"finnaly" poems
football is fun football is great,
pads and pants geting ready,
for the big game,waiting ,thinking
finnaly time for the game,
cheerleaders cheering,fans screaming,
kickoff is hear now as he kicks it,
its in the air, i tackel him to the groud
we start on defense maby will win we will try
Oct 10, 2010
Oct 10, 2010 at 1:18 PM UTC
He is sitting there across the way,
walks up to her thinking but has nothing to say.
She is the most beautiful girl he has ever seen.
would she be like the others, would she be mean?
She glances up with the most beautiful eyes,
as he turns around he started to cry.
suddenly a hand grabbed his wrist,
the story now has a twist.
"Please come sit with me, there's room for another"
he's never loved any girl besides his mother.
he sits down nervous , yet tame
finnaly speaks "can I please have your name?"
he drinks his coffee as he stares across the room.
the daydream he had will be real soon.
she gives him a smile as he looks at the door,
He gets up and says "don't look so alone anymore"
They sit down and laugh all through breakfast.
two soul mates together at last.
If it wasn't for that coffee shop one day ,
never would they ever feel that way.
Oct 7, 2014
Oct 7, 2014 at 10:54 AM UTC
Yell a little louder, I dare you
Your heart is a megaphone set to loud let it bleat its message
to the crows and crowds alike
Your mind is a violin, sitting like porcelain in a satin palace
Singing a somber tone to its audience of no one,
so alone.
Your spirit is a caged stalion
ready to rare, flash its teeth, grip its hind legs and stare
But in my arms you are a puppet
so warm and soft
I have trouble believing how much you must cost
because the wears you fetch and sell have amassed no fortune
and the hearts you keep in jars have long since stopped beating
move on with me,
skip town, come dance around
free as yetis,
and just as likely to exist,
my presence unkown to you now
will be the dowry on which our lives will finnally start
And in your eyes, I might finnaly exist
May 10, 2015
May 10, 2015 at 9:26 PM UTC
Why do I even bother ?
Oh this is not a poem to sway you with romantic words, no infact i probably won’t share this with whom it belongs.
No more an apology, and reallity check for me!
Oh but that be said without malice for you!
Rather all I do is ***** things up!
Even though I’d try my heart to make sure to get it right with every intention to make your day!
I’d get it wrong I don’t even truly know where I went wrong!
But somehow hurt you i did!
Thats more painfully riviting ro my core far more than you pushing me away!
Many words come to mind from pathetic, useless, idiotic. Waste of human space, and many more, sad to describe anyone as this sadder realising this of oneself!
Should have got right the first time and save everyone the waste of time!
Have had to get my head around not doing anything they call stupid for so long, i honestly strugle to find a reason to carry on! For what? Why?
And mostly cant say it would stupid, no be thei ly thing i can think would make sense!
To hurt the one i love no matter what i do ill ***** it up!
Hurting you is an unbearable thought!
How could i live with myself?
Cant see how i can get rhrough that
Let alone this pain!
You mean so much to me!
Ive said is take a bullet for you! (Die for you)
But would rather live for you !
Now if you not there?
Cant see much hope at all !
No where! All rhe general reasons everyone would usually morivate you with, would hold so little weight!
This pain be out of this world i try but cant expain this be of magnitudes earthquakes couldnt measure on the same scale!
And somehow i try find that reason in fear of hurting other loved ones!
Somehow i rather find hope!
Not the hope youd think though!
Oh no this is hope that my loved ones (famil) will understand this pain and somehow forgive me for my intention be not to hurt them, but to find ease finnaly!
Comfort knowing id be not the reson orhers will hurt tomorrow!
Yes dark and dismal thoughts!
Or are they?
Are they not in other ways considerate?
Oh oh i lean to think so..
Aug 12, 2018
Aug 12, 2018 at 4:13 PM UTC
I don't think the way I used to
It's really new to say the least
False accusations, and tiring results
Where I created from my own self
Ckearvoincy, crystal clear I know where to go from here
Crystal clear, out of despair, I finnaly know what's there
I used to think so melancholy
I used to, I used to, I used to
I wasted it, putting up a barrier
Because I had the fear
The fear of having to much space
You could **** someone with just your face
Do you think to be alone is weak,weak,weak
When the pipes start to leak,
And your heart starts to creak
I dont think the way I used to
But what does it matter,
Where all living anyways
Feb 1, 2014
Feb 1, 2014 at 8:00 AM UTC
You are always there for everyone else, you sit back in the shadows to make sure that they dont fall,
You love with all your heart and you never give up on your famliy, no matter how much tyhey mess up,
You make sure they have what they want, what they need, yet you will do without what you need as long as they are happy, but its time that you come out of the shadows and finnaly get what you deserve.
