Don't deny me my share,
Of the sorrow and pain you so hide
Give me all your love
And the hurt deep within your eyes

Let me take a stand,
And fall all over again in your lies
Let me take your hand
And show you what's kept inside

In my box of tears and scars,
An abyss that swallows all i keep
In the wake of a million stars
While my wrists silently weeps  

Stare in the mirror,
Can you not see what lies beyond
With your every whisper
Why don't you bring that blade along

Draw on me what you see,
Let the pain run it's course
Bear wounds, and let it be
And ask, What is it all worth for


To be made into ashes,
That swirl in 'tis moon-light
A gush of wind and solitude
A tunnels end has no light

As we walk towards morrow,
With handful of yesterday we keep
Every step is met by thorns
As my wrists silently weeps




Let it be known,
When they see our red
Of what we held inside
A part of their regret
In this maze me walk,
Every wall towers high
We gave birth to our corpse
In the dead of 'tis night
Not to be left alone,
In a hope to be alive
We kissed the blade,
In a hope to survive
But ghosts never hear,
The otherside of our tale
In 'tis land of the fallen
The brave one we so hail

Gone in a whisper,
Words pay no heed to the voice
In a deep slumber, to die
Stains of failure ever so moist
Keep distance and fall,
The pit will consume our soul
In 'tis journey to sun-rise
The clouds will devour us all
Charred pieces of stone,
What's left of our heart
Pushed in every direction
And being slowly ripped apart





Don't keep me from self,
There's no one else i made
With time and in rain
All but me will fade

Let me meet my maker,
Ever so if it's just star-dust
In the hollow of my dreams
Where lullabies never rust


Hold my love for me,
As i struggle to be freed  
For-ever in this chaos
As my wrists silently weeps

To be made of dark,
No flickering light shall ever betray
In the black of my eyes
Where all that ever lived is gray

Stab me where i left,
Bring me back from the dead
Burn me to melt my name
As i exhale self with every breath

'tis world knows no end,
Every road speaks in circles
Every word travels in disguise
And every scar screams ******

Yet, they'll come when we're gone,
Every one of them who're asleep
In the wake of a million stars
As my wrists silently weeps

Words are hard to come by,
As i sit alone in my memories
Maybe, it's all gone from my eyes
But it's all i have left to see
It howls through the ashes,
As the fumes burn my skin
Walking through these broken doors
But there's nothing left within
Faces forgotten and gone,
But voices will never leave
I hear it when I'm alone,
It hurts sometimes when i bleed
An ocean of sun-rise,
A tear drop be made in sea
Taste the saline fume
And let this world be
To an unknown land,
Take my hand and disappear
Through this madness
A new age will appear

Take a hammer and poke a hole
Familiar sting all over again
Drunk wizard dances on a pole
too high to even re-call his name

'tis drunken night will shine-on,
Magic of the stars will wither  
You and me all alone  
In illusion of the drunk wizard


It's too lost to be old,
Where i once buried my tears
The long walk to home,
Left behind so many years

Now i wake beneath the sky,
And i can see it haven't changed
Where horizon meets our lies
Sun is hidden behind our stains

To be made into ashes,
Sulphur fumes still burn the skin
Black mass that won't return
As I inhale the smoke in

To be left in moments
Too slow to reach the end
I will end up just like you
To be yours forever my friend

And i'll leave nothing behind
What have I to call mine?
These winds won't leave a sign,
Of the old rotten time


Take a hammer and poke a hole
Familiar sting all over again
Drunk wizard dances on a pole
too high to even re-call his name

'tis drunken night will shine-on,
Magic of the stars will wither  
You and me all alone  
In illusion of the drunk wizard


Ice falls in the ocean,
To be made into a sea
We conquered the mountains
But we could never see
What lies beyond the horizon
Where sky meets our lies
depths of the known someone
Reflecting from our eyes
In the clear of the dawn
We shall meet our demise
Too afraid of the dark,
Another night shall rise
Ever beating of a ghost heart,
Against the sound of age
curtains will burn to the ground
And our echo will fade
All there will be left,
Will be a bag full of regret
Magic will turn to dust
And all the illusions will be bled


Take a hammer and poke a hole
Familiar sting all over again
Drunk wizard dances on a pole
too high to even re-call his name

'tis drunken night will shine-on,
Magic of the stars will wither  
You and me all alone  
In illusion of the drunk wizard

Time flies past like an uncaged bird,
Into the blue skies lest it unfurls
All of these lies that i've hold onto
will come back one day and hurt

Where was I walking to,
What is that I'm walking away from
Everything I knew was right here
A moment of truth and it's all gone

Why can't I be the man in the mirror,
Why does this world keeps its lies
I try so hard to hear your whispers
But every word escapes my eyes

Why did I lead myself to this place,
It still pains that no one understands
Is it so easy to believe my face,
And not to be seen for who I am

Be gone like the thunder in the sky,
A flash of light and a roar that'll die
I am here today like I always was
And I still have no clue why

The layers of disguise won't ever melt,
And the mask will change with every breath
I know nothing remains the same,
Why is it so easy to remember and so hard to forget

I see the world through its scars,
Torn and left to rot in my heart
I try to hold on to these winds,
As they try to rip me apart

Now all that's left is just me,
these wounds that'll never heal
with every step I lose myself  
And I know morrow I won't even feel

It's gone just like it came,
Only to leave memories behind
Now I don't know where I am,
Maybe somewhere no one can find

There's no comfort in this solitude,
Of what I have craved for so long
Mute as it is, world never cries
This silence makes me feel so alone

And now i'm back to where I belong,
At the edge of my own, I crawl
Everytime I find the key to be free
I run straight ahead into another wall

As I let go of the last string,
Of which binds me to my own
I know i'll wake up the same
I know I will be gone

Come back and haunt me once more,
Lie to me that I am of this world
Make me see through these mirrors
Take me away form where I lurk

And for the last time make me feel,
It's been so long since i've felt
Life running through my veins
I've lived far too long in this hell

Let me walk till the end,
Even if I never make it back
I've lost everything else
This journey is all I have


This journey is all we ever have

"stop, Avi you make no sense,
What is so wrong with you, eh
when will you understand?!
You, your words are chaos
You don't write poetry,
you write crap man!"


That's how it is, I am but a kid,
My words make no sense,
My thoughts?
They say i've to get rid of it
The world outside maybe cruel,
But I thought i'll be whole with the ones my kind,
But no!
To them i'm just someone with no depth in his rhymes
Maybe I never read enough,
So my words don't echo the dead voices
I just began to write when I first learned to spell
But again I never had many choices
I tried to break away from the herd,
Those rules and conventions never held me down,
But they always found faults in my method,
Made me turn around


"wait, Avi haha what is this ?
Do these words even mean a thing ?
Your poems are so bad,
Mate, you are good for nothing
And what's up with this one over here,
Do you think anyone will read it ?
Even if they did by mistake,
Don't you think they'll find it stupid ?


He walks on the lonely trails,
Forgotten with passage of time
Every sight is a word,
Painting a picture in his Mind
He picks a blade instead,
Time to draw some scars
Even if we run to the end of the world,
We can never escape who we really are
He makes a wish and lets go,
May the winds reach their place
He looks in the mirror and stares hard,
But he can't recognize his own face


"today I feel like dying,
Its 3 am and everyone's asleep
I guess i'll go for a walk
Been weeks now but I just can't sleep"

"it was quiet dark and lonely,
But the silence held some kind of magic
My hands ache to write something,
But I won't, I know it'll be too tragic"


Take me as I am,
If I am nothing else, i'm pure
Even though I can't write
I still feel like a poet down to the core
I know you'll frown,
But I cant lie, I dont want to live anymore
But I know someday i'll die,
So i'm 'gonna put up with life somemore  
All I want is to be heard,
Guess that's not too much to ask
To move someone with my words,
A quiet feeling that would last
I don't want to be remembered
But I want someone to know who I was,
That I always found my way back, alone
No matter how lost I was
That even though I kissed the blade,
It never was a friend,
that I am sorry for all I did,
But sometimes I just wanted it all to end


"why are you sad , Avi ?
Don't you have everything ?"

- I guess something's wrong with my brain,
It just keeps coming back all over again


"why don't you opt for therapy"

-them drugs could never make me happy

"you don't have to be so ******* yourself"

- sometimes it's the only thing that helps


"Avi, remember we're all here for you"


-I don't care, i've fought all my battles without you


"if you go on like this you'll even lose the ones that are left"


-I guess it's true what doc said, no one can save me from myself



I wait in the hall,
She calls my name out
"he is ready for you"
Rings a little loud
I walk inside the door,
There he is , so old and grey
I wonder what he'll say
But there's just silence today
"Avi, i saw your reports
It shows improvement
i guess those sessions are working"
-what about my inner torment ?
"it's all in your mind"
- i know
" these pills will help you "
-i know
"take one in the morning
And one in the night,
One when you feel sick
And one when you feel alright"
- will it ever stop ?
"it's hard to say
- why me ,doc?
- Avi, you were born this way...




"avi, I'm sorry but i can't stay"

- i know , just go away


"i wish you could change"


-I'm comfortable in strange


"you don't have to be this way"


- but that's all who i am today..




Take me away and bring back my remains,
Standing on the other side won't make  the winds change
It'll all be as it was and I'll be lost,
Burning me won't fade my name
Hurt me with your lies,
And **** me with your truth
If i had a chance to be happy
Trust me, i would
But there's no hope,
I can't live in lies
This is all who i am ,
And i don't even know why
Maybe I'll learn to pretend,
Maybe I'll die
But no matter what happens,
I know there'll be no one by my side





" you're at it again , don't you?
You just make a fool of yourself,
Stop showing them your work
Or they'll start making fun of you themselves,
What's the matter, Avi ?
Did my words made you cry ?
Now write a poem about it,
That no one will ever read , oh my!"


