I hear a sound
In the middle of the night
Nobody is awake
Except for me
The sound
It rings
Like a bell
It won't stop
The alarm
It's a warning
To save me
From me

Creations. Delete
Friends. Delete
Toughts. Delete
Feelings. Delete
Life. Delete

I don't know who I am
What I'm doing
What life means
Are you going to tell me
Tell me who I am
What to do
What my life means

We are polar opposites
you grow towards the sun, i towards the moon
yet i feel, we were made to love each other

You’re brave
But in pain
May I help
You say no
You think yes
But they won’t let me
I’m sorry
I don’t want to lose you
But
I can’t help
Not allowed to
I’m sorry

Heaven. You wanna go there don't you?
Enjoy. All the good moments
Love. Your friends and family
Peace. Wish it was everywhere

That smile
That beautiful smile
You think it wouldn't hide a thing
But that smile was created
To hide
Every
Single
Thing

Time and space, it's all moving
But what if I'm not ready to move
I wanna stay here, I feel safe here
Why are you all leaving?

after such a long time i wasn’t aware this feeling could return.
it’s quite ironic how just now i realise that i haven’t changed at all the last 2 years,
i still want to watch it all burn
i try to convince myself i’m different, new and improved .
but the same things still haunt me .
and i still don’t know how to cope,
except for with a rope.
forever unchanged.