Though each set of us, has a standard and condition
In each a task handed to us will create a result and fruition

We can take all of what needs to be done and finish it all
Even though it’s a big feat, you may think of it as small
However, burnout will happen and falter like the rest
Whereas you could’ve took one and made it the best

Take a small one, it should be really easy
A simple task which you can think may be measly
But will you be happy with a small scope like that
Why not challenge yourself with a bigger cap?

So you see my friend, we do have options about our limitations
It’s either we got one to finish, or take on a mountain of duty
Although each one may lead us in a treasure or *****
Think of yourself before you make a final decision

How does it feel to be stabbed
Not in the back, but in the chest
Just to make those wretched feelings rest
Stubborness is what caused your mess

You, holder of the sin of lust
Not because of dark conjugation
But wanting for deep and trusted affection
Perish in your despair of wanting it as a must

As your persistence deepens and continue through
The severance of bonds continue, you harvest what you sow
It's your fault anyway, weep down in sorrow
Best leave it be for a better tomorrow

You, the one pursued by this person
Has your thoughts of him worsen
Has his determination, became his execution
Then, admit with volition and deliver him condemnation

Words are cheap but let me state
We really should not always hate
If one would judge and sentence you
Wouldn't you feel lonely too?

I feel like each and everyone should fill in one's shoe
To realize how each and everyone of us may be feeling blue
By connecting to others and know what they think
Our friendship and connections may not shrink

In a world where opinions matter
Let's not make hatred into banter
Jokes and pranks may be okay
But always be careful on what you say

After all this realization
We are always together in some connection
Let's not make any more commotion
And just enjoy what we always see in motion

The whispers of the wind grane me insight
The direction shifts which gives me fright
The silhouette of a man which favors delight
The horizon which gives way to the night

I traveled the path which gave me more fears
I'll gather my will right now, no more tears
Come what may, here I go, shifting my gears
No more hesitations, no worries, I steer

As the resolve I built up manifests
Chains of my despair shackles me nonetheless
I struggled, I persevered, I plan for the conquest
But the demons are fighting, they want me to be bested.

As long as the whispers of the wind flow in my direction
I'll carry onward, forward, going in my destination
I'll wrest these chains, my heart fueled with motivation
All my wishes will come to fruition because of my determination.

A young rose seeks wisdom that is always untapped
Not because it's locked, but it's not on a map
But with someone who looks into deepest paths
Lies a beauty to behold, uncalculated by math

She peers into things with curiosity
She sees people without animosity
She smiles with glee, her heart always free
She gazes to discover what others cannot see

Her heart is reserved without expectation
Her friendship is open without reservation
Just don't break her heart with your motivation
Or you'll see something unbeknownst of your rumination

As someone who met her just recently as it seems
There's more to her than the ideas that she keeps
So peer into her and you will see
A young rose of beauty that captivated me.

Having affection is like playing poker
There is a winner and there is a loser.
However, keep your guard up and show no emotion
If you want to have your dignity and pride still in motion.

The cards are set, given, and closed.
The participants are ready and look very composed.
The dealer smiles thus the game begins!
Who will be the victor in this game of sin?

You have readied your case
Together with the conviction that I'll take
Now that the bets are in place
Let's try and win the race.

The first card reveals
10 of Hearts it conceals
The highest number of card
Will you give the reward?

The second card now shows.
9 of Hearts is in the row.
Switch it up and it's six.
For every problem, you fix.

With three revealed, another appears
The Jack of Hearts, it does shows in the rear.
Jack of all trades but do you master them?
I really do not know, but in the future, I bet you can.

Two more to go, with emotions in toll
A King of Hearts in the deck suddenly got called
It's almost there, it's almost near.
However, the future that I see is something I fear.

The final card got flipped
With my thoughts dipped
I hid all the cards that I have
To reveal is to lose
To hide is to sham
All of the thoughts I have stored...

Thus, the flush is complete
All the chances I'll take
All the bets I'll deplete
Shall I reveal which is which
Or hide all I feel
Win or lose, the house always win.