I always struggled with words,
They were so hard to come by
And when they finally did,
I froze and couldn't write
But when I did write,
I never stopped to see what they meant ,
I could finally fight my demons,
And I could do it over and over again
I wish I was better,
And could fuse beauty in my lines
But I know i'm ugly
And this world never misses a chance to remind,
That I am not a poet
I am but a kid
That no one will ever take me seriously,
And I'll have to live with it


"avi, do you think they understand?"
-some of them

" do you feel alone?"
-no,i have my pen


"Avi, you have to stop writing so dark"
-why ?

"it's not what they want"
- a lie


"so you think they like it?"
-i don't care

"are you any good?"
-no, but I'm getting there



I speak to you with all my heart,
Oh, let me be, just let me be
If I ever write my heart out for you,
Close your eyes, don't you see
if I ever try to make you understand,
Remember, I am not what I claim
Even if I think I belong somehow,
I know, you and me are not the same  





I am but a kid, one sad sad kid...



Bleed away and sleep away,
All your nightmares, dream away
Oh child, step down
From your bed of thorns, walk away...

"mommy, where is daddy?"
- he's gone far away and will never return
"where did he go mommy"
- to the other side of the sun

* little Jessica
(oh that's really far)
*mommy
(bless her little heart)

" mommy, but tim told me he died"
- now, now you're too small to know
" but i'm too big for your lies"
-I guess you ought to know
" how did he die, mommy?"
- well, you know how he was
" he was really nice to me"
- well, thats not how he was
"how was he mommy"
- he was a bad person
" no, he was nice mommy"
-remember how he used his gun
" he let me try it too"
- oh, when Jessica ?!
"he told me not to tell you"
- but you must, Jessica!
"alright, but I want a candy"
-ok, Jessica
" and an ice-cream too"
- anything you want, Jessica!
" I want a pretty dress"
- you're crossing your limit
" other one is so old"
- but you still fit in it


*little Jessica
( i'm hungry )
*mother
(I hope theres nothing to worry)

"mommy i'm hungry"
- first tell me, what did daddy made you do
" he told me to aim and shoot"
- and did you ?!
"yeah, but I missed"
- aim at what ?!
"he told me not to tell you"
- why not ?!
" well he said it'll be our secret"
- you can tell mommy, dear
" what if he gets angry"
- DADDY IS DEAD, HE WON'T HEAR
" jeez, calm down"
- tell me what did you do
" first get me a gun"
" i'll show you"
- no, you can't have it
" than I won't tell you "
- alright, danm it !

*little Jessica
( i'm really hungry, danm!)
*mother
( he was such an evil man )

" give it to me "
- Please, be careful !
" just watch me "
- thats the trigger, don't pull
"jeez, mommy relax "
- it's all so wrong
" do you want it back?"
- I have to be strong
" so, he told me to hold it"
" and to be steady "
- don't aim at me
" woah, thats what he said to me"
" why are you so sweaty"
- Jessica , put it down
" why mommy, daddy's not around"
- give it to me now
" i don't like the way you sound"
- don't force me
" you can't, it has a live round "
- Jessica, get away from me
" than he begged for his life "
- don't come near me
" he told me to walk by his side "
- Please, don't do this
" and than I laughed because I thought he was funny "
- its not funny, get rid of it
" don't worry, i'm better now it'll be quick mommy"


*little Jessica
( i'm really really hungry)

She asked me if i was a man,
She couldn't see the monster in the mirror
I was afraid that she'll **** me
So i let her whisper
Her every breath left a mark on my skin,
And i could feel the monster waking within,
Her beautiful eyes on me
Made me sing
A song that made her smile,
In the dark as i softly weep
I caress her,
And watch her fall asleep
I stare at her,
As she bleeds
Where was fate gone,
When we decided to meet



But hey wait,
what if she never wakes,
I'll forever be lost in this night full of scars
Hey wait,
what if i never wake,
Will all the love she had for me ever last
Hey wait,
I've to run away
Before she can see through my mask


When I'm around her i feel so weak,
Just one touch and I'll fall apart
Why can't i make a ****,
It was never this hard
With every hit she withers away,
I can't see in moonlight
She reaches for me,
folds of sheets so white
And i know I'll be lost
For the rest of the night
It feels like heaven
And i have died
She lies on a bed of thorns,
Made it paradise
And i know she can see me,
With her closed eyes


But hey wait,
what if she never wakes,
I'll forever be lost in this night full of scars
Hey wait,
what if i never wake,
Will all the love she had for me ever last
Hey wait,
I've to run away
Before she can see through my mask


She rests in my arms,
I could easily snap her neck
But i know I'll never reach
So i stand back
And i know she's dreaming about me,
But all i am is a nightmare
I know we can never make it now,
there she is, everywhere
Everywhere i see ,
There's this scent she brought with her
She asked me if i was a man,
She couldn't see the monster in the mirror


But hey wait,
what if she never wakes,
I'll forever be lost in this night full of scars
Hey wait,
what if i never wake,
Will all the love she had for me ever last
Hey wait,
I've to run away
Before she can see through my mask
Hey wait,
i don't know what to say
Everything is stained in the shape of her heart

Once upon a time,
There was a man with no soul
He wandered into darkness
And locked the door
The key was lost to reasons,
enslaved in his heart
Caressing the morbid season
He walked too far
With no sign of life,
Calmness engulfed his eyes
Everything he ever touched
Always withered and died
Everyone he once knew,
Now were gone
Didn't knew who he was
Nor where he was from
Memories filled his despair
Of a time unknown
Where he belonged
Walls of a broken home
Death loomed the surface,
Of the night he dwelled
Dig out his pain,
In the pit where he fell
Comfort of sorrow
Now engulfed his heart
It felt like rain,
Knew not what these tears are
Embraced his fate
Chewed out his scars
Where he lies,
In the wake of stars
Stuck in his vision,
Of a dream he once had
Whenever he wakes
Everything goes black
And he's left in confusion,
Of what these years mean
Time never was a friend
Wouldn't let him dream,
Now he's empty
Every moment is cold
Moon is his silver
And sun is his cursed gold
Who he is,
Not even the mirror knows
Broken and cracked
His reflection outsold
Bleeding his nightmares
In the sea of his disguise
He swims in darkness
In the caress of the night




Once upon a time,
There was a man
Made deal with the devil,
Evil- he didn't understand
Sang on the crossroad
The song of hate,
With words of sorrow
Devil did wake
Thirst for blood
Made him blind
In the rules of hell,
His soul was bind
The deed was done
And morrow was gone
Upon the crossroad
He stood alone
With evil in his heart,
He made his way
Devil was gone,
But a ghost did stay
Claws of madness
Now griped his heart
He sold the world
And watched it fall apart






Once upon a time,
There was child in pain
He was different
And for some insane
He was quite
And he was deranged
They said he was the devil
With evil in his name
He was lonely
And he was lost
Reached out to the world
But they left him to rot
He knew about love,
It tasted bitter then hate
He watched them sleep,
To never wake
He made his way
To the land god forsaked
The world sold him,
To be the devils bait
And the devil grinned
He said,
"Be careful what you wish for
Or what you create"


Once upon a time,
A weight was borne
In depth of hell
A soul was born
He knew not of love,
Or the god they claimed
He knew not of hate,
Or the devil they blamed
For they were gods themselves
Ruling from their thrones
Fist of iron
And a heart of stone
In the onset of a nightmare
He was grown,
Smoke covered the sky
And the sun never shone
He was sold in hate,
All he had ever known
The man who sold the world
Was a god- one of their own

I'm that fragment of society
That was cut before it could be reaped
Now I lie here in ecstasy
Waiting to preach





hate




My black heart blending in night sky
I will fall like rain
There'll be no clouds
Just pain


From me to you
You to me




We bite each other
I love the taste of your blood





Smear me all over
Cover me in mud








Bury me in the ground
Where I won't be found








And I'll make this land barren
With hatred profound








Kiss my feet
Are you worthy enough ?









I am that seed
That will make this land burn









And you'll perish for your mistakes
What you've done you'll never know









Ask the mighty one
What have you done





Why you deserve my hate
My vengeance and fury














Vision is cold , no ?
Sight is blurry











With you not knowing
What you made me become









The cold one









You're the society aren't you ?

