The most unanswered question!!
What is life, what is our purpose in life? No one has a none doubtful answer and none thinks about it, cause no one can answer it, so we avoid it like the plague...

" Like a phoenix rising from the ashes, drenched with a possibility of a new tomorrow"

As a rose lay upon a grave…
So is the beauty in death.
How do I pull my enchanted thoughts from such pleasure
As the aroma of an eternal bliss sweetens with every step…
The struggle
That of a thousand battles I daily live for.
Saved again…
Her kiss breathes new life into my empty existence.
Like the first breath of a new born child.
Bringing with it the hope of a new future
The oxygen of my being
Together living for the hope of a new tomorrow

Slowly it draws every last breath
every step  that we take
moves us closer to death
this truth we have to face
no matter what the evidence
it's an open shut case
live with no regrets
because your life you cant retrace
in this life we have a stake
live life to the fullest
no matter the odds or mistakes.

Run like there's no tomorrow
Cry only to alleviate sorrow
Live like our time is borrowed
lets not cower
take this life by the neck
imprint you are not a coward
the hurt makes us stronger
punch with everything you made of
even sorrow we devour
churn it in our soul
then spit out flowers
let your flamed courage bring forth the rain
let it descend
It's a meteor shower
let this winged words take you higher
soar above the chaos
i bet life will seem brighter
we are all born as fighters
its for us not give up
in this world
with all the power.

As I walk down this winding road
Like a walking toad
The reason I don’t jump
I’m carrying this heavy load
The nights are cold
The road is lonely,
But I will never fold
I live this life alone
They all think I’m whole
I’m broken, I’m falling
Down an endless hole
When will I reach the end
When will I be consoled,
I really don’t know
Though I just move on
Taking this road in my stride
Although it’s really slow
Trying to live life
And just let it all go
Everything’s my foe
From the crawling ant, to the flying crow
So……
This is what I live with daily
So just maybe
You get where I’m coming from
And I just don’t seem crazy
I’m detached from this world
And reality seems a bit hazy
So I put this pen to paper, In an effort…
To save me

I admit defeat
Emotions clouded as I try and speak
I call your name
it softly comes out weak
You were my everything
Then your heart wrenched deceit
This feeling I now better know it seems
My heart soared when you were mine
Now it has no beat
What happened to that promise
Forever we will be
Was it that much of a pain for you to keep
Tears drench your picture as I now weep
When will I be free, from this suffering

How I just wish you could see
How completely broken your love left me
My expectations
I guess was too hard to meet
To expect love in return
Or was that dream to sweet
Our life was perfect
Why would you do this to it
Just how quick
You forget how we were in lust
It’s making me wholeheartedly sick
You pierced my soul
Now it’s dark and cold
Please God
I beg you, to just end it all

My heart consumed by hatred
You made this, you said you loved me
To me that words was sacred
To just take my heart and break it
It’s distasteful
It’s hateful

Hate is just the start
A promise broken
A promise we’ll never part
That night
You took a piece of my heart

My heart now broken
A token
A broken soul still hoping
I’m groping
At the last meaning full memory of love shared.

Emotions a raging storm
My heart now mourns
Our futile existence
or are we just pawns
Races clashing, leaving our generations scorned
Our young ones born
In a world of hate, with no exit door
The rich stays rich
Forgetting the poor,

The world is in chaos
Race race to **** race among us
The living unjust
When could we last fully trust
Anything the media falsely feeds us,

This is the plight of my raging words
The world is cursed
And we it’s curse
The world will be saved
When humans disperse
As long as we here
Suffering gets worse
So open your minds to this global verse,

Let the truth be told
Behold
The words I whisper, is truthfully cold
The human race suffers
As we being controlled
Uncontrolled
My emotions waver
As my child’s being enrolled
Into this unforgiving…… world

