I will love you until the day the moon will vanish into its dark vast space
Until the stars slowly untwinkle as you close your eyes during the night.

And until i see the morning sun rising reflected upon your brown eyes


I will unconditionally love you until  our universe will inevitably explode into the void

Just as how defeaning our world crashes and collides,
Is just as perfectly how i would want to loudly speak your name and yell how solemnly am deeply inlove with you

Wonderful madness,
Beauty amplified,
Magical chaos,
Determined randomness.

Swirls,
Momentum picks up.
Swirls,
Patterned, yet wild and free.
Swirls,
Gentle yet upstream.
Swirls.

Addicted to the kiss of the wind,
Mesmerized and carefree,
Unwavering,
Swept away by fate.

Drifts,
Quiet passion.
Drifts,
Silent screams.
Drifts,
Longingly collides.
Drifts.

We created a world, our world
It was mine, it was yours, it was ours.
We could close our eyes and fly to the sky
Dancing in cabins, breaking our hearts
Playing with fire while drinking some wine
I lay my head in my bed close my eyes in surrender
You were all I could see
I felt no love, I felt no pain
I felt only your breath.
Chrystal pieces shattered inside my chest
I see no heart was what the doctor had said
Rivers of blood running out of my veins
And all I wanted was to love you this way.

A collision of energy
Your passion and purity
My will and practicality
Fused and refuse to detach

Now, I just hope it lasts

Dopamine dreams
Scream escape.

Is it too late to confront and accept
The fears that have crept
Into this weeping mind?

I don't remember much of my childhood
Ignorance is blind
The adult doesn't mind
But my child self dreams of trauma
It's thorns burrowing in.
But where there are thorns
Roses can bloom
If I fight I can give happiness room to grow
For through knowing the lowest heartache
In the spectrum of pain
can the sunshine and rain
Nurture the roses of happiness and joy
Because the contrast will buoy the soul
and love dwells in the heart that has seen both joy and tears
and empathises both with people who know despair and joy
for there is truth in both sides
and their worlds sometimes collide.

A sliver, a shadow,
Peeking round the corner
I try to shy, to run and hide,
But it's always behind my shoulder

Grabs a hold, won't let go
Can anyone relate? I'll never know
Look in the mirror to try and see
The demon standing next to me

It walks like me, talks like me,
Laughs like me, acts like me
Follows me, tortures me,
Asphyxiating, I CAN'T BREATHE

Wanna run, I know I can't hide
From the demon I released and harboured inside..

And it affects me so...
Can't, let, go.....

So I'll live with it,
Accept it
This is my life now
As much as I want it to go,
It's my silhouette, my shadow...

I'd like it to go
As far away as possible
But as much as I want it gone...
Like a part of me, it belongs...

I'm paranoid, always look around
Turn fast at even the slightest sound
Can't help it, just how I am
Hopefully you understand

I know I'm being watched, by what lies behind
The past and the present like cars collide
In shattered glass, flying past,
Slow-motion, infinitely lasts

Slam the brakes but it's too late
Accelerate guarantees the fate
Things will happen and will be seen
By the shadow that lurks behind the scenes

And it sees me so,
And can't seem to let me go...

So I'll live with it,
Accept it
This is my life now
As much as I want it to go,
It's my silhouette, my shadow...

I'd like it to go
As far away as possible
But as much as I want it gone...
Like a part of me, it belongs...

Let go, let go...
A part of me that I want gone
But like my soul I guess it belongs
Go, goooooo....
I guess I'll just get used to it
Despite the fact it lacks common sense

We have what my children perceive as
a secret door, it is no bigger than
two foot by two foot.
Yet with moments I shudder at the prospect
of even clenching the handle to this dark abode.

My children's first nights when we original
in the moments of living within this new
place. my daughter of 7 years, walked in to
our bedroom saying, mummy daddy I cant sleep,
we ushered her into slumber eager for sleep.  

But days collapsed to the falling night ,
and once again on our daughters younger in
age climbed restless into our comforting bed.
"Mummy, Daddy we cant sleep,
asking in innocence "why my little one,

"Because the man in the corner said its not our
right to sleep in this house,

I played possum and went into the room
and said two or more things,
"You know who I am and what I can do,
"Leave them in peace of fear me,
I know of what I speak even though I don't see.

You see my mother was old school energy, stones
that kind of thing. Me I'm an atheist, but I know
that there are energies malignant, sentient, who
knows but they mess with my kids they collide with me.

We collide in this
world we're living.
Time stops as we see each other.
Everything moves in slow motion.
Your eyes hide an emotion.
My heart overflows.
My brains lose all signals.
My hands are trembling.
My heartbeat is racing.
My voice is shaky.
Knees are feeling weak.
I can bearly speak.
This is what you
do to me.
It should be illegal.
How you take control
over all my senses.
The passion I feel within.
Your are my majestic wings.
I will never forget.
My beautiful sin.

Your hand touching mine


exploring universe stars


our galaxies collide