(Memories of a Far Away Land)

I miss the mornings when I could listen to the roosters that loudly crowed.
Open the window to the scent of fresh tortillas, from the abarrotes it flowed.

Everyday I would wake engulfed by mountains and their fresh fresh air.
Alonzo's voice carrying loudly, "Empanadas, Empanadas, get them here."

Daily cruises through the streets of Juarez Mexico I often will reminisce,
Ending up in Downtown Centro to buy whatever, it was anyone's guess.

I miss going to the little grocers to buy, mandarins, avocado and mango,
The long waits in line on the Bridges of America trying to cross to El Paso.

Bathing in metal tubs, washing clothes by washboard with your bare hands,
I'll forever keep the precious memories safely in my heart, of a far away land.


                                         Lopez ©reationz 2014

(Love written in the heavens, a true tale)

I hear a gentle knockin at my door and go to see who it may be.
To my surprise it is a beautiful angel waiting there to greet me.

The angel says, "Child, you suffered darkness, lessons you've learned.
It is your childhood love and your soul mate, that I am here to return.

You must choose now to walk out the door, trust me and take my hand.
His heart yearns to return to the rightful finger, another golden band.

He's who the Father of the Heavens wrote for you into the book of life.
So now it is time to reassemble the true story of a husband and a wife.

It is time to let go of all that has brought you great torment and pain.
From this day forward, is only joy and bliss, no more sadness or rain.

20 years apart, fleeting encounters of great love were caused to hit & miss.
Today you must trust,  I was sent here with your key to Eternal Happiness.

                                      Lopez ©reationz 2014

There is this little girl who eternally resides deep deep inside,
Behind the face of a woman is where she continuously hides.

Sometimes she will allow herself to remember back to the days
When she was a small child and in the fields where she did play.

Her memories mostly of her buddying around with her only brother
That is all that she has left now since his life was ended by another.

Most of her memories she holds dearest to heart were with him
The memories that haunt her the most are memories of "Them"

Mother would pack up the children and run far from their father
Daddy was abusive and would beat his wife, son and daughters.

One night Mother and Father had spent a night on the town together,
When they got home a fight broke out, Daddy went outside and pulled
the trigger.

His small son & daughter in the window crying and watching with fear
There mother told them to go back to bed and try to get some rest,
Them looking confused, she said "It's just ketchup all over his chest."

After years of watching the beatings and taking some of their own
Mommy finally took all three children and left their Daddy all alone.

Daddy got better and stopped laying abusive hands on all of them
But Mommy could not handle teens and with her it all started again.

                                    Lopez ©reationz 2014

You thought he was just a game
Using him like he was a tool.

Believed you were smarter then him
But have only showed yourself a fool.

He loved you dearly because you birthed them
Always protecting you as if you were a precious gem.

Now that you are gone and his eyes are wide open
No longer he'll allow them used as monopoly tokens.

To love someone truly, is not to play juvenile games
Abusing genuine hearts will ultimately boomerang.

Now it is you who is scared, spilling lie after lie,
Instead of accepting fault, wolf is what you cry.

When things do not work out the way that you hope
It will be you who is the one struggling to stay afloat.

                     Lopez ©reationz 2014

What you soweth you too shall reap,
a meal ticket and punching bag is
what you very much aimed to keep.

The streets are where you chose to constantly be,
never desiring to be at home like a loving mommy.

You thought it was acceptable to take and to use,
You had it under control through daily abuse.

Threat after threat and strike after strike,
beating him down and crushing his spirit
was as easy for you as simply riding a bike.

Kick, Hit, Bite, Claw, Scratch, Punch, Slap and Slug.
You acted as if it was as easy as smashing a bug.

For years you committed these acts with no remorse,
Now you want to be angry and vindictive because your
pathetic evil has finally run it's course?

No longer will you neglect, abuse or harm him again.
I pray a Judge of Intelligence is the one to hear the case,
Seeing through your deception and allowing them home.
They deserve someone who gives them daily, a loving embrace.

It is appalling how one could see them as a constant bother,
Not having the natural instincts or understanding the gift
of becoming a mother.

