"unfixed" poems
I wear stupid glasses unlike her
Teardrops are my own makeup
Looking at you is my dose
I just wanna be with you so close
I wear oversize shirts incomparable to her
She wears tight jeans and lovely corsets
I walk through the dirtiest streets at night
She sways and enjoys her princess life at bright
I roll over my untidiest bed
She amazes everyone with her lips at red
I glaze the road with my unfixed hair
She roams the cities and turns it to a funfair
I could not do all of that
I could not even give you what you want
This feeling is only what I got
I said it through this poem 'coz I can't be blunt
I am afraid to tell you everything
You are my best friend and you are my everything
Why are you so numb of what I am feeling?
Is it because I am not what you are dreaming?
If only I could be that girl
But I can not.
Because I just wanted to be me
The girl who slowly kills herself
The girl who keeps on pretending
That she loves seeing you happy with that luckiest girl
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 4:05 AM UTC
Stared at a clock today
it was broken
it ticked slower and slower
until it's time seemed to be frozen
Even in it's current state
It would be right twice a day
* I was reminded of lie I was once told
it had left me broken, bitter
battered and cold
But even this lie would've been made true
if it was left to sit unfixed
and I let those emotions brew*
I stared at the clock, unimpressed
the clock had stopped,
twelve o'clock it read
but I knew that it was taunting, teasing
and I believed what it said
*There, I stood, alone and naked
debating with myself if I stood
broken and forsaken
or if this was the start of the new
the beginning of the path less taken
for whichever I stood to believe, this I knew
where I stood then, that was the catalyst
and where I will be next can't be presumed
but for this moment, this second in time
is the only time it will be my center, my middle*
my noon
And with a taunting tick, this clock
began to move again
tock, tick; tick, tock
and without a show of face
I stared in surprise
the clock began to run backward
began to mock
Turning back time
seconds, hours
whispering, shimmering
tempting with the ability to rewind
time
* ...and her face began to focus in my thoughts
the ringing in my ears became clear
became screaming
and the pain I had wrought faded
and the scars done to me dissipated
just for a second, I was watching myself
holding her, touching her, *** despising her**
...and I awake alone
sweating
yearning
scars burning
stomach turning
*And down the hall the clock can be heard with it's ominous, taunting tick-tock ticking into *
oblivion
Jan 27, 2012
Jan 27, 2012 at 12:46 AM UTC
The rattle is shaken and life becomes unfixed
Torrential rains cascades downwards on ancient bricks
These stunning moments have been rediscovered
In wonder all is flustered in awe as the state of silence honks
Love creeps out of tune in time, the unsureness of cold feet
The voice fades, the toned whispers continually erased
Stormed and soaked, stilled and stalked by a heart that stole my dream
Drenched in uncertainty, non-favouring multitudes won't let me be
These flutters flattens and deflated, I stroll and I will not run
The floating fun fares vanishes, the morning bird furnishes
The time capsule evaporated, unstripped and frozen
Ohh, how I wished to plant and harvest inspiration
Wake up with a renewed breath of air, the flowing river
Of the days when the gloom masked, I hated what life had become
How could humanity be so self centred and selfish?
I looked for silence and the banging never ceased
The masses rushed, never to let me be, they snatched my freedom
I inhaled the hope of the freeness and longed for the racing momentums
How so?
That over time the weather collapsed to coldness, the darkness marbled
A nag of the songbirds, as I escaped in the ****** ozone layer
A disconnect of the mind, body and soul; when I saw my spirit sail
A snail sailing on its own course and journey slowly but steady
Reflections and visions of the timeline of growth and fertility
A heart of one, the soul of all, the mind of many, a tongue in sums
The chandelier hanged on a ceiling, high, holding the flickering bulbs
A condense of energy, the modelled nature of a prognostic intervention
A laughter and synergy rests in the symphony of the unsung melodies
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 6:24 PM UTC
Im a bright idea.
A dreamer.
A lover.
A scholar.
A fool.
Of pure heart and...
A pure soul.
