What do I say?
What do I say when you look at my arms?
Yours are you beautifully bare and smooth.
But your eyes fall onto mine
The cross-stitch of red and white lines. Raised
Painting the pain I’ve been through across my skin.
What do I say?
What do I say when you see my panic?
You stand there and you look at me, not knowing what to do.
I sit, clutching my knees to my chest,
Tears pouring down my eyes,
Body trembling.
What do I say?
What do I say when you tell me it’s all too much?
When you tell me you can’t deal with it anymore.
That you need to leave my life,
That you can’t handle it.
As if you assume I can.
What do I say?**
What do I say when I no longer have someone to say things to?

I love you
Is the most
Terrifying words to say
If you ask me...

I love you
Is three words
Which everyone hope
That someone
One day will say
To them...

I love you
Is a way to tell
Another person
How much we care
About them...

I love you
Is three words
Which I don't think
That I'm ever gonna say
'Cause the first person
Who I honestly
Could have said these words to
He's no longer talking to me...

I love you
Is also
The only words
Which no one
Will ever say
To me
Because I am not
Worth loving...

I love you
I actually once had a dream
Where someone said it to me
In a bar
Right before he kissed me
But that was only a dream
And as we know
They rarely become real...

By birth we are ...
Broken into two, one side to touch the sky
One side,
Tangled, and entrenched with layered roots - lineage hissing 'quiet' 'quiet girl'
Our legs Imposed to stay bounded, rooted

A wall continuum, changing of colors
Shapes, Names, Stories, Only the world shakes harder....
Centuries of walls slashing, but the spectators chuckle at the caged song bird
Waiting for its tune. Plucking the feathers?!

Oh, When will
Our names will be filled with love?
When was the Rose unafraid to share it's scent?
Beauty, love, asking for nothing!

But what lies beneath and above
The roots and the sky.
Stuck in between, but bound by shackles of beneath....
If leaving, alone, this woman - Will be rendered hopeless?
Unhappy, unfulfilled, without meaning or purpose.

More, much more - you hold half the sky so touch it - bare handed

Is it okay
If I say I love you?
Am I even
Allowed to?

Is it safe for me
To tell you?
Or will you
Break my heart
Just like
Everybody else do?

Will you still
Look at me
With the same eyes?
Or will you
Turn away
And leave me behind?

Or will you still
Smile at me,
Still talk and laugh
Like we always did?

And if I may ask
Could it be
That you like me
Even if it's just a little bit?

My friend
Why are you
On the other side
of the earth?

I miss you
And I miss your hug
I miss being in your arms
'Cause there I feel safe
You make all the bad things
Go away...

The thought of you
Brings back my smile
Which lately have begun to fade
**** happened and I'm a mess
Why did I never have
The courage to confess?

I miss your jokes
And I miss your light blue eyes
Your soft blond hair
And the way
Which you can speak about
NIRVANA all day...

I miss your shy smile
And your black framed glasses
I miss your deep voice
And the feeling
Which I get when I'm with you...

When you come back in June
Remind me that I'll have to tell
How much I really do love you...

You'll be the first one
Who I'll say these words to...