I'm done being human,
I don't like the places it leads
All those hidden emotions
That I just can't seem to reach
The saints hung on the cross
And all he ever does is preach
The air is full of holy words
In this smoke I can't even breathe



Take my hand now,
And lead me to my grave
I don't need your love
For i've seen you hate



Why am I talking to you,
You've never seen my nightmare
All my sins I hurl upon you
And silence is all you can hear
In the crowd I feel more alone,
Even though you're everywhere
tomorrow i'll be gone,
But you'll always be right here



Every breath that escapes me,
Is a smile in your eyes
You want to show me the truth
When all you have are lies




What of these sweet dreams,
And the lullabies that haunt
Why are you still here
What is that you want
I've given you everything
Yet, You still seek more
Why did I ever embrace you,
What was it all worth for



Will you hunt me down,
Now that I don't belong
And take away my crown
If I don't come along



Every blade that kiss my skin,
Will be in your name
As the scar travels within
It will remind you of pain
You watch me fall apart,
Don't even bother to pull out your knife
You squeeze my bleeding heart
And ask me, what i've done with my life



As I embrace the other side,
You whisper in my disgrace
You broke every mirror
Now you want to scar my face




I'm not what I was,
Something inside changed
I was born human
But i'll never be one of you again
If that's what it takes,
i'll scar myself with a smile
You're not awake,
Hav'nt seen the devil in a while




You will fear once again,
Of the ghost you so made
When i'm done with you
Every colour will fade




As I rip open your Soul,
Stare deep in your eyes
Remember you're the evil
I was made from your lies
As I make my way to your heart,
My claws will hurt no more
Can you not see in the dark,
Where you enslaved me for ever-more





I won't even hear you scream,
For i'll be lost in your demise
As the blade brings down the wrath
You'll see the human in my eyes








And i'll see the human in yours

bite into my soul and
taste your dirt,
inflict upon me your
rules of hurt.

make a wish in the
fountain of blood,
take a sip and you shall
conquer the world.



hang me for all the world to see,
even in my death i shall walk free.




show me the strength
of your crown,
let me be chased by your
blood hounds.

cut me and scar me, burn me
to the ground,
why walk straight when the
world's 'round.



lock me in a cage so i cannot leave,
even in these walls i shall walk free.



burn my skin to reach
my soul,
why break walls when you
see no door ?

come inside, take away all i know,
feed my hatred by hating me some more.



erase me so i could never be,
even in my extinction i shall walk free.



tie my hands and give
me a blade,
tell me who my enemies are
and war shall be made.

whisper to me the words
that degrade,
and i'll scream them at the world,
as i fade.



**** the lullabies so i can never dream,
even in my nightmares i shall walk free.






now take my hand and lead me to paradise,
fire of hell blowing through the kingdom of ice.


sit on your throne and try to swallow your pride,
for this slave will never be yours,
he's the master of his own life.




hang me for all the world to see,
even in my death i shall walk free.

I'm not 'gonna talk about suicide because it's a ****** thing to do
I know life is pretty hard as it is but again I won't put the blame on you

I know you're not stupid, maybe I am
I scream at you so much but you just don't understand
What is your reason, oh you sad sad man
I know you're not a coward but again I know you can't take a stand

They told me that I was wierd and in the mirror they could see a creep
I put it all on myself and with bleeding wrists I did weep
And than I took a noose and made sure it wasn't loose
Never bothered with a suicide note, I was struck with blues
And than I died with not a tear in my eyes,
I left every moment just lurking beneath the sky
And than I met God and he told me that I was stupid
And I told him he was the one who burned me with a cupid

And he told me that he had planned for so much more
And I told him why did he not tell me all this before

And he told me, oh child you couldn't see through your blues
So give me all your pain now and i'll put the crown of blame on you

"you're no fool but again you were never wise ,
Bad things happen to good people and that was the reason of your demise"

"and if you had waited till sunrise you could have seen the smoke clear
Couldn't you just watch breaking bad and all that **** and waited a few years my dear"

-but god, all I did was to just die, what's all the fuss about, that I didn't try ?
I tried but I failed and than I failed again without even trying,
My life was nothing but a joke and the world around me was dying

Enough screamed the god " I am god   and I crown you as a fool, I don't need a reason, I have all the universe to rule,
I don't have to argue with you punk, oh you emo kids think you're all so cool!"

"i'll make sure you're never re-born again , i'll put it up with my crew"


-what did I do to desreve this wrath of yours,  you never lent me a blanket when I was feeling cold,
'he will help you' 'he's always here for you', I was always told ,
But now I can see you are not what you were , man look at those wrinkles you've grown old

Shut up for godsake screamed the god

-you raised me in a broken home, dad was drunk, mamma a *****
I was ***** when I was four, do I need say more?
Where were you when I was popping those pills,
When daddy died and mamma didn't come home still,
I had to work my *** off when I was six to pay the bills
And I knew my chances of making out were nil

-in short it was going perfectly fine and I took that as a good sign,
And than you introduced me to a girl out of the blues
I knew than I was in love but I tried so hard(failed) to refuse
But you had to show you're 'godness' ,now didn't you?
Why did you land me a better job, who told you to?
Made me think I was a better man when I was with her,
And I could see a smile forming when I  looked in the mirror.


Are you done yet ?


-and than BOOM! , OUT OF NOWHERE you had to give her that stupid silver screen cancer,
Doctors have her two years to live but in only 2 months something killed her!


-now tell me god , what more did you had in store for me ?








God: "are you marilyn Lucas?, I have a feeling that I may be wrong"









- err, no I'm jack bundy, what the **** is going on?









"oh, i'm so sorry, it seems like my crew made a big mistake,
You can collect your token from the stands and proceed to the heavens gates"








"what ? , was it all a test ? "










"Hahah, this one is on the house"






Awkward silence





*to the crew,
"we 'gotta stop the suicides, it's becoming too confusing,
Who goes to heaven, who goes to hell ,  it's very time consuming"




I told you I wasn't 'gonna talk about suicide because it's a ****** thing to do

When the smoke leaves the sky
You will be able to see more clearly
There will be tears in your lovely eyes
I know you loved me ever so dearly

And if i get a chance to whisper
I will tell you all there is in my heart
You could see me like a mirror
Life was never supposed to be this harsh

All i wanted was to make you smile
To make you so proud of me
But the road i chose made me lost
In my illusion i couldn't see

Now hurt escapes my every breath
And it kills me that i made you cry
But i know you can still feel me
And you know that your son did try

You always did what you could
Loved me like there was no tomorrow
And if i could take back i would
That I was the one to give you sorrow




I know you still wait for me
Your eyes always at the door
I know you still have hope in me
But I've to disappoint you once more
I travelled so far away from you
And i was never ever truly gone  
It breaks me to break your heart
But Mama, i'm never coming home



We lived in a broken home
And you know life wasn't fair
You were never the same again
After the night dad disappeared

You always stood like a rock
But the cracks began to appear
There wasn't much to talk
With all the weights we shared

You always wanted to move out
But we never had any money
I grew up in that neighbourhood
Where no day was ever sunny

you always tried to warn me
But i was a rebel without a cause
I don't know what got in me
I just didn't knew how to stop

Now every chance has faded
And i don't have much time
All these years you waited
Its time to leave them behind




I know you still wait for me
Your eyes always at the door
I know you still have hope in me
But I've to disappoint you once more
I travelled so far away from you
And i was never ever truly gone  
It breaks me to break your heart
But Mama, i'm never coming home



You always taught me to love
But i grew up in so much hate
This life has been so rough
And now it's just too late

I know i can't make it
Wish i could say goodbye
Be in your arms once again
To see you before i die

Mama don't be sad
Now i can see my mistakes
I know you'll be mad
But now I'm truly awake


I won't die in hate
For i always had your love
I'll always be there
Just find me in the stars above

When the smoke leaves the sky
You will be able to see more clearly
There will be tears in your lovely eyes
But remember i loved you ever so dearly




Maybe in a different time
We could have been together
I would have come back to you
you wouldn't have to wait forever
I know you will still wait for me
Your eyes will be on that door
I would give up just anything
To be in your arms once more
I travelled so far away from you
But i was never ever truly gone  
It breaks me to break your heart
But Mama, i'm never coming home

Let the doctor heal you of your misfortune
Get here in my office I'll play the romantic tunes
I can't even see you in this drug induced fumes
How about just dessert and than we find a room
Come here, lie on the the table and let the doctor operate
Take of your clothes, i'm a doctor don't hesitate
It's an emergency and we have no time to waste
We need to operate now or it'll be too late
Let me just take a Look at your private place
Oh you look so wet now, maybe you need to get laid
I'm a hopeless romantic but there's no time for a first date
You try to cover yourself but there's a different expression on your face


So let the doctor,
Take you for a wild ride
Got the prescription,
There's a load of pills that I hide
Hello I'm Dr Dickson
I'll operate on you tonight
I'm the doctor addiction
Now open up your legs wide



It's getting hot let me take of my white coat
Operating table is so Rocky, feels like I'm on a boat
Hands of perfection running back and forth
Here take my poking device, grab and hold
You look so familiar , have we ever met before ?
I think I did your sister too, how is she, still sore !?
I think we're running dry, need to apply the **** a bit more
I hope you'll be satisfied, when you walk out of that door
Everything happened so fast I didn't even catch your name
I can be sloppy sometimes, so I'll take that blame
But hey I'm a doctor, you can scream all you want, no shame
I hope you like the service and you can visit me again
But let's not talk now, it's the part where I need to concentrate
Don't you worry now, there's no need to sedate
Here, you can hold my hands as I penetrate
It'll be over soon for there's another appointment and I don't want to be late


So let the doctor,
Take you for a wild ride
Got the prescription,
There's a load of pills that I hide
Hello, I'm Dr Dickson
I'll operate on you tonight
I'm the doctor addiction
Now open up your legs wide