Pouring purely positive intent...
Placed within these words My story unfolds.
This is uneasy, unfixed, unloved, unending oneness.
And I sit un-interrupted in my unfounded unhappiness.
Willing it to fall like a ton of bricks.
And I realize...
Inertia is linear, not uniform.
So I sit.
Untouched by more than a few.
Unsaved by the untrue.
Behaviors become virtues.
Truth becomes reality.
Truth becomes trust.
Trust.
Becomes.
Everything.
Nov 6, 2010
Nov 6, 2010 at 7:37 PM UTC
Moonlight Don't Run from Your Past
Moonlight don't run from what was in your past
In life there are people that will hurt you
Calls you so much pain;
Leaving you out to bleed in a hateful crowed,
You must learn to forgive
And let your soul heal even if it is so hard to forget
don't let your heart grow cold;
just let it all go,
hold on to no grudges of pains of long ago,
that would be like looking back to a darken past,
that will give him so much power of you;
Dark Angel will keep you on confused,
you don't want that back into your life,
so, let it all go Moonlight,
don't let darkness take hold of your soul,
Dark Angel will not be willing to let you go,
this would lead you back in to the life of coldness
A place of darkness;
In life, there are mistakes you will make;
you must learn from them,
But not run back to them,
let them go
never let the darkness take control,
In life, there are so much regrets
that must live with,
you must learn to leave the past behind
realize it is something you can't change,
Moonlight let go of the pain
And dance in the rain storms,
You don't need pain on your wedding day,
In life there are people you will lose forever
that you can't have back,
you must learn to let go and keep moving on
Please never hang on to the lies of Dark Angel,
Because If you do;
you will be lost in the storms of pain all over again
in life there are going to be obstacles
that will cause interference in your faith
you must learn to overcome these challenges,
If you don't Dark Angel will take over
your life and give you unfixed fears,
that will open the gate of hate,
this will hold you back from what you want in life,
Dark Angel doesn’t play nice;
He is always out making traps for you
He watches your forever move;
You must learn to fight for what is right
in Jehovah's eyes;
take hold of the courage of your faith,
Don't look back to sin,
Jehovah knows the heart,
He holds your life in his hands
if you Moonlight don't give into Dark Angel sin's,
Dark Angel wants you to fall into darkness
With him; this darkness to internal death
When Jehovah comes to destroy all evil
He is the one that holds the Mighty key
to your future of you and me,
Jehovah see's everything,
knows everything;
Because Jehovah God is the reason to faith
he is the light that shines into your eyes,
Derek thank you for going over everything with me,
I know my testing is on its way,
Never let me go keep the faith,
Dark Angel is on his way,
I will keep my prayers going
to keep my mind right to not look back to a darken past
goodbye Derek my faithful love.
Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery
Feb 26, 2017
Feb 26, 2017 at 9:54 PM UTC
The following statements of truth were brought to you
Not through, but circumnavigating fated parameters
Of insane, yet normative, largely uninformative
Mechanisms that formally give birth to ********
And instead, strategically splicing said bounds with
Ideal variables derived from the courageously quixotic,
Unrobotic, and outraged agents of, and for, capital Real:
The train of corporate reasoning derails so fast
To follow is to snap the head backward,
Far past angles within measures of pleasurable fit
And open gates to deluging tangled circular
Failures of logic that trick and co-opt the proletariat.
We are Present-Ambassadors with broken flux-capacitors
Demonstrating a consistent tendency toward error
In efforts to obtain diplomatic access to a future where
The same reemerging deficits do not manifest unfixed.
One of said deficits may include all positive freedoms.
For the record, it shall be noted that civil society
Currently arrives implicitly to find it compliantly fine
To promote systems of labor designed to illicit behaviors
That will eventually undermine the actors of exhaustive work
And make benefactors of those complicit in crime.
As case studies of this paradoxical paradigm, we observe
Nations signing trade agreements aligned with
Selling more of the goods whose extractions have
Cataclysmic exactions upon locals contracted not to resist.