Living life to aluminate this hidden mask
Is no great task
If you lost all feelings to a bitter past
My minds racing directionless and fast
Outcast
The words enters my soul
Cutting my Humanity, so cold
My heart embedded in a cast
From all the places it’s broken
Living this continued farce
The one I wear with hated pride
The one I continue to brokenly hide
I confide,
These words to you
So please don’t deny
You feel exactly the same
With your damaged pride
Living in a censored dark
I now embark,
To win this war
Amongst all art

My mind never conquered
look upon an ugly world disgusted
A human race divided, as greed’s claw’s carries our tainted hopes
Masters of death, race to **** race
Children’s suffering falls on deaf eyes as the rich get’s richer
Do we not love the same?
My heart bleeds, as the sound of chaos screeches
A world… where propaganda indoctrinate idle minds to madness
Seeking lies as truth screams to be noticed
Hatred!  
The order of the day as brothers hurt brothers
Why?
A question my moralized soul refuses to understand
Are our mother’s saddened tears not the same?
Our voices, severed by bladed puppet masters
As these armed words, flows like tears of innocent lives lost from my pen
A glimmer of hope arise, as the ink seeps into these wounded pages ....
My truth eternally captured

As a dark cloud surrounds my heart, it's tear drops fall like rain
The vision of you still lingers
Embedded in every part of my soul
your laughter rings as angels get their wings…
I reach out to only a figment of you
A raging storm of emotions floods me
My fist hits the ground with all the might of eternal despair
How?
A question my mind refuses to compute, erring as answers refuse to be questioned
Do I live with this dark hole of continued destruction?
As bright as the sun ever constant, a feeling of a love had rises from my demons conquered
The love we eternally shared…
Winged words flow through me, lifting me to new soaring highs
The cloak of eternal damnation lifted
a new world yet explored stands before me
The future, a pure oasis I can truly touch
A smile creeps across my face, as that of a new era prosperous smile backs at me
And these words echo through a ****** soul........
               I will live!!

I spew this enflamed and enraged words
weighted heavily with sorrowful regret
The vivid memory of a promise broken, shakes my reason for living
A promise that our entwined souls sealed with a kiss
A promise seeping with such illuminating purity, Angels adorned our union.
The memory slowly ripped from my unsuspecting soul as the words screamed across your bitter sweet lips.
These words that shook every fiber of my being
It lingers with a numbing sorrow, it is as  death himself pried it from your cold lips
These words….
That only the devil himself could have forged in the deepest pits of hell.
Good bye!
The eternal vow to have your craved embrace for all eternity
To have your love as my soul mate even long after this world is a forgotten memory
As I look upon this broken mirror scattered to all corners of this dreaded existence
I can see the shards of my broken heart among them
An eternal vow….Broken

Can you not see that I'm fragile
My heart you own wholeheartedly
I declared this out loud
There is no space for another
Yet
your heart has a devide
I see it hourly, if only you knew
It slowly kills me inside
I wish I could just let go
Rip open your eyes
You are the cause of my sorrow
The cause of my demise
You are slowly breaking me
If you don't feel what I feel
Let's say our good by's
I cannot be the one to leave
As your love, I still need daily to breathe
So please, I beg of you
It's just me
That I want you to see
We went through so much
I just wish I could break free
But it looks like
I'll just continue to die in this union forever......
Silently

My emotions pours into my writing
Stop fighting
Let my words consume you
You know it’s the right thing
My emotions might be dark
I promise, It comes from the heart
Let my words in and it will bring
An unclouded mind and a heart that sing
Let’s call it a summer fling
In the end
Your thoughts and emotions will be in a swing
Lifting you up, bringing you down again
Like flying on a eagles wing
Or the first scent of spring
I will even at times make you feel like a king
I’m down on one knee, and now produced the ring
Are you going to ignore this fact...
Or shall we begin.

