To build a home from scratch is like learning alphabets for the first time in your life
Only that you aren't a toddler anymore
And you already have those newspapers, articles and sheets to be read before your boss throws you out.
You see the world pace by you, moving fast and furious towards their unending circle of duties
You pause and breath out, you realise
This time alphabets have decided to cut through your skin as you skip his first name's letter L or her whole name from it.
You don't really write them on the paper but your heart can see them even without your fingers making their outline
And you wonder how You can unsee what you have already seen
You know you can't stop how your heart pounds on only those words, read in your mind as
L O V E
Out of all those alphabets,
These were the only four letters you recognise, it seems
But you get the metallic taste of other words as well, like
B E T R A Y A L
The touch of tongue to your upper mandible in,
L O S T
The little shock and shake from under the ground as you pronounce,
O V E R
But most important of it all,
L I F E
As your cheeks go up in a fake smile
Maybe the home
This time will be a little crooked
With something missing
Like Y O U
From 'I love'
But you will still have L O V E
Maybe this time, just enough for yourself.
I might edit this more.
This poem implies on how it feels when you start afresh with hurt in your bones.
Its getting bad for me but i'm trying because here is no other way.
Um... Just read aloud the words in italics as separately as alphabets and you will understand the words beside them.