All i want to do is break away , today , i want to break away
No more closed windows , lets break down those doors  today
Out in the open, i want to taste the sunshine
Just one more hit , need a fix and I'll be on my way
Hit the road, no holding back , 'gotta wash over some black
Been a while , all the pretty needles are aligned to stab
Too sane for my own good but now I've 'gotta break bad
All the pills just swallowing me, made me so mad
And all the other kids are out playin' in the sunshine
I've 'gotta leave the shadow now , about the time
Part of the sin for so long , ready for the lazy crime
Just one more hit, don't worry , I wont be fine
The maiden blazing through the summer heat
Remembering the lessons that loneliness  teach
Out in the corner there's a boogeyman trying to preach
I know i can't fly but there's just no land beneath my feet
Its happening again , I'm going insane , shutting down my brain
Just voices in my head, i need some more *******
The world's a stalker , humans are just so strange  
Falling back to my happy place , i need  Cobain
I can hear my heart beat, sounds like a grenade blast
Everyone's walking around in a Justin beiber mask
I've 'gotta **** everyone now and I've to do it fast
'cause i know my super human strength won't last
Head banging super cute droid just passed me by
So rude , didn't even care to say one stupid hi
She knew i was drooling just for her,
She even had the latest v5.1 ultra zoom eyes
After all i belong to the race who created them in first place
I'm her master , 'gotta teach 'em a lesson before they take over
'gotta head to the store and buy the latest  Angelina Jolie re-make
That kardashian woman is just at every corner
But i have no money , I forgot i was so broke
Gave my all to the scary chimpanzee for one smoke
But there's nothing more hilarious than seeing a chimpanzee trip on coke
I strongly recommend the ban on chimpanzees in the strip clubs to be revoked
I wonder if chimpanzees like the stupid  droids
I've seen planet of apes and i know soon humans will be destroyed
But chimpanzees against the droids that'll be an awesome ploy
Every science fiction nerd will erupt in ecstatic joy
Oh boy, if i could only remain in a trip forever
I would've been there in that epic final  battle
I hope tomorrow I'll wake up in one piece ,
Now that I've banged Jolie, I'll sleep better

Wore your old shoes
A walk to where you are    
on different road

got your old blues
an ocean in my heart
a different boat  

the same window
looking at the stars
a different view

In same clothes  
mirror on the wall
a different you

Taste of your words
Written on the same page
a different tale

Made of hurt
Trapped in the same cage
a different place

I stand watching as you keep walking on
The last drop has been bled and now i'm all alone
What little hope I had you took it along
And now even the stars in the dark sky are gone



Hurt me once more O' you cruel wicked world
Take me to the memories i've never been
Make an ocean from my tears and blood
A dark and cold abyss that i've never seen
Drown me in my own nightmares , ignore me once more
Take that last piece of my sanity and ignite me 'cause I'm so cold
Let your fire make me want to wish that I was never born
Make me feel all your pain that no one has ever known
Its still not enough , every fall that you've shown
My eyes are still closed and they won't mourn
Open them for me , so I can be blind again
Take me with you and away into the unknown
Let the lingering dream finally be buried
And now is the time to lead me to the unmarked grave
I've to reach home soon , mama will be worried
Give this heart of stone what it craves , more mistakes.




Show me the way to myself , a road never walked upon
Let the strangers strangle me along the way
Burning with rage , a seed that i've sown
Let me walk back to my demise and be on my own
Burn my skin with every lonely breath I take
Creating reality that we never wanted to make
Now what have I , an endless nightmare that I made
Fed it all my hurt and now it's ready to take my place
Hurt me again O' you cruel wicked world
It has been so long that I can't even remember my face
Bury me once more in your dark and dirt
**** me for I never want to escape from this maze
Spill my blood and paint it all across the walls
Tell them my story , tell them I was never lost
Now take my hand and let me fade once and for all
Walk me to the edge of myself and just let me fall.





Let my tears sing for the rest of the lonely world
Make them see through my every hollow word
Let them be one with all the pain and despair  
Make them see what I couldn't in my hurt
Let me be the road to guide them back home
The warm shadow that won't ever leave them alone
The face in the mirror when everyone else is gone
Let me be the one for whom they would all mourn
Let a song be heard from the depth of my grave
And let the stars be found again in the approaching sunrise
For every lost Soul trapped inside the dark maze
Make them remember that we'll always have the sky
Hurt me once more O' you cruel wicked world
make this ocean of dread rage with all that's left alive  
Burn me down with all your wrath and fury
And watch me with dismay as I slowly come back to life






Hurt me once more O' you cruel wicked world



Hurt.

Hey you, keep looking but I won't say a word
For you , i'll open up and you can see all the hurt
Every scar , that runs down till the end corner of the world
And the gun-shot wound that killed the lonely bird
Not our fault but it will always be our mistake to keep
Hush now, pretty child you don't have to weep
Come now , its been a while and I know you want to sleep
Come here , lie on this bed of thornes and let it cut you deep
I always wondered but now I have no reason to dream
Because now I know nothing is as it seems
Walking out of close doors into different realms
Always afraid to wander where i've never been
You only touch me where my scars run the deepest
And now i'm even more afraid to hold your hands
I've been away for a while and I need to rest
I hope with every word that I don't say you will understand
Maybe silence will teach you what my words could not
May the preacher be truth and ever so wise
The ink will fade away in the end and the pages will rot
You can paint over the ugly parts will all your lies
Hey you , we've been talking from ages now
But I still don't know who you are or whats your name
Now you , all you need is to turn around
Face me and tell me every word of your pain
I need to know what makes us what we are
You've always been the one to listen to your heart
I need to know what makes us the same
You and me , we are a thousand miles apart
But I can still see you in every mirror on the wall
You can stand on all you want but you'll still fall
Into this nightmare that will strangle your thoughts
One bad seed and you will have to burn them all
I've been waiting and thats the only thing that I remember
It feels like i've been here with you forever
And I still don't know the colour of your eyes
Every word had always been spoken together
And now i have no clue what's there on your lips
Just smoke and haze that hides your face
I've forgotten the last time I saw through the mist
A song that plays over and over like a maze  
Hey you , can you still look out of the window
Can you still witness the world pass us by
Do you , still dream about the quiet meadow
I can see the the light slowly leaving your eyes
Will you too , leave me alone now that you're lost
Or will you , find me again when i'm about to leave
The time has decayed and now I know what you're not
I can see you more clearly and I know you're not me
Hey you, keep looking but I won't say a word
For you , i'll open up and you can see all the hurt
Every scar , that runs down till the end corner of the world
And the gun-shot wound that killed the lonely bird

Will hurt no-more.

Time stands still as the approaching footsteps cut through the quietness  
She stands in the corner ,  her every part now drenched in darkness

Every thought that crosses her mind is now decayed and rotten
Every door that stands between 'her' and 'them' is now broken

She can even hear them whisper but the words are lost over her heart beat
How could she be so careless , she knew better to not fall asleep

She knows they want her and they're just waiting for the right time
Nobody else can see them but she knows its not just in her mind

She knows better to not trust anyone , everyone else is blind
They took them all away , anyone that left her behind

She waits now , silently , for them to come near and show their face
She's changed now , slowly , in the mirror there's a smile on her face







__


"i think someone is watching over us"
-no there's no one in the room love
"i can feel them lurking in the shadow"
-i don't think so, every door is shut
" i had a bad dream last night"
-did you take your pills on time?
"i couldn't see their faces in moonlight"
-don't worry , everything's 'gonna be fine
"and the front door was left open"
-was that a part of your dream too?
"every picture frame was broken"
-are you sure , it wasn't you ?
"i know it wasn't just a dream"
-but there's no broken frame anywhere
"I'm sure of what I've seen "
-there must be something some where
"i know you don't believe me"
-i want to but i know its all in your mind
"i know they can see me"
-but there's 'gotta be some sign
"its right there but you can't see"
-I've to leave I'm running late
"you know , we can never be free"
-have to increase the dose you take
"so you're 'gonna leave me alone"
-there's no one here , it'll be alright
"I'm so scared of the unknown"
-I'll be back before the night
"don't leave me , they'll **** me"
-stop being so paranoid
"come here , be with me "
-hush now , just be quite


__


"they came for me last night"
-I'm sorry i had to stay back
"are you even listening to me"
-i think you've gone mad
"please, believe me , all i say is true"
-i can't live in these lies
"oh , now they want you too"
-what's happening to your eyes?
"i can't let them have you"
-oh , just stop it NOW
"you love me , don't you?"
-I'm not really sure now
"i thought you will trust me"
-i tried but it's now out of control
"please, be with me  , help me"
- you know what , I'm not sure
"I'm so scared , don't leave"
-you're just  insane
"so you don't believe"
- can't play your games
"i can't let you go"
-stop being a freak
"there's too much you know"
-yeah I'll tell them all that you're a freak
" come , i want to show you something"
-no,i really don't want to see
"for the last time "

".....than you can leave"



___


"do you like my new friend?"
-STAY AWAY FROM ME
"see how sharp it is at the end "
-DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH ME
"i can let you go , its not safe"
-PLEASE...i'm sorry...just let me go  
"don't worry , have faith"
-they'll know it was you , THEY'LL KNOW!
"I don't care , i'm doing this for you"
-PLEASE, YOU DON'T HAVE TO
"I cant let them feed on you too"
-we'll run away , somewhere new
"oh , do you think they won't find us?"
-PLEASE, I'm so scared
"nothing will ever be enough"
- DONT COME NEAR , don't you dare
"and what is that you will do,if I do?"
-I don't know, just don't
"I can't let them take away you too"
-PLEASE, I WON'T
"they'll never have you , you're mine"
-PLEASE, PUT IT DOWN
"they're coming, don't have much time"
-are you 'gonna **** me now ?



-i know , you're 'gonna **** me


"stop being so paranoid "



-GET AWAY FROM ME



"hush now , be quite".