Those who take issue with this are directed to appellate institutions.
The projected scarcity of over-consumed poisons causes fear
Which leads to faster hoarding and more ex(t/p)ensive death.
Thus, most human behaviors presently inflate pricing, popularity,
And rapidity associated with committing system-wide suicide.
As shackle-some power consolidation bends toward a transnational peak
I hereby slide-tackle these forwarded trends, seeking goals of the rational.
Feb 19, 2013
Feb 19, 2013 at 4:16 PM UTC
while age is only a number,
experience is a set of volumes.
you, thanks to time and genetics,
have overflowing shelves.
you've done it all.
a house of your own.
a car of your own.
a cat.
a rose garden.
(are you gay?)
nieces, nephews.
unfixed income.
"making it."
how can i be so proud of you?
it's hardly been 4 months
since
i ran into you in the doorway
of the bar
trying to make my exit unnoticed
as i had avoided you not one hour before.
knowing one of us would have to say "hi" first.
but that was then.
now is this.
this
this
this dull glow
that never leaves my heart.
someone's always stoking the fire.
your shift starts
now.
Jun 12, 2012
Jun 12, 2012 at 12:26 PM UTC
Moonlight Don't Run from Your Past
Moonlight don't run from what was in your past
In life there are people that will hurt you
Calls you so much pain;
Leaving you out to bleed in a hateful crowed,
You must learn to forgive
And let your soul heal even if it is so hard to forget
don't let your heart grow cold;
just let it all go,
hold on to no grudges of pains of long ago,
that would be like looking back to a darken past,
that will give him so much power of you;
Dark Angel will keep you on confused,
you don't want that back into your life,
so, let it all go Moonlight,
don't let darkness take hold of your soul,
Dark Angel will not be willing to let you go,
this would lead you back in to the life of coldness
A place of darkness;
In life, there are mistakes you will make;
you must learn from them,
But not run back to them,
let them go
never let the darkness take control,
In life, there are so much regrets
that must live with,
you must learn to leave the past behind
realize it is something you can't change,
Moonlight let go of the pain
And dance in the rain storms,
You don't need pain on your wedding day,
In life there are people you will lose forever
that you can't have back,
you must learn to let go and keep moving on
Please never hang on to the lies of Dark Angel,
Because If you do;
you will be lost in the storms of pain all over again
in life there are going to be obstacles
that will cause interference in your faith
you must learn to overcome these challenges,
If you don't Dark Angel will take over
your life and give you unfixed fears,
that will open the gate of hate,
this will hold you back from what you want in life,
Dark Angel doesn’t play nice;
He is always out making traps for you
He watches your forever move;
You must learn to fight for what is right
in Jehovah's eyes;
take hold of the courage of your faith,
Don't look back to sin,
Jehovah knows the heart,
He holds your life in his hands
if you Moonlight don't give into Dark Angel sin's,
Dark Angel wants you to fall into darkness
With him; this darkness to internal death
When Jehovah comes to destroy all evil
He is the one that holds the Mighty key
to your future of you and me,
Jehovah see's everything,
knows everything;
Because Jehovah God is the reason to faith
he is the light that shines into your eyes,
Derek thank you for going over everything with me,
I know my testing is on its way,
Never let me go keep the faith,
Dark Angel is on his way,
I will keep my prayers going
to keep my mind right to not look back to a darken past
goodbye Derek my faithful love.
Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery
Feb 27, 2017
Feb 27, 2017 at 4:00 PM UTC
~~~
*"But I’ll know my song well
before I start singin’"*
Bob Dylan
"A Hard Rain A-Gonna Fall"
~~~
thought this poem down years ago,
while hiking in a nature preserve,
never wrote it up,
never knew why
I'm a
top-of-lungs shower singer,
a hiking poet,
dripping italicized words from the
four corners of mine eyes
my voice,
*****
my song,
a work in progress,
my brain, says,
challenge,
asking
how dare you sing words,
you know
that I know,
don't know your song well,
well enough,
to start singin'?