All the love and respect that should come with your great gift should not just be shown on a certain day or a certain time of the year.
The only time that people show they care is when they want something from you, when they thing they are in trouble or when they are trying to cover up what they did wrong.
Most of them know you care yet do nothing for you, while some try there hardest to make you happy yet still find ways to disappoint you, to hurt you, and to make you feel unwanted.
You know they love you but sometimes you wonder if they love you just for what they think you have or what you give them, or even if they really love you at all.
Sometimes they will say it but not mean it and other times they mean it but dont say it.
They are your family who you would give anything for, but you are the one that matters all the time.
No matter how hard or not you try they will always love you and so therefore even though they may use you or even act like they dont care about you at all they really do love you and all they do for them.
This time you deserve more then they can ever give you and nothing they do will ever be enough.
They will try to make things up to you but they can never measure up to what a great person you are or the things you have done.
NO one will ever compare to you, and NO one will ever take you away.
You are always there for them and they will always be there for you no matter how old they get or how much you think they don't want you around, and also they will never forget what you have done and will do for them, even if they seem unappreciative, they will make it up to you in time.
THEY LOVE YOU VERY MUCH AND NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU UPSET.
Dec 24, 2010
Dec 24, 2010 at 8:42 AM UTC
He said she said-
.... everytime she turned around and looked at me with those glazed eyes I didn't want to let her leave. Eyes full of passion, desire, dreams. It felt like I could see the world in her eyes. She walks into my car eyes fixated on me the entire time. The sound of the car door slamming shut lets me know my fantasy has begun. It's like that dream you have over and over again, I know what happens next. I could tell by the way her mouth pounced for my upper lip that she was a dominant one. She was rough and raw and ready. A lioness among kittens she was. The other girls where simply just that, girls. When I'm with this woman though my body just responds to her every touch, to her every kiss. Its never long before one hand leads to the other, and her lips find their way around me because we have finnaly found our love again ;we complete each other. We burn in that raging fire that is love and enjoy each second of it. It's a wicked dangerous game we play but her and I walk the same path. We were opposite sides of the same spectrum making our way to each other with every touch, kiss, and **** The way she straddled me feeling those thighs clutched tight along my side, nails digging deep into the dermis of my skin. I would bite her neck and chest leaving marks all over her body and her on mine. It was always rough and always passionate, and it didn't take me long before I realized I was looking in a mirror. I had finally found someone just like me. It was enough to make any man confuse the feeling with love; and thats exactly what it was..
Mar 14, 2016
Mar 14, 2016 at 12:37 PM UTC
No good dead
I'm no good dead
Rotten meat doesn't sell well
And tainted souls less so.
So chin up boy. Soldier on ,
To long thinking this way,
And you will miss the day
You finnaly get paid
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 8:42 AM UTC
Can you please call nine one one.
Make sure they come before im gone.
Tell them my heart is slowing down.
And that my sanity is not yet found.
Hold my hand for i am cold.
Make sure my breath is in control.
Are they finnaly on their way?
I can see the light, but i will stay.
Just tell them come at their top speed,
Dont slow down for im in need.
Bring the meds and bring em fast,
every minute could be my last.
Did someone call me nine one one.
Im loosing life, but im not done.
All these faces watching me,
im on the ground and i cant breathe.
Finnaly i hear the sound,
of ambulances all around.
They lift me up and drive away,
please save my life for him today.
As i lay still upon that bed,
too much stuff runs through my head.
Death will come and all with time,
Anytime it could be mine.
Now im grateful for this life,
and ill stay here and be his wife.
They saved a life thats just begun,
thanks for dialing nine one one.
Mar 1, 2013
Mar 1, 2013 at 3:34 PM UTC
Despite all his missing teeth
And bombed out cavities
He can still eat bags of
Bricks and speak
With perfect diction.
Somedays we crave
Revolution when
He crosses the line
And we the
Comittee dream
Of removing
His authority.
but theres nothing
Left. So we press
And pull our cigarets.
and curse the birds
and talk about
Whatever *****
Our fancy.
