You are disappointed You expected to win You smiled through the pain You sae how they pointed at you and talked behind your back You tried your best It’s okay... Don’t blame yourself There is always a time to fail And a time to succeed
For my situation in life I don’t blame my parents or anything like that, They may well have been crap And ****** me up (Just Like Larkin said) But blaming others won’t change anything, It is as it is And I try and take ownership Rather than mitigate and delegate Hate.
Over the years I’ve met many people who look back in anger, Blame all the faults they have, All the problems they’ve encountered, On their parents Or others, How they were raised as kids Else treated at school by a teacher. And, you know, Maybe it’s true And maybe it’s not, But I try hard Not to linger, To doff And point an accusatory finger.
Standing naked and alone Facing with all your faults, Taking ownership is difficult And accountability *****, But when the blade of justice swings It’s important - even for such a schmuck as me - To face the consequences, Not to duck!
It was not her. // When she saw me hurting, she knew it was not her. // When she saw me sobbing, it was not her. // When she saw me choking on my breath, // when she saw me shaking in shock, // when she saw me screaming for an escape, // it was not her. // I cowered in my skin and it was not her. // And when I was dying, it was not her, for once. // I stole away from her her hands and her broken rage, // her sorrow and terror, her unwavering pain, // so that for once, she would not have to hurt again. // I was so kind, so for once, // it was not her.
I never blame myself: I accept what has happened in the past as Destiny, over which I have no control. I focus on improving my self in the present-moment to achieve the wisdom and virtue to improve my situation to increase my joy and happiness.
I feel like I’m at the rock bottom of my life, feeling so worthless and all i do is blaming myself. I feel like I’m insane to hold the pang in my chest, the pressure of this world madness. Drowning in the deep of miserably and despair. Everything seems not in the line, so overwhelmed , and the hatred towards me has been growth. I don’t even know who i am, or where i am. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ - it terrifies me, that i'm getting lost and neither can save me.
When i'm not okay I hate myself When i am down I hate myself When i have failed I hate myself When i can't be what i want to be I hate myself When i have so much problems stuck in mind I hate myself When i can't shine like everyone I hate myself When i hate myself I hate myself
Nothing's special in me I can't be like those girls I can't be like another people I can't struggle with creative mind I can't survive the hardest time I can't solve problems with smartest way I can't reach the top I just can see everyone's standing on top I can't be like this I can't be like that And i can't be myself