Time stands still as the approaching footsteps cut through the quietness  
She stands in the corner ,  her every part now drenched in darkness

Every thought that crosses her mind is now decayed and rotten
Every door that stands between 'her' and 'them' is now broken

She can even hear them whisper but the words are lost over her heart beat
How could she be so careless , she knew better to not fall asleep

She knows they want her and they're just waiting for the right time
Nobody else can see them but she knows its not just in her mind

She knows better to not trust anyone , everyone else is blind
They took them all away , anyone that left her behind

She waits now , silently , for them to come near and show their face
She's changed now , slowly , in the mirror there's a smile on her face







__________


"i think someone is watching over us"
-no there's no one in the room love
"i can feel them lurking in the shadow"
-i don't think so, every door is shut
" i had a bad dream last night"
-did you take your pills on time?
"i couldn't see their faces in moonlight"
-don't worry , everything's 'gonna be fine
"and the front door was left open"
-was that a part of your dream too?
"every picture frame was broken"
-are you sure , it wasn't you ?
"i know it wasn't just a dream"
-but there's no broken frame anywhere
"I'm sure of what I've seen "
-there must be something some where
"i know you don't believe me"
-i want to but i know its all in your mind
"i know they can see me"
-but there's 'gotta be some sign
"its right there but you can't see"
-I've to leave I'm running late
"you know , we can never be free"
-have to increase the dose you take
"so you're 'gonna leave me alone"
-there's no one here , it'll be alright
"I'm so scared of the unknown"
-I'll be back before the night
"don't leave me , they'll **** me"
-stop being so paranoid
"come here , be with me "
-hush now , just be quite


__________


"they came for me last night"
-I'm sorry i had to stay back
"are you even listening to me"
-i think you've gone mad
"please, believe me , all i say is true"
-i can't live in these lies
"oh , now they want you too"
-what's happening to your eyes?
"i can't let them have you"
-oh , just stop it NOW
"you love me , don't you?"
-I'm not really sure now
"i thought you will trust me"
-i tried but it's now out of control
"please, be with me  , help me"
- you know what , I'm not sure
"I'm so scared , don't leave"
-you're just  insane
"so you don't believe"
- can't play your games
"i can't let you go"
-stop being a freak
"there's too much you know"
-yeah I'll tell them all that you're a freak
" come , i want to show you something"
-no,i really don't want to see
"for the last time "

".....than you can leave"






"do you like my new friend?"
-STAY AWAY FROM ME
"see how sharp it is at the end "
-DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH ME
"i can let you go , its not safe"
-PLEASE...i'm sorry...just let me go  
"don't worry , have faith"
-they'll know it was you , THEY'LL KNOW!
"they'll never have you , you're mine"
-PLEASE, PUT IT DOWN
"they're coming, don't have much time"
-are you 'gonna **** me now ? ,



-i know , you're 'gonna **** me


"stop being so paranoid "



-GET AWAY FROM ME



"hush now , be quite".

Your hands reach for mine as i pull you near
My every thought crosses your heart, i know you can hear
There's just silence , an aroma of lust in the air
My hands reach out for you as i touch you everywhere
We're so close now , breathing in each others arms
You moan and squirm , more with every moment that passes by
I strangle you just little to get you warm
And i can see you want me too , its in your eyes
Every part of my being aches for you now
Time stands so still as we are falling down
Into each other , now we can't tell each other apart
Reaching new realms with every beat of our hearts
I slide my fingers against the outline of your face
Hurt me some more , scar me with your every embrace
Tear into my flesh and make me feel pain that i never knew
Set me free so i can taste every part of you
Release every secret that you've hidden deep inside
Show me what we are , take me to your other-side
Blind me with your beauty, infect my sight
Take me to the edge of the unknown with your every bite
Quench my thirst with the touch of your fingers
Touch me deep within where my dreams linger
Let my fantasies fuel the passion in your soul
Move to the rhythm of the night till we become whole
Your dark brown eyes enrage the beast in me
Unshackling the chains , the sweet pain will set us free
Out in the open , now there's no place to hide
Walls are broken , everything else has died
Just us and nothing more to hold us back
Bewitch me with your love , all the hurt you have
Paint me in your blues , show me all your fears
Collide in me , with all the strength you bear
Give me all there is to you in this fading moonlight
Let the spark of our love shine through the worlds hollowness
Show me what we are , take me to your other-side
And let us be lost in this perfect madness

His eyes were red and cold as he gazed upon the throne ,
With hate that ruled his heart he could break every wall of stone
Lost in his own madness , consumed by the betray of the one gones
His breath of fire shall burn and ashen every home they've known

For every man is once only a child , as pure as the morning dew
An unwritten tale of the morrow , every sight is new
One can't teach thyself to hate , it's a poison that world brews
For we forget that good is far greater but good men so few


His claws dig deeper with more despair he sees
Through the flesh onto their heart and dreams
A calm song to his soul , as his prey withers and screams
To be one with the devil now and forever , his creed


His small hands craved for warmth and embrace
But the cruel sky carved a maze of scars on his face
Little eyes searching for the lone bird in the sky
Spots one, as the bird is shot and dies before his eyes


The world is nothing but a speck of dirt in his mind
Ought to be crushed before he runs out of time
Wicked kind that decay and degrade with every breath they take ,
His love is for the dead for living he has nothing but hate


He saw them put fire to the forest of his thoughts
And the flames engulfed every nook and corner
He was burnt , Ashen to the being he was not
Pushed into the void with arrival of every  new mourner


Sharpness of his blade shining through the night
Into the approaching herd of black and white
A question before the end of why they deserve his rage ,
Stains of ignorance on every Blood soaked page


The world cut him in pieces and every part was drained of love ,
Left to die and rot , he's the phoenix who was raised in their dirt
They proclaim him as the devil , his very existence they curse
Lore of the fools , the unholiness of his birth

mind of a child was fed with hate and pain ,
Left in the dark shade , he was told to find his own name
The night found him instead , held his hand as the fear drained
Now they say he's the devil , who's the one to be blamed ?

Shine of the stars fall across the sea
The crease of the sky dances with the waves
Symphony of the scarred old night ,
Rests so mute on the ground , in its grave

Everything is covered in the ol' silver
Resonating every ounce of its existence
From the sky , wrath of the might shall be delivered
And the withered old hands will show no resistance

What have I done , to be left in this decaying land
These hands maybe old and withered but they do understand ,
What came my way , a curse that wouldn't go away
To be left just a shadow of a forgotten man , of what I am

Tears taught the longing of the mellow years
Hurt preached wisely but this heart could never hear
Always found a reason to bury thy soul
In the gravel and stones this world now bears

Inside was full of scars , more , as I travelled afar
I could feel nothing but my own emptiness
And Taste the sweetness of nothingness , once I was empty nothing to fill my own hollowness ,
Just some more emptiness

The man in me was lost to the ghosts
Lurking in the shadows breaking under the load ,
Eyes searching for the shore upon a sinking old boat , losing every last ounce of hope ,
A wound so deep that even time can cope , lends me a rope

Now, what shall my eyes search for
In this darkness that have engulfed my land and sea ,
Winds howl , brings forth the old lore
Words of the silver moon-light these
withered hands couldn't reach

I'll drown in my own sea of emptiness
A few drops of sorrow this world could never see
As my being turns to corpse and than dust ,
This world will finally forget me


Every lie that crossed my thought
Your lies , their lies , a carcass left to rot
In the morgue ocean , the dead howl all silvery night
With every moment , decaying in the moon-light
I was born in that very cold morgue , a shallow place it tends to be
My fate always temped me to the other-side ,
Away from the comfort of the home and into the rough seas


Your lies , their lies , a carcass left to rot ,
Their eyes , your eyes , searching for what I have not
Your lies , their lies , sent me to the rough seas
Their eyes, your eyes , the world will forget me.

Everything that I feel today
Hides somewhere in my past
I try but it just won't go away
I can feel breaking of my heart

There's so much Inside
But I've got nothing to say
Every whisper that I hide
Makes me not want to stay

What of these cold desires
When my dreams are no-more
Sometimes I can't feel the fire
Maybe I can't get hurt anymore

Of all those morning blues
That clings to me ever-more
Every night I dream of you
Now every memory is cold

I feel like I don't belong
In this world I was born
I watch it pass me by
And I am left so alone
There's no hand to hold
As I walk to the edge of it all
There's a noose around my neck
I hope it breaks my fall


Everything that I know
Is the unknown to my eyes
As I wander along and away
I build a home in my lies

I tried to hold on
But the chains scared my hand
In silence I was gone
And nobody could ever understand

Every promise is broken
As I tear a hole in my skin
Every door now is open
But I'm still trapped within

In my own induced illusion
I see what never was
My life is now a confusion
Never been this lost



What have I become
Just an unfamiliar face
In the mirror I seek someone
But can't see through this haze
There's nothing to hold now
As I walk to the edge of it all
My eyes are lost and blind
But I can still see me fall

I'm falling apart as i watch the sun set
Oh how i wish to just let go and forget
But now i have this reality staring at me instead
And no matter what i do , its now not just in my head

Every thought is escaping and making a home of its own
Every whisper is now gone , leaving me so alone
Now i have no one to reach out for , every moment a new pain is born
All i have is my heart as i head to the unknown

Every part of me is decaying and dying
As i fall like a pack of cards , winds are leaving their sign
Every tear is rain , even the stars know that I'm crying
And i look in the mirror in a hope to convince myself that I'm just lying

Hands are cold and arms long for a last embrace
I wither before age , i can't even recall my face
Every sight is blurred behind this reflecting haze ,
That makes me see every sight that escapes my gaze

I can't breathe , jaws of my own gloom
strangle me
I want to leave, but the strings of my own doom won't let me be
And i can't see , every last drop of blood in me wants to be free
Drench me in my own nightmares to drown in my own sea
Sacredness of life that i just couldn't keep , of my own creed
A ray of hope and my sinking boat could never meet
Making an ocean of my own sorrow as my every tear bleeds




There's a hope in my heart and death wish in my mind
A will to live that's over-shadowed by the weakness of leaving it all behind
Mind is numb and the eyes are now scared to remind
That I'm lost and i can't find , myself
And now i should even stop trying


For I'm on the edge of existence , standing on a blade that'll cut right through
Sometimes you can't return, no matter how much you want to
You can stay in that moment forever just waiting for it to end
Or you can take a step forth , right into the approaching end


Kiss death for now its your only friend ,
It might show you the way back home.