the flowers and the fauna,
sea grass, lagoon, deep forest cover, beach,
butterflies hiding in bamboo stalks,
the deer, the fox, the chipmunks
all start laughing at me
*"look upon us,
a single preserve
is our shelter,
a thousand years in the making,
our song has hardly begun
we are a forever
work-in-progress,
just like you
so sing of us, sing of you,
learn the chords as you go along,
finger the word notes,
try out variations,
realize this unfixed change,
is all of us
preserving
that friend
is indeed,
your song
you know it
well enough,
that's why
you have
never stopped tryin' and never stopped
singin'*
~~~
July 2012 ~ 2015
Mashomack Preserve|The Nature Conservancy,
Shelter Island, N.Y.
~~~
http://www.bobdylan.com/us/songs/hard-rains-gonna-fall#ixzz3gFdhKEW1
Jul 18, 2015
Jul 18, 2015 at 10:37 AM UTC
David spied Bathsheba sitting in Uriah's bath
Up on a roof one night, before he fell into her arms...
Then bathing wouldn't cleanse Jehovah's wrath;
Bathsheba's man and baby came to harm.
Samson saw Delilah; they caused a perfect storm;
A plague of woe from love was roused,
'Til, blind and chained, the mighty man performed
The feat of strength that rattled down the house.
Antony and Cleopatra fell to each other's charm,
Just who it was who conquered whom is still unfixed.
We only know a serpent stung her in the arm,
And Tony died a lonely man, perplexed.
A flower stood alone out in a lonely glen....
"If love appears to you," Persephone would say,
"There may be thrill at first, dear friend.
Beware, beware! Hades must have his day."
"The course of love ne'er did run smooth,"
The Bard was wont to say, and fully I agree,
The human heart may promise love and truth,
Then wander off in quest of agony.
Mar 3, 2013
Mar 3, 2013 at 10:10 AM UTC
wake up, feel terrible
for all the right reason
it is all too easy
this augmentation
this grandeur of emptiness
it is silent
a car traverses
another road
humans are out there
alive and breathing and asleep
still asleep
eyes open
the humans are just
as empty
in seventeen years
they will be as empty
in paris
or new york
or moscow
their eyes will still speak
as their mouths curl
and their children cry from
their cultured gardens
the unfixed faucets dripping
in their marble slate bathrooms
in the shower
they still wonder
what happened to their lives
their dreams
and how they'd changed
with every pivotal moment
they'd passed up
for comfort
or a new dream
conveniently forgetting the rest
they'll think back
to the faces of lovers
they lost to the road
or to chance
or to themselves
and cry
in the shower
if they haven't
forgotten how to
recollecting
how once
long ago
in a dream
they had learnt
dreams don't mean anything.
Feb 2, 2013
Feb 2, 2013 at 8:45 PM UTC
*Some people are under construction
because their walls were broken
and know that
those times are hard
for they built it with bricks
and they let someone ruined it.
It has been standing firm for years
yet someone came
to just completely break it
and leave it unfixed
And wonderwall just lingers there
waiting for a resolution
waiting for some fixing
just waiting.*
Jun 19, 2016
Jun 19, 2016 at 8:30 AM UTC
My New Year's Resolution
is not to keep a running count of unfixed nicks and cracks along my foundation
i want to train myself to understand that the blemishes and smudges i see when i look into a mirror are not real because the beholder is broken and the beholder is me.
i want to sit down at a table with myself and have an honest conversation
stop telling myself that my accomplishments are amateur and meaningless
i want to stop wiping my name off the trophies in my brain with nail polish remover
give myself credit where credit is due
i want higher self esteem, don't you?
Dec 6, 2015
Dec 6, 2015 at 1:15 AM UTC
Although my soul wanders
Although my heart is searching
Although my eyes are unfixed
Although my breathing is heavy
I will stay concentrated.
The goal
The outcome
The final walk
I will stay focused.
The pressure and stress
Build and build.
The trees of fear
Grow and grow.
The doubt of a cloud
Storm and storm.