Inside our own jokes and theraputical
Humor:
We wait for him (our boss)
While his briches swell more
And more every hour
Till his buttons burst
And his yellow fork
Lifts final suicide attempt
Becomes a sucessful send off
After to many
Years it finnaly
****** out
All the unchanged oil
And passes out in the
Mainconcorse next
To all the pigeon ****
On top of all the knick nacks
Behind customer service.
Sep 8, 2013
Sep 8, 2013 at 11:49 PM UTC
The lights suddenly glimmered,
And all the faces shone,
All the beauty appeared,
In all directions.
But there was one corner,
Where the darkness still remained,
And the shadows of people,
Hid the corner more,
And with it, a person,
Slouched against the wall,
Stood there behind the shadows,
Giving up to stay tall.
No one saw her,
But she saw everything,
The lady in the fur,
Was talking stuff about her,
She tried to reach out for the lady,
But her skin burnt,
The moment she stepped out,
Of her corner.
Wasn't ignorance enough for her?
Or does she still have to stay in the shade?
Everyone passed beside her,
But no one noticed the thin shape,
Struggling to get out,
Get out of the gloom,
She lives in.
The lights went out,
And everything reappeared,
Clearer than ever,
And they finally noticed,
The blood that smeared,
Out of her heart,
They finnaly noticed all the wounds,
But like always,
When the lights came up again,
They just turned away,
And walked back in their path.
Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 7:54 AM UTC
I fly back in forth through the darkness. I can't find a place to land.
I get tired but I know that if I land I'll never fly again.
I start to fell the darkness drag me down.
I have no control of my body and it won't let go.
I fall and fall and fall.
All the way down until I fell like should have hit the ground.
All of a sudden I see a light.
It drags me down and I realise, it's not that I'm falling.
It's that I was flying higher, and higher.
Until I finally break through.
And I finnaly saw the world on the other side.
what I saw was a world sorounded by ignorance and lies.
It may have been dark in the other world, but I know I would have been better off not knowing what I know now.
May 13, 2013
May 13, 2013 at 3:39 PM UTC
Ever feel like when you finnaly get smething right
you ***** up ten other things hurt 15 other people
and get so confused you lose sight of what you did right
and you feel alone in the world. You feel discontinued,
held back, and hurt.
You just want everything to go back to the way it was
but it never does.
The world is always changing
no matter if you want it to or not.
It seems when one person gets happy
other people get hurt and get neglected from there happiness.
You just want to make others happy
but you never take the time to get yourself happy
then you suffer in silence
till it just swallows you whole
and you just let it out and
people tell you to **** it up because they think they been through a whole lot more.
It hurts when you friends do this
but hurts even more when a friend who is like family says this not your actual family.
You act strong because someone has to be
and when you finally break somehow people find out and think less of you.
We all cant hold in our emotions all the time.
We break and are hurting and
people come and make you feel worse.
We want to turn back the clock and cant.
but we are forced to get over it.
Feb 7, 2012
Feb 7, 2012 at 6:17 PM UTC
Once I soared with eagles
my guardian angel by my side.
Walking tall with confidence
caused my foes to run and hide.
I chose my battles carefully;
I picked the place and time.
If any son dared cross me
I knew his *** was mine.
I remember ocassional setbacks;
times when the going got rough,
but the things that should
only helped to make me tough.
I guess I thought there was a God.
I prayed once in a while,
but I knew I didn't need his help
to go an extra mile.
I rebelled against authority;
took all the freedom I could get.
I could not allow myself to lose a fight;
my *** ain't been kicked yet.
Needing victory in every duel
became my prison cell.
As I leaned hard against the wind
my soul set sail for Hell.
I didn't know it left me;
I didn't see it stray
Fighting one last battle,
it would just get in my way.
This battle was the hardest;
it took five years to win.
Revenge and anger were my weopens;
I wore them like a grin.
When the fight was nearly over
and victory was near,
I prayed to God," return my soul"
but He didn't seem to hear.
I'd look for without Him;
this heart that I had lost.
I'd win it back all by myself
no matter what the cost.
Now standing on the pinnicle,
I fearfully looked around.
My soul would not have come up here;
it's too far from hallowed ground.