The demons within life
i battle constantly
Exorsising them out
I need a constantine
Overun by these shadows, they always lingering
Bringing with it constant chaos
In reality so it seems
I try my hardest to overcome
they dragging me down
Im barely afloat
So does this mean that I drown
I feel them picking at flesh
But I will never ever frown
I know in my heart I will overcome
Surviving this onslaught
Until I wear the crown
the waves of chaos is constant
Overboard I get thrown
Fighting wave after wave
how apart we have grown
My smile only widens
Knowing I will never go down
If i do, I get up again
As i am not on my own
My life is sacred
And so is my kin
the only constant
With the joy that they bring
I draw from my strength
And my heart start to sing
The notes is blissfull
So It makes away with the sting
If this sounds awfull
I have to deal with the stink
the aftermath
and desease that you bring
I have to shake this feeling
Like a coctail blend
And just move forward
In this conflicting end
And truth is....
Theres nothing wrong that I did

Madness consumes the idle mind
Question everything
These words I speak is divine
Yet we follow the masses
Like we completely blind
Hoping to find
Worth in this world
Yet everything’s a lie
This is our time to shine
Break free from the stigma
It’s about time we draw the line
Our morals decline
Yet we think it’s fine
Believe me I know
These words are not benign
Take this as a sign
I managed to break free from the chains
Of this cosmic design
Questioning my motives
Will only bring us down
I don’t mean to whine
The world has declined
Look at this world truthfully
I bet you will see it…..
as I see mine

I’m truly a wordsmith with poetry and rhyme…
If you haven’t realized it by now, I guess… you must be blind.
I really don’t feel bad if you don’t like my page…..
I have a place where my poetry’s all the rage.
In his head yes!
****! .... I wasn’t even speaking to you Chris….
Who’s Chris?
Oh!... Just the voice in my head… which the last words… rhymed with…
Who thought you can actually do that with words…..
You mean, put it on a treadmill backwards… and still make it come first.
Yes it’s a skill…. I probably mentioned this before….
It’s like the words just flow…. from my third minds eye’s core.
I completely zone out….?
Yes! …Please don’t pout… I’m always on the scout ….for my scythed words to put doubt…
Or even reroute…..
Your thoughts or your feelings……
Maybe in theory…..then you’ll like these pages.
If you haven’t realized it by now…
I’m Mr Farzee…..so please just stay calm.
Maybe I should just try… and put that diff-erent-ly……
Mr Farzee… in actual fact …is just me.

Tortured soul
He walks this earth alone
Crying out to be saved
His heart has turned to stone
He’s soul now aimlessly roams
Searching for the light to his darkness
He finds that no one’s home
He put his pen to paper
His savior has become his poems
Capturing all eternal heartache, that life to him has thrown
It brought him sadness
His scarred
Which for he alone atones
For the words he captures
When he gets lost in the zone
Writing from feelings
He will never truly disown
Giving it life, No one will ever condone

As he’s pen bleeds
Inscribing heartache of a tormented soul to these pages
His heart rages
His caged demons scream’s for him to release him from their cages
His inked pen .....now becoming his soul Savior

The moon reflect your silhouette in the night sky
Why?
Are you haunting me, I feel I could cry
Heartbroken,
You left me to die
I plead, no beg of you,
please leave my mind
You still a part of me
In my soul you reside,
I can no longer cry
Someone please save me!
Why’d you leave me behind
God you should have taken me instead
In her place I would have died
Please help me!
This misplaced rage I can’t hide….


Loneliness is killing me
I can’t go on, it’s with you I should be
We for eternity, is a promise we share
Slit wrist,
Wait for me my love
I’ll be right there.

As I speed and strife, on this insanely busy highway we call life
Completely swaying wildly as I dodge their gloves
The bell rings as I swing…
He dodged it, like it was in honor of his wife
Out the corner I come, rough and ready, my legs are steady
I fell like steel, but just hot and sweaty
Swing and a miss, it looks like I just dodged his fist
Man that’s close, I feel like I should toast to this
Red wine? or White wine?
Wait! I ain’t got time for this, or I mean don’t misgis
Back to the fight….
I connect like Thors hammer and he just took flight
It’s over I think, better get a drink, to toast my might
Oh wait never mind, I think I just dropped the mike
Or the pen in this instance, trust me I just might, be high as a kite.