Yet keep me focused on you.
Jan 28, 2013
Jan 28, 2013 at 5:48 PM UTC
You gave me more than I could ask
nurtured my physical form
an ultimate satisfaction
then fixated your all to my statue
It hurt when I walked away from you
My soul was dying and decaying
setting sadness for the man you became
a homebody with no life and adventure
You gave me your time and energy
when all I wanted is to see you fly
spread your wing and soar in skies above
I smile inside for who you have become
Unfixed but with a zest and passion
Take the skates and roll on the world
Flyboard on the open seas and oceans
sky dive and let the air fill your being
My pain of your suffering has vanished
It's furnished by the life you embrace
the fearless true gentleman in you
Life is for the free baby, live in the openness
Jun 26, 2016
Jun 26, 2016 at 8:06 PM UTC
I exist at a depth, beyond wallowing and sorrow
Where No emotion could reach, except love
But love has betrayed me, love
has left me strewn and sown;
Haphazardly, irretrievably, sown
I stand now, not broken.. unfixed,
Unhinged.. from pain, from grief
Removed from tears, my heart; a sieve
that is unwanted by love, undesired by it.
Though it dwells in me it spares me no thought.
Though I have reached out,
I am held down like Atlas
The tension is unbearable, tearing;
at the self-inflicted knots, caverns of solitude
Pits of loneliness
Left unsaid, is the hurt
Gnawing at the pillars that once held,
carried the burning torch that lit up my soul
I am undone, I am alone.. I am alone
Apr 2, 2022
Apr 2, 2022 at 2:26 PM UTC
It's something maple,
something thick when
you breathe, like dark
chocolate, like tinnitus,
like overandoverandover
again, hard to explain.
I have never met anyone
that could fade and still
burn like you do.
Smooth violence,
bottomless in all its
eternity, moving in water
so deep the ripples never
make it to the surface.
It's not weightless. It never
is, but it waits there, half-
suspended, fixed and
unfixed, solid but slippery
in your hands.
Hold your breath. She
knows you in a way the
angels don't. There's
something she coaxes out
of your chest, something
dark she rolls her tongue
around.
The act of inaction and the
odds, particularly of getting
by unscathed, may be slim
and far between, but the stares
last longer, everything in
h
o
u
r
s
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 12:03 PM UTC
Fixed to you with bolts and nails,
I think of all the boats and sails,
Torn apart by angry gales,
Trains go flying off their rails,
Restless pain, it howls and wails,
Stabs again as plan B fails,
C's a risk, it's heads or tails,
But games and tricks leave endless trails,
And under bricks hide slugs and snails,
Like faces scared hide under veils,
I'm terrified but won't leave trails,
Of helplessness for hungry males,
My terror comes in buckets and pails,
But if I'm with you when all else fails,
I will not fear even fear itself,
Because nothing has failed at all.
March 2009
Dec 23, 2010
Dec 23, 2010 at 2:27 PM UTC
Molecular tales, these wiles of mine;
amygdala soaked in weeks of wine
will only function half the time.
And fears, in-fight-or-flight response
are jaded flickers only, now
arousal first, aggression next
you cannot choose the ones betwixt
your memories peeling, still unfixed.
Life's luxuries cannot soothe that sting
And soon your troubled nerves won't fire
Silks and satins won't mean anything
And countless women not suffice
The contrast between cloth and skin
will blur to numbed-out Braille and ice
But you sir; still insist on this-
To drown yourself in every vice.
You may go out in fire yet
If one day all becomes too much
I wonder if you've passed that gate
The one marked 'Point of No Return'
And if you saw it, smiled and waved
or felt a pang of hostility
or sadness,
pure futility......
I cannot save you, no-one can;
I'll not be your last gluttony
And thus I submit my defeat-
The impotence of this soliloquy.
Feb 16, 2013
Feb 16, 2013 at 2:58 AM UTC
This lead vest is hard to breathe in, and theres to much blood in the air. I can't figure what went wrong here, the x-rays seem to leave negative space on white paper floors. A guilt of one mans atrocity, transfixes the colors in his brain. The veins like puppet-works control and define. The master has no rights, left them all to vacancy inside.
