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Mari Anjelyn Dec 2014
I never thought you would play the part
Of someone who'll have a hold in my heart
I foolishly believed this is a beautiful start
But it pushed us to fall and grow *apart
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I'm not supposed to feel this way.
This is truly unexpected.
You have this strange effect on me.
You make me happy.
I hate how you make me happy.

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Mari Anjelyn Jan 2015
Chasing* person after person
For a very wrong reason
Throws you into a trap-like prison
Filled with lies, a personal treason
Mari Anjelyn May 2015
Running around in circles
Both hands held in shackles
To hope, this beating heart suckles
As every tear on my face trickles
Mari Anjelyn Mar 2015
In this empty room of mine
Staring at every space and every line
Telling myself repeatedly "I'm fine"
Silently wishing for our hearts to intertwine
Mari Anjelyn Dec 2014
A day I've been waiting for
Time to spend with people I'm thankful for
A family I love and loves me even more
Than anybody else knocking on my door
Mari Anjelyn Nov 2014
Something happened and you're not the same
Now to you everything is a game
Thinking you're not like the rest is such a shame
It pains me, even just the sound of your name
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I have this "friend" who, after quite some time, I got to talk to and spend some time with. Things became "different". Things also got a bit twisted and confusing afterwards.

I started to write these 4-liner verses (one verse a day) almost a month ago. It has become my outlet, my breather, my life support. It speaks of my thoughts, my musings, and my words that were left unspoken.

I'm pretty sure you (yes you, my dear "friend") won't be able to read these. But in case you'll do, I hope you'll see what effect you had on me.

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Mari Anjelyn Nov 2014
It is saddening to think
That you are gone in a blink
You walking away is like watching a battleship sink
Now I am left alone hanging on the brink
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Same old story.
Same old ending.

Boy meets girl.
Girl talks to boy.
Boy makes girl swoon.
Girl gives a piece of her heart to boy.
Boy drifts away.
Girl wonders why.
Boy leaves girl.

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Mari Anjelyn Dec 2014
Again and again we always go
Back to our old habits, oh please dear no!
What you did to me made me grow
I'm not the same person, just so you know
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"Old habits die hard"

Yes, indeed.

Every time somebody leaves, I try really hard to let go of that person and dump memories of "us" in an invisible "moving on" box. But, as much as I wanted to forget that chapter of my life, I always end up reminiscing and wishful thinking that somewhere (somehow) that person is having even the littlest thoughts of me. What's worse is I always crash and burn whenever that person notices me (likes a post, sends a text message, etc). I always go back to thinking of what if's and what might have been's.

I believe that there's always a way to end these. I've been here so many times and I think I learned a lot already. I may get back to some nasty habits but I'll never be that same person you know. Your lies and deception may have destroyed a piece of me but at the same time, they made me grow and appreciate other beauties of life even more.

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Mari Anjelyn Dec 2014
Confusing and hard to comprehend
These mixed signals you always send
A fine line between a lover and a friend
This has to stop, this has to end
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There's always this fine, fine line
between being a lover and a friend.

It *****.

If only I could cut this line and
make these two words mean the same thing.
If only I could, I would.

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Mari Anjelyn Jan 2015
Losing* a loved one
Is something that can't be undone
That person may be gone
But he will always be a special one
Mari Anjelyn Jan 2015
Tossing and turning every night
Waiting for you to shed me some light
You were once here, much to my delight
Now you are gone, out of my sight
Mari Anjelyn Nov 2014
Trapped in this room thinking
Trying to keep myself from crying
'Cause all you had left me is nothing
Nothing but emptiness and longing
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Been there.
Done that.
Again.
And again.
And again.

This vicious cycle has to end.

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Mari Anjelyn Dec 2014
I couldn't find another rhyme
To lovingly write to you this time
I guess this happens every time
I don't think of you, oh how sublime!
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I'm trying not to think about you.
I don't want to, but I have to.

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Mari Anjelyn Dec 2014
Clear, bright skies I see
They fill my heart with glee
Somehow they reminded me
So much more than you and me
Mari Anjelyn Dec 2014
Another day, another ordinary day
To let go, to move on, to find my way
All I want is for you to hear me say
All I ever wanted was for you to *stay
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Just another ordinary day.
I need a little dose of happiness.
I miss you.
Do you miss me too?
I wish you do.

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Mari Anjelyn Jan 2015
Unloved* and undesired
Felt like the universe conspired
Unfocused and uninspired
Tell me, will I ever get tired?
Mari Anjelyn May 2015
With eyes closed, my mind often wanders
In a place as calm as the deep blue waters
The pain I felt when you left me still lingers
Why did I let you slip through my fingers?

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