The sound of battle sings around me, a voice armored
Deaths favorite track drenched with hope and tearstained destinies cut short, silently plays
My name screaming across his cold lips
Do I give my soul already condemned willingly
My demons caged, rattles my spirit from an eternal slumber
Waking a memory of a blessed love waiting in cloaked fear
I stand as if the mountains themselves  has given me their roots
Her echoed love carries me forward, as fear chooses to fear
I move with the might of my comrades fallen
Courage lends me its strength
Lashing out as the hatred of the innocent lives lost fuels me
I strike with the force of demons possessed
The blood of my victory seeps from my wounded sword
Cries of a battle won rains tears of elation
Breathing underrated as death screams….
Knowing.... I chose to live.

Caught between a rock and a hard place
Feeling toxic or feelings disgraced
Home is where the heart is
Home I misplaced
Without you in it
It’s just an empty space
This void I can’t replace
You were the air that I breathe
Your kisses I still taste
Broken
You said these years was a waste
I thought we were in love
I guess that was just not the case
In my nightmares,
I still see your face

Awake in a nightmare
This is not fair
A twisted soul caught in a merry-go-round snare
A moment replaying
By now I shouldn’t care
Love lost is love lost
yet,
the battle scars we eternally wear

I try to keep my flow going
Writing in all kinds of ways
To keep this poetry flowing
Not knowing
How these words bleed from my heart
Yet in life I cannot show it
Am I broken
Or is this a chance that I’m taking
Living life through a looking glass
Through these words on these pages

This war has many faces
Armed with an army
They are ruthless and tasteless
Yet we are fated
To live life in the shadows
When we were all meant for greatness
So start taking
Life by the throat
Let it know you not faking
Make it call out your name
While it’s trembling and shaking
You have the power
So let us stop flaking
Let us march on this world
Like it’s ours for the taking

Push me over the edge again
This is war
I can hear death sing
Sharpening his scythe
But courage has given me wings
The battle cry rings
My immoral blade ready and aching to swing
If war is flirting with death
I’m down on one knee and already producing the ring
I spring
Slicing my enemies, I’m putting their souls in a sling
I’m deaths right wing
I’m changing , I’m raging
From all the blood I’m craving
I’m a warrior
Just look at all the hell I’m raising
Blazing
Through my enemies memories of them already fading
I’m a warrior
On my parade there will be no raining
Death I’m facing, I bet his shaking
This is war
So to death I’m racing

God take this pain away
these struggles are real so many i have have faced
i burdened my soul with them
it left it suited and stained
how i wish it could change
bring some some light to this darkness
and pull me out of this place
it's like a ending never race
no matter how hard i try
i just end up disgraced
i wish my pain could be felt
like the happiness on my face
this smile that i carry
i don't know, maybe it's fake
having to suffer in silence
without having to break
how much more can i take
how more can i give
will i ever be free
of hell on this earth
i believe every one feels this
at one time or another
so all i can say is
i feel you, my sister or brother
it's feeling of disdain
a feeling that's insane
it pulls at who you are
it messes with your brain
all we can do is push through it
see it as rough terrain
i am not tapping out
just taking a breather
cause there's no giving up
as long as we breathing

As your radiant beauty entices my soul to weep
The promise to love you forever I will keep
Your sensual smile it cuts me deep
Taking away all doubt and rendering me free
This union is blessed you yourself told me
I lay beside you our skin gently touching
Electricity surges through us rendering us weak
Eternally I’m yours but who’s counting
Your whispered words when you speak
Leaves my soul and being elated, emotions twisted in a heap
We’ll never part
Not today, not tomorrow, not even when our souls get reaped

Forever I will be by your side be by your side
In this life and the next my darling, to you I’ll never lie
The winged words you utter, I love you, sends me soaring to bliss
I finish my heartfelt thoughts and truly seal it with a kiss

