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Jenovah Jun 2013
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suffering;there is no way to describe the nauseating misery that torments and suffocates oneself.

Sinking;I have become heavy with sorrow.

drowning;my lungs cannot hold air in them, for they have become weak.

starving;my stomach cannot bear to hold food, when it continuously churns with that love- sick feeling.

aching;every part of me is screaming as it dies, my heart is the loudest as each heart string burns away.

dying;numb I have become numb, and I cannot move nor feel emotion. I blur away into non-existence.A beautiful euphoria.
Jenovah Jun 2014
I only want company in my bed
as my drunken self fights sleep.

I need a release, I'm trying,
As every cut hits deep.

We all bleed red, a common color,
We all stand back and watch each other suffer.

I just really need saved,
come be my hero,
it takes a lot to be brave.

Come for me, a chariot I await,
For this place I am in I cannot help but hate.

I need you, I hate to say,
but I have been waiting day by day..

Come bail me out of here,
take me away,
And promise me you'll stay.
Silver Lining Jun 2014
Sometimes the hardest battles are fought alone
at night
when it's dark
and quiet.
I haven't even been typing for more than a few seconds
and already the tears are flowing.
Too strong for too long.
That's what they say, right?
Crying does not mean you're weak
it means you have been too strong for too long.
What *******.
I am weak.
I know I am.
Broken angel
hurt so many times
by those who were meant to protect.
Walls have been put up to protect myself since no one else
seemed to care enough to save
the five year old little girl.
Eleven years later and I'm cold and hard as stone.
I wish I were a stone..
Instead of this **** sponge who is destined
to be poked and prodded.
I will soak up your mess,
so you don't have to suffer.
Give me your worries, I will take them.
Give me your addictions, I will take them.
Give me your broken shards, I will take them.
I don't care if I get cut and scraped.
Let me bleed-
so you can live.
Reading through this it makes no sense.. not even to me. But maybe that's how poetry is suppose to be.
Forgotten Dreams Jun 2014
People ask me why I do not believe in God, so this isn't a poem just an explanation for my borderline-blasphemous atheist views. All over the world people suffer: children are abused, women *****, men tortured. Yet people still trust a happy grandfather up in the skies to make their lives perfect. Yeah, people say that heaven is this great place but why do people on earth have to suffer to get there? Okay, some religions believe in sinning, but isn't it a sin to watch as 4,000 children die every single day just because they don't have enough water?  If there actually turns out to be a God, I would honestly rather rot in hell for eternity than sit up there being happy whilst people down here suffer...

So yes, I do not believe in an omnibenevolent God that sits in the skies, because if he loved everyone then why let his "children" suffer?
omnibenevolent definition: all loving
Ryder Rose Jun 2014
She has a heavy heart. A messy soul.
A reckless mind, that lacks self control.
She wore nothing but shades of grey.
Her finger tips blue, from writing all of the words she couldn’t say.
She’s always been a silent fighter,
with demons on the tip of her tongue.
Taking away her breaths,
right from her lungs.
She won’t take any judgements,
on the bonds she needs to untie.
She won’t listen to those telling her how to suffer,
and how to cry.
Ignoring the murmurs of others she looks up at the sky,
as tears start to roll down her cheeks,
that tell a thousand stories she’s too afraid to speak.
Her heart cries for help,
but her face is all smiles.
Her emotions unsteady,
hiding she’s been crestfallen for a while.
Something she’s learning is that she needs to undress.
Starting with her buttons of worry and stress.
Undoing them one by one,
brick by brick.
She knows it’ll be hard,
for she’s built them up thick.
She was once asked why she sometimes wears many layers on warm sunny days.
She said because they made her feel grounded,
but maybe it would be better to just FlOaT away.
Giving in she wandered around searching for something that will finally set her free.
Lift her off the ground,
high above the trees.
She is like a kite with it’s string still spooled tight.
Closing her eyes she drops all of her burdens mid flight.
After realizing how unhappy she has been,
she choses to live as light as air,
never again to lose sight from there.
lost girl Jun 2014
Anxiety
I can feel it coming
That shakiness in my hands that begins to spread throughout my body.
My heart beat begins to pick up speed. Getting louder & louder, until it's all I can hear.
Anxiety
Worry fills my every thought
And those thoughts consume me.

(a.d)
I suffer from anxiety
Adel Jun 2014
my heart shattered into pieces
words are wrapped under my skin
the red skies are coming through your shadows
stories are untold, letters are unfold
hands are shaking, eyes tired from crying
i really miss the melody of your laughter
the serenity and butterflies i get
everytime i see you smile
the galaxies and stars inside your shining eyes
how i miss your body and soul
the way you talk and the way you walk
why do you have to leave?
why do you have to go?
don't leave me alone with these broken pieces
i see you on every faces in the streets
i see you on the white ceiling in a cold morning
i see you in the heavy rain
i see you on the blue sky after the sun rises
your smile fades on a summer breeze,
leaves me alone with the humming leaves
only 3 words left out:
*i miss you.
******* it i wish you were here and hold me tight i miss you so **** much
Adel Jun 2014
I fall deeply,
stumble,
crawl,
battle,
without your smile
I drown in the sea of tears
out of oxygen,
struggle,
no air,
words all over my head
without you by my side.
dont leave me alone
Adel Jun 2014
where are you?
are you going down the midnight road?
are you running across the green field out there?
are you laughing as the ocean collapse from the sky?
are you still in the same place as you used to be?

where are you?
this little heart misses you so much
and no words can describe this truly pain
the reality hits me so hard
the way that i can't see your smile anymore

where are you?*
my skies become so dark without you, sunshine
my world falls into one place without you, love
give me one more chance
to see your soul
into your brown eyes
and i will let you go
with this empty heart.
i miss you so much
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