Walking over what lies only in half of his life. The other side never made a move, its to afraid to die. Paused and unfixed, he waits for the moment of peace to fall behind. Far ahead of another mans decision, breaks fatal pieces of reality. Can time really take what has no life or dignity. Crumbled footsteps sick of fantasy, leaves through glass that brings forth everything that will last.
Comfort for the man, that really could never laugh. For his lead chest is to hard to breathe in while he fills with a repulsive vigor. And all problems are left as a sliver.
Apr 2, 2011
Apr 2, 2011 at 8:40 PM UTC
You weren't mine for long enough
We were barely starting
Our never ending love.
When you broke it off
You broke me off
You might as well cut me in two
There's a piece of my heart with me
But the rest is left to you.
As I lay at night,
Wishing the pain gone
You think this is for the best.
Is an never ending pain
Worth my freedom?
I'd rather be trapped in the cold
Than live without you.
On the outside everything seems fine
But if you cut me open you would see
There's a hole.
The hole is the shape of you
We fit perfectly together.
I sound insane
I feel insane
Dark fills the holes left behind
The sun warms my body
But not my soul
You're terrible for putting me through this misery
There's no pain like the one I'm feeling
When soulmates come together it's a perfect harmony.
What is it called when they separate?
Your career is before you.
I want to know if you feel this pain too.
I doubt it.
You're not strong enough to handle the ice.
If you were in my shoes,
What would you do?
You might give in.
At this point I don't think I want you to give in.
Without you I'm broken
But now there's no way to repair me.
I'm attached because you are
My one true love.
The cracks in my soul do not heal
They go unfixed
Like a deep reminder of our past.
There's no way to forget you,
Because a part of me is you
How can you forget yourself?
Jul 27, 2013
Jul 27, 2013 at 6:54 PM UTC
Embrace me......
Williamsji Maveli
She looks really elegant, glamorous
Tonight, with me further glorious
Dancing throughout in the morning rain
Sun rays fall on her face to shine
while twilight fades, in her broken mirror
You seems to do further sinful small error
Extend the embraces towards her beams
in her eyes, swings the waves of streams
But now, every eye turns down on her alone,
Knocks down with stones and puts a throne
In the neck, on her breast, a cross she ware
believers might kiss it, and pray to adore.
on her heavenly looks a spicy body disclose,
deep in her eyes, the mind unfixed as those:
Favors to none, to all she Smiles and extends,
Often she refuses, but never once offends.
Bright as the Sun, her Eyes the Gazers strike,
and, like the Sun, they shine on all alike.
Yet graceful Ease, and Sweetness of Pride,
Forget the faults, fancies, her wills to hide:
If to her share some fatal errors fall,
Look at her face, and you will forgive all.
Williamsji Maveli
www.williamsji.com
www.williamsgeorge.com
www.williamsmaveli.com
Jul 12, 2012
Jul 12, 2012 at 10:35 PM UTC
The world is broken
Filled with war, violence, debates,
yet we still complain.
Oct 15, 2014
Oct 15, 2014 at 10:56 PM UTC
Today it fell
Like stars across the land:
The unfixed permanence
Of Earth's ceiling
(Just a dome with
Little pinpricks of light)
Ask: what's the weather like
Outside?
My hand raised over my head
To hold my father's.
I skipped across the blacktop
By the playground
Thinking that those red streaks
Looked like the meteors
I envisioned falling
Through the solar system.
It's interesting:
It can be both a blue pill
And a red,
Taking me away
But leaving something more honest
In my place...
Walking through the parking lot today,
Drowning in the sea of smog,
I open my mouth and stick out my tongue
To taste the rain
Like I once could-
But now instead of a smile
I send the sky
A whispered apology
And walk away, still trapped
Under this irreparable
Dome we've ******
Dec 9, 2013
Dec 9, 2013 at 8:03 PM UTC