Starting back down along the path;
frought with struggle and with strife,
I found I was decending through the
wreckage of my life.
While pawing through the ashes
of the bridges I had burned,
I found the charred remains
of all the lessons I had learned.
Confused and battle weary;
I could not tell wrong from right,
but I prayed that at the freefalls end
there might be truth and light.
Now I'm lying in the smoke and fire
at the crash site of my soul
peering out through Godless eyes
as a snake peers from his hole.
I should have had some warning;
a shot across my bow
but my spirit spiraled down and down
and look where I am now.
Like a marble in a funnel,
my soul spun 'round and down.
With a lack of positive energy
it finnaly hit the ground.
Now I'm at the bottom
With no way to go but up.
God, please give me the strength to feed
my soul;
your sacred wine to fill my cup.
This was the first poem I was ever able to
right. At age 56 it came to me in a dream and I got up and wrote it down.
Dec 10, 2014
Dec 10, 2014 at 12:17 PM UTC
I love you
A little boy sits in his third grade classroom
He wonders why he hasn't any friends
He asks his mom
"Why!"
Why do they look at me like I am different
Why am I so alone
I love you
A few years later on the soccer field
A boy from the other team nocks him over
Instead of anyone helping him up
They all laugh
Even his own team.
He asks his coach the next day
Why no one helped him
Instead his coach walked away
I love you
Finnaly he graduates high school
Everyone around him is hugging and celebrating
Except the three foot radius between him and the nearest person at any time
Before he could leave though a girl walked up and hugged him
When she let go three years had gone by and she was in a beautiful white dress and the boy now a man smiled
I love you
The boy loved his wife
Every morning he called her beautiful
Every night he kissed her forhead before sleep
Even the day he got the call that his mother had unexpectedly passed away
I love you
The boy missed his mother
He he looked for her in the clouds
In the Bible
In the bottom of every bottle
I love you
Along came a day when his wife told him to stop looking and read
Three hours later she was packed and the divorce papers were signed
I love you
He cried that night
He missed his mother
He missed his wife
He looked to the sky and cried
"Father!"
Why am I alone
Please don't let this happen to me
I love you
That's all he heard
When he woke up he realized he was not alone
He had God to lead his life
You see when the boy asked his mother
"Why!"
Something special happened
That night he dreamed a life without
God
He soon learned God was always saying to him
I love you
He realized real friends aren't had
They are made threw life long experience
God placed the boy at a crossroads between
Love
And
Anything less
The boy now knew he simple had to chose love
He knew he could because
He was loved
I love you
Sep 2, 2016
Sep 2, 2016 at 10:30 PM UTC
hours to end
seconds to start
the endless thinking
brain gears spinning out of control
thoughts demanding attention
trying to sleep
it keeps you awake
causing feelings in your stomach and chest
to match the madness in your mind
dangerously debilitating
finnaly they wear you down
as you slip into comatose
your body and brain exhausted from fighting
your eyes as red as the blood on your skin
your breaths slowing as you drift away
and you sleep
but the first breath awake
from a soft sad slumber
is a jumpstart
and everything wakes up
the thoughts are running like a raging river
loathing the time they lost as you dreamt
and now you're awake
staring at the ceiling fan
nauseous from the spinning
and the reality of being awake
s.s
Jul 16, 2017
Jul 16, 2017 at 9:20 PM UTC
I need a life vest
Please put it on my chest
keep me floating above the water
Make me feel like I matter
I'm slowly drowning
reconcieled to the fate that's awaiting me
I feel my lungs shrinking
as the oxygen is leaving them
The gravity is pulling me
Deeper
Bubbles are rising from my mouth up to the surface
I'm getting coloser to the bottom of the dark blue sea
Closer to be freed of my curses that have been always tying me
Monster are living down there
maybe I've finnaly found a place where I belong
Somewhere where there's no air
Where nobody will think I'm wrong
Wave of numbness washes over my body
As I close my eyes for the last time
...
Apr 3, 2018
Apr 3, 2018 at 3:08 PM UTC
*My journey from somewhere to nowhere.
With nothing beneith my feet.
As the journey ends, within my head.
My feelings of solitude are gone from my head.
As light leads me from my destiny within.
My eyes have finnaly opened and my dreams now begin.
With my past as my guide, from my feelings within.