You were standing there in the midst of a nightmare
Your every breath was cold and gone
I was there waiting on the edge of unknown
A rose in one hand and I was feeling so alone

You were just waiting for me to let go
waiting for that moment to come
When you can leave it all behind and go
When you can finally forget what we've become

You just wanted me to forget what we had
Every word that was a lie and so true
You were just standing there in the stars
Behind the shine I couldn't see through

Can you still find home
After all we've been through
Can you still be mine
After all I've done
Can you still be with  me
After all we've been through
Or are you still looking for
Waiting for me to come


You were there when no one else was
How can I leave when I have no where to go
Every road leads to you
the seed we sowed will never cease to grow

All we wanted was to live forever
But the world wanted us to be separate
All we wanted was to love forever
But every word we speak now  is of hate

You were just standing there catching every tear you dropped
And I never returned in time
You were just waiting for me to come back , you hoped
And I was just standing there so lost and blind


Can you find home
Now that you're lost
Will you be gone
When I open my eyes
Are you alone
Now that you're lost
Will you be here
When I open my eyes


Can you still feel me now ,
Now that we're so far
Can you still find me once again
Before we get undone and fall apart


Now the tears have dried in the years we have lived
I was never the one to make you smile
It all comes back to us , everything we give
I was never the one to tell you that you're mine

Your arms ache to hold me once again
But I'm too lost inside me to see you still standing there
Your voice is too frail , will you reach for me again
I'm walking to you but I'm getting nowhere




Will you be gone
If I never come for you
Or will you stand there
Waiting for me
Will you be cold
If I never find you
Or will you be here
Waiting for me


Can you find home
Now that you're lost
Will you be gone
When I open my eyes
Are you alone
Now that you're lost
Will you be here
When I open my eyes

Scream and shout
Tell me all about
How you hate my face
Why i'm such a disgrace
Pull in a crowd
Mock me all around
Tell me how ugly I am
Nothing but waste
Whisper 'em lullabies
Let them be at rest
Out and down going insane
Lest they forget
My name
Throw 'em stones at me
Let me be hurt
Watch the way I suffer
You be the judge
Tie me in chains of pain
Hot enough to burn my flesh
Ashened black like my heart is
Beat me up so I can't fight it
Break my bones and shake my faith
Bleed me of love to inspire hate
Lets play a game of
'how much more can he take'
And do it all over again
'cause just too much is at stake
Take a right and prove me wrong
Laugh at me and tell me i'm strong
Lose patience 'cause I just wont cry
Strangle me but just enough
That I wont die
'cause death is too easy for my sins
Sin being ugly and unwanted
You say with a heart warming grin
Oh child , can't you see
What marrow may bring ?




when the last drop has drained
There'll be no more pain
I'll be numb and cold
With poison flowing through my veins
When the stones are lost
and my flesh becomes the chains
By wrath of the gods
I'll be a monster again
I'll be the rage you tamed
And an enemy you gained
When all the love is lost
And my flesh becomes the chains
By wrath of satan
I'll be angry again

Every word is a mirror
every refelction is full of lies
Her every breath makes her see
What she could never see in her eyes

Every scream is a wall
ecplises all from her sight
Every thought wants to be free
And find him where ever he  hides

Her love is full of pain
Every moment is full of hurt
She stabs herself again and again
But there are only tears and no blood






she waits for her time
For the winds to take her away
Away from all that she knows
She dosent wants to stay
For she has felt too much
It will last her a lifetime
With every touch
She's losing her Mind
Losing herself
She wants to leave it behind
Her heart , her days
Every memory thats dying


Her every tear is a scar
That reminds her of his name
In her arms she holds his cold heart
And she knows she'll never love again  

Her nights are nightmares
And now shes too afraid to sleep
His love still follows her everywhere
And She'll always be his dream to keep

Every word is a mirror
every refelction is full of lies
Her every breath makes her see
What she could never see in her eyes


She still waits for him
To come back in her life
Take her with him
Where she can be alive
All she can do is sing
So he can find his way home
In her arms
Where he'll never be alone
she waits for her time
For the winds to take her away
Away from all that she knows
She dosent wants to stay





  
And you can hear her sing..

'Tears I drop
Are blown away
With the winds
I hope they reach
Where they belong
While I sing
Tears I drop
Are blown away
In search of him
I hope I reach
Where he is now
While I sing'

Scream and shout
Tell me all about
How you hate my face
Why i'm such a disgrace
Pull in a crowd
Mock me all around
Tell me how ugly I am
Nothing but waste
Whisper 'em lullabies
Let them be at rest
Out and down going insane
Lest they forget
My name
Throw 'em stones at me
Let me be hurt
Watch the way I suffer
You be the judge
Tie me in chains of pain
Hot enough to burn my flesh
Ashened black like my heart is
Beat me up so I can't fight it
Break my bones and shake my faith
Bleed me of love to inspire hate
Lets play a game of
'how much more can he take'
And do it all over again
'cause just too much is at stake
Take a right and prove me wrong
Laugh at me and tell me i'm strong
Lose patience 'cause I just wont cry
Strangle me but just enough
That I wont die
'cause death is too easy for my sins
Sin being ugly and unwanted
You say with a heart warming grin
Oh child , can't you see
What marrow may bring ?




when the last drop has drained
There'll be no more pain
I'll be numb and cold
With poison flowing through my veins
When the stones are lost
and my flesh becomes the chains
By wrath of the gods
I'll be a monster again
I'll be the rage you tamed
And an enemy you gained
When all the love is lost
And my flesh becomes the chains
By wrath of satan
I'll be angry again

Inspite of the opinions that dominate your every line
Every tear in my eye that falls in a rhyme
Of all those thoughts that cross my grey Mind
I want you to find , the real me
Smoke on the screen censoring my every word
Between the lines where my thoughts get blurred
I got no wings dosent mean I dont want to fly like a bird
I want to unfurl , the real me
Every day in my own dreams I find myself
Hunger inside grows which no love can quell
And I walk away in disguise every day , creating my own hell
Oh well , its not the real me
I'm a stone cold heart with a hint of madness
Never afraid to embrace my other side , my darkness
Trying to fill myself and be away with all this hollow-ness
Shallow-ness , that aint real me
Back again , gone tomorrow for I got no home
Thousand miles afar , no place for my heart , forever alone
Lost and cold , never told , I wither like a stone
Broken bones , not the real me
And if you could see what haunts my dreams
Every word that I speak , can you even understand what it means
It escapes the eye , for you'll find truth in my lies
I watch the time fly by , the real me
Holding on while everything else gets **** in a black hole
Every day I fight these ******* *******
Lost to the sea , just me and a burning boat
Unfold, the real me
All you can see are the clothes I wear and the words I speak
But tear away my outside and than you'll see
That the stains that cover my being goes real deep
Feel , the real me
The real me bleeds , the real me feels
Real me cries , real me never lies
My reality is not for your assumption ,
Real me aint afraid of your shiny gun
For its too late to use death as an option ,
Throw those stones at me and let be all in motion ,
Corrosion  ,  fatality to the impending explosion
For i'm a dynamite , the real me
Ticking away with every moment of pain ,
And one day , you wont find the real me


That day , no one can save you from the real me

Head banging to the rhythm
Up and down , hair falls across the face
They don't care , it's their nightmare
In the voice of cobain with a little *******

Revolution in every heart
As the words kick in the ultimate high
Carnival of colours broken down in shards
As the bits and pieces rips open the eyes

Far away from the world
They sell their souls in this haunted ruins
To the gods of the gods
As the moon comes up to the zeppelin tunes

A fortress rise from the ashes
As jim takes the stage to shower madness once more
Drenched in the 60's gloom
They taste the freedom like never before

Everyone takes out their pistols
To induce a little anarchy
God save the queen ,
But there's beauty in this brutality


at the corner of the dark end
Stands the whispering boy
Tripping in his genius
Name's floyd


Night rages on
As the pages from the bible are passed across
The mad guy is preaching again
Anti christ-superstar screams on a cross

Smoked with purple haze
A voodoo child dreams and plays
Hands on a blade
He sets the air on flames
Knocking on the heavens door
He picks his sword to slash
The wall breaks down
Comes down hard with all that cash




Night spawns in different dimensions
Twisted realms of metallic thrash
Welcome one and all to 'tis witches Sabbath
Every breath coming out now is black


I stand there lost and found
gods screaming on
With every cast they Spell
To a promise land I'm bound ,
Never coming down
I'm on a highway to Hell

Can you see them ?


_________



Hidden and depraved
They lurk in the dark alleys
Of a forgotten world
In a nightmares valley
In the devils belly
A place to call home
Invisible ghosts
Now and forever alone

Living on morsels
That life throws at them
In those grey cold walls
With a melody they blend
Every brick whispers
A scar in their tale
Hung on their chests
With a crooked nail

Breathing the smoke
Pure with grief
Seeps deep down
Where no one can reach
Learning lessons
That no sorrow can teach
Tears have dried
With blood they weep

Living in oblivion
With tracks outgrown
Road is lost
In miles they've known
Eyes don't seek the sky
For its too far
Searches dreams
In own heart

Covered in shadows
They have no past
Carved with sorrow
They won't last
Be gone in night
Just as they come
No mirrors to show them
What they've become

Only eyes and bones
That's all they are
Eyes for the misery
Playing their part
And bones to be broken
With every stone they pick
So scared now ,
They don't fear the stick


Aroma of the burning rubber
Fills the morning blues
Every marrow
There's a fear induced
Of what lies ahead
In this winter gloom
Searching for day
Children of the moon

Waiting , endless nights carved on walls
Head phones blaring , a moment to forget it all
Cancelling out noise the world makes
He just wants to be alone and cold
Never listening to what they're saying
He never does what he's told

Their words never make sense
How can he smile when he's too afraid of  what lies beyond
His eyes always searching for solitude
At the end of the street where he thinks he belongs
He never opens his mouth if it's not in a song
In words , where he carves his heart of stone
Where he's not afraid to show his every bone

And You want to talk about butterflies
But he ate them when he was eight
You want to see shine in his eyes
But all he has for you is just pain
Everyone has a different story
Maybe you never grew up in hate
You don't know what those eyes see
Every moment in their mindless wait
For someone to come and smoke away this haze

He pours his heart out for you
And  all you do is laugh at how hurt he is
Just 'cause you don't understand
Doesn't gives you a right to scream how shallow he is
Maybe he is , ever wondered what made him this way ?
Maybe everyone else can see the 'colours'
But what if all he can see is grey ?