He was the one who always had to act as mother and father.
Come home clean, wash laundry and cook their dinner after
standing all day because he was the only one willing to be the
bread winner.

I told you years ago that these sick games were not going to last forever.
To mark my words, he will grow tired one day & pull the release lever.
There is no man who can brave a life of lies, infidelity or stormy weather.

Even if a human is fooled by your demonic heart filled with evil,
It is not an earthly individual who will bring down the final gavel,
The Creator of the Heavens and Earth is to whom you'll unravel.

                                  Lopez ©reationz 2014

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I still see you many a night in my dreams.
Sometimes you are intensely amorous,
Sometimes out of sorts and filled with grief.
Other times you are just violent and mean.

When I awake, my heart is beating fast,
haunting feelings and tears due to our past.
My mind feels ridden with guilt and drained,
My soul completely devoured by torturous pain.

God please know, I regret wrong choices made,
I walked out the door with so much left unsaid.
I did not have heart or courage to watch their face,
I turned around simply disappearing without a trace.

Lopez ©reationz 2014

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As I rest my head upon your chest each & every night.
The beat of your heart whispers softly into my ear
“Do not worry or be afraid sweetheart, because we
both know,  that this has always been what is right.”
Then you say,  “I am finally back where I have always
belonged. Our love has never faded, because stronger
then ever, I can still feel our two hearts beating as one.”

Lopez ©reationz 2010

(Our fairytale love)

He has forever belonged to Me as I have to He.
Two teenage heartbeats that were attracted instantly.

A bond so natural, no amount of time, distance or evil
could ever be capable of breaking what dwelled within
these two hearts magnetized for all eternity.

Intertwined by the Heavens above until death and beyond,
a fierce and fiery true love and soul connection are we.

I am His Alpha and His Omega, His First and His Last,
His Beginning and His End and He has always been
The Only One For Me.

   -A True Story-

Lopez ©reationz 2012

A Child's Heart - Innocence Stolen.

Have you ever kissed the forehead or held the cold
frozen hand of a loved one who once was a living
breathing man? Fell into the arms of another because
your feet could no longer give you the strength that was
needed to stand...

One day he was smiling and just fine, saying how much
he loved you always, til the end of time. Then within a few
short days you are woke to a call. The voice of another, whom
had news which completely shattered you all.

Now you must go watch as he be layed to rest, not
understanding how another could be filled with such
copial amounts of hatred and evil, as to take away
one of lifes very best... And to leave a young child
devastated and fatherless.

Now as a mother you must raise the one person who
gave you both such a strong love filled bond, through
some of life's most harshest realities, trying to find a
way to explain why their daddy is forever gone....

That Little voice forever ringing in your head, saying
"Mommy my daddy left me 5 days before I was to
turn 10. Daddy wont be here to watch me graduate,
get married or even become a man... Mommy will I
ever see my Daddy again?"

Now he's 14 and become quite an awesome young man.
He has given his life to God just so he has a chance to
see his daddy again.... Every moment he is given the
chance to spend with God he is there with a smile on
his face, hoping one day for the chance he will once
again feel his fathers warm loving embrace.

Life is short, one never knows when our time will come,
so when you truly love another , dont let your differences
cause your relationships to be harmed or unraveled by
anything or anyone.Make sure you do not allow the sun
to set without saying how much the other means to you
and you are truly sorry for any thing painful you may have
caused or forgive them sincerely for anything they have
also done.

For there is not a second chance, you will live a life in a
pain ridden state, one filled with regret embedded deeply
in your soul. Always tell them how much you truly love
them and without their love in return, you could never
possibly feel whole...

And for those who choose to take anothers life and leave
so many others in an eternity of pain. I hope KARMA
finds you, so something like this you are never allowed to
bestow upon another human again.

Lopez ©reationz 2007

Broken Soul-

The pain I feel can never be lifted.
The needs my heart hungers for no
man could ever possibly provide.

Suffering inside with no light at
the end of the tunnel, no hope to
find a way to mend all that is
broken within.

So I sit in constant darkness,
filled with feelings of eternal
hopelessness and fear.

Just waiting for the day it
shall all come to an end.
When I will finally be able
to forever leave and just
simply disappear.

Lopez ©reationz  2009