Though the sun is shining
Around me it constantly rains
I wish I could walk on water
Just to float for a change
When the effort you strive to put in
Just get skewed and flayed
Do you give up
Do i just run from this race
This world frozen and so cold
we must icely face
fighting day in and day out
Like quicksand
We still sink in this space
is this world a disgrace
since when did our moral compass
get so magnetically displaced
wish daily i could retrace
every missed step i ever took
yet that’s just a wish i can’t make
so I have to be relentless
in this journey I take
give everything, every second
and just hope I don’t break
I can’t shout loud enough
because the air I breathe is just fake
it’s not giving me life
but a losing fight that i hate

Why do I keep on rhyming
Without even trying
It’s like these words has its own wings and just keep on flying
I get that your dying, but please just stop climbing,
This slippery ***** of hope
that leaves everyone crying
Knowing you’ll be missed as we are defining
The life left behind the conclusion
it’s subliming
Sorry! I mean sublime
there were some slime
on my pen and the word just went sliding
So back to the writing…
Where was I? Oh!  This looks exciting
Just let go and the afterlife most likely won’t even be that frightening…
Do I talk from experience
No!
Only hope that you are biting
And to ease off to the afterlife that some time seems so inviting
And all hope against hope
here’s to you dining…
with Kings.

The earth shatters
fear cloaks its hidden intent
Scattered earthly regrets, illuminates the darkened night sky
Enraged words of a mother wronged
Molten lava and promised lost destiny’s
Streams down like love lost reunited,
Into the hungry arms of enraging oceans eternally wronged
Fallen stars filled with tears crushes stabbing regrets
lost love and chosen greed
As prayer itself screams for salvation
Death hallowed grip releases the last hope of a tarnished race
The earth’s last word drenched with a fate always known
A word slowly whispered……Armageddon

I look for blue sky like the caged for freedom
Emotions of deep regret pours to poison my weak existence
How do I fight these poisonous demons
These demons caged singed to my broken past…
Is there truly solace for the weak
My battles scars screaming my name from my subconscious mind
Bleeding from my dreams….
Am I truly free or will the curse of friends lost befriend my shadow for eternity
Have I not given enough
These darken thoughts a constant reminder of who I truly am…
I am…
I fought with a scythed blade forged with the love of family
Like the shining light of ten thousand fire flies your smile lifted me from me
You… are my guiding hand from this bottomless existence
With every breath I take,
I pledge to you my past and present lives
You are my savior….my eternal love
My salvation

Her smile lights the room like the stars lights the night sky….
She pulled out a gun and started to cry…..
I shouted and screamed oh why? God Why?
At this point she turned to me and said….
Sorry it’s not intended for you but intended for Fred.
Fred jumped from behind me with a befuddled face….
She shouted there you are you ******…
I heard about you and Grace.
Fred looked at me like his pleading for help…
I shouted I don’t know this man and you never were my pal.
She cocked and shouted you *******…
What happened next my friend I swear it’s legit.
Oh man I blacked out…..
I swear that was it.
Cheated
Her smile lights the room like the stars lights the night sky….
She pulled out a gun and started to cry…..
I shouted and screamed oh why? God Why?
At this point she turned to me and said….
Sorry it’s not intended for you but intended for Fred.
Fred jumped from behind me with a befuddled face….
She shouted there you are you ******…
I heard about you and Grace.
Fred looked at me like his pleading for help…
I shouted I don’t know this man and you never were my pal.
She cocked and shouted you *******…
What happened next my friend I swear it’s legit.
Oh man I blacked out…..
I swear that was it.
Cheated
Her smile lights the room like the stars lights the night sky….
She pulled out a gun and started to cry…..
I shouted and screamed oh why? God Why?
At this point she turned to me and said….
Sorry it’s not intended for you but intended for Fred.
Fred jumped from behind me with a befuddled face….
She shouted there you are you ******…
I heard about you and Grace.
Fred looked at me like his pleading for help…
I shouted I don’t know this man and you never were my pal.
She cocked and shouted you *******…
What happened next my friend I swear it’s legit.
Oh man I blacked out…..
I swear that was it.

