i look to a home uninvited
people scream, terrified
i ask them for shelter
they gather up weapons
rolled up papers, shoes, poison
they **** me to feel safe
i do not blame them
i look to a hive uninvited
bees buzz, angrilly
i ask them for shelter
they swarm around me
loud buzzing and overwhelming warmth
they **** me to protect their own
i do not blame them
i look to a tree uninvited
flowers open, interested
i ask them for shelter
they trap me within themselves
sickly sweet acid dissolves me
they **** me to pollinate
i do not blame them
i look to myself uninvited
my heart beats, unsteady
i ask it for forgiveness
it asks for the same in return
my head aches and my chest hurts
it killed me to survive
i do not blame myself
its been a few years since i was here and i still dont know the meanings of my own words!