What if I don't want
to get better? This hunger is the only thing
I feel anymore. You abandoned me,
so I sit on the bathroom
floor. I drown out my tears
with lyrics to songs we used
to scream out the car
window. While others congratulate
the damage this hunger has caused,
I obsess over the numbers that
light up whenever I step on
the scale. This is the only thing
I can control anymore. Since
you left.

Tell me what it is
that causes my
unhappiness
despite having
everything?

Before she came
I went through hell and heaven to get her here

Once she was here
I didn't notice her as much as I should've
So she went through hell and heaven to be with me

Today she left
Just left with a small, sad wave

Now I'm going through hell
For every thought of what we could've done.

You left like there was no reason to stay
I hold no gruges for you
I hold no regret that you left
I hold no accusations against you

I hope whatever you're trying to do with your life you find true peace .
I hope you are loved .
I hope you don't have to look back .
I hope your live a life with fulfillment.

I was fighting alone in my life with everything I have .
I have no grasp on my shattered life anymore .
This time when you left i didn't think for a second to ask if I hold on or let go ..!
I took this decision on my hand .
I hold onto that love we had , but I don't expect you'll return .
I hold onto that word , you said " I'll be back soon " . But I don't expect you'll return .

Sometimes it was hard to love you knowing you're gone ..!
I was not okay , i am still not okay .
I hold my whole life on my back , and didn't even let you know about the storm i was tangled in .

Everytime i had a bad , worst day I thought about us . I thought about the love we had ..
It was a relief like a soft wind in a harsh weather .
It was a relief like a warmth in a sharp winter .

All I've ever needed that you to exist in my life .


But I don't find any relief now ..I am so shattered , broken .
Still i am fighting .
One day when this all will end i don't know if I will ever be able to fix my self emotionally .

Still i hope you're okay and have a good life .
You know I understand 🖤

He was my happiness also my pain,
He was the hell in my heaven,
He was the demon in my sanity,
But I'd lie if I'll tell you I didn't like it.

He was the nightmare I want to have every night.
He was the darkness I will always choose over the light.
He was the devil I want to hug so tight.
Loving him was wrong? No, it feels so right.

She is a pain killer, she took me to the highest highs

Then abruptly she said shes through and left me to die

Now in a different time in my life, old me, new wife old thoughts creep into my life

I take painkillers but they dont help the pain in my heart

I wish I knew she was a pain killer from the start... but I'd probably still follishly give her my heart

To make my heart abode, he pulled me out of untrodden road even before the world was made!…..


She activated spirituality in and over her life to brood
And wished to work on plans and purposes of God, holding her solitude….

Rise up and Form an Unshakable attitude that God mirrors through you, where unwavering confidence would gather too!


Prayer needs to be constant, force yourself to wake from what’s stagnant…. As on earth my assignments demand accomplishment, helps me stand independent

I choose to live and dwell in his purpose,
For my breath is his purchase…O his love is reckless and his gifts are countless

Do not sit in shame….quench your earthly flame…for his love fights till you’re found leaves the ninety nine and delivers all your needs just in time…..just in time…