She pierces the darkness of my soul
Her smile touches even the darkest hour of my life.
Her touch washes over me cleansing the sins of my subconscious mind…
Breaking the bonds that hold me…
I’m Alive…..
I’m Alive….
MY savior cloaked in Angel wings…
I truly adore you, my love.

As I swallow these torrid wave of rollercoaster emotions
seeping through every memory of me
Memories armed with regret and lustful vengeance, is the preferred word with which it speaks
A hateful seed born from betrayal of a godly union
Born from eternal love….
A love that now seethes with scythed hatred, words enflamed and vengeful, it’s only salvation
As the tears rains down with reality of a loving touch
now burns your skins thought
The emptiness is filled with burning hatred and stabbing sorrowed pain
The thought of their love sealed with your kiss, burns more deeply than thoughts of not existing
A eternal love lost
A betrayal your precestors will have imbedded to their soul forever
As your beautiful life force drips from a bitter sweet knifes edge
The angels whisper…….

Tears flow like the river Nile enraged
Mournful embraces as the joining feeling of a future lost unites a weakened family
A mother inconsolable, treads thru meaningful memories as the smile of her lost child still freshly haunts her
A fathers rage distorted, hopelessly punches walls as the embrace of a perfect daughter still freshly lingers
A Family horrifically shaken, as even the stars sheds their mournful tears
Why?
A question tread milling through broken down spirits and scarred souls
A eternally loved daughter’s memory
drowning in uncontrollable tears
Tear stained prayer reaching out with a healing hand
as reluctant sorrow pursues a numbing soul
Mournful embrace, the only solace in a wicked life’s tragedy
A promising future, with love in abundance lost in a sorrowful abyss
A life unnecessary lost........
not only the loss of one fragile soul

As these words sweats from my invigorated pen
Pleading in unison for me to give them wings
A staunch prayer flows from their soul, to reach their flighted destination
To have their intoxicating life force drip from generation’s lips touched by the song they inspire to bring
These winged words, destined to bring inspiration to a cruel unforgiving world
These inspired words, that needs to forever marry hope in this pitiful existence
  The tears of a lost people stream from their saddened eyes…..
These armed words, that ended wars, brought courage and eternal love to nations lost
These truthful words seeping from my shaken pen
These words, that carries heavily with it my soul scarred
These words......
Forever eternal

Tears flow like the river Nile enraged
Mournful embraces, as the joining feeling of a future lost unites a weakened family
A mother inconsolable treads thru meaningful memories as the smile of her lost child still freshly lingers with her
A fathers rage distorted, hopelessly punches walls as the embrace of a perfect daughter still freshly lingers
A Family horrifically shaken, as even the stars sheds their mournful tears
Why? A question tread milling through broken down spirits and scarred souls
A eternally loved daughter’s memory, drowning in uncontrollable tears
Tear stained prayer reaching out with a healing hand, as reluctant sorrow pursues a numbing soul
Mournful embrace, the only solace in a wicked life’s tragedy
A promising future, with love in abundance lost in a sorrowful abyss
A life unnecessary lost,
not only the loss of one fragile soul

Have you ever felt like screaming…
But know one hears your thoughts.
It’s like I’m living this daily
But only ten times worse.
The world should be our canvas
But instead we are its curse.
So when will it end..
When the human race has been dispersed.
Oh No! …this is not a twisted plight….
I’m not a tree hugger
I just don’t think
Killing the living is right.