I know it's too hard to digest
But depression isn't something you can feel if you never had one
I'm not talking about the 'emo phase'
But the real one ,
Have you ever even come across someone ,
With no life in his eyes and no colours on his heart
I bet you've never seen someone just tearing himself apart
'cause he's too lost in this disease
I know it hard for you to believe
But pain is the only thing that brings them alive
The only healing balm in their twisted little life

Tell me how will you feel when you all you can think about is hurting yourself
You won't even last a minute in the dark places where these 'kids' dwell
They've seen enough of hate and their share of those 'stares'
So when you come across that 'someone' real or not
At least show a little care
For you may never know how your words can affect these little souls
All it takes is a moment of love to bring  them back on the road


Longer the story is , more is their desire for an embrace
So just show them kindness and don't bring forth your ugly face
The one you think makes you look better than you are
No , your mindless blabbing about something you know nothing about
Won't make you look smart
For all it will do is make that blade more sharp
And it will have your name on it as someone rips themselves apart


Kids will always look for attention , maybe it's their curse
Maybe some of them are just plain stupid , to use these words
Maybe  they don't realise that their 'story' is someone's else life
I condemn you too , for you can never find love in lies
You talk about razors but I can see you know nothing about them
All you have ever scarred yourself is just with a tiny little pen
And 'cause of you , they pounce on everyone with a blade
Anyone who says he likes playing with a gun
Maybe you'll smile to yourself when that gun finally goes off
Sometimes death is too easy and you know what ,
Sometimes it Doesn't even knocks


I've seen too much but I've heard too little
Every fool claims to be wise , claims too see every word as a lie
But again I guess you've never see true misery ,
Every word still misses your eyes
You've never come across real nothingness
And the question 'do you even want to be alive'
For these 'kids' may yet have a chance at a wonderful life
You're job is not to degrade them but to open their eyes

I've said too much but I know you'll hear what you want to
These things are all 'fake' that's what you want to say
Now , don't you ?
You've never seen out of that window at the setting sun
guess you don't like the view
Maybe if you could you can see there's an army of creatures
Coming right at you.


Can you spot the 'kid with a razor'

Sometimes I feel like
I've felt everything there's to feel
Now I'm all bled out
And there's just nothing left in me

So here's another sad song
'cause I have no other words left on me
So here's one more sad song
Wishing there was some place else I could be

I won't tell you how alone I am
because I know you would hear
I'll hold all my pain deep inside
Because I know you wouldn't care

I won't take you to the dark place
Where all my hurt still lingers on
I would just get on that dark stage
And start singing you a sad song

Few words from my heart
That I know will never reach yours
But I'll still keep singing on
'cause I don't want to be left alone

I'll pluck those strings
Like I used to caress her face
Softly and in rhythm
Like a longing for an embrace

Her wooden heart will cry for me
And I'll gently wipe off those tears
Her wooden soul will sing With me
For a moment we'll forget all we bear


So here's another sad song
'cause I have no other words left on me
So here's one more sad song
Wishing there was some place else I could be


I will take you to the happy days
So you'll know why I sing a sad song
I don't beg but I want you to stay
I swear  it won't take that long

I will tell you about my sorrows
But there's so much more I won't tell
I don't expect you to follow
'cause I know you've never seen hell

I will lay my heart before you
you can stomp on it if you choose
But this stage is my redemption
Please, for a moment let me cut loose


So here's another sad song
'cause I have no other words left on me
So here's one more sad song
Wishing there was some place else I could be

I'll tell you about the choices I made
And the road that I travelled  upon
I will take you to emptiness I've seen
I just hope you can make it along

I'll tell why it's so hard to sleep
Why I wake up every night with a scream
Sometimes I will smile when I'll weep
Remembering that it wasn't just a dream  

Than I will look in your eyes
To see if you've felt everything I feel
I'll sing to you all the night
Till there's nothing more left in me

So here's another sad song
'cause I have no other words left on me
So here's one more sad song
Wishing there was some place else I could be

I won't tell you how alone I am
because I know you would hear
I'll hold all my pain deep inside
Because I know you wouldn't care

I won't take you to the dark place
Where all my hurt still lingers on
I would just get on that dark stage
And start singing you a sad song

You're eyes are closing
It's hard to even stand now
Your head feel so heavy
And it feels like you're falling down

I reach out for you
Will you hold me one last time
Before I fall and break away
Will you tell me you'll always be mine

Sunshine screams at the winter
Struggles to remind us of the spring Where we were once young and free
Winter took away our wings

The flower lies dead in the vase
Forgotten as we forgot ourselves
Now there's no time to be alive
Love is gone and the pain has wept

Now we walk where nothing remains
Hollowed out of all it's life
Maybe we'll reach that crossroad once again
Where we'll finally leave behind this night

That haunts our sunshine
We're afraid to embrace its warmth
For it will now only burn
And now we're too fragile to even love

We'll keep on walking away
Till we feel each other no more
Further than the fading stars
At the end of the world were we can be alone

Away from the prying eyes
And the secrets they hide
We run as far a we can
From their tearful eyes

The sun is fading away
Sky is lost to the stars
We're bleeding as we walk
Leaving behind pieces of our heart








So we can find each other again




Can you hold me now
Tell me its 'gonna be alright
That i don't have to **** myself
You'll always be by my side

Will you look in the mirror
What do you see
Do you still see yourself
Or now its just me

Will you smile for me
So i can feel like i belong
In your arms all night
Will you take me along

Where you keep your secrets
Will you show me a part
So when its a gloomy day
I have something to keep me from falling apart

Will you dance with me
In the dark , one last time
So i can hold you once more
And never let you leave me behind

Will you tell me I'm beautiful
And its just the scars that are ugly
Will you give up all for me
And just love me

Can you still love me
Will you fall for a ghost
Lost in the darkness
Every word is so cold

Will you be cold too
When i hold you in my arms
Or will the ice do its magic
And make you feel warm


Will you reach out for me
Like i reach out for you
Will you ever love me
That way I've always loved you





we can still find each other again

lost inside my own solitude
I have no walls to remind
That I'm still trapped
In chaos of my own mind

I can't leave
There's nothing but me
To fill this canvas
That lies before me

I have no colours
Only blood to paint my sorrow
Bleeding ever more
Soon I'll be nothing but hollow

I wrapped myself in wires
Now I have no escape
I never did put out the fire
And now it's too late

In my own illusions
I make my own road
Where I'll walk forever
Till my legs are cold

My eyes see ghosts
Staring at me from inside me
There's no where to run
I know I'll never be free

Their voices filling my head
Telling me what I'm not
Forcing me to destroy
Myself , with all I've got

And I raise my hand
To cut myself again
I'm so numb now
I can't even feel the pain

Crashing to the ground
Falling all around
Breaking myself again
From the ceiling hanging down

But I never die
Coldness never leaves my being
Nightmares choke me
Force me to dream

And I take a hit again
Now I'm same again
There's no pain
I've forgotten my name

I feel different
I can even see myself
I feel so strange
For a moment I forget

Ghosts dance to me
And I dance with them
I carry blade no more
Now I hold a pen

My destruction
You can hear my rage
Wounds and scars
On every burnt page

Staring back at me
With Tears in their eyes
Fading away
as they come in my sight

All i can see is haze
Every word is a maze
I run in every direction
But there is no escape

I have no wings
And I can't fly
This is my grave
Here I'll die

In my own confusion
I'll slowly wither away
Drowned in illusions
Trapped in this fray

I'll be gone
There'll be nothing left
Every mirror
Will be full of regret

Only the burnt pages
Will have my tale
To echo through the ages
That no one will ever hear

I'll be forgotten
And I'll be no more
I'll be gone
With part of my cold

Part of my cold , that my  every breath beholds

Its raining outside my window
As you stand at the door
I can still see your reflection
Reaching me through the cold

I can hear your whisper
Words speak through the walls
Your eyes in every mirror
And I can see your tears fall

You stand on a puddle of memories
With every breath you still call
Our yesterdays are too far to reach
Tommorows are nothing but lost

Yet , you still wait for me
With every moment you fall apart
Yet , you still come for me
Back to me with my heart

holding on to the strings
They still cut and scar your hands
Bleeding all your dreams
With all the pain you still stand

It's so hard to breath without you
But now I don't want to live again
It's hard to be even dead without you
For I'll always be a part of this pain

These empty walls long for you
My loneliness reminds me of your presence
These cold hands crave for yours
Every colour has died and lost its resonance  

but I'll never open that door
And you'll fade away just like the stars
For you left me alone in the rain
When you went away along with my heart

Hidden and depraved
They lurk in the dark alleys
Of a forgotten world
In a nightmares valley
In the devils belly
A place to call home
Invisible ghosts
Now and forever alone

Living on morsels
That life throws at them
In those grey cold walls
With a melody they blend
Every brick whispers
A scar in their tale
Hung on their chests
With a crooked nail

Breathing the smoke
Pure with grief
Seeps deep down
Where no one can reach
Learning lessons
That no sorrow can teach
Tears have dried
With blood they weep

Living in oblivion
With tracks outgrown
Road is lost
In miles they've known
Eyes don't seek the sky
For its too far
Searches dreams
In own heart

Aroma of the burning rubber
Fills the morning blues
Every marrow
There's a fear induced
Of what lies ahead
In this winter gloom
Searching for day
Children of the moon

"come here ****** , sit with us"
As I walked away from those eyes
"whats the matter , we'll show you love"
I knew , nothing but lies

I was the funny one , the clown
"look he's coming , lets push him down"
They laughed at me when I was hurt
"you're so funny mate , now turn around"

"hey you , you look like a girl"
They used to scream at me
"oh he's crying , so much hurt"
But still they couldnt see

"come here stupid , now entertain"
i'm so tired Please , not again
"we'll beat you stupid *******"
i've to play their sadistic game again

On my way home their was no respite
"look how he walks , left and right"
They stared at me like an animal
Do you know how it feels to live your every moment in fright

Afraid of everything that touches you
Everything that goes by
Can't stop no matter what you do
Every wish and dream is to die

"child , why are you so different?"
Always asked my folks
"cant you act normal for a moment"
"is this your idea of a joke?"