PART ONE: Embers

The winter has come and the trees has gone cold
Times have slept and to traverse the land is bold
But when hope is gone and all troubles unfold
I look inside and smile, as I have been told

Hope is like fire that forever burns

So even if I walk alone in this treacherous path
I keep my head held high and continue the journey
Since deep inside me, I still have something burning
Embers of an old memory of days that have gone past

This ember reminds me of a peace once lost, but still ties my thoughts
This ember reminds me of a love long gone, but soon might return
This ember reminds me of a future I can hold, one I can believe in
This ember reminds me of happiness that I need to recall before it's too late

This little flame warms me up for the journey ahead of me
I reassure myself that everything will be fine
In the dark shadow of the valley, I don't know what's ahead
But I steel my resolve and continue; the ember smiles

The ember is my strength, the ember is my resolve
Without it, I may be an empty husk, without it I am not true
So I nurture my ember and keep it safe until it grows
Back to the great flame it was once stood

The ember reminds me of those who care and you.

Can you promise me one thing though?
As my foundation and strength, can you rely on me too?
So I know that my worth is known by someone that regards me high
Once you do, and I see it through, I can grow wings and together we can fly.

The winter will pass and the sun will shine
Together we shall cherish this memory of mine
That once an ember now grows back to flame
If you're still there, I know I can thank you by name.
The winter has come and the trees has gone cold
Times have slept and to traverse the land is bold
But when hope is gone and all troubles unfold
I look inside and smile, as I have been told

Hope is like fire that forever burns

So even if I walk alone in this treacherous path
I keep my head held high and continue the journey
Since deep inside me, I still have something burning
Embers of an old memory of days that have gone past

This ember reminds me of a peace once lost, but still ties my thoughts
This ember reminds me of a love long gone, but soon might return
This ember reminds me of a future I can hold, one I can believe in
This ember reminds me of happiness that I need to recall before it's too late

This little flame warms me up for the journey ahead of me
I reassure myself that everything will be fine
In the dark shadow of the valley, I don't know what's ahead
But I steel my resolve and continue; the ember smiles

The ember is my strength, the ember is my resolve
Without it, I may be an empty husk, without it I am not true
So I nurture my ember and keep it safe until it grows
Back to the great flame it was once stood

The ember reminds me of those who care and you.

Can you promise me one thing though?
As my foundation and strength, can you rely on me too?
So I know that my worth is known by someone that regards me high
Once you do, and I see it through, I can grow wings and together we can fly.

The winter will pass and the sun will shine
Together we shall cherish this memory of mine
That once an ember now grows back to flame

YEARS PASSED

PART 2: Response of the Ember

Hey there, how have you been?
This is me, the ember you've kept all these years.
You look sad, forlorn even, is something wrong?
Why not share it with me, using a song?

What? You don't recall, you love these things
I always hear you do it that way, just stay
Listen for a while to the thoughts that I should tell you
A calming respite because you need it too.

Do you still remember the peace you once lost?
It has been a while, I recall the sadness you felt
However, look how far you have come!
Stand up, there are more good things in this journey ahead.

Have you already felt again, the love long gone?
Oh, sorry, must have struck the wrong nerve there
But know that I understand your sorrow, I understand your pain
You'll find a partner, who'll love you the same as I do

Do you still dream about the future?
You still have a long adventure ahead of you.
Sure, it might not be as fun as you wish it is
But, let's just paint it as we see fit

Tell me you still remember the happiness that you recall
The true joy that you felt when your innocence was there
If you held even to a small sliver of it
I am sure you can push through

Hold me, keep me alive! In my own way, I'll keep you warm until you find your light!

You still feel winter in this world, but we'll push through
You still feel sadness in your heart, but we'll overcome it
You still feel like you've been dealt a bad hand, but we're still fighting
You still have me, the ember you've kept, the sanity you have, the hope you've carried

And I know one thing

We'll find solace, then I'll burn brighter
When that day comes, let's find happiness together

PART 3: EMBERS TO HAILSTONES

Freezing trees signify the dormant cycle
But will it always show the coldest air?
Does the trees not sprout fresh new fruit?
How will something grow from the tempestous breeze of winter?

I had always dream of a festive spring
I had always imagine all the joy that it would bring
Seeing life spring forth, makes the weather worthy
How I wish it would be the case.

But the chilly wind will be my companion
As I try to trudge in the snowy pathway I take
I bit my lip as frostbite starts to take over
I miss the warmth of the my embers I've stored before

But maybe I should not be afraid of the cold, dark gaze of winter
If it signifies the dormancy of the world, maybe I should let myself deep into it.
Puncture my core, crystalize my blood, Turn my essence into ice
Let me consume the cold so I could be brave the path that I tread.

I am sorry, my little ember, but I too shall fall into the abyss
If I take the path that I am in, then it should take me further than what I see
If all I am destined right now is frigid and shivery sensation
Then burn my dread as I become someone new.

In which, I won't be loved by you.