"I'm Sorry I Lied

I Dont Know How To Do It,
But I Got To Do Right,
I Need To Say Im Sorry,
I Dont Want To See Us Fight.
Im Staring At The Clouds,
I Sit And Reminisce,
I Remember All The Good Times We Had
I Remember Our First Kiss
I Dont Want To Have To End It,
I Dont Want To See It Go Free,
I Want To Be Able To Feel You Lips
Not Just In My Dreams,
Although I Constantly Dream Of You,
It Just Doesnt Seem Enough,
I Want To See You Face,
I Want To Feel Your Touch,
I Want You In My Bed,
Hugging And Kissing Me,
I Want You In My Bed,
Making Love To Me,
I Miss All The Times Weve Shared
And I Cant Stand To Let It Go,
Over Something That I Did
I Really Went Down Low,
I Shared A Kiss With Someone Else,
When I Should Only Be Kissing You,
And Right After I Did That
I Felt I Wasnt True,
Even Though He Kissed Me,
And I Didnt Kiss Him Back,
My Mistake Was,
Not Moving And Stepping Back,
It Meant Absolutely Nothing,
When His Lips Were Touching Mine,
I Could Only See Your Face,
Running Through My Mind,
But Out Of Everything I Did The Most,
The Real Reason Why I Cried,
Instead Of Being Honest
I Sat There And I Lied,
**** I Want To Turn Back Time,
And Just Tell You What Went Down,
I Wouldnt Be Writing This,
I Wouldnt Have This Frown,
Youd Be Able To Trust Me,
You Wouldnt Want To Leave,
I Would Be Able To Hold A Smile,
Id Be Able To Breathe,
Because I Did That One Thing,
My Life Is Just Mess,
Because I Lied To You,
I'm Suffering From Stress,
Im Suffering From A Broken Heart,
Because I Broke Yours,
But Then Karma Came And Turned On Me,
And You Messed With Other Girls,
**** That Really Hurt Me,
But I Really Do Get Why,
Why You Did That To Me,
Why You Made Me Cry,
I Know Those Other Girls Meant Nothing,
They Were Just Revenge,
Well It Really Worked,
Im Not Going To Pretend,
Pretend That Im Not Jealous,
Because I Really Am,
I Dont Even Know The Girl,
And She Got Me Saying ****,
I Wish I Wouldnt Have Lied To You,
I Want To Make It Work
I Want To Be Your Only One,
I Dont Want To Have To Search,
Search For A Different Man,
Cause I Only Want You
But When I Close My Eyes,
And I Open And Your Not There,
A Tear Runs Down My Face,
I Cant Act Like I Dont Care,
And I Hope You Come Back,
And Forgive Me For What Ive Done,
Give Me Another Chance,
Give Me This Last One.

With a tear I say goodbye and watch the moonlight leave your eyes.
Kiss me dear one more time, take my hand and hold it tight.

Say it.
Say it before I do,
Because if I do.
Your worst dreams will come true...
Ha!
Oh please don't mind me,
I'm laughing at your insolence,
You never heed my words,
The are like white noise in the darkness yet you never see them,
They are the white light at the end of the tunnel but you never reach for them,
My words are honest and true,
All I speak is the truth,
So say IT,
"...I want freedom"
"Good. That's it"

Here, I dwell in no man's land,
On the flip side, there's men unwomanned,
They can be  a miserable band,
Desperately seeking a hand,
I read their profiles, for online dating,
Is this pulp fiction they are creating?
"Honest, sensuous, sincere men here,
Tactile and reliable," Great, my dears,
All searching for affection,
BUT, I want your ex's true opinion!
Can I have her phone number, please?
What do you mean she's overseas,
Like forever and permanently?
Oh, really, really, really,
What does your ex say about you, please?
Why complain about her to me?
Honestly, why are you unwomanned?
While, here I dwell in no man's land........

Truths seem to come
along, lies find out
reasons to creep over.
The same way.
Did and done,
keep it all and leave it
with no explanation.

Take the whole not loosen up,
by distraction fall in line
until closely all is scattered.
Moments aren't things
but things like them plain fully
are what hands have got
to pave the void of rhymes.

Dry skies against the wall
my shoulders too,
must run a mile
and keep the distance
from where I'm just too far gone.