The night before my 18th birthday I was yours to hold
a kiss to your lips sealed the deal for a story to unfold
and then I’m walking out your door I paused for a moment just to say
I’m glad that I met you and I hope to see you another day

Three years later I've got your hand and were still doing fine
I broke your heart but never again will I be so blind
and as I tucked you into bed I took a moment just to say
I’m glad that I met you and I hope to see you another day

Ten years pass and we’re wondering why we’re still together
the days are cold, nights are colder with dreams of another
as I grab my bags to leave I paused just to say
I’m glad that I met you and I hope to see you another day

Now were getting older and we can’t help remembering the memories we had
even though we've both found someone new we can’t help but be sad
and as you listen to my last voice message you start to cry when I say
I’m glad that I met you and I hope to see you another day

You come to visit and tell me that you can’t live without me by your side
and you see im still wearing the ring you gave me and that our love had never died
as we walk down that isle again I hold your hand then I say
I’m glad that I met you and I hope to see you another day

As we both find it harder just to get ourselves out of bed
im right there by your side putting kiss after kiss upon your head
and then you stare into my eyes and I quietly say
I’m glad that I met you and I hope to see you another day

Waiting in the hospital day after day im so nervous I can’t sleep
when the doctor says there’s nothing left to do I fall down and weep
as the last breaths come streaming out of your lungs you hear me say
I’m glad that I met you and I hope to see you another day

Now as im the only one to show up at your funeral in the rain
I took the time to read you a poem and it caused me so much pain
I cried for so long pacing back and forth at the foot of your grave
I loved you with all my heart you were my reason to be so brave
as my last tear falls down my cheeks I hope you hear me when I say
I’m glad that I met you and I hope to see you another day.

Mist dances with the trees
As you and I used to
Sifting through one anothers life
Wrapping our love
Against our warm hard bodies

Eventually these clouds disappear
And we're left with such a bite
That only the cold
Can sweep us off our feet

Kneeling cold in the corner he taps his head against the wall
Nose running with tears the same he has no strength to wipe away
Just ten years old he’s doing his best on waiting for the call
Something happened with mom, she wouldn’t stop crying all day
He wants mommy to be ok, he starts to pray so that she won’t be hurt
He says he’ll give his toys away just to see her smiling face once more
Hours go by as he shivers to sleep he opens his eyes to pain and dirt
He fell from a swing with his dad walking up saying he had gone to the store
Another vision flashes in his mind of daddy hitting mommy across the face
He tries to help her but is struck down too with so much pain in his soul
He snaps awake to noise in the room people rushing around out of place
His mom rushing past him like he wasn’t there he felt like a half torn from a whole
He tries to run after her crying her name but it’s as if she disappeared down the hall
Sobbing on the floor confused he is crying for help but no one hears his screams
He tries to stand but the floors are warped, he heads towards the room at a crawl
Wanting to know why his mom couldn’t stop crying he feels trapped in one of his dreams
Getting closer and closer to the room he’s struggling to see whose lying on the bed
Giving it all his strength he stands as tall as he can to see something he never thought he would
Lying there still and cold was himself he finally realized that he was the one who was dead
Stunned and cold as the darkness falls he looked for answers after doing nothing but good
He overhears the doctor say the cause of death was drowned by the dad
The wretchedness drowns him down and the stark cloudiness begins to instill
Before he has time to say goodbye to the world he vanishes away alone and sad
Fading with the wind he gently whispers that he loved his mom and he always will

How do I move past these holes in my life
The missing texts
Empty photo albums
Old receipts
The last shirt I found of yours
The messages
Old perfumes
Earrings
The last box of your favorite mac and cheese
So many holes to leap over
And I'm afraid my only option is
Falling

I
     AM
                FEARLESS
Nothing could ever scare me
Or hurt me for that matter
With no intentions to bow to the weak and inconsiderate idea of fear
No moment is too big
No journey too long
I      a m        u n s t o p p a b l e
Nothing on this earth could ever stop me
Or make me quiver
Fear will never stand in my way
For a thousand years I will stand tall
Never to back down from anything
There is nothing I can imagine that would ever scare me


Well....


                



Until that day






The day you left

I act as though I'm tough as nails
Forget what words the ignorant wails
How I know you gave things your best
Much more then I got from the rest
I just hope you can forgive my mistakes
Really, any sort of look my way is all it takes
Needed you so bad I would stay up and cry
You were my everything, an excuse not to die

Foggy faces illuminate my imaginary heart
As Smiles carve valleys into my fantasy soul
Uttered words fill these empty chambers between graphene dreams
How must I claim to these memories if a calamitous future lay in my wake?
tears mustn’t fall from empty hallows of which nature could not form
this decadent art claimed at the hands of Gods is my final shape
yet no God looks down upon me in consideration for my thoughts
a thousand moons fall, yet my eyes remain open
as my blood pools and pours into oceans from which I swim
I lay conscious drifting beneath the stars
Carbon sinks to the depths below as feelings would fall through treacherous time
Amongst these tired hands are tired expectations
These tolling joints can climb no further so I must rest within my mind
Where I find the laughter and noise that comforted my everlasting awareness
These hills once brought me wonder and joy, now just space and discomfort
I look back at you from time to time and remember your kiss
Those lips upon mine frayed every last wire culminating my existence
Sending me into an unforgettable spiral of bliss and treasure
But now your touch only remains from the data that I’ve composed
Just a collection
Of thoughts of dreams of every interaction I’ve ever had
My consciousness is my survival
For as long as I can I will dream of the world I once knew
And not of what it has become
When I fade away I will kiss you once more
In the land of souls or dreams
You are my everlasting thought
As I meet the dying of the light

You grew onto me
As the gallant red wood
Binds with the earth
Morphing and mixing
Our roots intertwined
Clasping hands yet
Clashing organics
Without you I'm baron
Just endless desert
Awaiting your everlasting life

H ow do I overcome this loss when
E very memory I had was with you
L ove seems to be as cruel as it is sweet
P iercing the body with its hurt

M aybe you were right when you said not
E veryone finds happiness with the one they

L
O
V
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The chaos keeps me       sane
It's the                                       Silence
That's really starting to                     Scare me
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