As the innocence untarnished youth pierces through your joy full smile
Carrying with it the tears of past sorrows lifted.
The abundance of questions you bare
shows your inquisitive mind
The love you share, perfectly points out the only beauty left in a tarnished existence.
The hope you carry with every step you take is more precious than an entire world enlightened.
The embrace of your arms gives hope wings and brings light where the world is darkened
My son……the hope and shining rays of my being

I look across the room and caught her staring,
What’s this sudden heat
My emotions suddenly flaring
We both instinctively look away and I guess that we are sharing
The same secret I hope that I’m daring,
Enough to look back, or am I just chancing
Should I rather electric slide over there like a man that’s just dancing
Wait what’s this I always here about
I think it’s called romancing,
Something about whining or dining, I think
Man! I need a shrink, or am I just glancing,
At what you *****, and stop with the counseling,
Man this is challenging!
Maybe a ring, what am I thinking
I don’t even know her name, this is demeaning
I look back and my heart just start racing….I mean F1 style
And yes! I know you know the meaning…
And it has feeling, what more do you want from me
At this point I’m reeling,
I turned around… she was gone like a magician, disappearing,
I was left picking up the pieces,
The sound of loss still screeching,
So I put my blades away in my bag clanging,
And hope tomorrow she’ll be inside me, her eyes is just stunning
So sleep soundly tonight lady knowing your shadow is now shading
Together forever… and no I’m not joking, for tomorrow my love….
You’ll be the one choking

As life threatens my very existence
I move forward like a sunrise ever constant
As I face the sound of battle
I lash out like Zeus enraged
Missing my sworn enemy’s darkened soul, choosing not to be saved
My scythed battle cries give me powered wings
As Life spews its armed anger at me
I march forth like a force of the gods before us
Victory! The call,  sweeter than any honeyed voice
The words flow from my enchanted pen like rivers of anesthesia
With the ghost of my demons in my mind ever present

As fireflies infinite lights a darkened sky
The memory of a perfect love freshly lingers
Her honeyed kisses I still taste with every breath I take
Her touch of healing still warm against my mournful skin
Her angelic face depicted in the stars
a wave of untainted emotion storms my soul
Our souls unbreakable promise to be entwined for all eternity
With every moment spent apart tears me to tears
A punishment unmistakably unbearable
The only solace a voice recalled…
The words drenched with hope dripping from her lips in ecstasy
         .....I love you…

Have you ever loved someone so much
You’d strip your soul bare
Just to feel her touch
Lost yourself to her
This feeling
much more than a crush
And that feeling get crushed
Get’s ripped from every fiber of you
as you horrifically watch
Every descent memory of us
now ripped to dust
I thought you loved me
I bet your feelings for me was just rust
My crumbled world a bust
What about the countless times that we were in lust
I guess you dusted
Your memories of us
Through it away like a curse
When I’m the one to rehearse
The ordeal over in my head
Like I’m the one cursed
When will this feeling disperse
Every day it gets worse

When love lost is just a cost
To much, and you completely feel lost
Remember you’ll rise from this unwanted chaos
you own destiny, because you are your own boss.

As if death himself had questioned my existence
Thoughts of a tragic ending storms me
Blurred memories of love had trampled by vivid memories of love lost
Your lingering scent taints my recovering soul, spiraling once more
Longing words seeping from my subconscious minds wounds
These armed words echoed…
Your piercing smile
my arrowed heart bleeds for
Your winged voice that my confidence soar for
The forgotten pain tears through my conscious mind
Your healing touch not forgotten
tears me to tears
As these saddened words tearful drowns these pages
Emotions uncontrollable, touches me
This is my wounds relived!!

Deep into the mind of an eternal slumber
The thought of death crosses me
I struggle to push these armed thoughts away
Deep into my subconscious mind
Where bad memories has long been forgotten
Oblivion
The thought of nothingness overwhelms even the best of me
A life wasted
These thoughts darkened even my shadow
A innocent in my spiraling demise
I fight
To have but a speck of me etched in time
Oblivion
A word that shakes every ounce of my hope stained soul
Forgotten
A word more fierce to me then ten thousand scythed deaths
Fight I will
Till every word I give wings
bleeds my pen dry
Fight I will
Till the words I breathe reaches generation to come.
This will be...
My Speck etched in time.

