I think in the end we have a deep longing for those we have lost even if they are still of this world.
She whom destroyed my soul and I am still healing from, I wonder if I ever will. Eating my soul away one little insecurity at a time. Acting like nothing she ever did was wrong Even when she hurt all around her. I still want to know what she would think of me, who she is now, if she has ever grown.
He who I hurt in retaliation, he who deserves an apology from and acknowledgment of his own apology. If only I felt it would do any good to just walk across the street and create that conversation. I feel like we could have still been friends had I not been bitter.
She who I lost track of in life, I tried to keep in touch but eventually just stopped any effort. I believe I could still contact her, but what would I even say at this point.  Was I the only one who thought about the other constantly what beautiful memories we had. What would happen.
The longing we had for the other soul, does anything really matter or will this continue for life.

It's been months if not a year since it's been this bad.
The marks are up and down my legs with no remorse.
Dark red lines that will catch anyone's  eye.
It's not like life  hasn't been rad
I just have no path no course
I had forgotten how addictive it was  to be this sad.

I do believe in love at first sight.
I remember the exact second I saw you.
It was even better when we actually met.
You saved me from myself so many times. You're still doing it too.
All our dumb pictures still hang on my wall.
I fell in love with you that first day of band class.
As we hung out more you became the best friend I didn't really have. You were always there. I am so thankful for you.
Even to this day almost 2 years later I still love you.
My little goth baby
You have always been in my heart.

I wish you would talk to me
I want to be the one to fix your pain
Even if it was me who was the key
To all rain
And the hatred in your brain

I was trapped in a world of his making
Somewhere i thought i could be happy
He even gave me a ring
Be happy
Im not happy

But it was you who stayed in my thoughts
I cried and dreamed of my best friend
A girl I fell in love with but we got caught
In a twisted web we thought was our end
I love you...Send

SEND
SENT
DELIVERED
READ
IGNORED

You told me to get help for myself.
You told me that i needed to stop.
You told me .
You never offered to help.
Yet you expect me to be strong enough.
I wanted to be there when you were at rock bottom.
You pushed me away.
I was at rock bottom you were nowhere to be seen
I was alone.
All you did was tell me ****.
You didn't do anything to help

I fell in love
Not with a person but an object
An object of  cold silver metal
The dark marks left on my wrists
Were just the many thoughts in my head
This might be the last time i love
If it's not i guess i'll just try again