"child , why don't you speak much"
At the dinner table they always spoke
" maybe we should send him to a boarding school"
Yeah , like that would've stopped the world from being an *******

"look at his wrists , he has done it again"
As they gathered around me in a choke hold
"did it pain, now do it again"
Or we'll tell your dad and he'll scold

Yelled the teacher infront of them
"fool , get out of the class , you're disturbing everyone"
He could'nt see they were poking me with a pen
And my hair was full of gum

"your kid is a ******"
Whispered the man in the office to my dad
"take away his guitar"
He's listening to rock and thats too bad

"I bet he takes drugs"
"is he into satan?"
"your child is cursed"
He talked without a curtain

"you , I curse the day you were born"
The only thing I had always known
The last ounce of sanity in me
Departed , Now finally gone

I was dying but now I was dead
A new persona began to form
As the last bullet pierced my head
The old one was long gone

The new one wasn't the nice one
All he had was anger and rage
All he had was hatred for everyone
Now it was his time to play

His lips parted and he whispered to the world
"man ,finally i'm 'gonna have some fun"
His heart full of hatred , ready to tame the world
With a sick smile he picked up his shiny gun


another columbine had begun..

"what are you doing kid , let go'
Man , i was just five i didn't know
That everything dies when it out-grows
Its number of years that life bestows
On them to breathe and live
Now that I'm older
i still haven't learned to forgive

_________





"close your eyes and pray to god"
My strong momma always taught
But no matter how much we prayed
The hand of life reached us not

"he's just busy because so many pray"
I heard her whisper to me everyday
In her arms with a smile so pretty
But her pretty smile never did stay

"don't hate him , he'll be here "
I searched for him everywhere
And in time i started to realise
That this god never did care

"where are you going , leaving me"?
I never ever even turned back to see
'cause her eyes would have stopped me
But i was determined to find him for me

"what are you looking for, said the old man"
Sitting by the brook near an old stone
Something in his eyes told me he would understand
Whispered to me my every bone

I told him i was looking for god
He just stared at me like he heard nothing at all
I whispered again "im looking for god"
At the same time cold rain began to fall

He finally spoke"come , I'll show him to you"
And we started to walk to a wooden shack
The day got dark and it was a bleak view
Scared , I just wanted to turn back

He invited me in with a smile
The door opened with some noise
Something in his eyes told me to stay
Either way i really had no choice

Inside that shack there was nothing but dark
And he told me to look in the direction of his finger
"there , look there , closely and you will find him my dear"
I turned around and there was nothing but a mirror

A rain drop falls on her grave
And the world begins to cry
Behind the cold blue haze
Where she was left to die

Mist engulfs all that is alive
shadow of death befalls that place
The lonely ghost sings at a distance
As a hand reaches out for an embrace

Dancing with rhythm and direction
Like the scars running through her face
Winds carry the hum of yesterdays as
Symphony of deathly whispers plays

A traveller quietly seeps into the woods
Melts with all the despair there is
eyes never letting go of her eyes
His every bone wants to make her his

And she dances on into the night
Every move creating a ripple in his heart
For he cant believe this sight
dying every moment he spends apart

Her scars reminds him of her beauty
A shine that will eclipse all
And he can now feel but very slowly
That in time he will too fall

She can see nothing but darkness
Her eyes have ceased to reflect
Even though she is dead
Her heart still beats , it'll never forget


He quietly watches from a distance
As she silently fades away in time
Only the deathly whispers remain
A song in his head forever to remind

He runs forth to find her
But there's nothing but dark-ness
He stands there alone
Consumed by his own nothing-ness


rain drop falls on two graves

There's no respite for these eyes
They've seen enough to be blind
And i cant see through her lies
Thoughts of her plagues my mind

She stares at me like I'm not here
Can she really see through me
And behaves like I'm every-where
Where does she wants me to be

I let go of her with a promise to be back
And she lets go of me without a tear
Maybe she doesn't wants me to be back
My every word is lost , she didn't hear

Everynight she weeps for no reason
And every morning she's like a stone
Sometimes i feel like her body is here
But her soul has gone, moved-on

What is that she wants that i can't give
I gave her all that there is to give
My every breath was just for her
Her every mistake i did forgive

Than why is she still so dead to me
Am i not the one to give her this life
Why is that whenever i close in for a kiss
She pretends to be looking the otherside

Everyone envy her because of me
Than why is that she doesn't even care
I laid before her every sweet dream
Than why is she still living a nightmare

I scream at her lifeless eyes
'just tell me what do i need to do to break this curse'
She just looks down for a moment
Her eyes finally drops a tear and she looks above

Her lips whisper
Eyes curse
'love'

Its not that hard to take a life






I wake up and see no mirror
Reflection has never been that kind
My mornings just for her
In the evening I'll make some rhymes
Strong crave for caffeine
Now i 'gotta leave this bed
I try to stand up
But there's heaviness in my head
I realise I'm still hung-over
Man , shouldn't have been that wasted
But he said it was fine Colombian
The best i have ever tasted
That party was out of control
Hit after hit and than some *****
Now i feel so much better
I needed to break loose
The morning newspaper Lies on the table
Housekeeper must have left it there
To get up I'm finally able
Music of sunshine now i can hear clear
'thirteen dead in an accident when Their vehicle went off the cliff'
Said the last tiny column on the newspaper page
'Celebrity releases another *** tape - a hit'
Screamed the head lines at my face
Yeah , humans die all the time
Celebs don't release *** tapes everyday
In the honour of the departed
All the chaps are 'gonna download it today
So much for the news ,
Man i need my coffee now
The pain in my head killing me
I hate this sunshine song
A different feeling begins to take over
No , not so soon , not again
Let go of me you monster
I don't even know your name
I walk to the kitchen
Man i hate this coffee so much
I need something stronger
Lets go in the refrigerator and search
Yes, the old jack ,
this will do
I look in the mirror
"stop screaming , you"
I'll be over soon , you pig
I'm your alter ego
Accumulation of
all the sins you've did
I'm trapped inside my own body
Man i feel like an *******
I hate it when i can't pull the strings
I always want to be in control
Man , I'll die for some coffee
Just one sip and I'll be fine
I'll teach that ******* a lesson
Beat that stupid swine
Forgot he's me ,
Than Maybe just a slap
'gotta meet my doc again
And tell him his pills are crap
Such a fine day it was
For a moment it was normal
My folks they could never understand
Always brushed it off as hormonal
Now they sleep forever in their grave
Police said it was hit and run
But i know better than that
Sometimes I think i was the one
Not me
but my alter-ego
Or is it still me
Man, i don't know
I'm more confused than i was
I thought pills will do their job
But now this monster is out of control
He has no idea when to stop
The bottle of jack is finished now
I'm finally in my senses but feeling down
This bump in the road is just too big
And i know can't turn around now
Years and tears of rehab
And I'm worse than i was
Instead this disease found me
Now i feel so lost
In this chaos
There's not a moment of solitude
World doesn't understands me
Marks me off with a pathetic attitude
Maybe it is for the better
As i put the bullets in my gun
No need for a letter
I don't have anyone
I put it close to my head
Letting go of my last breath
But a smile spreads across my face
And i point it towards the window instead







Its not so hard to take a life when you've nothing to lose..

At the dawn of humans
We were a clan of hunters and predators
Now we're just a bunch of *******
Self proclaimed gods and haters
We did learn to ****
But now its more about power than survival
We've always missed the fact
That love is vital
Millions have died because of our failure to understand
And million more will die at our hands
World will be far better off
Without this disease called 'man'
Everything he touches becomes gold and than dies
He's the mad one , come too close and he'll bite
Concrete playgrounds banishing all but him
And than stands and admires the murderous sight
Can't keep his own mother from dying
He scars her and stabs her repeatedly
Like a spoilt son he can't stop crying
About how she limits his capabilities ,
His abilities for destruction
So he found the wondrous stone
Now the mother waits in silence
As he rattles her every bone
We can build spaceships and conquer the oceans
But all we'll ever do is **** and destroy
To satisfy mans greed and hunger
All the resources of the world will be employed
And than some more
For he can never be truly satisfied
Like a black hole he'll **** it all
Not an ounce of light will escape
But in time he will fall
Not before he leaves it all on the brink of extinction
As the world forgets him as he rots
For the world has all the time in this world
And we don't