How can you deny this feeling
I think as I’m creeping
Outside your window watching you sleeping
I hope you willfully dreaming
Of us steaming, our love sharing
Now my tempers flaring
Thinking you ignoring
All this love I’m giving
So stop stringing
Me along this road, I’m hurting
You killing,
My life slowly and I’m sliding
Losing all part of me I’m deteriorating
So please stop faking
I love you with all my heart but you making
This anger uncontrollable it’s damning
My soul constantly tearfully craving
Your touch so stop playing
My hand reaching out to you suddenly stopping
My thoughts disturbing
My mesmerized eyes, now I’m running
Tears streaming…..
Thoughts racing, heart pumping,
legs darting., I’m shaking
thinking, I’m losing me to you willingly
My lungs bleeds for me to stop shouting......
Save me!!!!!!!!

As stormy feelings tears me deep
The last words you whispered tears I keep
God called you to his side
I don’t understand…This raging feeling I can’t hide
The promises of love shared
Now just scarred memories that I bare
Emotions flowing twisted and cold
I cry, no crave, your love your touch your soul
This empty feeling undying severed my heart
What happened to the notion we’ll never be apart
How do I live this life, how do I move on
I still need you, I still love you
Or are we just pawns
Broken hearts represents our stars
Your sweet lips on mine seems now so far
As a perfect union now broken apart
My love for you will never die…
I promise for you I eternally cry.

As bullets rains misguided
Promising futures beheaded for daring to dream of a life bettered
Mother’s tears streaming down streets laced with innocent blood
Greed, the artist of a colorful masterpiece captures sorrows and lost love perfectly with widowed tears
Fathers and mothers all but a saddened mystery to lost children craving their touch in times of need.
Hatred seeps from horrored spectacle as masters of greed pays their toll with the blood of the innocent
Insanity is the call of the day as history’s past lessons imbedded with tragedy and raging rivers of tears completely lost to a generation unknown to its hidden Pandora
With false promise of immortality doomed to repeat it’s never ending self destruction
Insanity ……the repeat of our own demise

The sound of battle sings around me
a voice armored
Deaths favorite track drenched with hope and tearstained destinies cut short silently plays
My name screaming across his cold lips
Do I give my soul already condemned willingly
My demons caged
rattles my spirit from an eternal slumber
Waking a memory of a blessed love waiting in cloaked fear
I stand as if the mountains themselves, has given me their roots
Her scythed love carries me forward as fear chooses to fear
I move with the might of 1000 comrades fallen
Courage lends me its strength
Lashing out as the hatred of the innocent lives lost fuels me
I strike with the force of demons possessed
The blood of my victory seeps from my wounded sword
Cries of a battle won rains tears of elation
Breathing underrated as death screams….
Knowing, I chose to live.

Living with this new found rage
I put this pen to paper
To release me from my monstered cage
I have the heart of an artist
This is what I feel today

The world is suffering
Children dying daily
Yet no one even blinks
The basic rights to living
Is to them but a distant dream
Money rules us
I honestly think this stinks
The rich live like kings
When others don’t have even but a sip to drink

We live like nothing’s happening
Do we not feel the killing
The worlds in turmoil
Or have we just lost all feeling
The result is chilling
The world is dancing
While others music
Bombs on their ceiling
The wrong keeps winning
Yet the world keeps spinning
Am I the only one that sees
The light in the world is slowly dimming
It’s sickening
Behind their masks they keep on grinning

Can you feel what I’m saying
or can you not feel my craving
This world is our end
Yet we just keep on giving
I dare you to open your mind
Instead of blindly blinking
The world is dying
Yet we just keep on sinking
We destroy everything
In the end who’s winning
These words I’m inking
Comes from a place where cold truth is living
It haunts me daily
Yet the rest just keeps on playing

This feeling on this page
Is driving me insane
Am I the only one
That feels the worlds screaming pain
I guess, to the rest
This feeling has become mundane
That’s a shame
Because in the end
You should be feeling the same.

Written by Faizel Farzee