lm tired of looking in the mirror and failing to recognise myself
lm tired of having a voice but l cant speak
lm tired of speaking only for me to listen
lm tired of dreaming , waking up to see a different reality
lm tired of looking exactly like the person next to me

At times l ask myself if friendship was the only thing l had to offer
how big will my circle
how many people will still be will to roll with me

Not everyone who is rolling with you is rolling for you
some are rolling against you
if you fall today how many people in your circle will still be willing to as much as you do for them

Now l ask again do l really have to be like
you so that you be for me
l thought being different was the beauty of life
My colour together with yours combined to make a beautiful rainbow
but no we all have to sing the sane song
lm tired of dancing to the same rhythm
l need a different melody

So society lm sorry
But lm setting myself free

You are the definition of BEAUTY
Don't feel inferior

Until next time, 
Now all will close,
The day has expired,
I sink in my woes.

Your arms were my castle,
Your words were my battle,
But in twinkle of an eye ,
You said goodbye.

I now yearn for your warmth,
It helps me progress,
In this life that drags on,
In this life that's a mess.

Now its a million degrees below zero in my blood,
Its like I'm buried fifty feet underground,
You left me isolated and deserted
Now lm feeling rejected.

Until I, see your face again,
That hole inside will never fill,
a restless souls that cannot cease,
a mission that i must fulfill.

Although with a hallowed place inside my heart,
l say back off loneliness and hello tenderness,
Opening my feeling and feeling smart,
Only to be struck back down into brokeness

Life is a crazy roller coaster
Full of ups and downs

You laugh and the world
laughs with you
Weep and you weep alone

Life is real
Life is Ernest
Without its ups and downs
It wouldn't be so much fun

Not once did l expect this to happen
Never in my wildest imagination did l think you would leave
Your sweetness melted in my heart
But it was all a lie

The promises and the oaths
We would never say goodbye
We would be together forever
But it was all a lie

Being that shoulder to lean on
A friend to depend on
The arms to cry on
The strength in my hopelessness
My eyes in my blindness
And the guider in my helplessness
It was all an act
It was all a lie

Those changeable watery to baby blue eyes
The flowing golden hair
Made me believe in a fantasy fairytale life
But it was all a lie

The old dreamy smile, you shattered
My visions, desires and dreams
You mercilessly destroyed
Leaving an empty person without hope only unforgettable lies

WHY DIDNT I REALIZE IT WAS ALL A LIE

You give your heart away to the ones who already have enough love from others so yours may not mean anything. You left empty and it  is that vaccum that kills slowly. Accepting love from others that care may seem reasonable but the difficult part comes when you can't reciprocate the same love because yours has already been given away. Without knowing you have broken a heart already and that makes two people hurting. Life would be so much easier if you didn't expect to get exactly what you give. Just love everyone the same way Jesus loved the church. The ones you love don't love you and you love the ones that don't love you. Its karma. The cycle will go on, mental illness n depression will never cease. Why not open up to change. Don't give away your heart just give the love and don't expect the same thing in return. It's not risky at all coz love has never failed......not yet

its not my fault
life taught me not to care

you just turned 18 yet nothing changes
its just the date and time that changes
it still feels the same
not as happy as l anticipated

I smile at my grief
Thought l would get some relief
But my conscience betrayed my belief

My victory was in my ambition
But l failed to have the determination
What was the use of the demonstration
When life proved to be nothing but violation

Although it hurts l get up
I was taught never to give up
It's hard to get to the top
But the view is beautiful from up

I will fly the highest
Who said l cant be the greatest
When l can work the hardest
And someday will be the best
Not like the rest

Love is in the air
Thats why it always disappear(evaporates) after sometime

she looks at the moon
And still see his face,even brighter

"I atleast deseved a goodbye"

Him: what if l fall for her
Her:  will just pick you up