My heart has now taken over, as my true life begins.*
Dec 17, 2014
Dec 17, 2014 at 10:57 AM UTC
I just keep telling Me. "Its only getting better" -"3x"- when its not.
Every day i tell myself.........i will finnaly find my soul.
Such a lonly ****** up place, where the women carry mase..
Deep inside this box somewhere, i finnaly found my soul.
I dust it off, an use it up, what ealse must i do.
With a lonely ****** up soul like you, its the only thing to do.
Maybe wright these ****** up words i say. Become something more one day?
Ha what a joke i say, with a lonely soul he may, Never be nothing more they say.
just a ****** that will pay, what ever comes his way.
just another ****** up day.. why cant it go away? Because i stuck to my soul, guns an all i roll.
Blacked out, hear me laugh out. "Im just another fool."
I can Not pay myself, much less me or you. If i could, i would.
beat myself away from you. just to save you two, from the struggle that i go threw just another fail.
What more can i give an take, when i have nothing more to make? Such an angry soul i tired to give it way
Take it back or let me pay. just to give it way.
Jun 5, 2016
Jun 5, 2016 at 6:47 AM UTC
the beatuy within always reaches in , the feeling it provokes it never leaves me alone, just like stone it knows every word just like the feather flys whenever . Home at last , home at last.. finnaly being home at last , just a few little thoughts before i take off, good day good day , in the most beautiful way. Good day you have on your own way, ONE is the feeling i love best.. This life is just the most beautiful way , so much light coming our way. We found home lets stay with it.
Apr 15, 2013
Apr 15, 2013 at 11:53 PM UTC
I had a dream last night.
You were next to me
And I had to kiss you
Just because
you were too you.
You kissed me back
But then you pulled away
“Wait,”
You said,
“Wait,
I gotta tell you something.”
You went on and on about some uncle
Until you finnaly got to the point
“I love you”
and I kissed you
and you kissed me
And I pulled away
To say
“I love you too.”
And then I woke up.
My eyes flew open.
My arms reaching for you.
But you weren’t there.
No.
You never were.
Sep 28, 2018
Sep 28, 2018 at 10:44 AM UTC
For a long while I held myself together
Nobody got anything from me
My opinion was mine alone
My ideas were self contained
My words rarely left my lips
My heart most definently was locked away
One day you came along
My first mistake was telling you what I thought of you
My next was what I wanted to do
Worse yet were the three words "I love you"
It took you years to make me truly ***** up though
One day I messed it all up and finnaly delivered my whole heart to you
You gladly took it in two hands
Looked up to me and smiled
That's when you tossed it over my head
You ran and caught it
I stamped my foot and told you no
You threw it back again
I started to have fear
You tore my heart in three
Started juggling with me
I cried and pleaded no
But you wouldent let me go
Eventually you got bored
Tore my heart to confetti
And showered it on me
I feel knees to the floor
I gathered what was once at my core
I looked to God and threw what was left of my heart
What came down was whole and pure
No longer was I broken
No longer must I fear
I can live threw anything
My God is hear
Jul 28, 2016
Jul 28, 2016 at 12:09 AM UTC
In shadows of the cold dark night
There live a creature created from pure fright
It is he who walks in the night
When I stroll in the day he does not appear
Yet as midnight aproaches my body is filled with fear
I wonder as my walk gathers some speed
where is this evil creature with his unspeakable deed
When I finnaly arive at my front door and ruffle the keys
I hear in the night a sound that turns my blood cold
For I know it is he who walks in the night
Sep 11, 2020
Sep 11, 2020 at 12:20 AM UTC
My journey from,
somewhere to nowhere.
With nothing beneith my feet.
As the journey ends,
within my head.
My feelings of solitude
are gone from my head.
As light leads me
from my destiny within.
My eyes have finnaly opened
and my dreams now begin.
With my past as my guide
and my feelings within.
My heart has now taken over
as my true life begins.
Dec 13, 2014
Dec 13, 2014 at 5:43 AM UTC
a day is too short to see my best,
For I am imprisoned in a human shell,
Forced to see life in a cell of flesh,
I cannot see time like the gods of Rome, or Greece, or Christian kings
I cannot meet the sun or Apollo's greet.
So finnaly life has forced me to be just me,
without a choice, that's what I'll be,
And I apologize if there's a time I cannot see.
Nov 27, 2015
Nov 27, 2015 at 3:29 AM UTC